'Don't go, I..'

The next day after y/n dropped that news, everyone was depressed. Everyone who knew.

Ni-Ki didn't.

✩

"Hey.. so.. did you end up telling Nishimura?" Jungwon asked.

"Riki? No.. I don't want to tell him. It's not like he'll  believe it anyway. He's too busy with Hoyeon to even care." Y/n said trying to not act upset over the fact she's been 'replaced'.

"Ah. Okay. Well whatever you decide on it's your choice. I'm gonna spend every last second with you. A year or even possibly 2 is a long time Nanaki.." Jungwon sighed.

"I-.. I don't want to leave you all by yourself. You've always been alone because of Tanuka and Jineul.." Jungwon said.

——————————————————————————𝐖𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭𝐞: 𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐬𝐞 𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐲/𝐧'𝐬 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐞𝐧𝐭'𝐬 𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞𝐬.

𝐃𝐚𝐝: 𝐓𝐚𝐧𝐮𝐤𝐚 𝐍𝐚𝐧𝐚𝐤𝐢

𝐌𝐨𝐦: 𝐉𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐮𝐥 𝐍𝐚𝐧𝐚𝐤𝐢

𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐲'𝐫𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐫𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐝 𝐬𝐨 𝐛𝐨𝐭𝐡 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦 𝐬𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐬𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞 𝐨𝐛𝐯𝐢𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐥𝐲.

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"What can I do won-ah? They haven't even directly told me the information. It was their secretary who called me. My parents are just great people right?" Y/n said adding sarcasm to the end.

"Y/n..." Jungwon said softly looking at y/n with pure sorrow.

Y/n sighed and tried to fake smile but it turned into a sad one.

"Can I stay over at your house for the last 3 days? School won't be on later.. obviously since it's Friday." Jungwon said.

"Yeah. I only have until Monday anyway. I'm leaving in the morning. Today is my last school day.." y/n sighed looking down at the strawberry milk she bought.

Both Jungwon and y/n had lunch break right now and were outside on school grounds on a bench talking.

"So today is our last English lesson? I hate that class enough as it is but now I'll despise it." Jungwon's voice started to break.

"Won.." y/n looked at him apologetically and took him into a small hug.

"We'll keep in touch everyday okay? I'll find a way to contact you even if there's a huge time difference." Y/n said.

"That's a promise! Also I have a suggestion." Jungwon said.

"Hm?" Y/n said.

"Do you want to throw a party? Just a casual one. It doesn't have to be a goodbye one or anything." Jungwon suggested.

"Mhm. You can invite the guys if you'd like." Y/n said smiling lightly.

She felt drained from thinking about leaving even though her life practically just started.

All the happiness in her life that slowly started to built up was ruined by her parents, again.

"Well.. I'm gonna head to the toilet. I'll see you in English Wonnie." Y/n said waving.

✩

"Yo. Ni-Ki. I have to talk to you." Jake said.

"Yeah what's up?" Ni-Ki said.

"I need to talk to you. Alone." Jake highlighted the last word.

"Aww. Come on! I also want to hear! Let me in on your guy chat." Hoyeon whined.

"Dude. ALONE means ALONE." Jake snarled at Hoyeon.

"Alright. Wait here Hoyeon. I'll be back." Ni-Ki said.

"Okay~" Hoyeon said.

Jake just looked at both of them disgusted.

They started walking away from Hoyeon whilst Jake was just irked at their relationship/ friendship or whatever they had going on.

"You're really shameless you know that?" Jake said.

Both of them were standing in a corner with some vending machines surrounding them.

"What? What do you mean?" Ni-Ki said cluelessly.

"You keep hanging around Hoyeon all the time. We only ever see you at break. Are you two even dating to the point you're leaving us?" Jake asked making his tone angered.

"No we're not. And you see me a lot already. Outside of school and elsewhere. I don't see what's the problem in me talking to some girls like before?" Ni-Ki said.

"Dude. I don't give a fuck about your love life. I do give a fuck when you leave the group all the time for that stupid pick me whore." Jake said irked.

"Huh? So it's fine when others leave to do other stuff but I can't?!" Ni-Ki said getting annoyed and confused why Jake is acting like this.

"Listen. Do you even care about your friends anymore? Cause from what I know, I thought we were all close." Jake said.

"We are close? I'm close to all of you." Ni-Ki said.

"Oh really? Then were you there when Nanaki announced something important?!" Jake said getting angrier by the second.

"No? But does it look like I give a shit about her?" Ni-Ki said getting annoyed that Jake is mentioning her.

"You fucking asshole." Jake said sternly.

"HUH?! Who are you to call me an asshole?!-.."Ni-Ki got cut off by Jake. Jake pushed him to the ground.

"Y/n is fucking leaving to go study in America for 2 fucking years. Now do you give a shit?" Jake said as his voice slowly broke.

Ni-Ki's eyes softened.

"You're fucking lying. I don't have time for this." Ni-Ki said getting up.

"I can't believe you still care only about yourself. Prick." Jake said being upset and walking away from Ni-Ki.

Jake wasn't crying but he was frustrated about Ni-Ki's words.

'There's no way right?..

....

Right..?' Ni-Ki thought trying to gaslight himself but slowly got concerned.

✩

Those last 3 days y/n spent with the 6 of them, Ni-Ki wasn't there. Jake told y/n what had happened and y/n expected as such. She didn't have any more tears to give to him. Her eyes were dry from crying before.

✩

Monday. Leaving day.

Y/n's apartment was silent. Jungwon had left the day before. All of the guys said goodbye to her. Some of them cried, some of them stayed silent, and one of them didn't even say anything or cared.

Y/n's apartment buzzer rang.

Y/n stood up. The clock read 2.00am.

Y/n looked at who was there through the camera.

Y/n. It's us. Let us in. Y/n's mom said through the buzzer.

Y/n let them in.

'Wow.. they're actually here for once.' Y/n thought.

Sooner or later they entered.

"I see you're packed. Good. The private jet is reserved for 4.00am and 4.30 it takes off." Y/n's dad said.

'Why.. why do I have to leave? Why can't I fucking stay?!' Y/n thought.

'Fuck it. Fuck everyone.'

"You.. never really gave a shit about how I felt did you?" Y/n said staring down at the floor angrily as she stood infront both of her parents in that silent, cold apartment.

"Y/n Nanaki! Language." Y/n's mom retorted.

"We provide everything you need. The finest education, money, and your own apartment. And you're still ungrateful?! Many people would love to have a life like yours!" Y/n's dad said.

"Ungrateful? What do I be grateful for? The fact that you fucking left for all of my childhood? The fact that when I fucking finally found happiness you took it away from me?! Grateful for what tell me.." y/n screamed at her parents as she glared at them right in the eyes.

She's never spoke to her parents in such manner before.

"You dare speak to us like that?! We made you and created your whole personality!" Y/n's mom said angrily.

"You created money! You only gave me a fucking pile of money. Do you think that would make up for those 18 years you left me by myself?! I'm a fucking adult. I even considered grandma to be more of a mom than you! You're horrible. You only love yourself and your stupid fucking job. You're so engrossed with your work you even forgot that I'm your fucking daughter not worker." Y/n snapped as she felt tears in her eyes slowly building up.

Her parents stayed silent.

"For your information. I study well. I fucking try my hardest. To make you proud. To make you happy. Because I want you to finally notice me and realise that I'm also worthy. But all you ever cared about is each other and money. You never gave the slightest shit about me. Now that I'm 18 I finally realised. I don't deserve to be treated like this. If you send me off into America I'll just find a way to kill myself. There's literally nothing in this world that will want to make me live." Y/n said as angry tears rolled down her cheeks.

"You dare mention to end your life when we gave you it..?!" Y/n's dad said.

Y/n's mom stopped y/n's dad from speaking.

"Can both of you stop changing my life for your own benefit and stop pretending that you care about me if I'm not even happy myself with who you've turned me into?!" Y/n said as she cried angrily.

"Y/n.. we-.." y/n's mom said.

"I don't want to fucking leave, mom. Can I even call you that at this point? I love it here and for once I found a place and people that I finally feel like treat me like a family and home. And you want to take all of my happiness for your own benefit.. fuck you." Y/n said storming out of her apartment.

"Y/n Nanaki come back here this second!" Her dad yelled.

Her mom placed a hand on his shoulder while shaking her head.

✩

Y/n sat on a park bench next to the Han River.

It was still dark outside as it was extremely early in the morning.

Y/n cried her eyes out while staring at the empty dark lake.

No one was there, only her and that empty bench.

'Am I even loved at this point?..' y/n thought.

✩

Y/n eventually stopped crying after 15 minutes, and then she stared at the river with pure emptiness in her eyes.

But then a message popped up on her phone.

'Riki 🖕'

Y/n quickly picked up her phone.

'Huh?! When the hell has he sent a message.'

Riki 🖕

Y/n? Are you sleeping?

Haha.. you probably are..

Well I'm stupid for texting you after all of the fucked up shit I've done to you but I need to ask you something.

Are you actually leaving?

Yeah.

Meet me at Han river right now.

Read.

'WHAT?!' Y/n panicked.

"Fuck. He lives near here I forgot." Y/n mentally slapped herself.

She just put her hood up as it was a little cold.

'Autumn is definitely here.' She thought.

A couple of minutes pass and someone sits next to her.

'He's here.' Y/n thought.

They both just stayed silent at the beginning.

"Y/n. Why didn't you tell me before..?" Ni-Ki said.

"...why should I need to? You're too preoccupied with Hoyeon." Y/n said lifelessly.

"Y/n I've known you for 13 fucking years. Hoyeon is nothing compared to that." Ni-Ki said genuinely.

Y/n looked at him. Usually she would feel flustered but now she felt emotionless and couldn't give less of a fuck on what he says.

"Riki. I might aswell tell you since I'm leaving soon anyway." Y/n said standing up and going to stand at a railing.

Ni-Ki did the same and followed her while looking at her.

Y/n sighed and turned to him.

"Nishimura Riki. I like you. Actually no. I love you. I've always loved you ever since we met. Nothing has changed over those years. I've loved you for 13 years and even through our tough times I've stayed the same about my heart. That's why today I want to tell you because I finally want to get over you." Y/n said truthfully. Truthfully she did feel a little embarrassed saying it but what was there to lose anyway?

"Huh?.. HUH? WAIT WHAT." Ni-Ki said feeling his whole face heat up.

Y/n stayed silent.

"Y/n.. wait HUH?..." Ni-Ki said.

"Well. That's all I wanted to hear. I'll take that as a rejection. Goodbye Riki. It was nice knowing you. And loving." Y/n said starting to walk away.

"WAIT! Don't go I-..." Ni-Ki said. He grabbed her wrist.

Y/n turned to look at him.

"You?" Y/n said.

"I.. l.. ah fuck I can't say it." Ni-Ki said rubbing his head.

"And that's exactly why I want to move on. You don't even know yourself or how you feel. Take care. Riki." Y/n tried to loosen his grip.

"Hey! Let go. I said take care!" Y/n said as Ni-Ki's grip tightened around her wrist.

"No! I'm not letting you go for another 3 years again! I went through tough shit when you weren't there. I'm never letting you go again!" Ni-Ki declared.

"Riki. 3 words. 8 letters. That's all I need to hear. I want you to know your own feelings." Y/n said sadly.

"I.. fuck.. I-.." Ni-Ki said feeling embarrassed.

Y/n smiled sadly.

"See. Don't force words out your mouth when you feel embarrassed saying them. Goodbye Riki. Let go of me." Y/n said.

Ni-Ki finally let go.

✩

Y/n went back home and dreaded it along the way.

'Well.. I finally told him. It's not like anything will happen anyway. I've already even lost hope in my own self.' Y/n thought.

"I'm back." Y/n said coldly as she walked in.

She seen her parents behind the counter looking at her apologetically.

"Y/n. We've came to a proposal." Y/n's dad said.

Y/n stood infront of them at the entrance of the living room.

"We'll send you to America for 2 months. If you agree and study and test things out there and aren't happy there. We'll send you back to Korea at the end of November. You'll be an exchange student there. If you do as we say and accept this proposal. We'll never meddle with your life again and only provide you financially as you wish." Y/n's mom said with a hint of sadness in her eyes.

Y/n thought.

'Do I really accept this and only go for 2 months?' Y/' thought.

"You promise you'll never change anything again and return me back to my current school?" Y/n said.

"We promise. We'll even sign a contract or record a video evidence." Y/n's dad said.

"I agree. You better keep your word however." Y/n said.

✩

Later on y/n was on the private jet to America. Before she left she made sure to take her most valued items. This was still going to be her apartment in 2 months.

'2 months shouldn't be that hard right?..' y/n thought.

✩

As she arrived after a painful 13 hours of flying, she texted Jungwon about everything.

Jungwon was exhilarated to hear the news.

But y/n told him not to tell anyone. Just incase something bad would've happened.

She also told Jungwon how she came clean about her feelings to Ni-Ki. She didn't exactly tell him all the details about that but just the main topic.

So with that being said..

See you in 2 months y/n.

✩___________________________________

𝐋𝐀𝐃𝐈𝐄𝐒 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐆𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐒 𝐀𝐍𝐃 𝐀𝐋𝐋 𝐌𝐘 𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐒

𝐒𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐠𝐨𝐨𝐝 𝐧𝐞𝐰𝐬 𝐟𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲!

𝐈'𝐦 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐡𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐲 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐢𝐬 𝐝𝐨𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐬𝐨 𝐟𝐚𝐫 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐚𝐦 𝐬𝐞𝐫𝐢𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐥𝐲 𝐬𝐨 𝐠𝐫𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐟𝐮𝐥 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐨𝐟 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐫𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐛𝐨𝐨𝐤 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐯𝐨𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐢𝐭.

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- 𝐥𝐞𝐤𝐬𝐚 💕

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