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Y/N POV

I woke up on the bed with Jungkook laying next to me with his arm around me....

I started wiggling around, trying to get up but I felt his grip get tighter around me. I stopped moving because I didn't want to wake him up.

He choked me until I passed out.

I don't know if it's only the coke or if he is just angry with me over all of this mess we're in.....

I feel like In a way we resent each other over all of this.

I finally broke free from his hold and went to the bathroom.

I took a look in the mirror and I see the huge red marks he left on my neck.... I had no idea we would be back to this lifestyle again.. I would have just let Jimin kill us all....

THREE WEEKS LATER

Nothing much has changed.

Jungkook is still doing coke whenever he pleases and gets violent if I say anything about it... So I've decided to keep my mouth shut.

We we at work and I was standing inside " our " office and I heard giggling, it was a woman's voice. I look up and see Jungkook flirting with some girl, just laughing away....

I couldn't help but stand there with my fists balled up against the top of the desk. I was so furious that I didn't see Hoseok walk in.

HOSEOK: Why do you put up with this from him?

Y/N: because I'm an idiot.

HOSEOK: No you're not.

Y/N: stop trying to make me feel better, I know what I am.... It's fine, I guess somewhere deep down I deserve this, all I've had is heartache in life...

Hoseok was just standing there looking at me with a saddened look on his face.

Jungkook came walking in the office.

JUNGKOOK: Gawsh isn't anybody working around here? haha

Y/N: Yeah everyone but you and that girl actually are....

I rolled my eyes and walked away....

He just watched me leave the room.

JUNGKOOK: what's gotten into her?

HOSEOK: jesus.... really ?

As Hoseok walked away...

Jungkook was just left there alone looking stupid.

It was the same day just later, once I got home I started cooking some dinner, I figured Jungkook would just stay out super late again like he always does.

I haven't talked to Bianca in so long, I had the urge to call her and talk to her about everything but that could only potentially get her killed.... for knowing where we are but not telling anyone.

I feel so alone now. Jungkook is high on life. Hoseok is just a coworker and more of Jungkooks friend, and I don't trust anyone enough to let them close to me anymore.

So it's just me and Jungkook some nights.

I decided to go sit on the couch and watch some tv after I cleaned up from dinner and put the left overs in the fridge.

It was only 9 pm, but I heard the door unlock and in came Jungkook.... I didn't even pay him any mind.

JUNGKOOK: Hey

I looked over at him but didn't say anything.

JUNGKOOK: What did you have for dinner?

Y/N: Chicken, there is leftovers in the fridge if you're hungry.

I heard him go into the kitchen and popped his food into the microwave, and then made his way to the couch.

He must have ate cause then I heard him go into the bathroom and turned the shower on, twenty minutes later, I heard his foot steps get closer and closer..

JUNGKOOK: What are you watching?

Y/N: Nothing real...

He sat down beside me, a little too close for my comfort, so I moved away some.

JUNGKOOK: fine..

I let out a sigh....

JUNGKOOK: I was trying to be close to you....

Y/N: Yeah I know..

JUNGKOOK: Then why did you move?

Y/N: Because I don't want to be close to you...

JUNGKOOK: COME ON...

Y/N: No... you come on....

As I sat up and looked in his direction...

Y/N: You think you can abuse me, and then flirt with other girls, do drugs and then just come to me and act like everything is fine.

JUNGKOOK: Please just stop...

Y/N: NO.... What was our point of running if we were gonna live like this? I'd rather be dead...

I got up and walked away... I could hear him get up and start walking toward me... but I shut the door in his face before he came into our bedroom....

He opened the door and grabbed me...

JUNGKOOK: You would rather be dead than with me? Really?

Y/N: if this is the new version of us... I'd rather not be here anymore...

JUNGKOOK: I love you...

Y/N: If you loved me you wouldn't flirt with other women... you wouldn't lay your hands on me... or make me have sex with you while you are high out of your mind and being as rough as you want.....

JUNGKOOK: I.... I.... You know that's not the real me when I'm high...

Y/N: its been the real you a lot lately....

He just decided to look at me like I've said the worst thing ever to him..

Y/N: maybe we should split up?

JUNGKOOK: I think the fuck not...

Y/N: Why not? Don't you think I deserve happiness of some kind?

JUNGKOOK: Not..... not without me..

I looked up to see him actually crying.... It broke my heart to pieces but I didn't want to give in so easily, he's hurt me so much lately...

but I can't help but wanna love this man....

Y/N: why are you crying?

JUNGKOOK: I don't wanna live without you..

Y/N: then stop doing the drugs... stop the abusive bull shit...

JUNGKOOK: I don't want to be this way.... I just miss my old life in Miami......This shit hasn't been easy for me either...

Y/N: I know its been hard for the both of us but I didn't turn to doing coke or drinking....

He walked over to me and lifted me up with his arms around me and hugged me so tight... I haven't felt this warmth from him in weeks....

We spent the majority of the night laying in bed cuddling, and talking things over..... He agreed to try to stop doing coke....I want him to be himself...

I dozed off at some point but I woke up to Jungkook hovering over me...

JUNGKOOK: Kitten wake up, I'm hungry...

Y/N: Jungkook quit it...

JUNGKOOK: Mmmmm.. But I need you....

I opened my eyes and looked into his to see his pupils dilated...

Y/N: Jungkook.... Why did you do it again?

JUNGKOOK: Just one last time for the books ya know?

Y/N: NO FUCK THAT. GET THE HELL OFF OF ME YOU LIAR!

His hands were touching all over me, up and down....

until he made it to my shorts...

Y/N: Jungkook I said no...

I was grabbing his hands, trying to stop him... This reminds me of multiple nights here within the last few weeks... being forceful and careless of me......

I started yelling at him...

He covered my mouth and said " Shut the hell up and let me have my way with you my dear " .

SORRY FOR THE LATE UPDATE, WORK HAS HAD ME BEAT THIS LAST WEEK. I HAVE ALREADY WROTE OUT THE NEXT CHAPTER ALSO.. I HOPE YOU GUYS ARE STILL ENJOYING THIS STORY!

I P U R P L E YOU ALL :)