Part 6 Scars

 This chapter will include self harm mentions and generally mental health problems. Also everything that was mentioned in the description.

"Poe why would you do this?" asked Ranpo as he stood dumbfounded at the sight of Poe with blood on his wrists. The drawer of his dresser was open, no doubt he heard Ranpo's knocks and tried to clean up before he got in. He hoped Ranpo wouldn't barge in if nobody answered.

"I-I'm sorry I-" before Poe could finish Ranpo ran at him and embraced him. "Please don't EVER do that! You matter a lot to me and I don't want you to be hurt! Please talk to me... I know it's hard but you mean a lot to me so I want you to be ok."

Poe teared up. He was upset he made Ranpo sad. He tried to say it was the first time but Ranpo saw through him. After a while of silence Poe opened up.

Poe explained how ever since birth there was pressure on him to be perfect since he was the successor to his dads firm. He told Ranpo how he would feel to much pressure and how whenever he had too much on his plate he resorted to self harm, and how he never ate much because he never had the time, but it turned into a habit, same goes for sleep. He felt overwhelm t with emotions today and old habits resurfaced.

"I'm sorry-" tried to say Poe but before he could Ranpo said "No! Stop saying that! You did nothing wrong! Just please don't do it again." "I-I'll try..."

"The cuts are so ugly..." mumbled Poe as Ranpo looked for an anti infection spray in his cupboard. "One second..." told him Ranpo, he pulled out a couple of band aids, on hand books, the other raccoon's, the third had sweets and candies on it and the last on had star patterns.

Ranpo carefully glued them on the cuts. "Now they'll be pretty just like you!"

He thinks I'm pretty? Me? He's probably saying that because he feels bad... They always do, once they see the scars they start pretending like I'm an amazing beautiful person, such lies...

After that, they chatted the whole night, they both told each other about their past, Ranpo found out that Poe's parents had very 'conservative' views. He found out that they had disowned him when he came out. And so Poe was only supported by his sister who gave him money so he could buy food.

Poe felt comfortable with Ranpo, he never told that to anyone, only Ranpo and Karl knew this much about him. He felt so at ease and was so happy. Poe smiled.

Ranpo was surprised at the sudden change in Poe's mood. His smile made him happy... really happy. He wanted to let Poe know that very second how he felt, even tho he knew it was wrong since Poe is going through a lot. And even if he felt the same he, a relationship would just make Poe's routine more busy. But against his better Judgment Ranpo spit out "I like you Poe."

Poe looked at him surprised "I like you too." he replied smiling.

"You do?" Ranpo said surprised at such a blunt response. "Of course I do! You're my best friend after all!" at those words Ranpo felt his stomach plummet, it's as if it was shattered, I mean what did he expect? Did he really think that Poe would say that he likes him too? In the sense that Ranpo likes him that is... Ranpo realized how Poe was just so friendly and close around him was because they were close friends, right they were close friends! Nothing more, he just needed to realize that.

"Well you should probably head back now! it's getting really dark, get some sleep mmkay?" instructed Ranpo as he got off of the floor. "Oh okay yeah sure, see you-" he said as he left. Ranpo closed the door and slumped to the ground, he almost never cries, but he could feel tears swell in his eyes as he sat there. Why couldn't he accept it?

In the other room, Poe was thinking the same thing. He could have said I like you back, but Ranpo meant as friends so it would be a false hope to think that he likes him in that sense. Even if Ranpo did for some reason like him, it didn't matter, he didn't deserve Ranpo...

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