07

Chapter 07: feelings

Six months later

Evan and I were watching a film together in my room, the time read eleven at night which meant we would be tired in the morning but we didn't care. We enjoyed one another's company the most out of anyone else's.

My head rested on Evan's chest whilst my leg wrapped around him like a koala, his fingers brushed my hair and his breath fanned my head which made my heart pound against my chest.

"You know, I didn't think I could be this comfortable around someone" Evan said shyly with a blush tinting his cheeks.

I laughed briefly before turning my head upwards to him "you mean cuddling a girl and watching a movie? Come on you must of done this before"

Evan shook his head "no- I actually haven't to tell you the truth"

Mine and Evan's relationship was a weird one; where we have never spoken about being more than friends our relationship somehow was beginning to blossom into something else without us knowing it. I had come to the conclusion I was gaining feelings for him- after all every time I stared into his dark orbs it would send shockwaves down my spine.

"We graduate soon- I cannot believe it" I sighed with a light pout "it means that we will be going off to college and probably won't see one another much anymore"

The very thought made pain fuel me- I didn't want to leave Evan at all because he was my comfort. Though maybe I was just too attached and needed to come to the realisation that I needed to rely on myself from now on.

"I will always make sure I see you" Evan replied flatly as if it wasn't something to even question . I chuckled and laid my head back down on his chest- hearing his heartbeat echo through my ears.

"You better because if not I will hunt you down" I warned jokingly "you cannot get rid of me that easily"

"Oh don't worry I never intended to get rid of you" Evan shrugged with a playful smile toying at his lips.

Blushing I buried my face into his t shirt "you're an idiot"

My father ended up going to prison for ten years so I had the reassurance that I wouldn't have to deal with him rejecting the idea of me going to college or living with a boy. Dylan was also much happier, he was finally getting back into his art and he was becoming rather good at it for a six year old. Me and Josh didn't speak much other than when I wanted a pack of smokes- plus Evan thought that he wasn't good for me which I was confused about.

The bullying continued but wasn't as bad because Evan continually had my back- and nobody really wanted to mess with him which was understandable.

"Evan you're a beautiful human being.." I said softly which made Evan go rigid underneath me.

"W-what do you mean?" He asked sweetly. I could tell his cheeks were burning up from the way he was acting and talking.

"I mean you're just a very beautiful person inside and out and I have the upmost amount of respect and love for you"

Evan planted a soft kiss on the top of my head "and so are you Maeve. I also respect and love you. You're my best friend and I'll always look out for you"

Inwardly slapping myself for feeling hurt by the 'friend' comment I decided on pushing past it. Evan probably wouldn't see me more than a friend and I realised this; he probably thought of me like a sister now too which would make it so weird.

"Goodnight Evan" I yawned as my eyes began to close. "I'm tired now"

Evan nodded and carefully got off my bed "sleep well and get that beauty sleep" he winked tediously. "We have a day of learning tomorrow"

Scoffing I shook my head in amusement "yeah don't remind me. Sleep well too"

**

Walking into school I had Evan's arm rested around my shoulders like he usually did that made my heart flutter more than it should. Even the way he smelt made my mind swirl.

"Evan!" Aubrey exclaimed as she rushed over and grabbed his hand, making his arm detach from my shoulders. This made me frown and jealousy fuelled through me.

Aubrey and Evan had been getting closer and I knew that there was something going on, there would be times I wanted to tell Evan how I really felt but decided not to in fear of rejection and the ruining of our friendship.

"Heya Aub, you look gorgeous today" he said with a toothy grin which made Aubrey giggle back in response.

Groaning I turned away and went to my locker to get my belongings. Why couldn't I just be truthful and have the happily ever after I've always wanted ? Oh yeah.. that's right it's because I'm an idiot.

"Hey you dropped your pen-"

Looking around I saw a boy with black hair and blue eyes; he was very attractive which caught me off guard.

"Thank you, I'm so sorry" I rambled as I grabbed the pen from him.

He chuckled "you have nothing to apologise for. I'm a recent transfer student. My name is Henry" he introduced warmly in a thick British accent.

"Ah- Henry" I smiled "my name is Maeve. Nice to meet you"

This felt all too familiar to when I met Evan for the first time, something about my locker and dropping things was a target for cute boys to come up to me.

"Did you want to grab lunch later?" He quizzed with soft eyes. "Only if you're comfortable with doing that though it's just-

Finding his blabbering rather adorable I nodded "sure. I would like that. What class have you got now ?"

"Maths.. shitty maths" he grumbled with a frown "I hate it, I'm never going to remember half of it"

I smirked "you're completely right. But hey I've got maths too, Miss Kepler's class ?"

"Yes! That's the one" Henry beamed with excitement "least it's not all going to be strange faces when I go in there"

I chuckled "you'll be just fine. You fit into the norm"

Henry frowned "what do you mean by 'the norm' I think I stand out like a sore thumb" he said awkwardly.

"I meant it in a good way. You're attractive which means you'll be fine"

Oh shit. Why did I just randomly come out with that ?

Blushing he turned away with a grin "why thank you, you're not too bad yourself"