32. 1.15 Million Kilometer Film

"Right now, with my eyes closed and feeling a little embarrassed, we wished for eternity. When bad moments or a melancholy is about to happen, at that time, I will sing this song loudly it's annoying. So, please stay by my side because I don't want to create an end roll."- 115万キロのフィルム (1.15 Million Kilometer Film) by Official Hige Dandism

•••

"Since the second you asked me for a space to grow, I have stopped growing."

The words that came out from Win's mouth the last time they met had been played repeatedly in Bright's ears. That time, Bright chose to end their conversation because it was almost midnight and he had to go home. And those words were a real cause of his mental suffering. Just how dull was he? Always put Win in pain with everything he did.

As promised, Bright appeared in the hospital on the day Win was discharged. He was greeted by Win's parents and the eldest sister. Feeling bad for interrupting the family time, Bright hurriedly excused himself but Ming forbade him.

"We are waiting for you because Nong said he would go to your condo," Ming cleared up the situation. "We are all here because yesterday we took turn to accompany him here."

Bright was still not used to Ming's ability to quickly read the situation. Bright did not need to explain. Ming read him too well.

The family left the hospital not long after Ming told Bright about Win's condition. She went into detail after giving Bright a small pouch contained medicines Win needed to take.

Before leaving the room, Bright was stunned by Win's dad who suddenly called him by his name.

"Khun Bright," he said. "Thank you for taking care of Win."

Bright turned his head to Win, confused, but Win shook his head as a confirmation that he did not expect his father would talk like that.

"He had never been this stubborn toward his life goals but now, no one can shake him even a bit. He knows what he is doing," Win's Dad continued.

"Papa khrab-"

"And he might not capable of doing everything, but he will learn anything to be able to reach his goal," Win's Mom added. "I can't scold him anymore." She smiled.

Ming nodded, "We hope you can get along well enduringly."

Bright already opened his mouth to say something like 'thank you' for this family's support or 'sorry' for making their son disappointed, but an arm suddenly reached his and the familiar smell could be sniffed so close to him.

"It's too long for a closing," Win commented. His arm was linked with Bright's, as if he wanted to save Bright from the disorientation. "Papa has a meeting this afternoon, right?"

Being reminded, the head of Opas-iamkajorn family was in a rush to leave the hospital, followed by his wife and daughter.

Reluctantly, Win let go of the arm he had been holding on to. He turned his back on Bright to take his bag that was still on the bed. Once he was about to take it by the hand, Bright snatched it away from his view.

"Let's go home," Bright said as he walked to open the door for Win. Yet, Win was standing on his place, watching Bright acting full of attention for him.

Bright knew that Win could not pretend that everything was fine, because they were not. After weeks without communication, Win was confused if he already allowed to close the space between them.

"I know you can bring your bag by yourself and you are already getting better now, but let me be," Bright said. "It's a payment for being unavailable when I supposed to be with you here."

Win sighed, "It's not fair to give me hope about us."

Bright shrugged as a response for Win's complaint. "Instead of giving you hope, here..."

Win's eyes dilated seeing the extended arm. The big hand that he had been longing to be embraced by.

"...I give you my hand to hold if you want to."

Win swallowed his own saliva. He was too cheap and easily swayed by his love for Bright. He blamed himself for not keeping his cool in front of his boyfriend.

Bright's hand, Win took it, while holding back his tears.

Bright said nothing as he pulled Win's hand to be closer to him. They walked out of the room in silent. There was only one time Win spoke up, when they were passing the lobby...

"P'Bright, people are watching."

Bright did not react at him at all. Win watched his hand, waiting for Bright to let it go, but Bright kept holding him tight, left Win speechless.

There was a slight smile on another one's face, but Win did not know.

•

The whiff of Bright's condo welcomed Win as the door opened. Bright entered the room, followed by Win, while he invited Win in without checking if Win was still behind him.

Win entered the room without making any sound. He also did not respond Bright.

Bright turned around as he finally noticed that Win had not said anything.

Win was standing near the closed door, watching Bright with his small glistened eyes.

"Win," Bright's eyes widened. "Are you feeling unwell? Sit down, I'll get your med-"

"Let's have a good talk, Phi."

Bright narrowed his eyes. Of course, they would have a talk but they had just arrived and the younger one already asked for it. "You mean, now? You have not had lunch yet."

"I'm here to talk to you."

Bright gave in. He was aware of the firm intonation that Win used. He should not say no this time or this problem would not be solved. "Fine. Let's argue."

"I'm not going to argue with you."

"You have to argue or I won't listen to you."

"Are you really longing for a war?"

"I want you to lose it."

"Lose a war?"

"Lose your control."

"I won't lose it."

"Then, let's argue."

"No, P'Bright, you sit down and listen to me." Win started showing his frustration.

"I told you I would not listen to you."

Win exhaled heavily. He pulled the dining chair and sat on it, trying to calm down.

"Was it me that made you lost your appetite?" Bright initiated the conversation. "Win, you have your job to take care of. That was irre-"

"There you go again," Win cut him off. "My world is not only about my career, Phi. Surely, if you look back, there is time when I was worried about my career. But you know, who would abandon the people they love for their career? It's me. I would not do something like that."

Bright furrowed, "Who the hell is thinking about you like that?"

"It's obviously you."

"I'm not."

"You are," Win insisted. "Stop arguing with me, Phi. Listen to me just this once. Please."

Bright leaned back on the chair. Win was right across him, conveying all his feeling.

"If my career is ruined because of my recklessness, I will regret it. But I will certainly choose my family and you over my career. I won't stay in the entertainment industry forever and you know it, so..." Win softened as he almost ended his explanation. "...don't put yourself so low when I am here, without doubt, showing how crucial your existence in my life."

"Win, I-"

"You can live without me, yes, I know. But I can't," Win added. He would not give a chance for Bright to speak. "I really can't." His voice was getting lower and lower, now it sound like a whisper.

Bright held his breath. Without Win, his world would turn so cold. But without Bright, Win would barely survive. He blamed himself for not realizing how Win loved him excessively all this time.

"I thought, protecting you and things that are important to you would make you happy. I just want you to be happy."

Win shook his head. He rejected Bright's reason immediately. "You are thinking too much. You are trying too hard. You lost sight of what really makes me happy."

Bright was slapped right on his face by those words. He was failed. Nothing he had done was right. Nothing he had done made Win happy.

"P'Bright," Win said. "You only need to be P'Bright who finally love me back and allow me to stay by your side as your boyfriend, that's more than enough for me."

Those big eyes were enlarged for a moment before the owner shut them down. With his eyes closed, Bright asked, "Are you really happy, Win?"

"I am."

"I just wanted to give you the happiness you've always given me."

"You are enough."

"I've made you miserable many times. You cried, you were hurt, you lost your fans. Why do I only bring you a bad luck?"

"You don't bring me a bad luck," Win corrected it right away. "Who said losing fans is a bad luck? It's a natural selection."

"Why are you so calm about it?"

"I have you. You are everything to me. I didn't lose anything." Win reasoned.

Bright's memory travelled back to several years ago. He recalled each moment when his world started falling apart. "I've made many mistakes in the past," he mumbled.

"You've said it many times before."

"I am someone who is hated by many people. It's not a joke," Bright mumbled again. His brain suddenly showed many hatred comments toward him. "I love you. I don't wanna leave you. That's why, I have to-"

"You have to stop, Phi," Win cut Bright off as he got up from his seat. During the time he was walking step by step toward Bright's seat, he said, "I know, you feel that you are entitled to be detested. You have never, ever, even once, defended yourself to public. You can stop it. Stop punishing yourself." Win ended his sentence when he reached his boyfriend's seat.

Bright looked up to Win who was standing in front of him. His eyes were red and soggy. "Are you saying all of this to see me crying?"

A gentle smile overlapped Win's serious face. "Umm," he nodded.

Bright shook his head, trying to laugh at this situation, but he ended up bursting into tears.

Win reached him. His two arms brought Bright to be hugged. Seeing his beloved person crying with full force, sinking his face on Win's stomach while his arms surrounding Win's waist tightly, Win let his own tears down his cheeks.

Bright wanted to scream, his mouth wide opened but no sound came out.

"I love you, P'Bright," Win said, just a reminder for the older one that Win was with him, loving him, and wishing it could make Bright feel better. If this heavy crying was something Bright needed since the beginning, Win could imagine the pain inside Bright who had to be endured for so long until today. "I will make you happy."

Bright loosened his arms after listening to Win. He tried to stopped crying. In exchange, the heavy breathing was felt so real now.

Win kneel down in front of Bright. He wiped the tears which were still falling from those big eyes that Win adored.

Bright saw clearly that Win was crying, too. The younger one's face was pinkish and tears were on his cheeks. He erased it with his finger.

Win caught Bright's hands who were still cupping his face. He held them with his two hands. "I want to cry and laugh with you, Phi, please share me half of your pain."

Bright bent his body forward as he started crying again.

Win kneeled down to catch Bright's body and embraced it with his warmth. "We will get through everything together. I promise." Win stated while kissing the top of Bright's head many times.

"Always with you, bro✌🏻"

Win reminisced the day when he posted the caption on SNS. Years had passed and the promise he made back then had never changed.

"For the rest of my days," Win whispered. "I will always be with you."

•

Win opened his eyes on the next day only to find Bright was lying on his side, facing Win. Those big eyes were swollen but they stared at Win gently.

"Good morning," Win, with his voice still hoarse, greeted the older one. "Can not sleep last night?"

"I just woke up," Bright replied. He kept his eyes on Win. "I want to ask one thing. I forgot it yesterday."

Win chuckled. "Your voice is so raspy. I like it." Win smiled widely.

Bright narrowed his eyes, wondering why suddenly Win talking about his voice. Of course, it would be hoarse since he had cried out loud yesterday and now he just woke up.

"Give me a kiss."

Bright sighed, "We've kissed many times yesterday, Ai Win."

"Won't you give me a kiss?"

"I won't," Bright answered certainly. "Because a kiss won't do."

Win chuckled. "Are you talking about yourself, P'Bright~?" He teased Bright. "I'm good at controlling myself, you know? Have you ever wondered how bothersome it was to hold my desire to kiss you for several years?"

Bright shrugged, "I don't want to imagine it."

"Too early to be so cold toward me, P'Bri-"

Win, who was moved his head closer to steal a kiss from Bright, silenced by Bright's hand that covered his mouth in a flash.

"Are you planning to announce who your boyfriend is?"

The tease from Win ended. He calmed down by himself. He removed Bright's hand from his mouth. "Umm, I have it in my mind for a long term plan," he replied. "Not now. My confession last time was a bomb for everyone. If there is a perfect chance, I'll tell them all."

Bright listened in silent. He let Win plant a short soft kiss on his lips. A smile on the younger one's face curved the similar one on him.

"I'm pretty considerate, Phi. That's why I consulted P'Day before confessing. After the gossip came out, I told her about my goals frequently and she helped me planning further about my future in this industry," Win continued. "I've told you that I was ready for the risk. Nothing surprising happened."

Bright watched Win got up to sit on the bed. Bright was not surprised either after listening to Win's story. Bright knew that Win always plan ahead. He always one step ahead from others.

Win yawned before turning his head to Bright. He pouted. "I will stop the story at that point. P'Bright don't need to worry about it."

"I'm not worried. I'm just asking."

Win showed his bunny teeth as he laughed widely inaudibly over Bright who was trying to keep his cool. His eyes curved down, revealing his happiness.

"P'Bright, can you give me what I want now?"

"You already kissed me earlier."

"So, one kiss is enough. I see." Win mumbled to himself.

It was Bright's turn to laugh out loud. "Come here, you cutie pie!" He grabbed the sulky Win by his waist and flipped him to sat on top of Bright.

"Call me cutie pie again."

"No, I'm tired."

"Aw, why? It excites me, tho."

"It doesn't excite me."

"You are lying."

Bright rolled Win to the empty space of the bed. "You don't like to argue, do you? So, stop playing."

"I'm not playing."

"What do you want? Do it now or I will take a shower."

Win laughed again while his arms reaching for the older one, brought him closer to pressed their lips together.

Yes, Win finally could laugh and enjoy his time with this man, his precious person who completely opened up to him yesterday. One day, if Bright's heart changed, Win would not leave. He would be with him even though it was only when he needed. That was the extent of his feeling for Bright. There was no doubt in Win that he would love Bright without end. No matter how Bright's feeling toward him...

Bright suddenly broke the deep kiss and looking at Win's eyes. He smiled but the younger one below him was confused with the sudden mood.

"I love you, Win."

Win's eyes dilated. He had to get used to the rare and sudden confession time from Bright or he would tear up every single time it happened.

"This feeling will be last until death do us apart. Please bear with me forever."

Win giggled at the same time with his tears overflowing. "Khrab," he nodded again and again, and then he hugged Bright closely.

"We really love crying, don't we?"

Win did not react at Bright's comment. He was still sobbing. In the end, Win released his boyfriend after a moment.

Bright shook his head, laughing gently. Two days in a row and all they did was crying. However, if it was not a sad tears, it was fine.

For Bright, the younger man was sent by God to make his life better. In the previous life, what kindness did he do to deserve someone who loves him so much like Win? He asked himself. Win was a gift that he had been waiting for.

"Are you happy, Win?"

"Umm," Win replied. "I am happy."

•••

The last conflict is finished! 👏👏👏

But it's not the end yet. Ugh, what will I serve on your table in the next chapter? Let's wait and see! :)))

Find any typo? Calm down. I'll be back later to fix it. Let me recover from this fever first. I typed this story while shivering 😂😂😂

Anyway, don't forget to vote and leave some comments.

Thank you for reading <3

With love,

dedededeva 💋