Chapter 13: Candy...Boys...Love

“Reports of One Direction with Maya but missing member Liam during lunch outings are confirmed by sources and pictures have been released.”

“The lads enjoy a nice day of fishing with Maya, but Liam is still missing where could he be?”

“Why isn’t One Direction or Maya saying where Liam is? We have the answer right after the break.”

It’s been two weeks since Liam was admitted into the ICU and every day there was something new about why Liam wasn’t with us when we were spotted out. It’s hard to not tell people the truth, but hopefully soon we will all be back to our normal lives and we won’t have to hide anything anymore.

I turned into Karen’s driveway and parked the car. I loved Liam’s car, but I still didn’t like the whole driving on the other side thing. The guys gave me lessons in an empty parking lot, I knew had to drive but I had to get my license here so I wasn’t stuck in the hospital and I could run errands if I needed to.

“Ruth!” I called as I walked into the house. There was no answer. “Ruth? It’s Maya! We need to get back before your mom has another break down!” I called out. “Sorry, I was on the phone,” Ruth apologized as she ran down the stairs.

“No problem, but hey you should drive back,” I joked. “You hate it, huh?” She asked me. “It’s just not what I’m used too!” I cried. She laughed as I handed over the car keys. “You are just crazy!” Ruth exclaimed.

Liam: Hurry back!

“Do you think he’ll come home today?” Ruth asked me. “I hope so, he seems so much better,” I told her. “If he didn’t have the reaction to the medication I bet he would have been home sooner,” Ruth mentioned.

Harry: Uh Maya we need you.

Maya: Uh Harold why?

Harry: We ran out of candy…

“Harry is out of candy and wants us to get them more,” I told Ruth.  She just laughed. After we bought a lot of candy we went back to the hospital.  It still seemed unreal going to the hospital everyday to visit Liam, but it at the same time it felt oddly normal.

“You brought candy!” Harry exclaimed. I just laughed as I handed over the candy. “Can we have a minute?” Liam asked. As if they had practiced everyone left leaving Liam and I alone. “You look a lot better today,” I told him. “Thanks,” He said. “Why did you tell them to go?” I asked him. “We need to talk,” he sighed. My heart instantly dropped to my stomach. “About…about…what?” I rambled. “Us.” He said. “What about us?” I asked. I had to sit down before I fell over. “I know you wanted to go back to the states, but I don’t know if I want to,” He said. “Oh, well, uh,” I didn’t know what to say. “Are you mad?” he asked me. “I don’t know how to feel,” I practically whispered. So many emotions were running through my body.  “Maya, I just don’t want to leave my family again,” Liam stated. “What about what I want?” I asked him. Tears started to fill my eyes.

“I gave up everything to be with you on that tour and I continued that same promise after the tour was over! I stayed by your hospital bed every night. I did everything I could for you! And you tell me this now!” I cry. I guess my mind decided to with my angry feelings. I blinked the tears away and tried not to look at Liam.

“Maya, please,” he begged. “No, Liam, please to you! Please just tell me why! After all that talk about loving my hometown and how you wish you could stay forever! You lied to me! Why the heck would you tell me that line of trash if you knew deep down you wanted us to stay here? Honestly Liam I love it here so it doesn’t bother me, but what does bother me if not seeing my family for a very long time now and just last night you told me we were going back there!” I yelled.

“I know, but I talked to my parents and I just need time with them outside of this hospital, I thought you would understand,” he sighed. “I do understand, Liam, but this is how you spring it on me?”

I didn’t know what to do or what to think. If I took a look at him I knew I would lose it again. I loved him so much it hurt me at times like this. I wanted to apologize and say we will stay as long as he needs but I end up hurting myself and my family if I do that.

Part of me wants to go home and tell him to text me when he’s a big boy again, but the other part of me knows that would ruin things. “I wouldn’t blame you if you left,” Liam admitted a few minutes later.

“Is that what you want?” I asked him. I stood up from my chair and walked towards the window. The afternoon traffic was picking up and a baby was leaving to start its life at home with the new parents. You could tell from far away they were so happy. I wanted to be happy like that. That happy feeling where no one in the world could take it away from you so happy you feel sick.

“No its not, but I understand if you do,” He said. I didn’t move or say anything. I kept my arms crossed and I stared at the window.

(Flashback)

 I laid in bed Carter had just went back to the campus and I had to help at my mom’s daycare in the morning, but I couldn’t fall asleep.

Carter: Gosh I miss you already.

Maya: I told you to skip class, but no one someone is to good for that.

Carter: You know that wouldn’t look good with my scholarship.

Maya: Ah yes I forgot mister band geek needs to please the money givers!

Carter: You are a dork, you know that?

Maya: Yes, I know that.

Carter: But you are my dork so that’s okay.

Maya: I have always been your dork.

Carter: And you always will.

Maya: Oh whatever. (:

I lay my phone down on my nightstand and stare up at the dark ceiling. I have never loved a guy like I love Carter. I’m so happy all the time it’s sickening. My parents sometime joke it’s all an act and we really don’t love each other like we say we do, but no worries we really do.

Carter: I can’t get rid of you, Maya I love you too much.

(End of Flashback)

That was one of the last times I had talked to Carter, it was the week before our huge fight. The thoughts of that fight still make me sick.  “I’m not going to leave you, Lee, I just need time to think,” I said flatly. “Maya, I didn’t mean to hurt you, I promise,” he assured me.

“Yeah, but you did, you lied to me,” I reminded him. “No, I didn’t lie to you,” He told him. I sharply turned on my heel so I could see him. “You said you wanted to go back to Nebraska and spend time there before we had to jet off to LA, and now you are telling me less then 12 hours later you want to stay here. How is that not lying to me Liam? For gosh sakes please tell me, Lee, please tell me!” I yelled.

 I could feel my face heat up and the warm tears streamed down my face. “I want to go back home with you but I also want to stay here. I am conflicted, and I wasn’t lying because I told you that before I talked to my parents. Maya, you know I will do anything to make you happy anything you name it and I will do it, but at the same time I thought you would do the same for me. I just figured that’s how we worked, because our love is real and forever,” He proclaimed. I wiped the tears from my face and tried to look at him. I didn’t say anything. He moved in his bed and wiped his tears away. I didn’t know what to say. I felt bad for yelling at him but at the same time I didn’t.

  “Lee, I would do the same exact thing for you I promise you, but I’m homesick. I know this isn’t the vacation you wanted, trust me I didn’t want this either. It’s honestly tearing us apart and I know for sure neither of us wants this. I just need you to understand I have tried my hardest but I still can’t help feel the way I do about all of this. Soon we will have to move to LA so you guys can get back to work, and I will be away from my family again. I know this is how the business goes, but I’m not use to it. I want to see them before we up and move to LA,” I sighed. He patted the bed for me to sit next to him, I didn’t move at first but I slowly went over there after a few minutes.

As I set down he pulled me onto his lap and wrapped him arms around me. I cuddled up to him. “I’m so sorry, Maya, I wasn’t thinking of you I was only thinking of myself. I was being stupid when I figured you would just stay here and be perfectly fine with it. You shouldn’t have to do things you don’t want just to make me happy. I should have asked you before telling my parents we would stay, if you want I can tell them we are going back soon.” Liam said.

Harry: Can we come in yet…I ran out of candy….

I laughed at my phone and showed Liam. “We’ll talk about it later,” I assured him. “Okay,” He said as he kissed my check. “Should I let them back in?” I asked him. “In a little bit,” He whispered.

Maya: Sorry I ate it all, forgive me Harold!!

Liam chuckled as I replied to Harry’s text about the candy.  “Do you think he really ate it all?” I asked Liam. “Doesn’t surprise me, Haz, has a sweet tooth. It’s probably because he worked in that bakery,” He rambled. “Oh yeah speaking of that bakery. Harry says he is going to make our wedding cake when we get married, he will even put a firefighter on it for you,” I explained to Liam.

“Wait…who said anything about marriage?” Liam squeaked. I couldn’t help but laugh at his expression. “The guys brought it up the other day at lunch,” I told him. He just laughed.

“Alright we are coming back in!” Harry exclaimed as they all ran back in.  “Sorry you have the wrong room,” Liam joked. “No, because I can see the candy bag!” Harry proclaimed as he pointed to the store sack full of different types of candy.   I laugh as I watch Niall and Harry race for the bag of candy.

“Harry! I call the Twix!” I call out. I jump off Liam’s lap and race over to get them. “NO!” Harry yelled. “This could end deadly,” Zayn laughed. “Why does she only buy one?” Niall asked the obvious. “Well, Niall, to answer your question I didn’t think Harry would eat everything else before I had any,” I snap.

(Liam’s POV)

I watched as my best friends and my girlfriend fought over a Twix bar. I didn’t say anything I just laughed. In this moment I felt truly blessed to have all five of them in my life. They have been there for over the past two weeks then I could have ever asked for. The guys were like my brothers and I wouldn’t change that for the world, but with Maya it was different.  A good different, but something I couldn’t put my finger on.

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