Decisions

DRE'S POV * * *

Katherine asked me to come over because she wants to talk to me? I grabbed my purse and headed over to her house.

I pulled into her drive way, noticing my mom's car?

I knocked on her door. "Hey sweetie, come on in." She smiled.

"Is every thing alright?" I asked smiling as i walked in. As i walked in i noticed Dr.Taylor, Angel, my mother, and michaels therapist.

"Whats going on?" I asked.

"We want to talk to you." She answered. "Have a seat sweetie." She said guiding me to a chair.

"Dre we have some serious concerns about Michael." DR. Taylor said.

"What could possibly be wrong, he's doing so good." I asked.

"Why do you think michaels in rehab and why do you think hes doing it?" His therapist asked.

"I made him and i feel like he's doing it for me, Katherine and Janet." I answered.

Everyone was silent. "What is going on?!" I asked frustrated.

"Dre, sweetie. We all talked and we think you need to break up with Michael." My mom said.

" Mom don't start this." I said in a warning tone.

"Audrey, Dre if i may call you. Your mom is right. We think it's best to cut things off with Michael. " the doctor said.

"No. No! I love him." I said

"Dre, he's only staying clean for you." Katherine said

"At least he's clean!" I shouted.

"But once he gets out and if & when you guys break up he'll relapse. The drug addiction will be 10x worst and the chances of him ODing and dying is much higher." The doctor said.

"For Michaels sake to stay clean, and stay clean for himself." Angel added.

Tears were crashing onto my cheeks.

" Dre, we're giving you one more visit with him to say goodbye and then you will no longer be able to contact him." The doctor said.

"What? That's not fair!" I cried.

"Audrey Anne you know its the right thing to do. " My mom added.

"Mom dont!" I said.

"Audrey. We need you to do it, and do it while he's in rehab so when he goes through it with professional help and won't relapse and will figure this out for himself." Angel begged.

I couldn't speak. I'm so lost. I shook my head.

" This isn't fair. I'm just suppose to break up with him, then what?" I asked.

My mom then took a piece of mail from her purse then handed it to me.

I opened up the envelope, i read the letter, " congratulations! Audrey Anderson you have been accepted into Full Sail university of Florida. Your classes will......" My hand covered my mouth.

"Mom! What the hell!" I cried.

" Baby, I want you be successful. I'm trying to help you move on. " She said sincerly.

Katherine stood up and grabbed my hands.

" Sweetie, I know you and Michael love eachother. But I have done a lot of thinking about what she's saying.

When you broke up with him here when you found out he was on drugs again, what did he do?" Katherine asked.

"H-he went and got high....." i said trying to hold back my tears.

"And he wasn't very nice to you and Erin that night, am I correct?" She asked. I nodded.

" this isn't just about you and Michael anymore. This is about everybody and what will be right for him in the long run. I want my baby to graduate from that rehab and not be in fear of him relapsing and dying Audrey. He's my son." She said as tears slipped her eyes.

I felt my own heart breaking the more I realize what was the right thing to do.

"We know this is hard sweetie, and I know life hasn't been treating you fairly these passed months but maybe it's time to start your future. " My mom said rubbing my back.

" Its Time for us to go. You get one more visit to say goodbye Dre. Call me to have that arranged. " Dr. Taylor said grabbing her coat then leaving.

" Dre sweetie...." Katherine began.

" am i really putting his life in danger? " I asked still in disbelief.

" yes. Sweetie, I think you need to go home and really think about it. " Katherine said kissing my check.

I grabbed my keys leaving the house and getting in my car.

***

I didn't have much of a decision. They were going to cut off my visitations whether I broke up with him or not. The more time I thought about the more I realized how right they were. If we were to break up, he'd relapse. I don't wanna be responsible for his death. I love him so much, so much that I am going to break his heart in order to save his life.

It's been 4 days since we sat down and had our talk.

I grabbed my phone calling the rehab he was at.

"Hello may I speak to Dr.Taylor." I asked.

"Hello, this is Dr.Taylor." she answered.

"This Dre. Umm i would like to schedule my visit." I said.

" When is a good time for you?" She asked.

"As soon as possible. I wanna get this over with." I said.

"This saturday? Mrs.Jackson is visiting Sunday." She said.

"Sounds good." I said.

" Your doing the right thing Dre. Your saving his life." She said honestly

"I know." I replied then hanging up.

I started to pack my things, im leaving for Florida right after I see him.

"Sweetie?" My mom said.

"Hm?"

"I'm proud that your doing the right thing. I know you love him. Maybe later on in life you guys will run into each other." She smiled.

"And he'll hate me." I replied zipping my bag.

"He'll be mad but if he really loves you he'll understand why you did what you did." She said hugging me.

"I just wanna get this over with." I replied.

" I love you sweetie." She said then leaving.

Today is the day before I leave and see Michael. I decide to spend the day with Wesley.

"So what's up? That's going on?" He asked as we played video games.

" What do you mean? " I asked. " Dre. ...."

"I'm breaking up with Michael before I head to Florida. " He paused the game and looked at me like I just killed someone.

"Why the fuck are you doing that?" He asked.

"Wes, you won't understand." I said.

"I probably wont... but what I do understand is that he loves you and he's in rehab for you." He said.

"Thats exactly why I'm doing it. He needs to stay clean for him." I replied.

"Dre are you fucking serious? He's trying to get better for you and your gonna fucking leave him?" He asked angery.

"Wesley i don't need this right now. " i said.

" apparently you do! " he shouted.

"Dre your my sister but mikes my home boy. I ain't gonna watch you break his heart. I'm not!" He shouted.

"So what are you saying?" I asked.

"You leave and break his heart.... Dre....." he began.

"You gonna side with him. We've been friend since diapers and your gonna throw our friendship away for someone you met this year? " I asked angery as hell.

"He needs some one.....and if your gonna leave him, I'll be the only one he has." He said.

" I see where you stand." I grabbed my stuff and left his house.

I went home and finished packing. I couldn't believe this. I've officially lost everyone in my life but my mother, father and Riley.

***

"Sweetie are you ready? " My mother asked.

" yeah, I just gotta grab one more thing." I said. I ran up to my now old room. I left a notebook on the bed and put it in my purse.

" Let go." I said.

"Dre wait!" Riley shouted. He ran to me jumping into my arms.

"Imma miss you sis!" He said hugging me tight.

"Im going to miss you too. " I said holding him tight. Imma miss his little turd ass.

" Dre let's go honey, " she said.

The car ride was silent. The only thing that was main noise was the radio and the thumping sound my heart was making.

We pulled into the parking lot of the apartment complex.

" Good lucky baby girl. Everything is going to be okay." She said. I didn't replied. I just got out of the car and went inside.

"Hello how maybe I help you? " the girl at the front asked.

"I'm here to see Michael Jackson. " i replied.

She looked over the schedule, "go right a head honey. He's on floor 4 now. Room 222" she smiled.

I walked down the hallway, i did my best to keep myself together. I was about to say goodbye to the man I love so much.....

I knocked on his door, "come in." He shouted. I pushed the door open, seeing him cooking some thing.

He looked over like he was expecting someone else, his face lit up. He dropped his spoon and jogged to me hugging me.

"Baby! What are you doing here?" He asked excited.

" I came to see you." I said softly.

He looked down at me, with a Confused expression. "Baby what's wrong?" He asked. I stared at him, i couldn't break his heart. I couldn't. "I just miss you so much." I replied.

" Awh babe, i only have 5 months left and then I'll be out of here, then it's just you and i."He smiled then leaning down to kiss me. I savored the way his lips felt. I didn't want to forget how good he kisses me. I slid my tounge in his mouth. He gripped my ass, giving it a tight squeeze. I let a moan out into his mouth.

"I want you so bad baby." He whispered kissing my neck.

" Then have me." I whispered.

" but-" he began.

"Just do it Michael." I demanded.

" i like this demanding side of you." He smirked.

He had our clothes off in no time. My legs were wrapped around his waist as he had my back against the wall, thrusting into me.

" i love you so much baby." He groaned.

"I love you so much more." I moaned.

We came together, he set me down leaving lingering kisses all over me. "I have to go." I said putting my clothes on.

"Why such a hurry babygirl." He said wrapping me into his arms. I wrapped my arms around him, holding him tight.

"Why are you acting to different?" He asked.

"Just going through a hard time. " I said softly.

" talk to me." He said. "I can't baby. I have to go." I said putting the rest of my clothes on.

He put his shorts on. He grabbed my bag putting it over my shoulder.

I reached into my bag grabbing the notebook. Michaels name was write in pretty letters across it.

" Michael I want you to have this." I stood handing it to him.

" What is this?" He smiled. "Its songs and poems I've wrote since we've started dating." I said shyly.

" Awh babe, thank you!" He smiled.

He opened it but i quickly closed it.

" looked at it after I leave." I replied.

"Why? You act like I'm never going to see you again." He giggled.

"I'm just not feeling myself. I'm sorry." I lied.

" I've got to go Michael." I said. He put my notebook down. He wrapped his arms around me, the tears started to pour. " Dre, come on, don't cry. " He said.

"I don't want to leave you." I sobbed.

" You'll see me again baby. We'll be fine." He said. I wipped my face. " I love you so much. " I cried.

I kissed him "I've gotta go."

I ran down the hallway. I had to get out of here. Tears were flowing down my face as i heard him yell my name. I ran out of the complex. I got into the car.

I just cried and cried.

"How did he take it?" My mom asked.

" I didn't do it. I couldnt. I couldn't! It was to hard." I cried.

" Its okay baby. Everything will work out. " she said, comforting me.

"Hes gonna hate me. " i sobbed.

"He will. But not for ever. That's why wer are moving you to Florida so you both can have space and figure it out." She said. I didn't respond. I just watched the world go by as we drove all the way across the country.

MICHAEL'S POV ~ ~ ~ ~

I don't know what was going on with Dre yesterday but she was acting super weird. I flipped open the notebook, there was the note I gave her in Spanish about wanting to hang out and how I liked her hair curly. I smiled reading it. The first page had my name written in pretty letters and with hearts around it. Under it was important dates. Our first kiss, our first date, when I took her virginity, when we broke up, when we got back together. The first song she wrote in there was called Fallin' (Alicia Keys). I laid on my bed looking through her notebook.

I turned the page as i heard someone knock on my door. I got up and answered it.

" mother!" I smiled.

She gave me a surprise expression.

" What?" I asked confused.

"Nothing, I'm surprised your okay." She said.

" Why wouldn't I be?"I asked closing the door behind her as she walked.

" Didn't Dre come see you yesterday? " she asked.

" yeah." I replied.

My mother stared at me with much confusion then enlightenment over came her face.

" am i missing something? " I asked.

" What all did Dre say to you?" She asked.

" Just the usual. Talked, i mean she was acting weird but she said she was going through a rough time. " I replied.

"Oh baby." She said sympathetically.

" what?" I asked "will you tell me what's going on?" I said irritated.

" Sit sweetie." She said. We both sat on the couch.

" Mom why was Dre acting weird."I asked sternly knowing some thing bad was going on.

" after she left here yesterday her mom took her down to Florida. ...for college." She said. " What? No, She told me she would wait until I got back." I said shaking my head.

" Michael......Dre was suppose to break up with you yesterday." She said softly. I shot up from the couch.

" What the hell do you mean?!" I shouted.

" Sweetie I don't know how else to tell you this but Dre left you." She said.

" This is a joke. Hahaha, so funny mom." I said hoping she would tell me it was.

" Michael this isn't a joke. this was something me, her, the doctors and her mother discussed. She going to college and she's not coming back." She said. I shook my head. I headed for my door to after her. She can't leave me. I did this for HER not for me. I agreed to this for her! I ran down the hallway, i made it down to the lobby to be stopped by 4 big men. "Michael, you need to go up to your apartment. " Angel said.

" No, Dre left me. I am not just going to stay here. I've gotta go after her!" I shouted trying to push pass the men. They grabbed me, dragging me back up to my apartment where my mother stood.

" Michael you need to breath. " she said.

" I need Dre! I need her! I'm doing this for her! Why would she leave me!" I screamed.

"You know what I'm going to call her! Yeah!" I said. I dialed her cell number. "This number is no longer in service." It answered.

"Fuck! " i said feeling my eyes gloss.

"God damn it! What did I do to make her leave me!" I yelled throwing the phone against the wall.

" Michael, stop this! Right now!" My mom shouted.

" I can't lose her mom. She was my everything. I need her back!" I cried.

She wrapped me in her arms.

"Shhhhh, we're gonna get through this." She said.

"I love her, why would she leave me!" I cried.

" What am i suppose to do now? I don't even wanna be here anymore. I wanna come home with you mom." I cried.

" No, you are staying here and staying clean!" She said letting go of me.

" But-" "no buts! You are staying here and finishing up your time! you need to do this for you Michael! For you!" She said as tears glossed her eyes.

"Mom-"

"You sign yourself out? Do not come home! I will not watch you kill yourself." She cried.

" Mom I'll stay clean, i promise! " i begged.

"My answered is no Michael Joseph!" She shouted.

She never shouts. " I don't want to be here." I said.

"Its either here, or the streets. None of your sibling will take you in, all your friends moved. You can go back to Gary and live in that dirty ass shack, and shoot up till it kills you or you can stay here. Stay clean. Graduate. Then go to college and start a future for yourself." She said desperately, with tears soaking her face.

" Okay."Is all I said.

Mother stayed will me all night. Yeah I know I'm a mommas boy....

" Michael sweetie I'm leaving. I'll visit soon." She said kissing my cheek. "Will you bring Janet? Please?" I asked.

" Michael, i don't want her seeing all of this. Call, talk to her." She said hugging me.

" i understand."I replied.

" Your gonna be okay baby. We're all here for you." She said.

" I want her here though." I said.

"She's not coming back michael. I'm sorry baby but it's time to start looking at life in a different way that doesn't revolve around another person . focus on you." She said.

" I'll try." I said softly.

"I love you." She said then leaving.

I shut the door behind her. I walked in my room to find the notebook she gave me. I picked it up. This is filled with nothing but bullshit! I threw it across the room in anger.