Chapter 4

*1 month later*

"Zayn!" I cried out.

"What!" He called back from my room.

"Where's the tea!"

"In the cupboard beside the fridge!"

"I've looked there!" I whined. I pulled open the small door and there it was. Right in front of me. Fabulous. I felt Zayn come up behind me, chuckling lowly.

"Ha, told you." He kissed my cheek and slipped on his overcoat.

"I'm off! Be there soon?" I nodded my head, kissing his lips quickly. "Bye, love!" He called to me before shutting the door.

Tonight, the boys have some award show and Zayn invited me. I'm dropping Jade off at Tracy's then going to Zayn's flat, to ride with him and the lads.

Yes, Zayn and I are attempting to have a relationship. He and Perrie broke up a couple weeks ago. After he told me he had loved me since the start, I couldn't help but ask myself if I love him back. And the more time I spend thinking about it...

The more I do.

After brewing some tea, I poured it into my mug and tip-toed into my bedroom. Jade was napping on my bed, curled up in her blanket, her thumb stuck firmly between her lips. I grinned to myself and kissed her forehead.

I took my hair out of the towel that I've had in my hair all afternoon and sat down at my vanity, allowing my hair to air-dry. I applied my favourite make-up; black winged eyeliner, bright red lipstick, and smokey eyeshadow to bring out my eyes. I went over to my closet, pushing through all my dress clothes, which may I say, aren't a lot.

I pulled out a black, sheer dress that went to my feet. There were no straps, so I had to search for my nude bra. The sides were cut out, so I had to be safe the bra wouldn't peek. I slipped the dress over my head, letting it fall loosely. It had an elastic band where the fabric gathered, near my belly button. I slipped on mettalic gold stalettos and sat down at my vanity again. I slipped on a gold neck lace that had small spikes hanging from it. I put in gold studs in my ears and started on my hair, deciding to let it go natural. I did curl my side fringe though, then did one last check in the mirror.

Looking good.

I sat down on the edge of the bed, placing a hand on Jade's back. She stirred in her sleep. Her eyes fluttered open, a slight tired frown appearing on her lips. "Mumma?"

"Hi, Sugar. It's time to go to Aunt Tracy's for the night." She nodded and got up on her knees, leaning into me. She wrapped her small arms around my neck as I stood up, grabbing my purse and her overnight bag as doing so. I sat her down on the couch as I slipped on a blazer with gold metal on the corners of the collars. I set Jade on my hip again, slinging the bags on my shoulders and decended the steps to my car.

"Thanks again, Tracy!" I called to her as I trotted back to my car. "So late!" I muttered to myself as I hopped back in my car and made my way to Zayn's flat.

As I pulled in, there was a limo parked outside, the driver leaning on the hood, having a smoke. I nodded at him, sending him a friendly smile. He nodded in return, quickly looking away.

Rude.

I skipped up the steps leading to the front door. I knocked lightly, hoping they'd hear. It was quite noisy inside, a lot of ruckus. Next thing I knew, the door opened to a handsome Niall.

"Raven! Come in!" He side stepped, leaving room for me to step inside. "You look absolutely lovely! We're about to leave!"

"Oh phew! I thought I was late!"

"No! We're late, though!" He chuckled, pointing to the lads in the living room. I giggled as well, pulling my dress up so I didn't step on it as I walked up the foyer steps. I looked around, realising I've never been in his flat before.

"Zayn! You're lover is here!" Louis called as he walked passed me, not even bothering to look at me. "Hi, Ray!"

"Um, hi?" I stated, holding in my chuckle.

"Coming! Coming!" Zayn yelled back, trotting down the steps that were visible at the front door. He glanced away from his shoes, smiling at me. But he did a double-take, freezing as he noticed me. "Wow...You look..." He looked me up and down.

"Look what?" I smirked.

"Beautiful..." He whispered. He skipped down the few extra steps and stopped in front of me.

"Thank you," I whispered back. "You look quite handsome yourself," I cooed, brushing off his shoulder and letting my hand fall to the collar of his suitcoat. I gripped the collar and smiled at him. He lent down and kissed me sweetly.

"'Nough of the PDA, let's go!" Paul called to us from the front door. Zayn chuckled and wiped away some of my lipstick with his thumb that smudged onto his lips, smirking a bit. He sent me a wink and held out his arm. I took it gratefully, gripping it tightly.

"You look amazing, Raven!" Liam complimented me. I smiled back at him, checking his suit.

"You all look wonderful as well!" I looked back to Louis who was linked arms with Eleanor.

"Eleanor! I didn't know you were coming!" I said excitedly. Her head snapped in my direction, her already large smile growing.

"Raven!" I let go of Zayn's arm and hugged El tightly. "I couldn't let my love be the only girl!"

"Hey!" Louis whined.

"Oh, honey! You know I only came for you!" She cooed, poking Lou's nose. He kissed her cheek and looked back at Harry, quickly picking up a conversation. She sent me a wink, triggering a giggle from me.

"C'mon, children!" Paul joked.

"Yes Mr. Higgins, Sir!" Liam soluted. Lou and El went ahead of us, but Louis quickly stopped in front of Paul and soluted again.

"Yes Mr. Higgins, Ma'am!" We all burst out into laughter as Paul just shook his head and chuckled.

"I love my job, I love my job, I love my job..." Paul muttered under his breath. I chuckled to myself, nudging Paul with my elbow. He sent me an innocent smile and followed behind.

Once in the limo, Louis uncorked a champagne bottle and poured us all a glass.

"A toast!" Lou started, putting up his glass, "To dreams come true and being able to share those dreams with people you love."

"I love you too, Boobear!" Harry yelled. We all chuckled.

"Cheers!" Niall called, guzzling back his drink. "Cheers!" We all chorused.

"Second round? Anybody?" Lou asked, presenting the champagne bottle like a waiter would do. I chuckled to myself. I set my head on Zayn's shoulder, breathing in his scent. I felt his lips give me a feathery kiss on the top of my head, leaving me to catch my breath. Even his small gestures cause me to lose concentration and feeling.

It's magical.

About a half hour later, the driver told us we arrived. Zayn squeezed my hand comfortingly. The driver came and opened the door for us. Harry stepped out first, the screams getting loud. Then Niall slipped out, the screamed becoming even more ear piercing. After Niall, Liam hopped out, waving excitingly. Louis and Eleanor slid out after then Zayn and I did. Zayn's hand was on the small of my back, leading me the red carpet to get photographed.

Usually the boys don't take girls with them to award ceremonies, but they decided to this time. And let me say, I'm very excited about it.

We were all posing, the paps sending us questions from everywhere. Zayn's arm snaked around my waist, pulling me in closer. I smiled up at him and he kissed my forehead, smiling against my skin.

"Zayn! Is this your new girlfriend?"

"Is it true she's going on tour with you guys!"

"How long have you been dating!"

"Is her daughter your's!"

That's when I froze. I looked in the direction of the question, wanting to lung forward and smack the photographer. Zayn heard it too, sending a glare in the same direction I did. He pushed me away, following behind Eleanor and Louis.

Once inside, we made our way to a table and sat down in silence. Well, at least I was in silence. I sat with my hands in my lap and my eyes diverting from people to people. All these famous singers, artists, actors, producers...

"Raven, babe." Zayn's voice drew me back to the table. He leaned in and kissed my cheek then looked at me, his eyes filled with worry. "Are you alright?"

I shook my head. "Honestly, no."

He moved closer, sitting at the edge of his seat and placed his hand on my leg.

"How do they know about Jade?"

"I...uh, don't know. But you just can't think about it, Ray. It's going to be fine. I promise."

I just nodded, gulping down the lump that was forming. He squeezed my knee as the announcer came on the stage.

We were in a ball room. There were circular tables scattered around the room, people chattering quietly. There were large, sparkling chandeliers hanging from the ceiling, glimmering when any amount of light hits them. The stage had long, beautiful red curtains on each side of the stage. The presenter smiled sweetly and began to talk.

I wasn't listening, though. I didn't want to. I was focused on Jade. On Zayn's career. On our life. The paps knowing that Zayn is Jade's father could hurt his career. They'll go into a frenzy making up stories. I didn't want Jade involved with all of this. That's why Zayn hasn't taken her out anywhere. Why I barely take her out anymore. This is ruining my relationship with my daughter. Zayn's relationship with his daughter.

I can't let it happen...

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