I've Been Thinking

(Camila's Pov)

"I know" I say and she frowns before laughing a shocked laugh. She ruffles her fingers through her hair before folding her arms and looking down.

"How long " she says and I frown in thinking.

"Since the movie night. When me and Lauren moved so that you and mani were on the couch and me and Lauren were on top of you guys. I could hear your heart next to her. I first thought it was just a coincidence but then it started happening every time she touched you which is surprisingly a lot" Camila says and Dinah sighs.

"I don't know what to do" she says pacing and I smirk.

"The Dinah Jane Hansen, my best friend is........" I suck in air as if I was in shock, to earn the middle finger.

"Don't say that when it's not true. You would love for mani to know all about that"

"Know all about what" mani says walking in and Dinah gulps.

"Nothing, just that Dinah needs to keep her hands to herself before you find out her secret and kick her ass" I say for her to punch my arm and I grit my teeth as my eyes change color.

"I don't understand why you won't let her out. She wants to play" Dinah says and her eyes change color as she smirks. She changes them back when she realizes mani is still in the room.

"When your ready" she says and walks out.

"Why is she acting like that. Did i do something wrong" mani says sadly.

"No, she's just not use to letting people get close to her. Give her some time to come around" I say walking out and going upstairs to change. I walk into the room to a bent over lauren, changing and I instantly become nervous and shakes.

"I can smell your fear" she says turning around and I scoff.

"I'm not afraid, I'm nervous" I whisper lowly and she's instantly by my side making my breath hitch.

"Same difference" she says kissing my forehead and walking away.

"The urges and the pain that I felt, when in compulsion. Is that how you feel all the time" I say and she stops walking.

"Yes" she says and I smirk.

"Well you have a very colorful urge when wanting something" I say and see her smile.

"Why do you fight your wolf" she asks and I sigh.

"I feel like being human is so much easier than dealing with a whole other world" I say and she nods.

"My mom is the emperor of the vampire world. You would think she would let me slide but she's even harder on me. I think that's why I don't get shit from other people. My mother puts me through so much hell as is" she says and I stay quiet.

"I'm sorry to here that" I say looking down and she's instantly in front of me again making my breath hitch. She laughs of course and I smile at her laugh. I quickly close my mouth and try to move away but she doesn't move.

"Lauren, you have been bullying me all day, stop please" I say puckering out my bottom lip. I watch her lip tremble very little but it does and I smile before stopping.

"Why do you do that" she asks and I look away for her to pull my face to look at her gently.

"Why do you do that" she says and I grit my teeth.

"Do what" I say acting clueless.

"Why do you put yourself down" she says and I sigh. I look at her and see her waiting and she raise her eyebrows waiting and I smirk and raise mine.

"Camila" she says annoyed.

"What" I say and she smiles.

"Your beautiful anyway you look at it" she says and I keep quiet. I watch her and glare at her. I hit her and she laughs.

"I shouldn't have, I know. But I know what your thinking, I'm sorry I can't help it" she says leaning into me.

"I don't like the way you think of yourself. I think your mom played  that role for so long, that she became it. You were so strong for long that you don't know how to do anything but put up walls. But I want, I need you to know that I'm not going anywhere. You may hate your smile and the way you walk and the way you talk and everything about you" she says and my eyes start getting watery. I walk away and go to get some clothes out of the dresser but she's instantly behind me and my breath hitch in surprise. Her front is against my back and she has me draped between her and the dresser. On top of our dresser is a a large mirror that covers the wall of the dresser. I look up and she's already staring at me in the mirror. The way she looks is the look that she gets when she's determined to find or do something.

"Stop with the look okay" I say annoyed and she just stares.

"Ask me why am I staring" she says and I try to look away but she just forces my head forward.

"Why are you staring Lauren" I say and she looks me up and down through the mirror and I start to get uncomfortable under her gaze.

"Because your beautiful. From the curves from your face...." She says gently caressing my jaw bone.

"From the structure of your neck" she says grabbing my neck to look at her.

"From the arch of your breast" she says gliding her hands down them.

"From the tone of your stomach" she whispers and I start to pants. She rubs her hands over my stomach and then keep it there.

"From the crim of your ass" she says using her other hand and squeezing my ass. I push into her and she bite her lip while staring at me in the mirror.

"From the structure of your legs" she says gliding her hands down my legs and I turn around but she's kneeling. I look down at her as she's looking up and bite my lip at the sight.

"From the small feet" she says and she stares at me again.

"You were made to believe that you were unworthy of love by how your mother treated you, when that isn't the case. Your beautiful inside and out and I will do my best to show you that" she says breathing on my core as she speaks. She lifts up while picking me up and putting me on the dresser. I willingly open my legs and she walks to be even closer to me. I grab onto her shirt and pull her as close as I can.

"I just love being around you. You always know what to say. I do have trouble seeing myself as you describe beautiful. I've never thought of myself as it but I find you breath taking. You don't speak a lot but when you do, you always know what to say. I wish I could take back all the things I said when I was under the spell.........."

"I don't because it was honesty. The jealousy you felt for my sister not knowing. To you being curious from the first day I met you. To you seeing how I felt when you were all bruised up to..........."

"I love you" I just blurt out and she looks confused as if she's searching for something. I stay quiet watching her and she looks up at me and I glare at her as her face turns into a smile.

"You were telling the truth" she says and I smile.

"I know" I say and she raises her eyebrows.

"Cocky now" she says and I smile.

"No, just certain" I say as I pull her into me more.

"You don't scare me" I say and she shows her canines and I smirk. I start to imagine us, forever and I can see that. I think of us as we get older together and than sigh, we won't ever get old but at least I'll have her, right. I start to think about us for the past days. We have been arguing, taunting in good and bad days but the craving I felt when around her were deadly. I think about the make out session and the constraints Lauren was under. She starts to grit her teeth and I frown at her until she looks up and her eyes are darker but in her human form. She's oblivious on lust.

"I can smell you" she says and I laugh.

"Of curse you can Lauren. We have noses, that's what they're suppose to do" I say to her slowly to get a slap on my leg. I laugh at her glare and then calm down.

"My senses are heightened. My strength, speed........"

"There not senses" I say and she scoffs.

"My hearing, my seeing, my taste, touch and smell. I can smell Dinah's cooking fish and rice for the third time this week, because it's comfort food for her. I can smell mani salt in her tears from crying and being so conflicted about Dinah. I can smell the anger off of Demi as she's talking to her......my mother. I can smell Allys cookies as she's downstairs baking them to try to cheer everyone up. Last, I can smell your sex because all your thinking about is us" she says and I open and close my mouth but nothing can come out. She backs up and I quickly jump down.

"I'm going to go take a shower" I say and go down to Dinah's room before going into the bathroom.

"What's up" she says looking at me curiously as she comes in and I'm laying on her bed.

"I'm horny" I say quietly but I know Dinah hears me. She smirks at the news and sighs.

"How are you going to fix that chanch" she says looking at me and winking.

"No, she will smell me" I say and she laughs.

"In the shower, the heat should block out the smell. Kind of like what it does to weed" she says and I sigh.

"Your already killing her with being so close. My advice is that if your satisfied, it will be easier to not have to be up under her, for you and her both" she says hugging me and sigh.

"Have you talk to mani yet" I ask and she nods.

"I'm going to soon......"

"Later, got you" I say and she laughs.

"Ive been thinking a lot lately about both of our situation and I think in all honestly we should leave" Dinah says and I sigh in relief.

"Yeah I totally agree. I was actually talking to Lauren about that and......"

" I don't mean the girls or Demi or anyone else, just you and me"