Chapter 4

It feels so weird being the one in the crowd at a concert. not like I never have before but I am so used to being the one up on the stage seeing everyone's faces. although, im not complaining because im literally about to watch billie eilish perform ???

once those lights turned dark my heart was racing out of my chest. I've never been invited to a concert before yet alone by the artist themselves. I've seen clips of billie eilish performing before, her stage presence is so fucking insane, the way she interacts with the crowd, she clearly knows what they like and what want to see and I admire it

There she was, in the flesh, her hair pulled back into two loose braids, smiling up at the camera so everyone can see her.Chihiro is one of my favourites from her new album, I haven't really listened to it much but I know this one well. Seeing her dancing around on stage and still being able to sing so angelicly is inspiring because how the fuck is someone able to do that?

Standing at the back of the pit I could feel the bass vibrating through my chest, every beat synchronising with my heart beat. The energy in the air was electric, and the crowds excitement was contagious. she's a force of raw emotions and talent, I'm in awe and I'm so inspired by her talent and music. It felt so surreal to be invited into this intimate space, a place where everyone is connected through the same songs and the same emotions. Feeling every lyric, every beat, every movement. Being surrounded by fans who knew every lyric was an indescribable feeling, I couldn't imagine how she feels up there. Her crowds are huge but her venues are small and intimate.

As she sang "the diner" I couldn't help but feel the intensity of her gaze. It was almost like she was singing directly to me, her eyes finding mine over and over again. I wasn't sure if it was just my nerves but I felt her eyes on me. Though I'm so far back, she knows I'm here.

I spent the rest of the night watching her intently. Her movements are mesmerising, I wish I was half the performer she was. As the concert rolled to an ending I felt a pit in my stomach, I didn't want it to be over, her talent is so raw, soemthing you don't see often these days.

I was escorted out by security as quite a few people recognised me somehow so I had to be taken out through the back.

Due to me being out the back I was rushed through, the security left half way through escorting me out. leaving me absolutely confused as to where the hell I am. I've never performed here and I have no clue where the exit is. I pulled out my phone to ring Aidan, he works at these type of venues for all sorts of events so surely he knows where to go. Without taking my eyes off my phone and being so distracted I found myself banging into something. Great, how embarrassing. When I looked up to see what I ran into, my embarrassment grew.

"Oh fuck I am so sorry dude" I say realising it wasn't something I ran into, but someone

"Nah you're all good" she says back with a small smile on her face.

"Oh wait, you're ember, right?" She questions, I smile back and nod. How the fuck am I talking to her right now?

"I'm billie, thanks for coming I wasn't sure if you got the invite, I would've given it to you myself but I was escorted out pretty quickly" billie explained, shooting me a bright smile. There ain't no way Billie would have even thought about giving it to me herself.

"Understandable, the same thing happened to me, hence why I'm back here and have no fucking clue where I am" she chuckles at my comment, I still don't know why the security guards just left me here, they probably had more important things to attend to.She lets out a small laugh whilst fixing her hair. It falls effortlessly around her face, shaping it perfectly.

" i hope you enjoyed the show i was quite proud of it tonight, I love performing in LA" she explains, I nod my head agreeing

"Me too, I grew up here so it always feels a little bit more special" I reply back, earning a small smile from her

"Oh wow I didn't know you grew up here too, it's a pretty special place" I can't help but agree, I'll always love Los Angeles.

" it really is, your show was so insane, I know you've been doing this for years but it's so inspiring seeing someone my age performing like that" I don't know why I felt the need to compliment her but come on, it's Billie Eilish

"I appreciate that, you're pretty fucking talented yourself dude, I enjoyed myself a lot at your concert" I gave her a big grin, having someone as big and talented as her say that to me is the biggest compliment I could ever receive.

"I should probably get going I'm sure you have plenty of things to do tonight, thank you, again for the invite, your talent is admirable " okay I need to chill. I sound like a crazed fan

"Thanks so much dude, seriously, I hope to see you performing here one day, have a good night and get home safe" she pulls me into a small hug, she smells so nice, vanilla mixed with a musky masculine smell. I like it

I give her one last smile and call Aidan so he can guide me the fuck out of here before I embarrass myself even more.