Chapter 15

Zak held me close to him as he kissed me. He then lifted me up and took me to a bed. I felt myself hit the bed. We didn't break our kiss as we got on the bed. He then starts to kiss down my neck. I moaned and writhed into him. He then stopped and looked at me.

"Are you sure?" He asked me. I looked to see that there was lust in his eyes. I wanted him so bad.

"Yes, Zak. Take me." I told him breathlessly. He smiled at me then took his shirt off. I looked at his muscles. I touched them subconsciously. He shivered under my touch. I hadn't really had that effect on any man before. It was weird for me. He then lifted my chin and he kissed me. I kissed him back and he lifted my shirt off of me. 

That was when I felt so much guilt. I had forgotten about my scars, before this moment. I was so ashamed of them. I pushed him back a little and he looked at me as I tried to hide them. 

"I am sorry. I forgot about them. I didn't mean for this." I said as I touched them. 

"What? No, I didn't. I know about them." He told me. He was trying to calm me down. 

"Zak, I won't let you sleep with someone who is this... This ugly." I said to him. He shook his head and pushed me down back on the bed. He was holding my waist and he had his weight supported on his other arm.

"You aren't ugly. You are beautiful." He told me. He then started to kiss my body.

"Let me show you." He told me. I looked at him and he then started to kiss the words that were carved in my skin. It felt so weird, but I wasn't going to stop him.

He then took my bra off and started to suck each breast. I moaned as he did. He then took my pants and underwear off. I gasped and looked at him. He didn't seem to be afraid of me. I then sat up and helped him out of his. All of this was very gentle and sensual. It was like we couldn't keep our hands off of each other. I loved the way that his body would react to the touch of mine.

As he entered me, our eyes were locked on wach other. He then dipped his face into my neck as he let me adjust. I grabbed on to his back and held him close to me. I could feel him panting against my skin. I moaned as he began to thrust into me.

He then rolled us over so that I had control. I was glad that he did that. I made sure that he wouldn't regret it. The mixture of sounds and touch sent my senses insane. As we neared our highs, I couldn't stop myself from moaning his name over and over like a mantra. I needed him. I wanted him.

"Lea, are you okay?" Zak asked me as I collapsed on his chest when we were done. I could hear his heart beating frantically. I sighed and kissed his chest.

"I am. What about you?" I asked him as I lifted my head to look at him.

"Of course I am." He sais as he put some hair behind my ear. I smiled at him and saw how sweet he looked laying there.

"Do you regret it?" He then asked me. I sat up and he did too.

"What? No, Zak, I don't." I said to him. He smiled at me and kissed me.

"Good, becuase I didn't want you to feel guilty about something that I liked." He told me. I sighed and pushed him back on the bed as I kissed him. He wrapped his arms around my lower wasit and held me close to him. I was so happy to be there with him. 

"I think that we should be getting dressed, now." I told him as he started to kiss down my neck. I heard him grunt in response. I chuckled and got off of him. 

I went to the bathroom to freshen up. I figured that we wouldn't really want the others to know about what we did. I then started to try to remember how loud we were. I couldn't remember anything other than what we did. I figured that it didn't matter. We were two adults and neither of us were hurt.

We went to meet up with Nick, Aaron, and Billy in Nick's room. I saw that Leonard was sitting next to Nick. I knew that he didn't know about it, but I thought that it was amusing. They had a slight resemblence about them. They both seemed to be very concentrated on something. I knew that they were two totally different things, though.

"You done in the sack with him? Cause I am bored and I couldn't talk to you. So I have been running my mouth to stupid here." Leonard greeted me with. I did my best to ignore him.

While we ate, I noticed that Zak was now getting closer to me. He seemed to always moved closer and closer to me. I did my best to ignore him. the others also seemed to notice it. Nick was quiet about it and Billy seemed to smile when he noticed it. Aaron was the only one who really picked on him for it.

That night was different. Zak and I quietly shared a bed. I was glad that he wasn't mad at me when I got in his bed with him. Then again, he flipped the covers and waited for me to get to the bed, before he got in it.

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When I woke up, I looked to see that the large black mass was over me. I sighed and just looked at it. I knew that it was trying to scare me, but it really wasn't working.

"Go away." I told it. It then gave up and went to the corner of the room to watch me. I rolled out of the bed to go to the bathroom.

Once Zak was awake, I was out of the shower and I was dressing. He was shocked that I was so quiet. I took it as a compliment. As soon as he woke up, we went to go see who else was awake. I could tell that everyone was already excited for this lockdown.

As the day went on, I hung out with Billy. Nick, Zak, and Aaron were getting a couple of more interviews. Billy was really nice to be with. He seemed to get that I didn't want to talk about myself, so I never really felt like he was going to ask a personal question. Zak seemed to be a lot more comfortable with me hanging with Billy, since that afternoon.

"I am so ready for this lockdown." Zak said as he walked into the nerve center. I smiled at him and rolled my eyes. Nick saw it and started to laugh.

"That was good. I like the way that you think." Nick told me as he messed with one of his cameras.

"Thank you." I told him in return. I then looked at Billy and he was smiling really big.

"Okay, let's get started." Zak said as they left the room.

I watched them, on the moniters, as they went from room to room. I saw that there were some things that seemed to be interested in them. That made me a little worried, but they really didn't seem to want to do any harm.

There was one thing that was concerning me as the lockdown continued. It looked like a man. Like a very large man with a wide hat, but he was all black. It seemed to be feeding off of them slowly. I knew that I wasn't supposed to react too much, but I wasn't able to stop looking at it. I made sure to mark the time down on one of our notepads, when I saw it. Billy would look at the note then at the screen for something.

At one point, Zak made them split up. He went into one of the rooms and the black mass followed him. I watched it as it went with him. There were warning that were coming from Aaron's session with the spirit box. The box said, "Help" and "Lea". Aaron assumed that it was talking about him helping me. I knew that it wasn't. 

As I watched Zak, the mass entered him. I could feel that I was getting really stressed about it. He was laying on the bed, so he wasn't going to get hurt. I knew that I would be able to repair any damage that came to him spiritually, so I shouldn't have been this worried. Then he started to convulse on the bed. The mass only had his hand on his head. It seemed to have disappeared into his mind, but he wasn't really invading Zak.

"Nick! Come in." I said in the walkie-talkie. Nick looked at the camera that was live streaming to the nerve center. 

"What is it?" He asked me. 

"Go check on Zak. He seems to be having a problem." I told him. Nick then left the room and we could hear him going to the room that Zak was in. 

"What are you doing, Zak?" Billy asked as he looked at it. Zak would jump once in a while, but it was mainly just some twitching. 

I watched as Nick went in the room. He was able to snap Zak out of his trance. I sighed in relief when I saw the two of them walking. Billy and I grabbed a chair and pulled it up for Zak. When he came in the room, he seemed to be trying to recover from what he had just experienced. 

"Are you okay?" I asked him as he sat down. He looked up at me and I was taken aback. He was looking at me differently. There was something in his eyes that was different.

"I think that I will be. What did you two see?" He asked us.

"You laid on the bed. Then you started to freak out, man." Billy told him. I wasn't sure what it was, but there was something different about him. He seemed to have a different aura.

"Is that it?" He asked. He was looking at me and I sighed.

"I can't here." I said quietly. They were all looking at me by now. Zak then got up and he took me out of the room. He grabbed a flashlight as he laft the room. 

I heard Nick and Aaron come with us. He then held me by my shoulders as we went into a room. Leonard was watching him, to see if he would do anything. He was holding my shoulders tight, but not hard enough to hurt me. I was waiting for him to do something to me.

"Please tell me that you saw something." He said quietly. He seemed to be begging me to tell him that I did see something.

"I did. I saw something." I said to him. I was trying to hide the fear that I was able to hold. 

"What did you see?" He then asked me with out skipping a beat. 

"It was a black mass that took the shape of a man. He was near you and then I saw you start to freak out." I told him quickly. I saw that Nick and Aaron were standing there, looking at the two of us.

"I saw that two. I wasn't able to get up. I couldn't stop it either." He told me. He then let go of my shoulders and I started to relax a little.

"What did you see?" I then asked Zak. Aaron walked in the room and Zak looked at him and Nick.

"I saw something that I don't think that I should talk about right now." He told me. I wasn't sure what he was talking about. I looked at Nick and Aaron and they were holding cameras. I sighed and looked at Zak.

"No, I think that we should know what it was about." I told him.

"Come on, Zak." Nick then said. I knew that he would tell once Nick said something. Zak sighed and looked at them.

"I saw somethings that I shouldn't have. It wasn't about what happened here. It was like I was entering a different place. It was just really scary." He said. We could tell that he was still shaken up about all of it.

"Do you want to stop?" Aaron asked him.

"No, let's keep going." Zak said. I smiled at him and we went back to the nerve center. I knew that there was more to what Zak had told us. I would have to pry it out of him later.

I sat back with Billy and we watched them as they went from room to room. I was sure that they were going to get some more evidence. Everytime I saw something, I wrote it down. I was still worried about Zak and what had happened to him. I could tell that Billy was too.

After they let us out, I took some equipment to the van and I saw that zka was following me with some stuff. I stood there and waited for him to put the stuff in the van, before I would talk to him. 

"What did you really see?" I asked him as he stepped away from the van. He looked at me then looked around to see if any of the others were around us. 

"It was about you. I think that I saw your memories." He told me. I sighed and looked at him like he was crazy. 

"What are you talking about?" I asked him. He sighed and walked with to me to bench that was in the front area. 

"I saw a you and a man in a basement. You were on a matress and he was hurting you. You were tied to the pole that was at the top of the matress. I saw what he was doing to you. I saw it all. You were screaming for someone to help you. I couldn't, though. He was smiling at you the entire time too." Zak said. He was right. That was one of my memories. That was the one where he gave me my first scar.

"That went on for a long time, though. That was all that I saw." He said to me. I looked at the house and nodded my head. 

"It's okay. Don't apologize." I told him. I knew that he was about to. I just didn't want to hear it, at the moment. 

I stood up and I walked in the house. I was trying to process what had just happened. I walked past Nick, Aaron, and Billy as I walked in. None of them really tried to stop me. I knew that they were watching me. I then walked up the stairs and I walked into the bedroom that Zak's attack had happened in.

"YOU BASTARD!" I screamed at the mass. I saw that it seemed to be pleased with himself. I felt tears coming out of my eyes. I then remembered of something that a witch had taught me.

"Relinquere domum hanc,

nunquam redeant

tu exilium

Tu autem ibis ad inferos

de animantibus bonum et malum" I said this incantation as I walked closer and closer to the mass. It seemed to be worried. Then it disolved. I then collapsed on the floor. I wasn't in pain nor was I tired. I was stressed. Zak had seen what I had been trying to get rid of. What I had been trying to forget. 

I then heard footsteps start running up the stairs. I didn't move. I was hoping that they would run past and not see me. Of course, that wouldn't happen to me. I wasn't that lucky.

"Lea, come on. Get off of the floor." Nick said as he helped me up. I wasn't expecting him to be the one to come to my rescue. He helped me to the bed and he wrapped his arm around my shoulders.

"What happened? Please tell me?" He asked me. I sobbed quietly and tried to keep myself together.

"It doesn't matter anymore. I got rid of it. It won't do that anymore." I said as I tried to clear my throat.

"Lea, please tell me." He then said to me. He was really trying to be a friend.

"It showed Zak what happened to me. It showed him a personal memory of mine to him. One that I wouldn't ever want him to see. Not that." I said as my voice started to break.

"Aw, damn it. I am sorry that had happened." He told me. I looked to see that he really was sorry about it. I then got up and looked around the room.

"Don't worry. I think that my time here is over." I told him. He looked at me with wide eyes.

"What are you talking about?" He asked me. I sighed and looked around the room.

"He isn't going to want me near him or any of you for that matter. Hell, I wouldn't. It wasn't a good one." I told him. He then got off of the bed and shook his head.

"No, you are still a friend to us. If he is going to be a little bitch about it, then he can suck it." Nick told me.

"I am not going to make you choose between your best friend and me. I am not worth that." I corrected him. It was true. I was really nothing compared to the rest of them.

"He isn't my best friend. He is like my brother and there are things that we will do to make each other upset. I don't think that he will change his opinion about you, though. He seems to really like you." Nick told me. I sighed and wiped my tears away.

"Let's hope that he doesn't." I said as we left the room.