Strawberry Fields Forever

~ Paul's POV ~ 

I sat there. Waiting.

And Waiting

and waiting.

I wasn't sure what to do. What the hell do you do in that kind of situation? It wasn't like I could stop him anyway. When John had a mission, he wouldn't stop till he completed it. I stared at the ceiling and thought. John. John. ~ John ~  The name rolled off the tongue so nicely. John was a nice lad. I haven't know him long, but I can't help, but admire him. He's so strong-willed and quick witted. And he's kind.

Then.. I though of his face. Strong, but thin. He had a sharp jaw line, and almond shaped eyes. I was thinking.. until the door burst open. 

John walked in and slammed the door behind him. He face was red and his breathing was heavy.

"A-Are you alright Johnny?" I asked worriedly.

John smiled. "That I am Macca. Showed those lads a lesson." 

"What did you do?" 

"Ah nothin too bad Paulie. Don't worry about them." John assured me.

"D-Did you know them?" I asked quietly.

John sighed and sat down beside me. "I did. I used to be one off em'. But I'm not like that anymore! I've changed!" John said quickly.

I giggled. "I believe you John. You don't have to try to convince me."

John smiled. "Thanks Macca. That means a lot." 

We sat in comfortable silence for a bit.

"Thanks for stayin' with me John. Ya didn't have to." I said.

"Ah Paulie. Don't thank me, I wanted to." John smiled.

 "Why? Ya haven't know me long and no offence, but we ain't the closest of friends." I questioned.

"I-I don't really know. I just like bein' near ya Macca." John answered flustered.

"I do too John." I smiled shyly. 

"Hey, if yer feeling better, do ya want to go to Strawberry Fields tonight? I can show ye some of my songs if ya like." John asked, feeling embarrased.

"I'd love to Johnny." I smiled warmly. 

John smiled. "Well I better go and get ready then. Are ye alright here by yerself?" John asked.

I nodded.

"See ya tonight Macca" John smiled. And with those four words, my world came tumbling down. I felt every emotion all at once. Anger, jealousy, happiness, love, fear. But most of all, I felt sadness. Because in that moment. I knew I liked John. In a way I shouldn't. And worst of all. I couldn't have him. 

I cried.

and cried

and cried

and cried

until I felt I couldn't cry anymore.

~ John's POV ~ 

I left Paul's house smiling. I liked Paul. A lot.

And Tonight would change everything. I'm hoping I can tell Paul how I feel about him, without coming off as queer. But I am aren't I? Liking a bloke this much isn't something any straight would do. But I'm not just any queer. I'm queer for Paul and for Paul only. I knew that.

~ 3rd Person POV ~ 

Paul cried

John smiled

John made his way to strawberry fields. He was cheery, but also nervous.

Paul also made his way to strawberry fields. But with tear stained cheeks and scared eyes.

John waited there for Paul to arrive. He had his guitar in hand and a song in his mind. A song perfect for Paul.

~ John's POV ~ 

I sat on the grass waiting for Paul. But I suppose that was the problem. I couldn't wait.

Then it happened. Paul arrived. But not as I thought. He came with tears down his cheeks and messy hair. He looked awful. I stood up immediately.

"What's wrong love? What happened." I asked frantically.

Paul smiled sadly. "It's alright John. I'm alright."

"B-but you've been crying! Surely everything's not alright then?" I responded.

"I'm sorry John. I didn't mean to worry you." He said quietly.

"Don't apologize love. What's bothering you?" I asked gently. 

Paul sniffled. "It's just... I've realized something.. something important. And I can't do anything about it!" Paul said tears filling up his eyes. 

"What's the important thing? Surely you can do something about it, I'm sure." I replied.

"I've realized... I'm love with someone. But I can't do anything about it. They'll hate me.." 

"No one will hate you Paulie. I-I'm sure whoever it is, is a lucky bird" I responded feeling hurt. I wanted to cry. But I couldn't. I had to stay strong for Paul. 

"That's the worst part John. It's not even a bird..." Paul cried.

"So it's a bloke then? Don't worry Paul I won't judge you." I said patting his back.

"Y-You won't? You don't think it's gross and weird?" Paul said looking up at me.

I shook my head. "I'll support ya no matter what." I smiled.

Paul hugged my around the waist tightly. "Thank you, Johnny." 

I smiled. "Look at the sunset Paulie!" I pointed to the sky. Paul let go of my waist and looked up. He watched it with awe.

"It's beautiful ain't it Paulie?" I whispered.

"yeah it is.." Paul whispered back.

I turned to look at Paul. His features so beautiful with the sun going down. 

"Paul." I said quietly. He turn to look at me.

"I think I'm in love with you." I breathed out. My heart racing and pounding. He just stared at me. Silence. I couldn't take it. So I leapt forward. 

And I kissed him.