✮⋆˙ Throwing shoes

★ SUNDAY 16th JANUARY ★

THE FIRST THING I FELT WAS HEAT, warm, comforting but unfamiliar

I didn't open my eyes right away, not quite sure what was waiting for me behind them. Wherever I was it wasn't my house, not the bath that I uncomfortable sleep in, or my bed

The effects of my sloppy drinking already started to creep in, pounding head, mouth dry as the Sahara desert, and worst of all the unpleasant nausea settled in my gut

When I took a deep inhale, I breathed in the smell of my surroundings

It was weirdly... familiar

When I finally blinked awake, my gaze stared up at the ceiling, which also didn't belong to me

Then reluctantly, my eyes drifted sideways only for my whole body to still

Next to me, with his arm hooked around my shoulders, pulling me into his chest was Kieran

Kieran Hayes

The boy I hate

The boy I despise with every bone of my body

The boy I regrettably danced with last night

No. No. No. No. No

Then the night fell back into place, the peices unscrambling to show a clear image

I asked Kieran to dance with me, I had asked him to pretend and he delivered with little fight

I could still feel the way of how perfect he had felt when my hands pulled him closer, fingers dancing on his soft skin

We was in our own little bubble, the rest of the world was nothing but background noise as he twirled me around, as we laughed together, as we let ourselves forget who we were. We let the night decide, and just look where that took me

Wrapped up in Kieran Hayes's arms, my head resting on his bare chest that raised and fell with every slow breath

His lips were slightly parted, dark hair was disheveled and lashes were fluttering slightly like he was deep in a dream

Well good on him, he looks very fucking peaceful. Not like me who's having a bloody mental breakdown over here

Ugh this is so fucking stupid

Just get up Danny, leave before he wakes up

Despite this, my body just doesn't seem to move. No it stays exactly where it is

Against my will obviously!

Then my heart skipped a fucking beat when the door slowly creaked open

Fuck, fuck, fuck

My brain ran through the list of possible people that was behind it

His mam: Most likely get a long arse lecture

Gibsie: Would immediately assume we're dating and bring up this whole situation every fucking minute of every fucking day

Johnny: Probably would give Kieran a lecture as well, about focus and distractions. But would ultimately forget the whole thing but would let us know he really didn't in pointed side glances

Nope none of those scenarios seemed appealing to me

Not one

Then soft pattering of paws tapping against the wooden floor, had me lifting up my head slightly

A small pug sauntered into the room, wrinkled nose high in the air as it made it's way to Kieran's bed

What the actual fuck

The dog paid me no mind, just looked at me for a split second then went back to ignoring my whole existence

The pug didn't question who I was, or what I was doing here. Absolutely nothing

Just hopped up on it's hind legs and propped it's paws against his bed and started crying

Like full on crying, as if it was getting dragged down an alley, being doggy-napped or some shit

I was full sitting up now, glaring daggers at this dog that was worsening my headache

"Shut the fuck up!" I whisper hissed, holding my head in my heads, resting on my knees that I pulled to my chest

"Ugh I hate you Kieran, absolutely despise" I bit out, still whispering now focusing on the sleeping boy beside me

Uh uh, no fucking way would his peaceful sleep go on, not with that dog wailing like it was being tortured

I yanked up the pillow from next to me and fisted the fabric in my hands

And without any warning or hesitation I swung at him, hitting him right in the face

Then I did it again, and again and again

"Get up, you oaf!" I snapped, whacking him harder

Kieran groaned, burying his head in his pillow as he turned to get away from me, hands cradling his head

"The fuck" He muttered, half awake, voice gravely and thick from sleep

"Wakey wakey" I sang in a harsh whisper, very much annoyed that it was taking so long for him to be fully conscious

"Jesus christ" He mumbled, twisting again to snatch the pillow out of my hands to interrupt my onslaught

Rubbing his eyes, Kieran pulled himself up, leaning over the bed to pick up the crying pug. He placed him down with a fuck ton of care and then finally turned to me

"Good morning" He said, somewhat awkwardly like he didn't really know what else to say

I scoffed "Good morning? Are you fucking kidding me?- Whose dog is that?"

"My mams" He grumbled, also glaring at the dog "He's a bloody menace with a weird obsession with my bed"

"Yeah no shit" I replied, tilting my head at the dog

It pandered over to me and nestled in my lap, like it bloody belonged there. I didn't dare move, unsettled out of my fucking mind

Sure my ferrets did this but this pug was way heavier and bigger

I haven't stroked a dog since I was ten, and ever since then I have steered fucking clear of dogs

I remember this man had brought his boxer with him to pick up his daughter that went to the same ice rink as me, I had asked Seamus if I could stroke her as soon as I caught sight of the dog

He reluctantly agreed and I had beamed when my hand ran over her soft fur, cheeks hurting from smiling so much as the dog wagged it's tail at my affection

The man told me her name was Luna and that she was a big old softie

Once me and Seamus was back in the car, I had begged him to let me get one of my own. Reminded him of the first place medal I had received at my gymnastics, brought up every accomplishment in a hope he would see the dog as a reward

However I was wrong, instead he told me that I couldn't because of my disorder. He explained that when it's common for people with I.E.D's to harm animals during intense episodes

A image seared into my mind of me hurting that same dog, it tramautised me and I immediately dropped the whole dog thing

Infact that image still haunts me anytime i'm even near any animal

Except my ferrets, I would never hurt them, I trusted myself enough to know that. But still when I first got them I was completely freaked out, convinced that I was going to fuck it up but then I didn't and that was that

But other animals, that's a whole different story

When i'm at Kavs, I avoided his dogs with everything I have in me, I don't stroke them ever, even when they wag their tail around my leg and look up at me with those cute doggy eyes

Gibsie teases me for it, says i'm scared of them but that wasn't the truth

I was scared that I would hurt them

"Oi, Monty get off" Kieran said, trying to pick him up off my lap but Monty didn't budge, just did a weird sort of grunt and buried himself further

"This is so fucking weird" I muttered under my breath, still disbelieving of how I even ended in this situation

My own stupidness is how

"What the fuck is wrong with you?" I exasperated, glaring daggers at Kieran, momentarily forgetting the pug in my lap "Are you actually mentally deranged?"

He scoffed, running a tired hand down his face trying to rub away the exhaustion "Fecking christ I just woke up, wait a minute before I have to suffer from the sound of your voice. Bloody banshee"

I rolled my eyes so hard i'm suprised I didn't see my brain "Oh i'm terribly sorry my leige" I sarcastically remark

Kieran huffs a laugh "Why thank you"

"Fuck. Off" I hissed, eyes narrowing to slits at the lazy smirk pulling at his lips

"You're in my bed Danny, you fuck off" He quickly shot back, sounding bored

"Fine, I will" I protested, frustration rising with the boy next to me who still wasn't wearing any shirt

Fuck did his tattoos look good

A spider on his lower left hip that looked as if it was crawling on his skin. A constellation of stars around what looked like the north star on his right pec, next to it was it was a small skull that was blowing out smoke

And in the middle of his pecs was a dark thorned rose and below it was the words 'no rose without a thorn'

Stop it Danny for christ sakes

"Go on then" Kieran drawled, cocking a brow at me, no doubt noticing my staring

"I am" I huffed, picturing his slow death in my mind as he chuckled

"Sure looks like it" He teased, his voice still low, deep from sleep and so annoyingly attractive

What is wrong with me?

With one last glare, I tugged the duvet of me, gently moving Monty of me, who i'm still uncomfortable with by the way. Once I was to a stand, a wave dizziness washed over me but I quickly shoved it to the side as I searched for my shoes

"There over there" Kieran lazily pointed to his wardrobe and low and behold my zebra printed heels were there

They looked way too fashionable to be in his room, it was all dark colours and your typical teenage boy room decor. Two walls were painted black, posters of eminem and tupac adorning them. There was also film posters scattered around the room, fight club, men in black, bad boys, seven

Pictures of friends were mixed with them too, I spotted a picture of him Gibs, Hughie, Liam and Patrick from when they were little. Another one of him, Johnny and Gibs at what looked like Biddies

They were tons, all from different ages. Every picture showed a frozen fragment of his life, a happy memory that he wants to remember

Hell there was even a picture of just his racing car, to anyone it would just look like Kieran bought a picture of a car that he thought was cool. They would never guess that car actually was his, and he used it in a illegal underground racing club

"I know" I gritted out, yanking my heels of the floor with a little more force than necessary

"Yeah okay" He said, voice unconvinced

I ran a hand through my hair, absolutely frustrated "Oh my god, just shut up will you. I don't need your commentary"

"Hmm, maybe but it's fun to piss you off" He countered, shrugging his shoulder as Monty now sat in his lap

I scoffed before throwing my hands up, exasperated "Ugh, I hate you"

"Me too, crazy girl" He responded, not missing a beat while stroking Monty who responded with a little wag of his doughnut tail

"Ew ew ew, I slept in your bed. I need a shower now, thanks a lot fucker" I cringed, shaking my arms out for dramatic effect

"You know what next time i'll just leave on the side of the road, that sound better?" Kieran snarked

"Actually it does, anything sounds more appealing than this" I snapped back, waving my hand around his bed

He scoffed, amused "Alright then, if you get kidnapped it would be one less problem for me"

"If I got kidnapped I would make sure you got the ransom, probably add a few extra thousand euros on it just for fun" I quipped, a scowl pulling at my lips

"Well, I just wouldn't pay it then" He shot back, levelling my furious stare with a expression full of indifference

I pointed at finger at him, having enough of his annoying attitude "I would blackmail you too"

He shook his head "Nah, cos the only peice of dirt you have on me is also dirt on you"

Dammnit! 

"Well...whatever" I huffed, frustrated that I had nothing else to say because right now my brain wasn't working properly "Ugh piss off"

"Again, you piss off. You're in my room" He repeated his words from earlier

Wanting to scream at his smug smirk, I hurled my heel at him, decking him right in the nose

Okay so maybe that was a bit crazy girl of me but jesus christ does Kieran ever shut up?

He hissed, clutching his nose while shooting me a sharp, irritated look "The. Fuck?"

"Oops, was aiming for your forehead guess your massive nose got in the way" I sneered, crossing my arms

Kieran continued just to glare at me, no doubt holding in a million retorts. But on the bright side I had got him to shut up and wiped that smirk off of his face

Win for me

Monty who was watching our tiff, completely unbothered, suddenly jumped up and hopped off the bed and beelined straight to me

Looking up at me with big eyes, he sat himself down by my feet and rolled over with a dopey doggy smile as he layed on his back

I just stared, completely unmoving as Monty just stayed there like he was waiting for me to do something

"He wants ya to stroke him" Kieran informed me, eyes pinned on mine like he was confused on why I already didn't know this

Okay so maybe I did know what Monty wanted but stroking him was way out of my comfort zone

"I know that, i'm not stupid" I hissed, still making no move

"Go on then" He encouraged, raising a brow

I took a deep breath, biting my lip so hard that i'm suprised I didn't draw blood. Slowly bending down, reaching out a hand to gently stroke Montys belly

Half expecting Seamus to jump out and shout at me for putting this dog in risk of being hurt by me, I moved my hand up and down his fur once before quickly standing up. Moving as far away from Monty as I could, I quickly scooped up my heel and made my way to his door

"This" I hissed, eyes glinting with threat "Never fucking happened, got it. No telling Gibs or Johnny or anyone"

He nodded, equally adamant at making sure this whole thing never saw the light of day, just another secret we share "Never fucking happened"

I returned the nod, stiff and curt before pulling open his door and practically bolting out of his house

・❥・ Authors notes

Kieran and Danny are so Blair and Chuck coded

Omg monty is my spirt animal including siddy and duffy