'Replacement? F*ck you.'

It was already two weeks into their vacation.

Y/n didn't really know how to face Riki after their drunk talks, so she figured silence is better than violence.

That's why after that night y/n had slept a lot at Jungwon's or Heeseung's hotel room.

Sunghoon didn't mind swapping over with y/n when she came into their dorm. And neither did Jay.

Jungwon and Heeseung were probably y/n's biggest comforts.

Ni-Ki was laying on the bed, scrolling through his phone.

"I'm going to Jungwon's again." Y/n said dragging along her small plushie that she brought.

That angered Ni-Ki.

"Again? You've slept there for the whole week already?" Ni-Ki said sounding annoyed.

"Yeah? What's it to you?" Y/n asked trying to get a clear answer.

"Nothing. Go. Go to Jungwon or whoever." Ni-Ki said while picking up his phone angrily.

"What is your problem? I'll go to Jungwon if I want to." Y/n said while her tone became stern.

"Just piss off. Go to your 'Heeseung-oppa'." Ni-Ki said emphasising the last part.

That really angered y/n. She thought that things would've gotten better..     

She was wrong.

"Seriously go fuck yourself you fucking asshole." Y/n said angrily.

"Still got feelings for me? If you do then why are you going around hm?!" Ni-Ki argued

y/n got upset and felt her heart become heavy.

"Fuck you Nishimura." Y/n said feeling angry at the fact he took advantage of her feelings.

Ni-Ki turned and realised what he had said after hearing her voice turn sad.

"Wait.." Ni-Ki yelled as he seen y/n walk out of the room sniffling while slamming the door.

Y/n ran into Jungwon's hotel room.

She knocked on the door while her sniffles became heavier.

She was going to burst any second.

Jungwon opened the door.

"Hey you're here-.." jungwon got cut off as y/n threw herself into a hug on him.

Jungwon was confused and panicked and quickly closed the door and took her into a deep hug.

Jay heard the noise and quickly rushed out from the living room.

"Jungwon! What's going on-.." Jay paused after he seen what was happening.

"Y/n..? What's the matter? What happened?" Jay's eyes softened after he seen her burst out in tears.

Jungwon looked at Jay and shook his head while giving him a signal to just leave them be.

Jay nodded and slowly left the hotel room.

"I'll go buy some beer. I'll be back soon." Jay said giving those two some space.

✩

After y/n calmed down a little, she sat down on the couch next to Jungwon and told him about what happened with Ni-Ki.

"No fucking way.. that dickhead. Ugh he's so frustrating!" Jungwon got angrier.

"It is also my fault for ignoring him this whole week.. I guess I should take responsibility." Y/n sighed.

"Don't blame yourself right now.. him saying that is also wrong. You guys just need to talk without lashing out on each other Nana. But before advice is comfort, come here." Jungwon said opening up his arms for a hug.

Both of them talked a little and then Jay came back with the beer after some time.

"Here. Beer, soju, drinks. Anything you'd like. I think that you'll need it for today." Jay said.

Y/n looked up at Jay with a sad look.

Jay was so caring it made her emotional again.

Jay was like a mom or a dad. Which y/n barely experienced because her parents were never around, they were only financial supporters.

She started crying again and Jay panicked.

"W-wait! What did I do? Why are you crying? Y/n it's okay don't cry!" Jay said trying to reassure her.

Jungwon gave Jay the angry mom look as if Jay just upset his child.

"No.. I'm fine I just feel a little.. overwhelmed." Y/n said.

Jay looked at her apologetically and caressed her back.

"Do you want me to go over into the other room with Ni-Ki while you stay here?" Jay asked.

Y/n shook her head while sniffling.

"You don't need to. The bed is quite big. I think it'll fit the 3 of us. Plus I feel bad for staying here this whole week." Y/n said while hiccuping.

"Okay. Well the tv works so let's see if I can log into Netflix and watch something?" Jay suggested.

"Yeah let's do that. Right y/n?" Jungwon said patting her back.

"Mhm." Y/n smiled with those sad eyes.

And then the whole night the three of them drank and watched the movie and played some games.

'These two are like the mom and dad I never had.' Y/n smiled sadly.

✩

The holidays came to an end. The group enjoyed their trip to Japan even if things got rough between y/n and Ni-Ki.

None of the two spoke a word to each other after the incident happened the previous week.

Y/n was  offended by what he said.

But she also didn't know how to talk to him after that kiss and slight confession.. maybe it was her fault.

✩

"Ughhh. I can't believe we're back already! This feels like torture.." Jake whined.

"Right?? I literally still remember the taste of that salty Japanese sea water.." Heeseung said.

"You guys realise that this is your last year? All of you are graduating except me and won." Y/n said.

The group was finally back at school. At the same lunch table. With the same people.

"It hurts to think about it! I hate school but thinking about uni scares me.." Sunoo said shaking his arms in a scared manner.

"Well.. me and hoon are off to bio. See you guys at lunch." Heeseung said grabbing Sunghoon.

Sunghoon waved and both of them disappeared.

"We're off too. We've got English right now. Luckily we ended up in the same class this year. Lucky us!" Jungwon said grabbing y/n.

✩

"Ugh that double period of English was tragic! Mr Namhyuk didn't give us a rest.. I still don't even remember how to say 'Hello' in English!" Y/n whined.

"Right?? I don't think I'll ever be the same without Mrs Naeum for English.." Jungwon said also exhausted.

"I'm so hungryy.. I could literally eat-.." y/n got cut off as Jungwon yelled.

"Y/N! LOOK. Isn't that the Hoyeon girl?" Jungwon pointed out.

Jungwon and y/n were standing at the entrance to the cafeteria.

"Ughhh.. I forgot this bitch was joining.. great this sucks." Y/n lost energy even more.

"Well whatever. Let's go to our table. Heeseung promised to buy me strawberry milk." Y/n gave up.

"Hmm." Jungwon said giving that Hoyeon girl the glare.

"Hey guys." y/n said lifelessly sitting down.

"Yo." Jungwon joined and sat down too.

"You two look exhausted. What class did you guys just have?" Jay asked.

"English. Double." Jungwon whined.

Y/n slammed her head on the table.

"Here. As promised. Cheer up!" Heeseung said placing a strawberry milk infront of y/n as she layed her head on the cafeteria table.

"Thanks Heeseung." Y/n smiled while she lifted her head and opened up the carton.

"Oh yeah. That girl is here. What's her name? Hoyin? Hayeon? I don't remember." Heeseung said.

Jungwon glared at Heeseung.

'Boy shut your mouth right now!' Is what Jungwon's eyes were saying.

Heeseung gulped and laughed it off awkwardly.

"So. Where are Sunghoon, Ni-Ki, Sunoo and Jake?" Jungwon asked.

"Well Sunoo and Jake are training right now for a match they both have on Saturday, and I have no idea where those other two are." Heeseung said.

"Oh wait. Nevermind I do. They're over there." Heeseung said pointing.

The group turned around lazily and seen Hoyeon wrapped around Ni-Ki's arm while the other girl from the festival was talking to Sunghoon.

"Man. That Hoyeon girl seems really into Ni-Ki." Jay said.

Jungwon glared at him. Jay realised that he was staring.

"Was I wrong?" Jay asked confused.

"Haha.. he's probably being held against his will. I mean look! He visibly looks uncomfortable!" Jungwon said.

Y/n just blankly stared at those two.

'Replacement? Fuck you.' Y/n thought.

'Well.. there's nothing I can do.' Y/n felt her heart just become cold.

She wasn't even upset or angry. She was drained. All of the life in her was drained.

"I'm gonna go to the toilet. I'll be back. " Y/n said.

"Okay. Don't take too long or else your food will get cold!" Jungwon said.

After she left he sighed.

'Poor Nana..' Jungwon thought giving Ni-Ki the most uncomfortable look.

✩

Y/n just went to the bathroom and splashed some cold water on her face.

'I know I'm fucked up. But do I really deserve this?..' y/n sighed while looking emotionlessly at her reflection in the mirror.

She was just hovering over the sink while some girls walked in.

She didn't really pay attention as she was too out of it from earlier.

Well.. until the conversation the girls were having turned interesting.

"Ugh this is so annoying.. another girl in my way! How am I ever going to talk to him?? Do I also have to wear a tight skirt and show my tits a little?" Iseul said.

'Huh? Who are they talking about?' Y/n thought listening in carefully while pretending to wash her hands.

"No you idiot. That girl just thinks that flashing her ass in his face will make him want to fuck her." Yujin sighed while going over to the sink beside y/n.

'Wait.. isn't that Iseul girl into Ni-Ki?!' Y/n caught on.

"So what should I do thenn! I'm really tired of not being- oh! Hey y/n." Iseul said realising it was y/n washing her face in the sink.

Chohee and Yujin focused their attention to y/n.

"Oh hey it's you! Y/n.. Nanaki?" Chohee said trying to remember the name.

"Hey guys..! Yeah I'm y/n Nanaki haha." Y/n said trying to play it off as if she wasn't listening.

"Oh right! Iseul don't worry, we asked y/n for a favour didn't we?" Yujin said.

"Oh! You're right!" Iseul said.

"Favour?" Y/n asked puzzled.

"Before the summer we asked for a little help with Nishimura Riki. Is there any progress?" Yujin asked.

"Oh right! Well uh.. I found out he likes.. short dresses? Like summer dresses.. I'm pretty sure." Y/n said afraid of what the other girls will say.

"Really?! Well that's good to know! I'll just dress nicely." Iseul cheered.

Chohee and Yujin smiled.

"Thanks y/n. If you have any more info or even small things tell us! We owe you so if you need something ask us!" Chohee said waving to y/n with a smile.

"Bye-bye!" Iseul said smiling widely.

Yujin waved also smiling.

Y/n waved back feeling a warmth in her body but sorrow and regret in her heart.

'It's great that I'm finally slowly making progress with making girl friends but.. why do I feel so guilty?' Y/n thought looking at herself in the mirror.

"Could it be.. I just don't want anyone to take him?"  Y/n spoke to herself.

No one else was in the toilets because first of all it was a small room plus all the cubicles were empty.

So y/n could freely have her time.

✩

For the next month or so y/n and Ni-Ki didn't utter a word to each other.

But y/n's mom did utter a word to y/n. That wasn't great. Atleast for y/n.

✩

"YOU'RE GOING AWAY?!" Jungwon yelled in shock and sadness.

"Yeah.. for the next year I won't be in school.. and I don't know if I'll be back at all.." y/n sadly announced.

The whole group was there when that was announced, except Ni-Ki who kept hanging around Hoyeon.

The worst part was y/n still liked Ni-Ki after all of that. No matter how hard she tried to move on, her heart brought her back to him.

"So.. you're.. leaving? Maybe even forever?" Heeseung asked in an extremely broken tone.

"No. I'll be back in a year or 2. I hope.." y/n sighed and placed her head on the desk because she felt tears in her eyes forming.

'God.. why am I so sensitive? Crying over everything..' y/n thought while trying to hold in her tears.

"So.. where are you going?.."Sunoo asked.

"I'm going across the globe.. I'll be extremely far away from you guys." Y/n felt tears bubble up.

"You'll be in.. America?" Jay realised.

"Mhm.." y/n sighed and didn't lift her head of the table. If she looked at anyone else sad face, she's also break.

The whole group went silent and sad trying to process the information they've just received.

"So.. when are you.. like.. leaving?" Sunghoon asked also being sad.

"I'm leaving.." y/n paused and sighed.

"In 4 days." Y/n announced.

Jungwon felt heartbroken.

"You can't leave! Who am I gonna sleepover with? And gossip? And my classes?! Who am I gonna laugh with? If you go I'll miss you. 2 years?! That's so long.." Jungwon said as his voice slowly broke.

The rest of the group just stayed silent as y/n looked down ashamed.

"Well.. it's all my parents fault I guess.. they never really want anything good to happen to me." Y/n smiled sadly.

"But you just joined before summer! How are you going to adjust at your new school?" Jake asked

"My parents arranged everything.. let's just forget about this and spend these last 4 days together? I'd love it if my last days in Korea for some time would be with my favourite people." Y/n said softly also feeling emotional.

Jungwon threw himself on y/n and into a hug and the rest of the group soon after followed Jungwon.

✩___________________________________

𝐈 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥 𝐚𝐛𝐬𝐨𝐥𝐮𝐭𝐞𝐥𝐲 𝐞𝐯𝐢𝐥 𝐛𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐲 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐝𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬.

𝐀 𝐘𝐄𝐀𝐑? 𝐨𝐫 𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐧 𝐚 𝐩𝐨𝐬𝐬𝐢𝐛𝐢𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲 𝐨𝐟 𝟐.

𝐖𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐠𝐮𝐲𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲 𝐡𝐚𝐬 𝐚 𝐥𝐨𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐬𝐭 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐝𝐨𝐧'𝐭 𝐰𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲. 𝐘𝐨𝐮 𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐬𝐨𝐨𝐧 𝐛𝐞 𝐛𝐥𝐞𝐬𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐫𝐞𝐰𝐚𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐝 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐟𝐥𝐮𝐟𝐟 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐬𝐩𝐢𝐜𝐲 𝐬𝐜𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐬.

𝐀𝐥𝐬𝐨 𝐈'𝐦 𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐧𝐞𝐱𝐭 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐌𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓 𝐛𝐞 𝐝𝐞𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐞𝐝. (ﾒ﹏ﾒ)

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