Chapter 5

The next morning I woke up still feeling exhausted, it's been an absolutely long week and I need this weekend to be nothing but relaxing, eating a lot of food and sleeping. I rolled myself out of bed and grabbed my phone, I looked at the time and realised it was nearly 12pm. How did I even manage to sleep in so late? I got home at like 10:30 and went straight to bed. Damn I really was tired.

I dragged myself into the kitchen; desperate for a coffee in my hand, I did my usual routine, making a coffee and gulping it down, sitting out on the balcony and stare into the abis. Ready for a slow and steady day. Well I was until Aidan came barging onto the balcony saying words I couldn't even comprehend.

"Dude, slow the fuck down and use your words" I exclaimed grabbing his hand and guiding him to the chair in front of me

"Have you checked your most recent post?" He asks, holding his phone at my face, I grab it and look at my post, unsure what I'm actually supposed to be looking at?

"What about it?" I ask, still very confused as to what this has to do with his barging in

"Look at who liked your post" he said rolling his eyes at me, his attitude is bad sometimes I swear, I click on the "liked" section of the post and scroll for a bit until I saw it @billieeilish

"Oh my god, oh my god no fucking way dude." I just stare at it for a good minute, she went out of her way to find my Instagram account and like my post. And of course it's the one where I literally said I fan girled for her, how fucking embarrassing, I seem to embarrass myself a lot around her.

"Does she follow you?" Aidan asks grabbing back his phone, I grab mine from my pocket and immediately open Instagram and check my following

"Fuck me she does" I swear to god I would have noticed if I didn't absolutely pass out the second after I posted that picture I swear. I immediately went to her account and liked her recent post, so she knows I know. I need her to know

" message her" Aidan smirks at me, I sit there with my eyebrows furrowed, absolutely not is all I could get out. That would be the 3rd time I'd embarrass myself in front of her.

"Why not? Genuinely what do you have to lose?" He fights back, I know he's not wrong, but what would I even say to her?

"Dude what would I even say to her? 'Hey thanks for the follow, hope you like my account' like what??" Aidan laughs straight into my face, how lovely and kind of him. I sit still for a moment, I need to think, she followed me first, so should I be the one to messaged first? I don't know why I'm turning this into such an ordeal, she's a normal person, she probably didn't even think twice about following me.

Aidan goes back inside to make himself a coffee, I stare at my phone on her Instagram account, my finger hovering over the 'message' button. I want to, I want to so badly, but I just feel like it would be wrong too, would it be too much for me to message her, is she gonna think I'm a creepy person, I mean come on I was giving her compliments left and right last night she definitely thinks I am like in love with her.

Aidan and I sit and chat for awhile, I decided I'll think about it for the day, if I want to message her I will but I don't want to bother her, she's already such a busy person I don't even know how she'd have time to just sit down and talk to someone and have an actual conversation.

Throughout all of our conversation my phone buzzed a few times, but I didn't dare to look at it, it was probably Ivy messaging me about Billie liking my photo, or matter of fact it's probably Yasmin, I bet she'd be pleased to see, in a good way of course, in her words 'it'll look good for you'.

After a few hours of talking with Aidan and aimlessly scrolling on tiktok I figured it was time I got in the shower, I need to wash away all my thoughts and confusion. I don't know why I'm so flustered over messaging a normal 23 year old women. I'm fine messaging anyone else but it just feels different with her.I pull out my phone to connect to the speaker in the bathroom. That's when I finally decide to go through my notifications. Yep I was right Yasmin did message me about it, I text her back saying I'll call her later today to discuss.But the further i went down the Notification Centre I saw something that I thought I wouldn't see. She messaged me. Billie Eilish actually messaged me, I've never clicked on a notification so fast.

BillieEilish:hey Ember, hope you got home safe last night, it was nice to finally meet you

emberraee hey, I did thank you, it was great to meet you too .

I finally shut my phone off and hopped into the shower, I decided I would listen to Billie's new album, like fully listen to it considering I haven't really. 'Skinny' was the first song on the album. It was such a gentle sounding song with some deep lyrics attached to it. I was hooked.