CHAPTER 12

Raegans POV

I woke up to my alarm and i remembered that today is the funeral. I knew today was gonna be sad i went and took a shower and as I was in the shower i heard sobbing. I knew it was Justin. Damon and danny wont be attending the funeral.Justin, me, tish, and mya are attending the funeral.I got out of the shower and got dressed and went to the bedroom. I saw justin with a blade looking at it. I had no shirt on and he didnt see me come in, he was about to cut himself. Before he could i put my arm there. He cut my arm instead of his. It hurt but i didnt let it show. I looked at him and he looked at me. He immediately started apoligizing.. I stopped him.  

R- STOP!

I didnt realize i yelled until he looked so scared. I felt so bad. I went to hug him but he backed up. I felt so bad. I felt a tear fall down face. I said something.

R-I didnt mean to baby. I put my arm there on purpose. I dont want you to cut. I love you so much you have no idea like you put a smile on my face. I love you to the moon and back.

J-I love you to and im sorry i was gonna cut and im soryr i cut you.

R- just go get a shower. Im making pancakes. how many do you want. 

J- 1 small one 

R- you sure? You ok and give me the blade. plz 

he gave me the blade and i went and hid it downstairs. I should have thrown it away but i migt need it. He then got in the shower and i made the pancakes.

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Justins POV

After we ate we both finished getting ready. We havent kissed today, Is he mad at me. We are now in the car raegan is driving us to get tish,mya, and cameron Black. So im sitting in the passenger seat and rae is driving and tish and mya are in the back. they both have black dresses on. We are now getting cameron. Kale and jack are gonna be at the funeral. They rode alone tho. I was staring  out the window and thinking. 

Raegans POV 

We are on our way to get cameron and we got stopped at a red light. I looked at justin and saw tears down his face and he was staring out the window. I felt a tear fall. I hate seeing him sad and I hate death. I cant stand death.espesially wen it is murder. I hate it. I grabbed his hand and squeezed it and the light turned green. We then got cameron. It was very silent. It wasnt uncomfortable tho. It was very sad silence. 

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Justins POV

It was after the funeral and stuff me and raegan were at the old house and i was just standing letting memories flood my mind. All the happy and sad times. I then remembered that danny gets home. I was kinda happy top see him but i was mad and sad at him. He didnt wanna even come to the funeral. neither did damon im not gonna talk to them for a while. we then left and headed to raegans and we texted damon and danny telling them to not stay at raes house. I was extremely mad with both of them. me and rae got to his house and we went to take a shower. Me and him decided to take a shower together. Nothing happened. We were going to get. 

Raegans POV 

me and justin were gonna shower together.We were getting our clothes our clotes when i grabbed his hand and spun him so he was facing me.I then kissed him soft and passionately. He kissed back i smiled and pulled away. He then spoke for the first time since this morning. 

J-I am so sorry I didnt mean to show my sadness- 

I cut him off by kissing him and he kissed back. We made out and he smiled and pulled away.  i ten said. 

R- dont worry its ok  to cry and be sad. Now lets go shower and watch netfliix and cuddle.  

Heres is my update. I am gonna take a break i will be back soon. Bye