ch.42

forget

    i slowly made my way to the infirmary, not quite jumping in joy to meet new people but i knew what needed to be done.

   my hand reached for the door handle, turning it slightly, walking into the building. the smell of the room giving me deja vu as i entered.

   "you're melanie? the woman deanna was talking about." an unknown man asked, pointing to me.

   "uh yes." i uttered, forcing my socially awkward self to be social, the man smiled now reaching out his hand, "pete anderson, head doctor of alexandria."

   i nodded, hesitantly reaching out my hand. "you guys have a nice infirmary here" i stated, looking around the room, once i pulled my hand away.

   "yes, we are very great full." he started, turning around to give me a tour, "of course you don't mind me asking, what were you trying to be in the medical field?" he asked, coming off slightly rude.

    "i was in residency, training to be a trauma surgeon" i informed him, earning a weird stare.

"why trauma? neuro or cardio would have paid more." he stated, his change in tone becoming stern.

   "uh, because i liked the adrenaline. did someone ever ask you why you are the way you are?" i asked sarcastically, my blood boiling from his comment.

   "why did i expect you to be different from the other women around here?" he mumbled to himself, while preparing meds for a patient.

   i paused for a minute, shooting him a dirty look, "im not "other women"" i started, getting into his face, "i am satan and i will not hesitate to kill anyone who insults me and other women."

    he opened his mouth to say something, but before he could. i turned around quickly, heading out the door.

    he caused my blood to boil, and i knew i had to get out of the walls for awhile to calm my shit.

   i went straight for the pantry, brushing past olivia to grab my gun. when she tried to stop me i ignored her, heading for the gates.

   i stopped in my tracks, seeing glenn and deannas son in each other's faces. soon daryl appearing by my side as we watched the scene.

   "no one's impressed man. walk away" glenn warned, his gaze never leaving aiden's.

   daryl nudged my arm, making my eyes turn to where deanna was, storming to the scene.

"aiden! what is going on?" she questioned, stomping her way to the guys side.

   "this guys got a problem with the way we do things." aidan scoffed, causing me to race to glenns side, already pissed enough.

   "why did you let these people in?" aiden asked his mom, turning in her direction, not seeing me close behind glenn.

   "because we actually know what we're doing out there." glenn remarked, pissing aiden off as he quickly turned around throwing a punch.

   lucky for glenn he ducked in time, dodging aiden's punch. while i felt a hard impact across my face almost knocking me over.

   a whimper escaped my mouth, seeing the blood drip to the ground, from my split open lip. i looked back, seeing aiden's body on the ground.

    a flash of ricks face caught my eyes as he rushed to where daryl was, tackling nicolas to the ground.

    glenn turned back, watching as the blood spewed from my lip. i ignored him, stepping to where aiden was now stood up.

   "you wanna end up on your ass again?" i gritted through my teeth, getting up into his face.

   kennedy rushed to my side, pulling me away from deannas son. "it's okay, back up." she whispered, pulling me back, my eyes never leaving aidens .

   "listen up, i want everyone to hear me." deanna started, looking all around while kennedy held me tight in her arms, "rick and his people are part of this community now in all ways as equals. understood?"

   "all of you, turn in your weapons. then you two come talk to me." she demanded, looking around at the rest of us who still stood near by.

   "hell with this " i uttered, loud enough for deanna to hear as i grabbed my gun, and stormed for the gate.

   "melanie." i heard a couple people say in unison, but i didn't dare to turn around after what just happened.

    "open the damn gates!" i yelled, panting from the situation. i waited for a couple seconds, and as soon as the gates opened i bolted.

   no idea in mind to where i was going, i just ran. ran like i did when beth and davina got taken a couple months back.

    i had a thing for running, physically and emotionally. after my abusive relationship, my life at home, from glenn, physically after my friends. it had become easy to me.

   i ran until the sun started to rise, finally taking a break under an old tree stump.  "you have to stop running baby" i heard a familiar mans voice say, causing me to stand up quickly in confusion.

   "hello? is someone out there?" i yelled, questioning the man when i didn't see him. soon the mans figure appeared, my eyes widened seeing my dad.

   "daddy?" i questioned, knowing i couldn't be seeing things right. the figure smiled, coming closer to me, yet i didn't back up or hesitate.

   "hello, melanie" he smiled, reaching out to touch my face, which felt so real. "this isn't real." i sniffled, backing away from my father, making his smile turn into a frown.

   he shook his head, looking away, "my beautiful daughter, you need to know something important." he said, pointing to me.

   i stood there silently, watching his body move slowly, "sometimes you need to take a deep breath, and remind yourself not everyone is going to break you like i did."

   i held back a sob, stepping closer to grab his hand in mine, "daddy, you didn't hurt me." i mumbled, looking up to him.

   "i have caused you and your sisters grief, i never wishe-" before he could finish his sentence, he vanished out of thin air, revealing sasha who was shaking me roughly.

   "melanie, are you okay?" she questioned, squeezing my shoulders with her hands, i looked around taking notice to my surroundings.

    "yeah, i just thought i saw someone." i assured, wiping something wet from underneath my eyes.

   she gave me a weary look before nodding, "you sure?"

   i released myself from her grip, stepping back, "mhm, i'm fine. why are you out here?" i questioned, trying to change the subject.

   "looking for you" she started, walking closer to where i was, "not only that, the people from alexandria were getting to me."

   i nodded, looking to where the sun used to be when it rose, "i understand, is everyone okay?" i asked, starting to walk in the direction of where alexandria was.

   she nodded, "i mean okay as they can be. daryls a little shaken, glenn and your sisters too."

    "i shouldn't have ran like i did, but too many things happened at once. it's like my way out." i informed her, seeing alexandria in the distance.

    "i don't blame you, everyone has their own way of coping." she assured, squinting from the sun coming down straight into her eyes.

   "thanks, for coming to look for me and listening to what i had to say." i stated before reaching the gate.

   she smiled, "you had my back when i thought gabriel had something to do with bobs disappearance, now i have yours."

   i nodded, "we went awol on him, didn't we?" i chuckled, stopping at the gate.

   "mhm, someone open the gate!" she yelled, shaking her head, "is anyone ever on watch?" she asked, turning her head to me.

   i shrugged, "they think its something they don't have to worry about i guess."

   the gate creaked, turning our attention to nicolas who was slowly sliding it open, "well aren't you a sight to see." i mumbled, causing sasha to shake her head at me.

    "just leave it" she stated, trying to hold back a chuckle. "there you are." kennedy shouted, her arms were crossed over her chest as she walked in our direction.

   "i'll see you at the party?" sasha questioned, walking to leave. "uh yeah." i replied, acting like i knew what she was talking about. they can have parties during a time like this?

    "where have you been?!" kennedy yelled, nearing to where i was by the gate. i rolled my eyes, "i went on a run, no big deal" i explained, causing her to scoff.

   "after what happened with glenn and aiden, you went on a run that lasted almost a whole twenty-four hours."

   my eyes widened, "it's been that long?" i questioned, she nodded her head in response, "glenns been upset, and ricks been wondering where you are, says he needs you to talk to reg with him."

   before i could say anything, my eyes drifted to a couple people standing in a circle, conversing about something. i could tell it was glenn, because of his figure and height.

i walked away from my sister without another word, to where glenn stood. "glenn." i mumbled from behind him, he turned away from who i now knew as rosita and abraham.

his eyes widened seeing me, soon pulling me into a hug. i was surprised by his actions, thinking he would be upset with me.

i pulled away, looking at him with confused eyes, the others had walked away, knowing we needed alone time.

"you didn't come home last night" he started, looking down at the ground, "i'm not mad, just surprised you skipped out on our first night here."

i nodded, "i wasn't planning on it, time just caught up to me. i'm wrong for doing what i did, running off like that." i stated, tapping my foot uneasily.

"you're wrong for not telling me, and running off after what went down, yeah. but i would've understood if you came to me and told me you needed time away from us." he muttered, his voice sounded as if he was defeated.

i shook my head, grabbing his hands in mine, "it's not that. i hate being away from you and the others. so many things just happened at once yesterday, with pete, nicolas, aiden, getting punched..." i assured, giving him sorry eyes.

he stiffened at the mentioning of me getting punched, "dickhead" he mumbled to himself.

i shook my head, "it's okay, that's why i went on the run. to try and relieve any hate i have towards them."

he paused looking down at my hands, playing with my ring. i chuckled causing him to look up, "what?" he questioned, squinting because of the sun.

"i lov-" he put his hand over my lips, shaking his head, "don't say you love me." he stated in a firm voice.

i pulled his hand away from my mouth, giving him a questioning look, "why?" i asked, watching him turn away towards the house, ignoring me.

i chased after him, grabbing his shoulder, only to soon be dragged along by his hand.

"hey. why? where are we going?" i stammered, watching as the alexandrians sent us weird stares.

he quickly pulled me into the house, and up the stairs into what i thought was our bedroom. he pushed me in, locking the door behind him.

"because of this." he muttered, pulling my face to his, intensely connecting our lips. a slight moan escaped my mouth, in shock of how sudden it was.

i opened my eyes mid kiss, realizing we still lived with the others. i pushed him away shaking my head, "no, what about the others."

he grinned, "deannas hosting a party, they're there." he barely ended his sentence before reconnecting our lips.

i hated to pull away, i've been crazy his touch for a long time., but i pulled away once again, "don't we need to be there." i stated, catching my breath as he talked, "yeah, after."

with that i smiled, grabbing his face close to mine, sharing a long intimate kiss. he picked me up slightly, causing me to gasp as he sat my on our dresser. tangling is hands in my hair.____________

i stood in front of the mirror, fixing the uncomfortable dress that had been placed in the closet for me.

   glenns figure appeared in the mirror, his outfit causing me to chuckle. his head shot down at my reaction, inspecting his clothing.

   "well at least one of us fits the part" i mumbled, causing glenn to place a hand around my waist.

   "i don't know, you look pretty damn good in a dress." he commented, making my cheeks flush a bit.

   "come on, we're already late" he grinned, as i nodded my head, following his steps out of our room.

   we slowly made our way up to deannas house, smiling to the people who greeted us when we walked him.

   "i'm gonna check on noah, you coming?" glenn questioned, in response i shook my head, "i'm gonna find rick, i'll catch up with you."

   he gave me a smile before heading to the corner of the room, where noah stood. i froze in place, my eyes scanning the crowd, hoping to find rick.

   they finally landed on him and the blonde woman he was talking to the day we first arrived.

i started over to where they were, only to be stopped by a hand pulling my arm back.

   i turned to look, seeing my sister highly intoxicated. "davina?" i questioned, grabbing her arms to steady her.

   she grinned, "hey little sis, have a drink with me" she slurred, i raised my eye brows, seeing she could barley open her eyes.

    "i'm okay." i started, pulling her closer to me so she wouldn't bump into people, "where's kennedy?" i asked stupidly, knowing she wouldn't be able to answer my question.

   "i-i'm not sureeee" she uttered, pouting at my actions, "come on, remember when we used to party and have fun all the time"

    i laughed sarcastically, "sadly, i wish i didn't"

tara came into view, looking at us confused, "she gonna pass out any minute, you should take her home." i informed, causing her to nod.

    "i'll take care of her" she assured, pulling davina into her arms, "i know you will" i smiled, giving her a pat on the shoulder.

   i watched as she dragged davina out of the house, struggling against her urge to drink. i chuckled at the view before turning to look for glenn.

   i listened to people gossiping, making me roll my eyes at the things they talk about. my eyes drifting to the drink table, and then back up.

   i shook my head, "resist the temptation" i mumbled to myself, walking away to find glenn.

   when i reached him and the rest, i pulled him to the side getting closer so no one could hear.

"are you okay?" he questioned, placing his hands on my upper arms.

   i nodded, "mhm, can we head home?" i asked, playing the part becoming too much for me to handle.

    without a question, glenn nodded. we quickly said our goodbyes to everyone before heading out.

"did something happen?" he asked as we slowly walked home.

   "no, just feel sick." i assured, causing a grin to appear on his face.

my eyebrows knitted as i sent him a weird glare, "what, rhee?"

"our baby is already putting you in misery"

i smiled, looking down to my still small stomach, "we should get a pregnancy test, just to be sure."

glenn nodded, also placing a hand on my stomach, the other around my waist.

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