Breaking Habits

We were having dinner with everyone, Ramsay, me, Roose and his wife Walda. It had been a few days already since we came back from Castle Black. It was quiet and everybody was eating their food in silence. There was some sort of tension between Ramsay and his father, although I wasn't sure about what. Ramsay had never been very close with his father, but this time their usual tension seemed different.

I guess I was right because suddenly Roose cleared his throat and spoke up. "Walda and I have some good news."

It was quiet for a moment before Walda said "We're going to have a baby."

I looked at Ramsay, he was definitely surprised by this. I could see he was not happy about it as he was clenching his jaw and staring at his cup. Ramsay didn't say anything so I said "I'm very happy for you."

"From the way she is carrying Maester Wolcan says it looks like a boy." Roose told us.

"How long?" Ramsay asked.

"She's been pregnant for about seven months now already." Roose answered.

Ramsay just grunted, he took a last big swig from his cup of whine and walked away.

"Excuse us." I said when I stood up and followed after Ramsay.

I was walking closely behind him when I suddenly felt my stomach turning, really bad nausea washed over me. I fell to my knees and puked. Ramsay immediately turned around and ran to me. Everything around me was really blurry and started to move. I looked up to see two Ramsays, which was a strange thing. As there normally weren't two of him. My head was pounding so hard that it felt like it was going to explode.

"What is wrong?" Ramsay asked with a worried expression.

I couldn't answer him, because if I did I was probably going to puke all over him. He picked me up in one swift move and started walking down the hallway. He turned right into another hallway and he then entered a room and laid me down on a bed that was in it. He went away for about a minute and he came back with an old man following after him.

"Railey I am Maester Wolcan and I'm going to take a look what is wrong with you." The man said. He began searching all over me and listening to my heartbeat and more. I didn't fight him, even if I wanted to, I wasn't able. Within two minutes if it wasn't less he was done and stepped back. He glanced a look at Ramsay and then turned back to me.

"Did you now you were pregnant Railey?" Maester Wolcan asked.

What?! There's no way I could be pregnant. Or could I. I had been showing all symptoms of pregnancy, but I was oblivious about even thinking of me being pregnant. I shook my head and my face went pale. The thought about me being pregnant made me want to puke even more.

"She is going to be okay." The Maester said. He handed me a weird looking broth and I drank it. It tasted like shit but he told me I needed it to feel better.

"It looks like you're going to be a father." The Maester said as he gave Ramsay a pat on his shoulder and left the room.

Ramsay looked probably even paler than I did. He just stood there in the corner of the room motionless. I had no idea what was going through his head right now, but it must have been a lot.

"Ramsay." I whispered.

*Ramsay's POV*

I stormed down the hallway and I heard Railey follow after me. How could he? She was already SEVEN months pregnant? She didn't look like she was seven months pregnant, and it was going to be a boy. That little prick is going to steal my position. He is going to be a full blood and everybody knows that a full blood always has the higher claim. Shit! This couldn't be happening right now. A sound of someone puking behind me snapped me out of my thoughts. I stopped and turned around seeing Railey dropped to her knees on the ground, puking. I quickly ran towards her and asked "What's wrong?" No answer. I picked her up, bridal style, and started to run towards the Maester's room. I laid her down on the bed that was standing in the middle and went to search Maester Wilcon. I finally found him and slurred him with me to Railey. He searched her for while, and when he was done he turned to me and then back to Railey.

"Did you know you where pregnant Railey?" He asked Railey.

Railey was pregnant? Was I the father? Of course I was. I can't be a father. Not now, not ever. I didn't know what to do. I just heard that I was getting a little baby brother, and now I was hearing that I was going to be a father. I couldn't kill Railey off like I did to the other girls that carried my child. She is my wife. She is Mine.

"Ramsay." Railey whispered.

I took my stare off the ground and looked her into the eyes. She looked just as frightened as I was. I walked to the side of the bed and kneeled down beside her. I cupped her face and kissed her softly.

"It's going to be okay." I whispered into her ear. Even though I didn't know if it was going to be okay. I had never done this before, hell I had never done any of this before. But I hoped that I had comforted her a bit by telling her that everything would be alright. She smiled and kissed me back. I wasn't going to leave her alone in this, I had to be there for her. Although everything inside me said that all this went against my natural habits.