Chapter 19

Courtne, Abel, Noah, Ryan, Nicole,and Ashley all sat in the waiting room just looking around at each other. No one had anything to say. Drake was with carol in nickis room. Courtne decided to break the silence as she couldnt stand it anymore.

Courtne: I've never seen him so upset in my entire 7 years of knowing him

Everyone agreed.

Nicole: It was actually heart breaking. 

Abel: but what mad it worse was the fact there was nothing we could do about it. We just had to sit and watch 

Noah: but its only yet to get worse

Ashley: The only time i had seen him almost as upset as that was the day they got bck from london, when they lost her completely, But i have admit,last night was worse

Ryan: live not even the fact that there was nothing we can do, it was the way you could hear how much he was hurt, everytime he asked her to wake up

Courtne: that took it for me. 

Abel: It hurt like a bitch.

Noah: i wonder if she'sup yet.

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Nicki had been in hospital for a few days now and it only got worse by the day. She had had visitors almost all day everyday all of them coming to see her and getting to say what would probably be their final goodbye. Right now she was sat in her hospital room with mylan.

My: so wheres drake

Nicki: he went out I think, He'll be here soon

My: He seems very upset

Nicki: He is. Its not nice to seem, but he's very upset

My: Everyone's upset. We dont want to say goodbye nic

She watched as the tears started making their way down Mylan's face. She couldn't stop them from streaming down her own face.

Nicki: Come here my

She bought her into and embrace and just held her as she cried. 

My: I dont want you to leave me nicki.

Nicki: It's okay my. look at me

Mylan did as nicki asked ad looked her in the eyes.

Nicki: I will always love you, whether i'm here or not okay

Mylan nodded ad nicki wiped away her tears.

Nicki: I know it's gonna be hard for everyone, but there just nothing that can be done about it. This is just how it was meant to be My. You just have to promise me oe thing. Promise me that you'll always keep you head up and walk with a smile on your face. Dont let anyone or anything put you down. Can you promise me that

Mylan nodded again. Just then they were interrupted by drake walking in with Siobhan and Caroljust behind him. He looked at nicki and instantly knew what was going on. He decided to keep a smile on his face for mylan.

Drake: Hey My, why dont you come down to the gift shop with me and we can find nicki a cute teddy bear and you can ame it for her yeah

A small smile made its way onto Mylans face. He walked over to her and picked her up, before walking out of the room with her and taking her do to the gift shop.

Nicki: i dont know what i would do without him

She wiped the tears that were starting to make their way down her face again. Carol and Siobhan just took a seat on either side of her bed. Carol took her hand into her own.

Carol: its okay nicki

She now wiped away her daughters tears.

Nicki: But what is he gonna be like without me ma, I've basically ruined his life. 

Carol: Dont say that nicki

Siobhan: Im sure he'll be fine, nicki. He will find a way of dealing with it like he is now. We will al have to.

Nicki: I just wish i didnt feel this guilty. I just dont know what to do about it all.

Carol: You'll be fine. I promise you

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Nicki woke up with drake's head rested in her lap. She gently placed her hand onhis cheek. He must have came i while she was asleep and had managedto fall asleep himself. He looked so peaceful and at ease, but she already knew there was more to it than that. She watched as his eyes opened and looked up at her. She could already tell that the tears were about to follow.

Nicki: Dont cry brey. Please, for me 

She could tell he was trying to hold it in, but it wasnt going to work

Drake: I'm sorry 

She watched as the tears made their way down his face as he sat up. He wiped them away, only for them to be replaced by new ones. She couldn't stop her own tears. He sat on the bed next to her and pulled her into an embrace.

Nicki: no brey, im sorry. I'm sorry for everything. It was never meant to be like this brey, i'm so sorry

He just ran his hands through her hair and kissed her forhead.

Drake: I love you nic. I love you more than anything, and i just wish we had longer. I know it was never meant to be like this, but theres nothing that can be done about it. We've just got to hold on to the time we have left 

Nicki: I love you too brey.

They hadnt realised that the Noah, Courtne, Ashley and Abel were watching from outside. They had wanted to come and see nicki, but had decided not to interfere once they got there. Ashley sniffled and wiped away her tears as Courtne did the same. They all looked at each other and decided to give them some time alone.

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Nicki: it was quite finny though, freezing but funny

Courtne: I still blame noah ll the way for that like we could've all got hypothermia

Ashley: I blame abel, cause noah would never do it unless he got support and abel was like yeah lets do it.

Noah: You all loved i -.- But on the bright side that was another memory that will remain with us. another hilarious thing we did that could've got us in a shit load of trouble

Abel: just like capture the flag did

They all laughed. Drake had left again so that he could get a chance to justclear his mind. Hehad gone for a walk as he need to just calm down and attempted to push the thoughts to the bad of his mind even thought he knew it wouldnt be that easy. She would take such a huge part of him with her, but he was gonna have to find a way around it. He would have to find a way on dealing with it for the sake of himself and also carol, who was gonna be feeling just as bad as he was, if not worse.

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It was 11:03pm. Nicki was laying in drakes arms as he just held her as they spoke. Everyone had now gone home and the only people left with her were drake and carol. Carol was in the waiting room as drake stayed with her. The fact that it was just the two of them made it so much easier for her to speak to hi and tell him everything she wanted to tell him.

Nicki: You wanna know what i wished for on my birthday brey

Drake: I dont want you to tell me,but you're gonna tell me anyway 

They both chuckled. She sighed a little before she went on to tell him.

Nicki: I wished for you to have happiness after i was gone. I dont want you to spend your life depressed because i'm gone brey. I want you to go out there and fid someone else that will make you happy. I want you to walk every day with a smile on your face, knowing that i am up there smiling back you. I dont want to have to go knowing that i've done nothing but ruined it for you. Your my everything and all i want is for you to be happy without me. So please dont hold on to the fact that i've gone, let it go and move on be happy without me.

She was already crying herself and she didnt want to look at him as she knew it would only make her worse and she wouldnt be able to finish what she was saying.

Nicki: I love you more than life itself Aubrey. There is no expression that can be formed by words that will expess just how much i love you. Just thinking of you makes me weak. I cant seem to for that words to expess anything enough to you, you have done everything and more for me and I cant thank you enough. You will forever have my heart whatever the matter. I love you brey. Always remember that for me.

She sighed again.

Nicki: And as much as she doesnt know it, make sure my mother understands just how much i loved her. She is the strongest woman i know. She did a perfect job of raising me by herself and i cant praise her enough. She's an amazing person and im counting on you to always reassure her that brey.

He lifted his hand and used his sleeves to wipe away his own tears.

Nicki: can you promise me all of those things brey 

Drake: Yeah... I dont know what i'm gonna do without you, but i promise i will make sure to do all of that for you.

He sniffled.

Drake: I love you nicki... I love you so much 

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I can't stop the tears right now, like i dont think you understand how much i have cried throught writing this chapterbut anyway...one last chapter to go.

Much Appreciated

_PaintedPyramids X