Part 69

Yuri's POV

<back to the hospital before the Exo Concert>

Jungkook forgive me... I'm not as strong as I thought I was... I can't let you go.

I never wanted to ruin anyone's relationship, but how can I let Jungkook go? He was the only one who looked past my flaws and accepted me for who I am. He was the only one who took the effort to know me despite my cold-hearted front. He was the only one who made me feel like I could be loved, that I was loved. I thought I can let go for him... But my heart hurts. It's still yearning for him.

Yuri... Stop torturing yourself. Go to Jungkook and tell him, if there is really no chance of him loving you back, then you'll move back to America with your mom. That's it. That's what we'll do.

I decided to visit first Christine in the hospital before I talk to Jungkook. I bought sashimis and a teddybear for her, desperately trying to make myself feel better for what I'm about to do.

It's not that I hate her... She was really kind to me but... Tell me, how do you control your heart? It's an involuntary muscle for goodness sake. >.<

I took a deep breath as I slowly opened the door, only to hear screams of laughter. I saw Jungkook on the bed beside Christine with his evil grin, tickling the poor girl beside her. It was evident in his eyes that he was truly happy with her... Be ready, Yuri. Face the truth. If he loves her, go back to America.

"Yuri..." Christine noticed me.

"H.hey how are you?" I asked softly, approaching her bed slowly, handing her the gifts I brought for her.

"Better. How about you?" she asked with a smile that pinched my heart.

I couldn't help but apologize wordlessly... I look towards Jungkook who just avoided my gaze, obviously not liking my presence here. We'll talk later.

"I'll call the hyungs now." Jungkook suddenly said before leaving the room, walking past me, sparing me a glance before leaving the room completely.

Having a little chat with her warms my heart. I know why Jungkook fell for her. I mean, anyone can. It'll be hard to believe if Jongin or Jaebum didn't fall for her... Don't worry Christine. All I need is the assurance that Jungkook is 100% determined to be with you till the end, that you're the only one he loves... That'll be able to slap me back to reality and I'll permanently leave you guys alone...

"Oh- Yuri? What are you doing here?" Jimin's voice was suddenly heard as I jumped off Christine's bed to face them. How can I not know that voice? He's the member who hated me the most after seeing me being mean to that Hannah girl when she was too touchy of Jungkook.

"Leaving..." I said bowing to them. "Get well soon, Christine." I said before leaving the room that was filled with such tension.

To my surprise, I saw Jungkook sitting on the bench outside Christine's room. He was looking down as he spun his phone on his hands.

"Hey..." I softly said.

"Why did you message me such things? You love me but you can't let me go and all that.. And why is mom still pursuing the marriage?" he said not even looking at me as he speaks

"Jungkook I can't! I'm so so sorry..." I sat beside him as I cried silently.

"But Yuri! We talked already! It's Christine that I love! I'm done with this." He said, standing up and walking away.

This isn't enough. Why am I not convinced? Why does it feel like he's wavering of some sort?

I ran to him and hugged him from behind before he could leave.

"You're suffering... Right? You're having a hard time... You can come to me anytime... Jungkook, I love you. And I know somewhere down there, you love me too. It pains me too see you in such a painful situation... A situation I avoided you from even if it means I was to lose you. But now that I'm here, I want you happy.. That's all I want Jungkook... You won't suffer with me "

"Stop it... Stop confusing me. Stop appearing in my dreams... Stop bugging my mind. Christine is the one I love and it's Christine that I'll only love."

H.h.h.he's confused? H.h.h.he dreams of me?

W.why does he sound like he's convincing himself more than convincing me?

How the hell can I give up now?

"You're having a hard time and you want it to end right? You're getting confused and you still dream of me because you still love me Jungkook..."

"I don't... not more than a friend."

"Then why are you dreaming of me? Why are you being confused if you're so certain that you love Christine huh?"

"Stop it. Stop... Stop!" he stormed off, leaving me there harshly... But why has he given me hope? Hope that somewhere deep down, he still loves me?

.

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Christine's POV

<back to present>

We arrived in the hospital after a good 45 minutes of traffic down town. I honestly felt weak but I tried to be as cheerful as I can be so they wouldn't regret letting me go to the concert. With Hoseok and Taehyung being loud as always, I failed to notice Jimin drowning in his own thoughts as he looks out the window with his closed fist leaning on his lips.

As soon as we got down the van, oppa rushed in and came back out with a wheel chair for me to sit on.

"Gomawo..." I thanked him softly as he just smiled and helped me down.

"You can try to fool them, but you can't fool me." He smiled. "By the way, someone's waiting for you."

"Huh? Where?" I asked in utter confusion.

"In your room." He smiled.

"Someone call the doctor nanananananana!" Taehyung suddenly shouted, singing to Exo's Overdose without knowing the lyrics completely.

"Yah! Stop being noisy pabo!" Namjoon said, cringing as he heard Taehyung shouting.

"But hyuuung! It's called post-concert syndrome okay?" Taehyung said while continuing to sing and dance to exo songs with Hoseok right beside him.

"Let them be" I laughed softly as I bob my head to their singing although... it was kind of out of pitch.

The nurse from the other day saw us and approached us with a smile.

"Back already, Ms Min? How was the concert?" he asked offering to push my wheel chair but oppa politely refused, saying he'll do it himself.

"It was fantastic." I smiled

"That's good to hear, looks like you had some fun there huh? I'll tell Dr. Jiyoon you came back already." He said walking with us back to my room.

As soon as we got in, Miji eonni rushed towards me and hugged me tight.

"Oh my poor little girl" she cried, hugging me.

"Eonni.. Don't make it more depressing for me. I'm okay, don't cry.." I hugged her back.

"Mian mian.." She sniffed before pulling away, hugging oppa as the nurse helped me back up to the bed and started fixing the those machines and connecting them to me, including the dextrose that he reattached on my hand with the usual painful needle.

"Please rest, you look awfully tired. I'll send in Dr. Jiyoon in a minute." He said before bowing to us and leaving the room.

"Hey, how was the concert?" Miji eonni sadly smiled as she sat on the bed, holding my hand.

"It was fun. Taehyung and Hoseok never got over the overdose performance." I joked.

"Where's Jin and Jungkook though?" Miji eonni suddenly asked with the room suddenly getting quiet.

"Jin hyung said he'll look for Jungkook..." Taehyung said, tilting his head side wards as he tries to remember.

"Why? What happened to Jungkook? Is he okay?" Miji eonni asked, making me lose it for a moment...

Is it because of me?

Is he... thinking about leaving me like what appa did?

I can't take this.

I can't take this.

I can't take this.

Appa's words ever so clearly echoed in my head.

"No.. No.. It's not like that.." Umma cried hardly.

"Then what is it?!" Appa shouted

"Appa.. Umma.." I said crying seeing them like this. Umma.. Has cancer? Why are they fighting? Umma looks so skinny.. So weak.. So pale.. So.. Sick. And appa's so mad.. So lost.. So.. Broken.

"Tinnie ah..." Both of them gasped in surprise.

"What's happening.." I cried

"I can't take this." Appa said passing by me and Jongin as he sighed heavily, going out of the room and slamming the door.

"Omo!" Miji eonni suddenly cupped my face as she wiped something from my cheeks..

Tears?

Was I crying?

"What's wrong, love?" she asked tenderly, making the guys crowd around me.

"Nothing, what's wrong?" I said, feigning innocence

"You're crying." Oppa pointed out, looking at me with the face I made to Jungkook when he asked me where I was going when I just told him a second before.

"Is it because..." Namjoon trailed off.

"Heeeey how was the conce- hey. Is there something wrong?" Jiyoon umma said, squeezing herself in the group.

"Nothing. Nothing Jiji umma." I smiled at her, shaking my head.

"You got back later than I expected. You must be tired huh?" she said, going near me as she placed her hand on my forehead. "Does anything hurt?" she asked.

"No, just... I feel tired, that's all." I said smiling a little.

"I'm sorry guys, but I have to request for you to leave for tonight. Besides, it's late. It's way past visiting hours..." Jiji umma said facing the rest.

"Who'll be staying tonight?"

"Me!" Jimin said, raising his hand.

"Miji..." oppa said, battling whether he should stay with me or with Miji eonni.

"Oppa, why don't you take Miji eonni with you first at home and besides, you need to sleep in bed too. Your neck is hurting right?" I told him, recalling those nights where he'd mumble in his sleep how uncomfortable a recliner was.

"No it's alri-" Miji eonni and oppa said together but I cut them mid-sentence.

"Jimin will take care of me. It's alright, go rest oppa." I smiled at him

"Yah, Park Jimin, can you really take care of her?" Oppa asked.

"I'm a lighter sleeper than you hyung. I'll wake up when she needs anything. Don't worry." He smiled cheekily at my brother.

"Little boy has a point." Namjoon said making the others chuckle.

"Yah!" Jimin opposed. "Stop calling me little!" He whined.

"Arrasseo." Namjoon chuckled. "We'll be leaving then. We'll tell Jin and Jungkook to just go back directly. See you guys in the morning." Namjoon smiled, ruffling my hair.

"Bye Christine ~ see you tomorrow okay?" Taehyung smiled, pinching my cheeks.

"Stop it." Hoseok said, slapping his hands away. "See you tomorrow, kay?" He said pinching my cheeks as well.

"You guys treat me like a five years old." I pouted as my cheeks were being tortured.

"Yah yah yah stop it already." Oppa said, chuckling.

"I'll see you guys out now." Jimin smiled, teasing those who won't be staying for tonight.

They all waved goodbye as Oppa and Miji eonni gave me one last hug before leaving the room.

"How was the concert dear?" Jiji umma asked when we were alone now.

"It was awesome..." I smiled.

"I didn't notice Jungkook though. Where was he?"

"Umma... Should I just... I mean... He must be having a hard time dealing with me already..."

"Hey! Why are you talking like that?"

"Can't I expect the worst? I mean it happened with my parents... How can it not happen to me?" I said shakily.

"It won’t happen to you because your father and Jungkook are different persons and you have different lives. That's why it won’t..." Jiji umma said, wiping the tears that was falling down my cheeks.

I'm scared...

I'm really scared.

I don't want him to leave me.

But...

I did tell myself to be ready to set him free if he's suffering too much already.

Is this it?

Will I be setting him free soon?

~~~

Jimin's POV

"If she needs anything, just press the red button beside her bed, that's a button to call for a nurse and if she says she needs to pee, all you gotta do is help her down her bed and--" Yoongi hyung has been giving me all the last minute reminders he could think off until we reached the entrance of the hospital to meet Jungkook and Jin hyung just getting off the cab.

"Oh! They're here!" Taehyung smiled, running to the two guys.

"Are you guys leaving already?" Jin asked and Jungkook just remained quiet with his eyes slightly red.

"Yeah. Visiting hours are over. Besides... She's really tired." Namjoon hyung said.

"Who'll be left here if Yoongi's going home with Miji?" Jin asked which seems to catch the maknae’s attention.

“I will.” I told them with Jungkook staring straight through me.

“Can I stay too?” Jungkook asked Yoongi hyung, but never leaving his gaze on me.

“Wae-“

“You’re turn is over! Don’t be unfair!” Taehyung protested, missing the tension that’s building between us.

“Yah.” Yoongi hyung sighed before going over to the maknae’s side, mumbling something that was barely audible

‘How can I leave you both alone if it’s like this?’

“Let’s just go here early in the morning, Jungkookie,” hyung said, walking over to the parking lot, trying to drag Jungkook with him.

“Take care on your way guys” I reminded.

They all smiled and waved before turning their backs at me. As they leave, I went back to the room where Christine was alone with Dr. Jiyoon… As I was approaching her door, Dr Jiyoon went out of the room and met me halfway.

“Oh- You’ll be the one to stay with her for the night?” she smiled at me.

“Ah, Ne..” I said bowing to her.

“Well, take care of her okay?” she said before smiling and walking past me to attend to her other patients after I’ve bowed to her question with an awkward smile. After continuing to walk on, my phone vibrated.

From: Jeonggukie

Hyung, Christine’s mine. Please… Don’t take her away from me.

-JK

I’ve done too much waiting and watching her cry because of your stupid mistakes with that trash. From the moment you slept talked, I’ve kept it in. Kissing her drew my last straw. I’m at my limit Jeon Jeongguk. May the best man win?

-JM

From: Jeonggukie

HYUNG!!!

I shoved in my phone back to my pocket only to walk in on Christine, quickly wiping her face, trying to get the tears off before I could see it, but it was too late. I saw it.

“Hey…” I approached her with a half-smile as I sat on the chair beside her bed.

“Hey” She said trying to sound as lively as she can be. This two faced girl. You don’t have to fool me….

“Are you okay?” I asked, taking her hand in mine.

“Y.yeah.. Just tired.” She said.

I stood up and helped her lie down comfortably, asking her if there’s anything else she needs.

“Nothing really, is there anything you need?” she asked.

“Pabo, why are you asking me? I can sleep on the couch. You’re the sick one here… You’re the one to be taken care of.” I said pinching her nose as her face scrunched up while giggling.

“Thank-you, Jimin.” She suddenly said, taking me off guard.

“For what?” I asked confused.

“For everything. I never got to properly thank you, you know.” She smiled.

“I told you, I’ll always be here. Partners in crime, remember?” I smiled and she just smiled back, nodding weakly, slowly closing her eyes. “Go to sleep, I’ll stay here.” I cooed, stroking her hair as she falls asleep…

I hummed the tune of our remake called beautiful and found her softly smiling as she found comfort in it.

“Christine?” I asked after the song finished… She didn’t respond, indicating that she’s sleeping.

Maybe she doesn’t have to know yet.

“You might not be hearing this right now, but I… I can’t sit back and do nothing anymore… I hate it when I see you cry. I hate it when you’re in pain… You’re already in a tough situation yet our maknae can’t get his feelings steadied. I know it’s not his fault and he’s having a hard time too, but if he truly loved you, I don’t think his feelings would waver no matter whatever the circumstances are… Christine, I’ll always be by your side. I’ll never make you cry. I’ve always loved you… Can’t you see? Forgive me if I’ll make things complicated, but I won’t hold back anymore. I’ll show you how I feel and maybe, just maybe. We can be together. Maybe, you’ll give me the chance to prove to you that you’re worth fighting for, suffering for, everything more.”

“Christine….” I leaned in closer to her ear as she slept peacefully.

“I love you…”

A/N

Omg. I’ve updated. How can I come up with such a long chapter after telling myself that I don’t know how to write this chapter? Lolololol. Anyways here ya goes lovely readers! Jimin’s on his way to finally step up and show how he feels. No more Mr. Nice Hyung, I guess?

Keke~ How was it?

Comment awayy~ I’m trying to get back on track to update everything as fast as I could given my work load >.< Mian for all the waiting~

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