Thanks for everything

Julian had gotten up to use the restroom in the morning so i sat up while he was gone. "Sorry for waking you up Cassy" Julian said in a raspy morning voice which i could melt at.

"That's new, and it's okay" i said kissing him and he cupped my face and prolonged it. i wrapped my arms around his neck and he left a hickie on my neck

"Now everyone knows you're taken" he smiled and I rolled my eyes chuckling, he wrapped his arms around my lower back and gave me a soft kiss on my lips, I could stay like that forever. But it was ruined by Fab coming into his room without knocking

"shit sorry" he muttered walking quickly back out as he saw me and Julian in our underwear. I put on my clothes from last night and waited for Julian as he jumped in the shower real quick.

"why don't you go get cereal or something to eat I'm gonna get dressed and everything sorted out" he kissed me as he got out the shower so I looked down and saw he had no boxers on and blushed "like what you see, no? well good because you're the only good looking thing here" he joked stepping back so I threw some boxers at him and exited while still blushing.

"ooooo why are you blushing huh" Albert wiggled his eyebrows at me so I turned ever more red and grabbed some cereal and sat down eating "aww look at her guys she's blushing like crazy" Albert laughed and so did the others who were in the room so lowered my head and chomped down on cereal. Nick came up to me and smirked patting my head and stealing some of my cereal so I gave him an 'are you fucking kidding me' look but with a smile. I stood up and washed that one and sat back down eating again

"wow i dont have diseases you jerk" Nick said crossing his arm and i shrugged my shoulders while i gave him a side smile

"you can never be too sure man" I said sitting back down eating again and he stuck his tongue out and me and went back to the couch. Julian snook up behind me and kissed where he had last left his hickey so I smiled.

"Oh that's why she was blushing" Albert smirked at me

"Yah Albert me and Julian had sweet sweet sex" I said sarcastically taking a piece of cereal and flicking it at him. Even if I was joking Fab looked like he got sad when I said that, I wonder why? But I shrugged it off. I saw it was 9 so Julian needed to leave soon. I cleaned my dishes and put them away. "Do you need help putting your bags in when your cab comes?" I asked Julian

"You don't need to help I got this" he said but I stole a couple bags before he could do anything so he gave me the stank eye but I flashed a cheeky grin at him. Finally all the guys had their stuff down by the entrance of the apartment complex type thing and they called 2 cabs so they could fit their bags and their others stuff and themselves obviously. Julian pulled me into a very tight hug giving me a million kisses, I hugged him back "I'm gonna miss you Cassy" he said pouting and I kissed him  "promise me you'll try to pick up when I call you okay" he said stuffing his face in the crook of my neck and I nodded my head whispering an okay. The cab pulled around the corner and halted so I helped them put their stuff away "I love you" he said pulling me in for a long kiss so I took in every second before he would go, moving perfectly in sync with his lips

"Hey if you don't wanna be late I suggest you get in now before I leave ya!" yelled the taxi driver with a New York accent honking his horn. Julian looked at him then back to me grabbing my face kissing me one last time before hopping in with Albert and Nikolai while Fab and Nick went in the other. He mouthed 'call me' while the taxi drove away

"Wanna go home Cass" Joana asked rubbing my shoulder and I mumbled a yah while staring at the spot where they just were. We got in a taxi and drove back to our place. I got ready for work and drove entering class, I waved to the students as I plopped down on my chair

"So I'm not in the bests of moods so how about I just put on a movie for a chill day kind of thing or like a break from learning so much" I said and they cheered so I searched up a movie and played it. I did that with the other classes and when I got home I plopped down taking in the quietness of the apartment with them gone....

~~~2 weeks later~~~

I have been having morning sickness lately this is really strange I usually don't get sick easily. Joana has noticed I've been sick also and I've been craving random things

"Cass this may be a crazy thought but I think you should take a pregnancy test" she said and I looked at her crazily

"I'm not pregnant I think I just finally got sick for once or I have something else" I said getting nervous

"look just buy some tests because for all you know you may not be and we need to take you to the doctors for whatever you are feeling or what sickness you have" she said patting my back so I sighed grabbing my wallet and headed for the store. I bought them and started to walk back when the papz started taking pictures of me walking

"How do you feel on Julian leaving on tour" one of them shout

"Not that good but happy because he's doing something that he loves and if that means leaving me in New York I'm fine with that in all honesty" I said still walking

"Do you think he will cheat on you" another shouted, I stopped a little but kept walking

"No I have a lot of faith in him and when he's not rehearsing or performing he always calls me" I said hailing a taxi not wanting to talk anymore because of that question. I mean it's almost completely true he does but sometimes he goes out and drinks which kind of bothers me but the others keep him in check they say so I trust them. I got in the cab and drove back home, once I got there I went straight to the bathroom and took the test. I waited and it said negative so I sighed of relief, I cleaned up then went to Joanas room busting open the door "HA I TOLD YOU I WASNT PREGNANT!" I yelled and she took the test from me and looked at it

"Cass..." She said in a low voice so I looked at confused "2 lines means positive" and I took it back from her and looked at the 2 lines formed on the tiny screen. Tears formed in my eyes till they were falling onto the wooden floor making a little sound each time it would splash on the ground.

"No" I whispered and Joana hugged me tightly, I started to sob thinking how could this happen and only after a couple of weeks after he leaves I find this out so he can't be here to support me.....support me. What if he doesn't want a kid, I mean he's a rock star with girls just throwing themselves at him mindlessly. I mean why would he want a kid to burden him and his life, especially my kid. So I started to cry even more till I was sprawled out on the floor and Joana was comforting me.// A couple of days had passed and when talking to Julian I've been kind of distant.*ring ring ring* "Hello" I say answering my phone

"Hey Cass how are ya" Nick said through the phone and I was kinda shocked that he would call me

"Oh hey Nick I'm .... Fine" I said lying

"Well I'm fine too so um" he paused "I've noticed that you have been very distant with Julian and I know you aren't okay so what's wrong" and I took a deep breath

"I'm fine really nothing is wrong" I lied again and he knew I was lying

"Cass..." he said quietly so I started to cry "look I can keep a secret just please tell me so I know it's not that bad"

"I'm ... I'm pregnant" I sobbed and he shushed me through the phone "please don't tell Julian please" I begged and he sighed

"Okay I won't but please tell him soon, he needs to know this, it's his child" he said and I dried my tears

"I will I just...need time to think about things" I said looking down at my stomach

"Okay Cass gotta go but Julian loves you and feel better" he said and he hung up so I stayed quiet and laid on my back staring at the ceiling.// About a week later I finally find the courage to call Julian about me being pregnant *ring ring ring*"Uh hello" this lady says through the line

"Oh um I think I dialed the right number, this is Julian's phone right?" I asked confusedP"Oh yah my boyfriend" she said in an obvious Californian accent and seemed drunk so I became quiet

"Excuse me if I'm wrong, but Julian Casablancas' your boyfriend" I said choking up

"Uh yah, BABE!" She yelled to I guess Julian so I started to cry silently "wait who is this" she slurred

"Just say that Cassandra says thanks for everything and have fun" I broke down and slammed my phone on the table. Joana came rushing in as she heard me crying

"Oh my god what happened Cass" she asked laying me on my lap stroking my hair but I couldn't explain anything because I was crying so much. I later explained to her what happened after I was done crying. Throughout the whole night Julian had tried to call me but I would always send it to voicemail. This happened for a while till he stopped and gave up I guess.