Second Thoughts

*J-Hopes POV*

I paid the cab driver and headed toward the dorm I was staying at. I took a deep breath before walking in, it's 2 in the morning.. and I was gone all day.. will the members be mad at me? One way to find out..

I opened the door and a paper plane flew across my face. What the hell?

V:" OH! It's still flying :D!"

Jungkook:" aish I thought the pizza was here."

Jungkook and Suga were are playing games.. Vs his usual self, Jimin and Namjoon aren't around..hm I guess everyone is minding there own business.

As I headed to my room, "Yah! Hoseok! Where have you been? You were gone all day. Were you really in Times Square?. Did anyone recognize you?" Jin askes too much questions -_-. He might give me a lecture u.u

I didn't answer and handed him the Mario stuffed doll I got him. His eyes widen as he gasped. "Omo! So cute!" He hugged it and walked away, he has issues .-.

V:" yah! Did you get me anything?" He pouted.

"Here. This is yours, isn't it cute?" I handed him a medium size stuffed fuzzy bear that wore a red shirt with a large letter on it 'V'. I got it from the Disney store Ally took me to.

"This.. is.. THE BEST. Its like a mini V. I'll name you.. V Jr. Thanks Hobie!" V sat back down on the couch sitting the bear next to him.

"Yoongi! Here, this will help you get girls. Haha xD" I handed him the green t-shirt.

"What is this?" He unfolded it. "Oohh! Nice.. but hey.. I can get girls -.-"

Jungkook:"yeah, you can GET girls to runaway from you haha xD"

Suga gave Jungkook a face, "I'm going to bed." He left and shut the door to his room. So sensitive -.-

Jungkook:"Did you get-"

I threw him a M&Ms book bag and the bag of candy I got.

Jungkook:"aayyeee ^^"

"Where's Namjoon and Jimin?" I asked V as I sat beside him.

"Jimins passed out. And Namjoon went to get the pizza we ordered." What? He went on his own?

"Why didn't you guys just ask for delivery?" I suggested.

"Nah he insisted.. we didn't care anyways. Yah! Jungkook stop cheating!" V and Jungkook were focused on the racing game they were playing.

I got up to prepare myself for bed. After I washed up I layed on my bed and stretched my whole body out.

Namjoon was home by then, the dorm smelled like pizza, I'll get a slice in the morning if the member's don't finish it.

"Arrgghhh!!". Damn I'm tired, I grabbed my phone and switched it on. Ally, she was the first thing that popped up on my phone. I was still on her picture I had taken from the park. Gosh she's so gorgeous, and to think that I kissed her!

....but suddenly my heart felt cold and felt hard. I forgot that she doesn't know me as Hoseok but as Jay. I'll admit I gave myself a cool name, Jay.. It's neat. Hehe. But still.. I'll have to tell her who I really am eventually.

What if she ends up hating me for not being honest? What if she thinks I'm toying with her? I don't want to hurt her. What am I going to do when I have to go back to Korea? .. Aish this is going to be one hell of a ride...

I scrolled through my gallery and saw the video I took of her at the M&Ms store.

-Video playing-

"Jay put away the camera! Ahahaa! ^^"

"Show your face! Come on! Ahh don't be shy!"

"Ok.. tada!" She wore the M&Ms pattern dress I asked her to try on.

"Oh snap! Who's that girl? Oh yes girl work it! Work it oh my gosh the camera loves you!"

"Oh stop it Jay /.\ ! Hehe, muahh :*"

"Yah!! Why are you blowing kisses.. you're making me blush hahaha xD"

-Video ended-

Man she's so cute. And her personality is just.. She's perfect. Does she really not notice who I am? I don't think I look that different from picures. With that being said I clicked on a selfie I took, walked up to the mirror and stared at myself.

I see no difference -_-. What if.. She's toying with me?! Nah it can't be. She doesn't seem like the type... Okay let me not over think this. I layed back down on my bed.

The kiss. That's all I thought about as soon as I layed back down on my bed. I pushed my lip out practising how I would kiss her again, how I would hold her too. I'm an idiot.

"Hyung?" It was Jungkook. Crap he caught me ><

I sat up startled. He giggled as he sat at the edge of the bed.

Jungkook:"what was that? ^^"

"What was what? -_-.."

He mimicked the face I had just made and laughed again.

"Yah!" I kicked him with my right foot. "It's non of your concern." He kept laughing.

Jungkook:"I know exactly what that was.! You kissed her didn't you ;)?"

For a maknae he seemed to know a lot.. perhaps.. naw don't get any ideas ><

"Why do you care if I kissed her or not?"

V stepped into the room swinging around his fuzzy bear. "Kissed who?! Hobie? Hobie someone kissed you?"

Well they're not gonna let me sleep till I tell them so screw it -.-

I began to tell them how my whole day with Ally went. I even mentioned the kissed.

Jungkook:"OMO! Did she feel good?"

V:"aww so romantic <3" he started to re-act what I had just told him and used his bear as 'Ally' kissing it.

They started to tease me and we all laughed. ^^

"But you can't tell the guys about the kiss okay? Promise me."

"We promise! Yes sir!" They both said it at the same time and soluted me. These guys I swear..

They walked out of my room. I layed back down again until Namjoon came barging in. What the f- !

"Hoseok. Where were you? I got scolded because of you since our manager did not see you when he stopped by. I lied and got caught!" Aww what a nice leader.

"You should've just told them the truth.." I looked up at him.. oh damn he's serious.

"Hoseok.. next time just tell me where you're going okay? I'm not mad.. just don't make me question our trust.. ok?"

I nodded. "Yes sir." He left.

I layed back down, but then got back up and locked my door. In case ANYONE tried to barge in, I just want to sleep.

I got under the covers and slept like a baby.

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I woke up to the boys laughing in the living room, what could they be laughing about? I sat up and checked the time on my phone 7:39a.m.

I walked out and said good morning to all the members. Jin handed me a cup of coffee, "thanks man.." I sat beside Namjoon. They were watching SpongeBob. I like this show. It reminded me of Ally since she was wearing a dark blue t-shirt yesterday with Spongebobs face on it, a pair of dark denim short shorts and black Tom's.

Jungkook:" Hobie! Your phone's ringing. I hear it loud and clear."

V:"I'll answer it!" He ran to get my phone. "IT'S ALLY! SHOULD I PICK UP?"

"NO!" I quickly got up handed Jin the coffee and ran to attack V. Snatching my phone away. "Are you crazy she doesn't know im J-Hope remember.. damn"

V:" Oh yeah.. hehehe you got scared. ^^"

I answered. "Good morning gorgeous :)"

"Did you sleep well?"

"Never been better ^^"

"..mm.. thats nice"

Somethings wrong.. "You okay Ally?" I heard her take a deep breath as if she's about to cry.

"..I'm fine, just sleepy is all. Just wanted to hear your voice."

"If somethings wrong you can tell me don't be afraid I'm here for you."

"Thanks Jay. I was actually wondering if you wanna go get breakfast?"

I looked at my schedule list and saw that I had practice today from 10a.m-3a.m.. crap.

"Ah damn.. sorry Ally. I can't I'm kinda uh... well I made plans with my brother today and.. I can't bail." Please don't think I'm a jerk u.u

"It's alright. I'll talk to you later or text me if anything." She sounded upset.

"We can hang after? If you want."

"No I work from 4p.m-10p.m today... I'll talk to you later, bye" she hung up.

I wonder what was wrong. Was it because i just rejected her? Is she mad at me for kissing her? I'm not exactly her boyfriend.. is that why? Did she figure me out 0.0? I can't tell but somethings definitely wrong.

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*Back to Ally*

I stayed in bed all morning until I had to leave for work and on top of that I had errands to do and stuff to clean. Cathy isn't speaking to me still, I've apologized a million times but she won't forgive me. Did I really upset her that much? How can I make it up to her?

I took out my laptop and started searching the web. Maybe if I buy her something she's always wanted she'll forgive me! But what is something Cathy always wanted?. Ugh. Plan B.

Perhaps I can just annoy her enough to forgive me! Yeah! I'll get all up in her face and be like, yo Cathy~ forgive me!! Nah that's so lame I'm such a loser.

If only Jay was free, I wouldn't be stressing this much about my current situation.

I remembered about the key chain suddenly, I searched my shorts I wore yesterday and pulled out the key chain, I attached it to my keys. I stared at it, 'Jay'

I smiled. All I could think about was the kiss, my heart got all warm. Jay.. even his name sounds hot haha ^^.

*DING*

Who texted me? It was a twitter update, "BTS fan sign this upcoming Saturday! Get your tickets now!" Thats when it hit me. I should buy tickets to a BTS fan sign, take Cathy, AND THEN SHE'LL NEVER EVER HATE ME!

Brilliant! I'm smart 8)

I clicked on the link and purchased the tickets through my phone using my credit card.

Done. Now I just have to wait till they come and it'll be a happily ever after!

I put my hair in a messy bun, changed into a pair of loose ripped boyfriend jeans ankle cut and threw on a white crop top and stayed in my black sandals. I'll probably go buy food to make dinner for Cathy before she gets home from work. I grabbed my keys and headed out.

I got back home from the market and headed straight to the kitchen and prepared dinner. The whole time I kept thinking about Jay, what was he up to?

2:42p.m. he's still with his brother. Wonder what they're doing that's taking so much time. Eh its whatever it's his brother let him be, I mean I'd kill to spend a day with my family I barely see them.

After dinner was finished I sealed everything so it wouldn't spoil. Then wrote a small note for Cathy. "Made you some dinner, hope you enjoy! -Al"

I grabbed my purse and was on my way to work.

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"Alright guys, you've worked hard. Have a good day. Oh and don't forget, fan sign on Saturday. Practice your english skills so you can interact with the fans." The BTS manager stated.

The boys nodded as they each began to gather their belongings.

Jimin:"I can't wait to meet N.Y A.R.M.Ys !"

Jungkook:"I'm a bit shy and excited at the same time ^^"

V:"hello! My name is V, yer name iz?. No no... yo-y-your name is?"

Suga:"I wonder what they will say to me"

RM:"I hope they're chill."

Jin:"I can almost imagine all the cute girls..."

J-Hope:"Can we go now.." he seemed to be not as interested in the conversation.

V:" is something wrong hyung?"

Jimin:"Hobie you mad xD?"

RM"Jimin -_-. Come on guys.

All the members got into the van and went back to the dorm.

Jimin:" its only 4:30p.m. lets go to Times Square! I want to buy MYSELF a gift since SOMEBODY forgot to get me something. Yes! Me! Park Jimin, the most important and fabulous member of BTS"

All the members knew Jimin was being obnoxious since there were cameras around. They had to go to Times Square anyways to shoot for their Go! Episode.

The boys roamed around the streets of Manhattan, some fans did notice them and followed them around.

Jimin:"this is awesome!"

Suga:"I wanna go to the Disney store!"

As the night led on, J-Hope only acted like he was okay but it was just a show for the cameras. Deep down inside he was hurting, he was over thinking about Ally. Wondering why she sounded upset this morning, he kept blaming himself since he kissed her. Assuming she felt like he used her or something, but that wasn't it.

Later on into the night the boys were back in their dorm and into bed. J-Hope couldn't sleep and decided to go out for a jog. He jogged to the park where he first met Ally. Retracing every place they jogged by. Remembering all that had happened ever since. He made his way back to the dorm and fell asleep.

> To be continued..