Chapter 14

I was back in the basement. My clothes were new, but there was something that was wrong. I looked around and I saw that the window was then boarded up. Then I heard the foot steps. I walked to the back of the room to get away.

"Angel? Where are you?" I heard him say to me. It was him. I felt like I was going to die again. His grey eyes were peircing as he came to me.

"Have you been talking to yourself again?" He asked me as he pulled me out of the corner that I had burrowed in. He then threw me to the ground.

"Please, don't do this to me. I swear, I wasn't. I was a good girl." I whimpered as I went in the fetal position. This was going to hurt. I knew that I hadn't really excaped from him.

"You know that what you do is wrong and bad, right?" He asked me. He then lifted his arm up and hit me. I screamed in the pain. It wasn't a slap. He hit me like he was fighting another man. I knew that he was a large man, so I was probably taking a lot more than I should have been.

"I know what you need. You are nothing but my little whore." He said. I then was being dragged to the room that he would rape me in. I was starting to shake, by now. I hated this so much. Before I knew it, I was being thrown on the stupid matress. He started to tie my hands to the posts that were in front of the bed. I closed my eyes and waited for what was to come.

I felt to hands on my shoulders and I started to squirm away. I opened my eyes to see the face of my finace. He as smiling at me. Like he was doing something good. I closed my eyes one more time.

"Damn it, Lea! Wake up! Please!" I heard Zak say. I opedned my eyes and I saw that he was holding me. I was on the floor with him. 

"What happened?" I asked him as I regained myself. 

"You were having a really bad dream. You were trying to get away from something. I guess that you fell off of your bed." He told me. I sighed and looked at him. 

"Were you raped?" He then asked me. I looked at him with a blank stares.

"What would make you think that?" I asked him as I got out of his arms. He and I stood up and he looked over my body.

"You said something about someone stoppping. You said some other things. Please tell me." He said. I could hear that he was really desperate.

"Yes, okay? I was. Deal with it. It was something that I have to deal with. I am here now." I told him. I hadn't really told anyone. There wasn't anyone that knew about it. Now there was Zak that knew about it.

"You shouldn't have to deal with it. Let me help." He told me. I looked at him and sat on my bed.

"Why? So that you can take advantage of me? So that you can take me to your basement and lock me up there for 5 months? So that you can hurt me in ways that no one could ever?" I asked him. My emotions were getting the best of me, by now. This was too much. He was knowing too much.

"Is that what he did to you?" He asked me. He was still standing in front of me.

"Yes, that is what he did to me. I was the one who escaped. I got out of there and I haven't gone back. That is why I can't get used to being around you guys." I told him. Tears were coming out of my eyes, by now. He then knelt on the ground and put his hands in my lap.

"I swear to you, I will never ever do that to you. I will never let anyone hurt you like that again. That won't ever happen to you again. Once was too much." He said to me. I saw that there was a tear that was coming out of his eye.

"Why would you want to help out a worthless slut like me? All I do is fuck things up for everyone, Zak." I said to him. He then grabbed my face and made me look at him.

"You are not worthless or a slut. Don't you ever say that about yourself again. You are perfect. You are beautiful and wonderful." He told me. His voice was cracking. I wasn't sure why he was crying.

"You wanna know what I have to live with?" I asked him. He was confused by now. I then grabbed the hem of my shirt and I took it off. I was glad that I was in a bra. He then saw all of the scars that were all over me.

"What?" He whispered quietly. I looked at my lap and made sure that I didn't make eye contact with him. I knew that he was reading all of the words that were in my skin. I had the words, "slut", "ugly", "freak", "whore", and "help" carved in my skin. They had healed up and now I was scarred for life with them. The word "freak" was burnt in my skin.

"What are these?" He asked me as he looked at all of them.

"Those are what I live with. These are what I have to remind me of him. These are what I am." I told him. I could see that there was a rage in him.

"You aren't, though!" He told me. He had gotten between my legs and he was holding my waist with his hands.

"You aren't any of those. You are beautiful, smart, amazing, sweet, kind, and a lot more. You aren't these words." He told me. I sighed and shook my head. I wiped some tears away as I looke daway from him.

"These are why I am not worthy of being with you." I whispered to him. He then made me look at him.

"You are everything. Just let me show you." He told me. I wasn't sure about that. I looked in his eyes and I saw that he was really hurt over this.

"Come sleep with me. I promise that you won't get hurt." He told me. He then picked me up and moved me so that I was laying in my bed. He got in and held me. I didn't bother putting my shirt on. He had seen them, so I didn't see why I needed to hide them again.

 We laid there in eacch other's arms. I knew that he was looking at my back. He had his arm wrapped around my waist and I was holding his hand. There was the word "slut" on my shoulder. I sighed as I started to feel more comfortable.

"Are you asleep?" Zak asked me. I could feel the vibrations in his chest from when he spoke.

"No, and you aren't either." I said to him. He chuckled. Then he touched the scar. I started to pay attention to what he was doing.

"I am so sorry that this happened to you." He told me as he started to trace the word lightly. I was falling under his spell.

"It's okay." I mumbled as I started to fall asleep.

"It's not. But I promise that nothing like this will ever happen." That was the last thing that I heard from him that night. I had fallen asleep in his arms. I felt so comfortable with him.

"Hello? Are you two dead or something?" I could hear Aaron saying from outside the door. I opened my eyes and I saw that Zak was still sleeping. His head was on my chest and his arms were wrapped around my waist like he was holding on to me for life. I smiled at him and I ran my fingers through his hair.

"Zak, Aaron is out there. He is wanting in. I need you to get up." I told Zak quietly. I was really hoping that he would hear me. He started to stir as he woke up.

"I am coming in, so don't freak out if you are awake." Aaron then said. I looked at the door and I saw that Leonard was by it. He had unlocked the door for him and cracked it. Aaron then opened it the rest of the way. Zak then bolted up as he walked in the room.

"Did you two?" Aaron said as he looked at us. The covers weren't really on us. He could see that we had most of our clothes on, except for my shirt. Zak was trying to keep me out of sight of Aaron.

"No, we didn't." I said quickly.

"Then what happened?" Aaron said he walked in and he didn't seem too phased by the two of us. I put my hand on Zak's shoulder to calm him. He looked back at me and I could tell that he was worried about Aaron seeing the scars.

"A lot happened. We are okay, though." I told him. Zak then relaxed and laid in the bed. I stayed sitting up. Aaron then saw the scars on my body.

"What happened to you?" I could tell that he was really trying to not look at them or stare.

"These are just from things that happened a while back." I told him. He looked at Zak and he was laying in the bed looking at me.

"Can I see them? Or do you not want me to? 'Cause I totally get it if you don't want me to." Aaron told me. I smiled at him and got out of the bed.

"Yeah, you can see them." I told him. He then started to stare at them. I only had the word "slut" on my back. The other words were on my torso and chest. I tried to not look at Aaron while he looked at all of them.

"Why do you have help there?" He asked me as he pointed to my rib cage.

"That was what I kept saying. So he decided that it would be best if I had it on me." I told him. Aaron then looked at Zak. I wasn't sure why he looked at Zak, but I stayed there in front of Aaron.

"I am sorry." He told me as he pulled me into a hug. I smiled at he hugged me.

"It's fine. This is my own thing." I told him. He then let go of me. I walked and I grabbed one of my shirts and I put it on.

"You can tell the others. I am fine with it. Just try to not mention it so that other people know." I told Aaron. I knew that he would be careful about this.

"Was that all that he did to you?" Aaron then asked me. Zak tried to stop him from asking, but I knew that it would be told at some point.

"No, there were other things too. He seemed to like to torture me. Him and his friends." I told Aaron. He shook his head and looked at Zak.

"I swear, if you hurt her, I will hurt you. Lea, please know that you have a place with me. If Zak acts like a dick to you, you can come to my place." He told me. I rolled my eyes and looked at Zak.

"I think that I can handle that little bunny." I said. Aaron chuckled at that.

"Okay, well we have to get going soon. Billie will want to hang with you. You two don't have to do much today." Aaron informed me. I nodded my head then he left the room. Zak got out of the bed and walked to me.

"Zak, don't say anything. I know. I know all about it. It was my life. You don't need to apologize about it. There was nothing that you could have done to stop anything." I told him. He then grabbed my hands and kissed them.

"Fine, but I will still take care of you." He told me. I shook my head and he kissed me one more time. I kissed him back then we got dressed for the day.

When we got to the location, I saw that it was just a house. There was a huge field in the back. Billie and I started to walk around the place while we were there. Nick already knew about it and he gave me a hug. I was starting to get really tired of the hugs.

"Are you okay?" Billie asked me. I looked at him and smiled.

"Yeah, I am fine. What about you?" I asked him.

"I am just fine. I just wanted to know if you were." He told me. I sighed and stepped in front of him.

"Okay, something is obviously on your mind. What is it?" I asked him. I could see that he was shocked that I could tell.

"How did it come up between you and Zak? Like how did you tell him that?" He asked me. I nodded my head and looked around. I didn't want anyone alive to over hear me telling Billie this.

"It was in the heat of the moment. I was trying to get him off of my bacck and I sais some things that I shouldn't have. I had to show him what I meant, so I took off my shirt and showed him them." I explained to him. Billie looked at me with a smile.

"That's all that I wanted to know." He told me. I looked at him. Now I was curious of why he wanted to know.

"Why? Why does it matter how it happened?" I asked him. He smiled at me and sighed.

"I just wanted to make sure that Zak had't hurt you." He told me. I realized that he really cared about me and what happened to me. We then started to walk back around the property. Our arms were linked together. 

"Thanks for caring. Really. It means more than you think." I finally said to him. 

"Hey, that's what friends are for." He said. 

We then went in the house. I wanted to know more about the place. When we walked in, Billie and I still had our arms linked together. Zak saw it and I knew that it was making him jealous. I didn't really care, at this point. He could be jelous all that he wanted.

"So are you guys done for today?" I asked them.

"Yeah, we are. We are heading back to the hotel, now." Zak said. He then walked out of the house. I let go of Billie and we were all wondering what had just happened.

"I'll go fix it." I told them. Nick smiled at me and nodded his head. I knew what he was thinking. I would get him for that later. I walked outside and to the van. Zak was standing by it, since it was locked.

"What was that about?" I asked him as I neared the van.

"What was that about? What do you mean? Shouldn't you go be hanging around with your new friend?" Zak asked me. I sighed and looked at him.

"You know that he has a wife, right? Do you really think that we would be like that?" I asked him. He sighed and I saw that I had him trapped.

"No, but that's not the point." He mumbled. He was like a little mad puppy. I walked closer to him and I pushed his chest so that he was against the van.

"Zak, I think that you are jealous." I teased him.

"I think that you are right." He said in a cute way. He was smiling now.

"Billie was just being a gentleman." I told him. I then kissed his lips. He kissed me back. He didn't move and he let me have total control over the kiss. I slipped my tongue in his mouth and they started to battle for dominance.

"Lea, let's not do this here." Zak said to me. I stopped and looked at him.

"That was the first time that a guy has ever stopped me." I told him. He smiled at me and pulled me close to him.

"That might be the only time too." He whispered in my ear. I felt my knees go weak and I started to smile really big. 

I then walked back to the house. I knew that they had wanted to see what had happened, but we were, luckily, on the other side of the van. They were trying to hide the fact that they were trying to look.

"You huys are so weird. You can't hide anything from me. I know what is going on and if I don't, I can figure it out really easily." I told them. Aaron nodded his head and smiled at me. We then walked out of the house and went to the van.

Once we got to the hotel, Nick said something about him going to his room to take a nap. Billie and Aaron didn't say anything. I kept looking at Zak while we drove to the hotel. I wanted him. I wanted him more than ever before. I kept thinking about the way that he kissed me and the way that his arms felt around me.

"I wil see you guys for dinner." Nick said as he went into his room. I watched him go in his room and I walked with Zak to our room. Aaron and Billie weren't nearby, but I knew that they were close enough.

"Zak, get in here, now." I told Zak as we went in our room. Zak came in the room and I looked at him.

"What is it?" He asked me. He seemed to be really worried.

"Can we do something? I know that this is going to be really weird, but I was just wondering if you wanted to." I told him. I was actually getting really nervous.

"What is it?" He asked me. I then walked to him and I put my hands on his chest. He immediately put his hands on my hips.

"Kiss me." I told him. He then kissed me hard.