Truth 2

I felt so... disgusted at myself and him.  Is that what he was telling everyone? Or did he actually think that and thought she actually wouldn't say anything?

Why would he tell her?

I mean, is that what he honestly thinks? He thinks without anyone I'd just kill myself? That's the last thing I'd do.

He watches Archer and Nelly tell everyone to get out, though majority of people got the que. His eyes come back to me. I wasn't exactly looking at him but at myself, but my eyes met with his.

All I felt was hate towards myself. I was just mentally sick, right?

I never felt so hurt in my life.

He takes a step forward but I take one back wrapping my arms around my body, trying to hide the most I can.

" Let me explain-" He says desperately.

I shake my head " I think you made it pretty clear to everyone what you really think."

I start to walk away, Cato grabs my wrist pulling me towards him, " Kay-"

" Don't touch me!" I tear my wrist from his hand, I feel tears in my eyes as I yelled at him. I feel like when I had my first flashback.

So blurry. I needed to get away I stumbled as I made my way back to the stairs.

I hear him call after me" Please-" I knew he was making his way towards me When Vad stopped him.

" Let her go Cato." Vad says. " Just let her take a breath. Help us get these people out."

I take a breath running up the stairs, I knew this was a bad idea. I should've just stayed in my room. Why did I need to open the door?

I feel the tears streaming down, the soft sobs escaping as I made my way to my room.

I throw off the stupid clothes I don't want to see one part of my body so I grabbed sweats and a sweatshirt. I looked at myself, though I shouldn't have.

You never look good when your crying, you especially don't look good when you 'sick' and crying.

I knew he really didn't care. Again he played me, just like with the bet. Why would he be so nice after I did that to him?

Taking care of me was probably his punishment for doing that to me. For triggering whatever the hell is now wrong with me.

I hear a banging from down stairs and yelling before it gets cut off.

Pretty soon I hear a soft knock on my door. " It's Vad."

I go opening up the door, he looks down at me. I couldn't hold it, " Vad." I sob. I wrap my arms around him, no hesitation he picks me up bringing me to my bed sitting down me wrapped around him.

" Try to calm down ok? I don't want you to have another episode."

That's what they're calling this? An Episode?

" He thinks I'm just mentally sick? That's why he was so nice? Because his parents are making him, I knew..I knew he was being to nice. He lied again."

" Just breathe Kaylaya." Vad says. " We don't know that. That's just what that girl said. She was just being mean, she's just insecure." He says trying to comfort me.

I finally caught my breath, focusing on my breathing I finally looking at him.

He grabs my face with his hands " Your not crying over him, do you hear me? And your not crying over what the bitch said, your better than that." He says strictly looking me straight in the eye.

" Is that what everyone thinks I am...mentally sick?" I ask, my lip quivering.

He sighs before shaking his head " No. No one thinks that. You went through the deadliest games in history, you lost to many people dear to you... your anything but weak. Do you hear me? Your one of the strongest people I know."

I nod.

He kisses my head " Good. I think, along with the girls and 12 can confirm your the greatest person we know."

I nod again in his shoulder. " I don't know what I'd do without you guys."

I hear him laugh, " I know. I'm pretty great aren't I?"

I look up at him giving a smile. " There that smile is." He says.

" I don't know why he's doing this. The stupid deal, now I made him break it."

Vad chuckles, " He'll survive. His dad sucks. But they'll get over it. If you talk to Zane, he will get over it."

" He shouldn't have dragged me back here. I knew he hated me."

" He doesn't hate you. He still loves you. Obsessed with you even."

" How can you be so sure." I ask.

He laughs, " He always makes conversation with you first, I see him looking at you all the time when others are talking to him, he's worried about your well being, and he went out of his way to bring you back here and care for you. That is caring at his finest, I see how he looks at you though, he sucks at showing it."

I sigh, " I want to go to bed." I feel the shot working it's way back in.

" Ok. I'll see you in the morning." He says. He let's go of me before walking out of the room. " I'll tell Cato not to bother you. I'll lock your door just in case."

" Thanks."

" Anytime bestie." He says with a stupid grin making me laugh as he shuts the door. Thank you Aspen for sending me him.

I hear mumbling before there was silence again. I drifted off to sleep eventually but I tossed and turned eventually being fully awake again.

Finally my body had enough sleep.

I looked at the clock, 3:30 AM

I sigh, I decide to go down stairs to watch tv and clean up a little bit. I know I won't be able to in the morning, I'll be leaving to go back to my parents house.

I take the blankets off of me opening my door, I thought I heard the Tv in the loft playing. Maybe Vad and the others accidentally left it on.

I step quietly, making sure I won't wake anyone. When I get closer there Cato was flipping through the channels. I stopped about to turn around but his eyes go to me.

Great.

I look for just a second before walking past.

" Kay.." he calls.

" Don't talk to me." I snap.

" Can we talk about this." He asks getting up following me.

" I have nothing to say."

I see the other Tv turned on, the three of them passed out on the chairs. Can't go down there.

I roll my eyes turning back to Cato who was a couple feet away from me. I make my way back to the loft trying to go past Cato but he blocks the way.

" Get out of the way." I demand.

He shakes his head, " Not until you let me talk."

I cross my arms looking up at him," I already know what your going to say... your so sorry, you didn't mean it, it was a huge mistake. We've been here a million times. How far off am I?"

" Come sit down. Please." He says quietly.

I contemplate, looking at the seat then at him, then the hallway where I came from where my door is with a lock.

" Please." He says again, though this time he sounded like he could barely get it out.

My eyes snapped back up to him, he was looking down at me waiting.

Damn you Hadley.

I sit on one of the over sized bean bags looking at him. He looks at me, it seems like we stare at eachother for forever.

" What do you want to say?" I ask quietly.

" I'm still trying to figure that out." He says.

" Fine I'll start. Was this a punishment from your parents? You caused the flashbacks so they're making you take care of me?

He furrows his brows" What? No-"

" - Then why?"

" Why what?" He asks.

I shake my head, " Why did you want me to come back here?"

He took a breath leaning fully back on the couch, I saw tears run down his face. I get up moving to the seat next to him.

" Because... Because I missed you. I should've fought harder when you said you wanted to be done. I shouldn't have done that. Because I can't live without you. And I was so pissed that I made you feel like that. And I wanted to get back at you so bad, but then this happened.." He trailed off wiping his face.

He sits a little forward now still tears running down his face, though he won't look at me. " That's why."

" Ok. And what's your excuse for Saige?" I ask. " I knew you didn't want to."

He sniffles," I needed to."

" Cato, why." I ask.He contemplates, debating whether to tell me or not. " You can tell me." I urge.

" My dad."

I pause, " I know. He wants the be head Peackeeper permentantly."

" No..No.. that's not why." He uttered.

" Why?"

" Because he said if I couldn't convince her to vote for him.. He'd make sure I'd never talk to you again. He said he's make you hate me." He said quickly. " I don't know how he could..but I know he would."

" I'll deal with him." I say plainly. " One more question.."

I feel my anger come back. " Why the hell did you tell her that about me?"

" She asked. She knew we weren't together anymore, I couldn't say because of her sister. So.. I made something up."

" You barely made anything up. If she was just a pawn,why would you make an excuse." I state.

" I don't know."

I turned from his face to my hands rubbing together. " You don't know?" I shake my head, " So you made me look like I was crazy? What you said was.."

I needed to take a breath. I fight back the tears of hurt back.

" What you said Cato was disgusting." I look back at him. " Why? Why would you say that about me? About me eating? Who does that?!" I half yell. " That's the worse thing you can comment about."

I feel the hurt pounding in my body making me cry all over again. Cato's face stiffens looking at me, " Kay.." He tries to pull me closer but I move further away wrapping my arms around myself.

He gets off the couch kneeling infront of me. " I'm so sorry." He grabs my arms but I pull away again wrapping them on myself, but he unravels them from my stomach, hanging on to them.

He rubs my knuckles with his thumbs looking at me, " Your perfect. You've always been perfect."

He kisses my knuckles over and over again. I was to sad to even do anything about it. " I'm such an idiot." He says looking at me. I feel my lip quiver as I look at him.

" If I could take it back I would Kaylaya. Please forgive me. I can't stand not being with you." He begs. " I know now why you don't love me anymore." He says more to himself.

I sniffle " I broke up with you because I was mad at you, not because I stopped loving you."

I realized what I said. My eyes go wide, he snapped his head towards me " You still love me?"

The alcohol said that not me. I mean I do, no matter what he does I always will. But are we right for eachother?

I freaked out,I stood up trying to go back to my room, but as per usual Cato was faster. He snatches my arm spinning me right back around." You still love me?" He says again.

I open my mouth but nothing comes out. He had both of my arms in his grip, not letting me go until I answer.

" I- Yea. Of course I do, But you really hurt me."

He let's out a breath I didn't realize he was holding, " What do you want Kaylaya?" Cato finally says.

" You answer first."

" I want you. I literally crave you, I need you more then I ever needed something before." I admits.

I look in his eyes, getting lost in them. He leans his head on mine, foreheads touching. I lean closer our lips just about to touch. I know Cato was desperately waiting for me to kiss him first but if he wanted it..

He leaned just a little further kissing me.

I pushed harder into him, deepening the kiss. I feel him smile against my lips happily obliging.

He kisses down jawline training down to my neck. He bites the tender part of my skin making me breathe faster.

" I don't want to do this yet." He whispers in my ear, he's looking me in my eye. " Actually, I would LOVE to... but I don't want our first time together to be today."

I nod, " We can still makeout right?" I ask innocently  as my hand goes under his shirt trailing up his stomach

He leans his head back, " Stop."

I giggle kissing his neck. " Stop what?"

I missed this body. " Who's better?" I ask.

He looks at me with a mischievous glint in his eyes, I'm doing the same thing as he did when I first kissed River.

" Who makes you feel better Cato?" I whisper in his ear before nibbling on it, planting kisses on his jawline and neck.

" You... definently you.." he manages to get out.

A huge smile creeps on my face. " That's what I thought."

I give him one more kiss before pulling away wanting to sit down but he pulls me back in going in for another kiss, but I push him back " That's what you get for letting that slut touch you."

I walk back to my room, making sure to sway my hips a little bit knowing well he's watching me.

" Can I at least come to bed with you?" He asks.

" As long as you don't touch me."

I've never seen him move so fast.

He comes in my room nearly body slamming me into the bed.

" Cato!" I warn though a smile was creeping on my face as I talk slowly, teasing him a bit more.

He puts a hand on my mouth, " We have company. Another reason why I'm not taking you right here... I don't want to to be quiet..I want to hear everything from you."

I couldn't help but blush, looking away from him.

" Don't look away from me." I look back up at him with warm cheeks. He looks down smiling at me he leans down kissing me again.

" Will you go out with me again Kaylaya Musak?"

" I'll need to sleep on it." I say as I go to lay on the bed.

He rolls his eyes, laying on the side of me. " Night."

" Night."

For the first night in a long time I've never slept better having him next to me, everything was right.