Chapter 13 - I Remember

LUCY POV

I feel afraid, confused and uneasy. My heart racing and my body is trembling, as I stare into the eyes, that I have not seen since leaving Fairy Tail 5 years ago. I'm trying to will myself to stop, but no matter how hard I try  I just can't seem to take control. But for the sake of my family I have no other choice, I can't appear weak right now, I mustn't. I must try, if not for me then for them. I take in a deep breath and breathe out slowly, just enough to compose my thoughts at least. Once I ready myself, I walk over to Natsu, blocking out everything else, that my hinder my utmost pathetic attempt in concealing just how much this is effecting me emotionally.

With my head bowed to the ground, my hair draped down in front, obscuring my vision a little. And ignoring this nagging feeling in my heart, that started the moment I took my first step. With a shaky hand I reach out and quickly grab ahold of Natsu's wrist, dragging him away from prying eyes to somewhere secluded.

After walking for a minute or so. We finally made it to a near by park, where I would come, just to be alone. I quickly let go of his wrist, creating a little bit of distance before us.

I paused for a bit, before turning to face him. My heart was trembling, and I don't know why. I took in another deep breath, trying to calm my nerves. After a few second, my head still bowed, I turned around to face him, slowly lifting my head just enough to see his chest.

"I'm never going back to Fairy Tail, so if that is the reason you were looking for me you can leave." I say, clenching my fist.

A few seconds passed and Natsu never replied, confused, I snapped my eyes to him. He had an expression I had never seen before, he was unreadable. Then he opened his mouth. "Are you in love with Laxus?" Natsu asks so effortlessly.

My eyes widen, I was stunned. "N-not, that it's any of your business, but yes!" I stuttered. But the moment those words left my mouth, my heart sank.

All of a sudden, Natsu came walking towards me, with purpose in every stride. "Don't come any closer." I ordered. But Natsu didn't listen, he kept coming.

"Stop!" I shouted, clenching my fist even tighter. Still not listening, it was making me angry, but why am I not surprised, he just does whatever he wants.

Just inches in front of me, I immediately pushed Natsu back, but it was no use, I fought against him, but the wrapped his arms around. I began to hit his chest with my closed fists. "Let me go Natsu." I demanded.

"Luce." Natsu calls out to me. And just like that I stopped. The tone of his voice....Why with just him simply saying that name did I stop, and why does my heart ache.

Then I feel him tighten his grip around me. "I made a mistake...I screwed up Luce. I thought that by letting you go, I was doing the right thing. I never knew just how single minded I was being.... Until the day you left." My heart was aching even more, and tears began to swell up inside me. "I've been searching for you, for 5 years and now that I have you. I don't want to let you go. I-I....can't let y-you go again Luce." Natsu explained. His voice shaking a little.

Suddenly I felt the tears trail down my cheeks. I drop my hands to my side, and rest my forehead on his shoulder. "Liar." I whimpered.

"I have never stopped loving you Lucy. I know I told you I was in love with Lisanna, But that was a lie. I knew that the only way you would believe me was by telling you exactly that. I just never thought you would turn around and leave." Natsu explains.

I shook my head. "I love you Luce." Natsu whispers in my ear. My heart skipped a beat.

"Last night I thought about giving up, but when I looked at the starry sky. I just kept thinking that under the same sky, you were out there somewhere.....And here I am, holding you in my arms." Natsu says softly.

As I'm being held in Natsu's embrace, every fiber of my being is telling me to push him off, to get away, not to listen.........But for some reason my heart, my heart was urging me to stay. The longer we stayed like this, the feelings and memories I had locked away were trying to escape. My body was remembering everything again, even after 5 years. With my body firmly pressing against Natsu's, I close my eyes. I can hear and feel it, the beating of his heart, as it echoes in my ears, and gently hits against my chest. The warmth from his entire body, seeping into mine. This unforgettable smell, that now lingers over me once again, and his breathing, that matches mine. I remember it all, remember how being wrapped up in his embrace was the place I felt safe, protected and the only place, where I felt like I belonged.

All of a sudden, my body acted on it own. I threw my arms around him. Pulling him even closer to me. "It's not fair." I cried. My heart was breaking again.

"Y-you abandoned me, left me, You broke me.... I'm in love with Laxus, so why?....Why can't I tear myself away from you." I winced, as the pain from 5 years ago came rushing back.

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NATSU POV

"I'm sorry." Were the only words I was able to say.

Lucy was trembling. Her chest pounding ferociously against mine. Her tears, landing on my shirt, creating a wet patch, as it was being absorbed. Now I know exactly how she felt when I told her I was in love with Lisanna. It stings and it feels like my heart was being stomped on. I hate myself even more.

I just want to stay like this, I which I could turn back time, back to when everything was prefect.

Then I remembered that little girl, with pink hair like mine, well not exactly like mine, just a bit lighter. After Lucy had finally calmed down, I leaned back just enough to see Lucy's face. Her face was saturated from her tears, her eyes bloodshot and swollen from all the crying. With both arms laced around her, and hers around me. I unlaced one of mine, slowly and brushed away he tears.

There was no one to lessen the blow even beat around the bush.

"Luna is my daughter isn't she." I blurted out. Lucy looked back at me, shocked, like she had just seen a ghost. "Erza told me you lost the baby. But I get the feeling like that isn't true. Today was the every first time meeting her. But instantly I felt drawn to her, her smell, smelt so familiar to me. Not only does she have my hair, but when dragons who share the same blood, a bond is formed. And I felt that, when I looked into her eyes. I didn't think I would be able to feel that again since Igneel left." I say looking over Lucy.

Lucy then let go of me, something in her changed, she was going back on the defensive.

"I think you should leave." She said, so coldly.

"Lu-" "You need to leave." Her voice sounding like a robot

She then pushed me back, I go to take a step closer. "No don't come any closer..... Please." Lucy says, wrapping her arms around herself.

"If you love me, you will forget ever seeing me today, you will forget everything," I took a step forward.

"Lu-" "Yes...... L-Luna is your daughter." Lucy's voice shaking. "But please don't interfere. That little girl, has only known Laxus as her father, she loves him and Laxus loves her, as his own flesh and blood." My heart aches. "She doesn't deserve to have her whole world turned upside down. So please I beg of you." Lucy smiles, obviously forcing the tears back.

Even though I regret everything, at this moment with Lucy in front of me I don't have the confidence to object to her unreasonable demand.