Chapter 57

YOUR P.O.V.

*that evening*

Y/N- *walks in the bedroom* *sees Diggy putting a jacket on* *looks at him* Where you going?

Diggy- I gotta go out and see Spin.

Y/N- *confused* Where? We just had dinner, I thought w..

Diggy- *looks at you* *snaps* Thought what?

Y/N- *jumps a little* Nothing.. just that you were gonna spend tonight with me.

Diggy- *pauses* No. *grabs his keys*

Y/N- *stares at him*

Diggy- What? What do you want Y/N?

Y/N- Don’t tlak to me like that, what the hell has gotten into you lately?

Diggy- Nothing, now move.

Y/N- No, I won’t fucking move! I’ve been busting my ass all day so you can have a nice life at home, I’ve been looking after Malik, handling your schedule, cleaning this house and made you dinner! This is all fucking stressing me out and I just want you to realise how much I want you to appreciate me. Your attitude is fucking stressing me out

Diggy- What, you gonna run and cheat on me with another nigga cause I’m stresisng you out?

Y/N- Can’t you just drop that!? It’s been months! I don’t even talk to Troy, I don’t talk to anybody else..

Diggy- *takes a step closer to you* And why not?

Y/N- *swallows hard* You know why

Diggy- Yeah, it’s cause I’ll kill yo ass if you go near another nigga again. Doesn’t matter who he is, we’re getting married soon and if you mess up again..

Y/N- *looks at him* What? You’re gonna do what? Say what? What can you do to me that’s gonna hurt me as much as I hurt you with a mistake! A mistake I regret with my life!

Diggy- *turns to look away from you* Don’t test me right now Y/N. *looks at you* And don’t look at me like that either

Y/N- *scrunches her eyebrows* Like what?

Diggy- You know what. 

Y/N- Diggy, I’m just looking atchu and what you’re wearing, is that a crime?

Diggy- *walks up to you*

Y/N- *drops her arms by her side* *backs into the wall* *fingers tremble*

Diggy- *comes face to face with you*

He was only a few inches taller than me.. it only enough that he’d have to look down at me, and it was intimidating. I jumped as he came closer. I’d been treading on eggshells with Diggy for the past few months. 

I guess work was really taking up a lot of his time since he was always away from home, working and meetings until late at night. And away from me. Made me feel like I’d done something wrong and he wasn’t as attracted to me as he used to be. But he always made it clear, using sex, that I was still his only one. His patience with me and Malik had been wearing thin. I don’t know what made him change. He’d shout at me, intimidate me.. often become violent towards me, but never lay a hand on me. 

He came right up to me, his nose touching my forehead. he swiped a piece of hair over my ear and leaned down to kiss me.. passionately. As he always did when he was going to leave the house. More often than before.I watched him go in his all-black outfit and beige jacket. He didn’t know I’d been having doubts. I knew he wasn’t with whoever he said. But I kept that to myself. 

DIGGY’S P.O.V.

*20 minutes later*

Zendaya- *opens the door in lingerie* *smiles* Hey..

Diggy- *licks his lips* *picks her up instantly*

Zendaya- *squeals and laughs* Diggy! Not again!

Diggy- *closes the front door*

This girl.. I don’t know hat it was. She was the whole package to anyone else, beautiful, smart, crazy and had her own. But.. I didn’t want her. She was my sexual activity. Someone I used to get my stresses off my mind. I was infatuated with Zendaya.. but in love, so deeply and obsessively in love with Y/N. It annoyed me all the time why I did her wrong, why I was like this.. it’d been months and she hadn’t caught on. No questions, no accusations, she was never one to make them anyway, but it seemed like she thought everything was perfect. It hurt to look at her and lie to her. So why didn’t I stop? Because I was selfish. I wanted everything to myself, even if I truly couldn’t have it, I’d waste no time getting it.

Zendaya, the model, the beauty, the world’s favourite. My secret. Fulfilled my sexual desires more and more each time we fucked. But it was nothing compared to Y/N. She was a fantasy, a dream.. my only desire. Sigh. Why did I have to hurt her?

*an hour later*

Zendaya- *straddles above him* I wanna ask you something.

Diggy- *smiles* Anything.

Zendaya- I want us to be official.

Diggy- *face drops*

Zendaya- *holds his hands* I want us.. to actually be an us.

Diggy- *sighs* Babe.. *sits up*

Zendaya- *gets off him*

Diggy- *looks at her* You know that can’t happen

Zendaya- *raises an eyebrow* So what has to happen for it to happen?

Diggy- I’m not breaking up with Y/N.

Zendaya- *sighs with annoyance*

Diggy- *pulls her back* Don’t walk away from me, please

Zendaya- Well what do you want?

Diggy- I want you.

Zendaya- No. You want Y/N.

Diggy- I want you both

Zendaya- *laughs* That’s not happening! I wanna be your official girl, your only girl. I don’t wanna be trying and trying with you and she’s always better than me. Is she better than me?

Diggy- *looks away and bites his lip*

Zendaya- *slaps his arm* Well?

Diggy- It’s complicated.

Zendaya- It’s an easy fucking question.

Diggy- *grumbles* Zen, stop making this harder..

Zendaya- I just wanna know what you want! It’s been months Diggy. Months. I wanna know where this is going

Diggy- Come here..

Zendaya- *pouts a little*

Diggy- *pulls her into his lap* *kisses her* I’ll work this out.

Zendaya- *sighs*

YOUR P.O.V.

Y/N- *dials her phone* *wait s for an answer*

Spin- Y/N, I’m busy...

Y/N- Oh.. sorry.

Spin- *sighs* What’s up?

Y/N- Is he with you?

Spin- Who? Diggy.. um..

Y/N- Please.. Spin, don’t lie to me. I haven’t got the energy for it.

Spin- *pauses* He’s not here. I haven’t seen him in weeks.

Y/N- Weeks?

Spin- Mm hm

Y/N- *puts her hand on her head and sighs*

Spin- You okay?

Y/N- I.. I need to go. Thanks bro, I’ll talk to you soon. *hangs up* *gets up and grabs her keys*

*half an hour later*

Evie- *closes the front door* So what did you need to tell me?

Y/N- *sits on the couch* *blinks away her tears* It’s just.. *looks up to stop the tears*

Evie- *looks at you worriedly* Sis.. *sits beside you* What’s wrong, tell me? Please..

Y/N- I think he’s cheating on me.

Evie- *eyes widen* Really? I mean, really?

Y/N- *wipes her eyes* I always thought he’d never do that to me. Ever.

Evie- *rubs your back* You thought he was perfect.

Y/N- *nods*

Evie- *sighs* *mouth to herself* Thank God.. *looks at you* Sis, what you gonna do?

Y/N- *looks down* I don’t say anything.

Evie- *lowers her tone* What?

Y/N- We’re getting married soon, Evie. Besides, I don’t have any proof.. I just think he is and.. *sniffles* I want our family to work *starts trembling*

Evie- Y/N, stop worrying..

Y/N- I can’t..

Evie- *holds your shaking hands* Did you take your meds?

Y/N- *nods* They don’t work.. I’ve been worried all day about him..

Evie- You’ve still got post natal depression, you gotta keep takign them Y/N..

Y/N- *sniffles* Evie, I..

Evie- No, listen to me. You have to talk to him

Y/N- But..

Evie- No. *holds your hands a little firmer* You have to. You were amazing before him and you’ll be amazing without him

Y/N- He made me who I am.. my marriage, my career.. my son, my life.

Evie- *rolls her eyes* Bullshit, that was all you. Talk to him. Go back home right now and talk it all out. Please! Take Malik and make it right. Please. For me. 

Y/N- *takes a deep breath* Okay.

*at the house half an hour later*

Diggy- *gets up from the couch* *walks to the door* Y/N, where were you? Babe, I got all worried, you weren’t answering your phone. I thought you ran off somewhere with Malik..

Y/N- I.. was at Evie’s..

Diggy- *folds his arms nervously* Oh.. And what happened?

Y/N- What do you mean? She just wanted to make sure I was okay. And i had to take back that.. that pasta dish she gave to me

Diggy- *looks at you* Oh.

Y/N- *looks him up and down* There’s a pink stain on your jacket, Dig..

Diggy- *looks at his shoulder* Oh.. *takes it off*

Y/N- Something you wanna tell me?

Diggy- Yeah.. the wedding planner says the dates are good *smiles* *holds your hands*

Y/N- Wait, what?

Diggy- So it’s up to us both to pick somewhere between the 12th July and the 3rd August *smiles*

Y/N- *smiles* Really?

Diggy- *pulls you for a kiss* Yeah. I’m excited, arent’y ou?

Y/N- *pushes him away* Wait.. so you’re not cheating on me?

Diggy- What?

Y/N- Are you cheating on me?

Diggy- You gotta be out of your mind. I’d never do that to you babe.

Y/N- You’re not lying to me?

Diggy- I swear. *laughs* Why would I hurt you any more than I have in the past? I love you.. *kisses you tenderly*

Y/N- *kisses him back*

*the next morning*

DIGGY’S P.O.V.

Zendaya- *throws a folder on the desk*

Diggy- *looks at it then her* What’s this?

Zendaya- Open it. 

Diggy- *opens the folder*

They were just.. pictures. Of her. Modelling, in bikinis, her body, her face, her lips. Naked, clothed, pouting and natural, selfies and professional shots. Shots I hadn’t seen ever before. Damn. I couldn’t stop staring at them.

Zendaya- I want to be your girl.

Diggy- *looks up* Zen..

Zendaya- I’m tired of sharing you with her. I hate it. I want to be your only girl and the one everyone knows is yours.

Diggy- That can’t happen. *pushes the photos in the folder*

Zendaya- *walks to the door* Well guess what’s happening..

Diggy- *sighs* What?

Zendaya- I’m pregnant. *leaves the room*

Diggy- *stands up and rushes to follow her*

Zendaya- *walks down the corridor*

Diggy- *pulls her to the wall* You’re not serious

Zendaya- *loosens his grip* Diggy..

Diggy- Tell me you’re not serious. 

Zendaya- *pulls out the pregnancy test from her bag* 100%.

Diggy- *snatches it* *looks at it* *slowly hands it back to her*

Zednaya- *walks off*

Diggy- *pulsl her*

Zendaya- *lowly* Get the fuck off me!

Diggy- You can’t keep it..

Zendaya- Why? We’re going to be together anyway..

Diggy- No, no we’re not.

Zendaya- *blinks at him* What?

Diggy- I..

Zendaya- Was this a fun ride for you? It’s all games and exciting tilly ou get her knocked up with your kid.. 

Diggy- Keep your voice down. Ain’t nobody wanna hear a spoiled daddy’s girl making noise at Def Jam Records.

Zendaya- They’d love to hear this news, where’s Troy..

Diggy- *grabs her arm* No. This.. can’t happen. 

Zendaya- My body, my rules. I’m keeping this ba..

Diggy- You’re getting rid of it. Immediately. I know a good doctor..

Zendaya- No, Diggy.

Diggy- *looks around and grips her closer* Yes. Yes you’re going to do as I say because you need me.

Zendaya- *trembles in his arms* *looks at him like he’s crazy*

Diggy- *releases her* I’ll see you later..

Zendaya- *walks off quickly* *breathes deeply*

YOUR P.O.V.

*at home a few days later*

Y/N- *laughs on the phone* I wish!

Spin- *on the phone* I swear, you’d be so good at my job..

Y/N- Naw, I can’t travel like you can. But listen, we’ve made the date for the wedding and the travel arrangements

Spin- It’s about damn time, I’ve been waiting for the longest. I gotta put a date aside.

Y/N- *chuckles* *walks in the study* It’s in a file that Dig put away.. *takes out multiple folders* God, he has so much crap..  *paper falls onto the floor*

Y/N- *picks it up* *looks at it*

My heart froze. My head thumped, my.. my body stopped. If it wasn’t for Spin on the other line, I woulda dropped the phone too. It was a nude. Not a lipstick shade of nude, but a naked nude. Some bitch’s bikini line that seriously needed shaving. I was curious, and worried. In Diggy’s folders? His files? Some girl’s nudes? They weren’t mine, I wasn’t light skinned.

Telling Spin to wait on the other line while I looked among the folders, I found what I didn’t wanna see. A whole folder full of photos. Nudes, bikini shots, selfies.. Zendaya. I looked at one of the selfies and she was posing, pouting.. my skin crawled. I threw them all down. Spin on the other line asking if I was okay and I said I’d call him back, when really I wasn’t okay. And I doubt I’d get back to him. 

Right when I thougth I’d seen enough.. under the fucking desk. Under it. A piece of material, clambered at the corner of the wooden desk. I looked under it, closer and.. yep. Underwear. A thong. I don’t wear thongs, I don’t like navy underwear on me.. I wanted to cry. The most cliché things to find as cheating evidence, but I found them. In our home? Our home we shared with our don? The office we shared.. in our be.. Oh God I hope he didn’t dare have this bitch in our bed. The urge to burst into tears came up all over me.. I tried to hold it in. And then I failed. My emotions spilled all over the place. I was devastated.

*that night*

Diggy- *walks in the bedroom* *wipes his lips*

Y/N- *walks out the bathroom* *sniffles and holds in more of her tears*

Diggy- *looks up* Babe? Y/N, what’s wrong?

Y/N- *throws the underwear at him* You tell me!

Diggy- Babe, what th..

Y/N- *throws the pictures at him* Her? Her?! *hits him repeatedly*

Diggy- *tries to blocks your punches* I’m sorry, babe stop!!

Y/N- *cries even more* I hate you! I hate you!! How could you? To us?! In our home!? You told me there was no one else, you told me you’d never do that to me.. you lied! You lied!! *cries harder*

Diggy- *tries to hold you*

Y/N- *pushes him off* *pulls her ring off and throws it at him* It’s off! It’s all off! It’s all fucking off! *runs upstairs*

Diggy- *runs after you* Y/N!!