Chapter 33

I was planning on posting this chapter this weekend but decided to release it now! Don't know if I'll write or release anything more this week because exam season is around the corner. But enjoy this chapter !——————————

Hana's POV

Now's my chance!

I give him a sheepish smile, hoping to look a bit flustered and embarrassed.

"Crowley" I begin. Looking him directly in the eyes. He shifts in his seat, his predatorily instincts seeming to prepare him for something.

"I... gosh this is embarrassing to ask." I say looking down at my hands. I can tell Crowley is leaning slightly forward in his seat now, curious as to where this conversation will lead.

"Ask ahead, what do you want? If it's in my power I can get it for you." He replies.

I look back up at him. Hoping I'm blushing. "The real reason why I wanted to be in your company was not only because I was bored. I...I wanted to ask you if you could hold my hand again? Without your gloves on." I say quietly, knowing fully well he can hear me with his vampire hearing. If he felt anything like I did while our skin was in contact then it might help me to get him to let down his guard a bit.

I stared in expectation as I saw Crowley's expression change from confusion to pure delight and even eagerness.

"Come." He ordered me, and scooted his chair slightly back. I did as he said and walked around the desk to his side. In a blur of motion, Crowley had taken ahold of my waist and put me on his lap. Scooting himself closer again to the desk so that I was trapped between him and the desk. I watched in silence as he slowly pulled of both his gloves, finger by finger before his big hands were free of them.He wrapped his arms around me as if hugging me from the side, pushing me against his hard chest. I felt him nuzzle against the top of my head, inhaling my scent deeply. It felt so welcoming.

After a short moment he loosened his grip on me, keeping one arm snaked around me. His hand held both my hands, while the other was starting to pick up a document again.

The sparks immediately started as soon as his hand held both of mine. The electricity came in waves, starting from my fingertips and going all the way to my toes, which were curling in my boots.

"You don't ever have to ask me if you can touch me little mouse. You are mine and I'm yours." He says in a gruff voice, his voice vibrating through my body because of our close proximity.My heart melted at his words but I did my best to restrain myself from acting on my feelings. I needed to stay focused.

"But I do need to finish the paperwork, so just sit here while I finish this." He continued and signed another document.

Even if I wanted to I couldn't move. Not only because he has me basically pinned down between him and his desk, but also because I didn't want to. I tried my best to convince myself I'm doing this for the lieutenant colonel and myself, for our freedom. But as time slowly went by I started to relax more and more, soon coming to the realization that I actually enjoyed this position the two of us were in.

The line between pretending and my real feelings for Crowley started to dissolve slightly, not sure where one started and the other ended. Was all this just an act or was I actually doing this for myself?

My thoughts kept on going while Crowley finished document after document, working quickly but efficiently.

How am I going to proceed from here? How far will I have to go?

I did my best with preparing myself mentally by imagining all the possible outcomes I could think of. Many of them ending with me having to have sex with Crowley to get him to fully submit himself to me. Other solutions could still be that I drive the dagger into her chest and hope that I can get close enough to the other vampires to do the same, but that ending seemed highly unlikely.

Time went on and I had just started dozing off when Crowley put his pen down and leaned back into his chair. He snaked now both his arms around me and I swear I had never before felt as safe as I did at that moment.

"Are you done?" I ask slowly. "Yes, for now at least." He answers. I try to sit up straight but he pulls me closer to him, I look up into his eyes and for the first time I don't feel immediate disgust or hatred at seeing red eyes.

"You look tired." He comments. What a mood breaker!"Thank you for that, it's not my fault that you have been in this office for hours, it's long past midnight already." I explain, looking over his shoulder into the darkness outside the windows.

"In that case you should go to sleep." He says and before I can protest he picks me up bridal style and walks out of his office."Wait b-but I'm not tired yet." I say quickly, trying to wiggle out of his strong hold on me. I had been hoping to accomplish my mission already tonight.

"You were already asleep on my lap earlier, don't worry, tomorrow is another day." He says and opens the door to my room. He carefully places me on my bed before throwing the covers over me."Sleep now little mouse." He says.

It had been blissful thinking I would accomplish getting his trust in only one day. I might have underestimated my acting skills.

Crowley turns to leave and in my panic I speak out without thinking."Can't you stay here?"