chapter 4

Xiao Zhan's P.O.V

Been a couple days since we went to my parent's place.

Wang Yien never brought up again, what he wanted talk about at that night.

And I cannot ask either.

Finally, today is the day Wang Yien decided to join the company for good.

Unlike Yibo he's not punctual at all.He already woke up late.

While me and ah xing was having breakfast he suddenly came down fully dressed up in black suit....He has his hair nicely combed up. He's still wearing one of his black earrings.

Now, he usually used to wear casual street style clothes...but suddenly seeing him in suit.... he's looking more yibo than yibo himself.

What??

..Looking at him I suddenly became sad. And looked down on my breakfast again.

Ah Xing ran up to him.

He picked him up.

"Papa is looking so cool....ah xing wants to look cool too" ah xing said.

"It that so?" Yien said with a bright smile on.

Then he looked towards me and his smile suddenly dropped.

He came and put ah xing back at his place and he himself sat next to ah Xing.

.."Are you excited ?" I asked after a while.

"I am never excited for this" his instant reply.

I chuckled a bit.

"Did I make you feel sad again because I looked too similar to him right now?" He asked suddenly making me anxious again.

Even tho my answer is yes it's too hard for me to talk about it with him.

"Probably" I muttered not sure if he heard it or not

"Anyways good luck with your work. I'll be heading to the restaurant for work too. See you in the evening." I said before getting up from the table and pick ah xing up too.

"Ohh.. hmm" he said back.

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It's already has passed dinner when, Yien returned back home.

He looked a bit tipsy.

And....his clothes were a bit messed up. I can even see lipstick mark on his shirt. Hickeys on his neck.

Seriously??? It's only his first day at work.

But for some reason I can feel my chest tightening.

It was a really uncomfortable feeling.

I know, deep down it's because he looks like yibo I don't want to even imagine him messing around with other girls.

Which is unreasonable yet understandable.

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."How was your day?" I asked.

Then only he seems to notice me.

As usual I was in the living room after putting ah Xing to sleep.

"Ohh Zhan ge. I'm not having dinner anymore." He replied.

Who asked you that??

"Ohh" I said instead of what I wanted to say.

Then he came near me and threw himself on the couch next to me.

I can smell sweet perfume mixed with alcohol from him.

I don't even wanna know or think about it. I should go now.

"Okay, I'm off to my room . I'm feeling sleepy. Good night. Have a good rest. Must be tired." I said before getting up from the couch.

But he grabbed onto my wrist and pulled me back down.

"You asked how was my day. Damn it! I never thought first day at work would be this stressful. So I went to the nearest bar after work. It was fun, lot of beautiful women." he said still holding on to my wrist.

"Good for you. But I'm feeling sleepy" I said to him kinda annoyed.

"Ohh .... right it's already this late" he said looking at his watch.

"So let go of my hand" I said pointing at my wrist.

Then only he let go of my wrist.

"Zhan ge, do I make you feel sad?" He suddenly asked again.

"Why do you asked ?" I asked back.

Then he opened his mouth to say something only to close it back.

I looked at him expecting him to reply.."Forget it. I know. I'm just asking" with that he got up from the couch and headed towards his room before me.

Leaving me there with confusing thoughts.

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Next day,

Since one of the maid was sick, I cooked all the meals.

He brought a girl in the mansion around dinner time.

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That put me into bad mood already.

But I tried not to show it.

It's not like I like Yien or anything. There is no way. Even tho he looks like yibo he still is my brother in law. I love Wang yibo only and will always love him even tho he's not here anymore.

It's just, felt like a curse to see my husband's face messing around with other girls and the thought of it drives me crazy.

I feel jealous. I admit. I cannot bear with it. I know I have to learn to accept it. After all he needs to have his own life partner.

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Ah Xing and I have already finished eating when Yien and that girl decided to have dinner together.

We left them alone.

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They were too loud. Laughing and talking I can hear them from my room. I was reading a kids story to ah xing.

So annoying.

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After what felt like ages they finally became silent so I assumed she already left.

After ah xing fell asleep, I went downstairs to the living room as usual to watch some TV.

And there, they were sucking each other's faces off at the door step of main entrance.

I shouldn't have, but I felt like I got cheated by my husband. In my mind I know it clearly that he's not yibo but sometimes my heart can not accept it.

My heart literally hurts.

My heart is wishing for something which is literally sin and I cannot voice it out.

Without me knowing I fell my tears fell down off my eyes.

Am I becoming crazy?Am I loosing my mind? Why am I crying?What reason do I have to cry for?

A part of me cried because I missed yibo so much, but a part me cried for unexplainable things.

I kept on crying silently at the staircase.My knees felt weak so I sat down right at that place. I hid my face in the crook of my knees.

I should've just moved back to my room. But I don't know why I wasn't able to. Thankfully, they didn't noticed me there.

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I am making no sense with my actions. I should go before Yien see me like this.

Just when I realized it. I felt someone else's arms on my shoulder.

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A/n: is it getting boring or are you guys enjoying it?