Chapter 12: Harsh Reality

(Liam’s POV)

“Why didn’t Perrie come?” Harry asked as we walked back to the hotel room I share with Maya. “She’s busy,” Zayn mumbled fast. “Everything alright, lad?” Louis asked. “Everything is fine,” Zayn said. We knew we shouldn’t ask him anymore questions. “So Louis, Eleanor is in town,” Niall says. “I had no idea,” Louis chuckled. “Well, how long is she here this time?” Niall asked. “Just a couple days,” Louis sighed.

(Maya’s POV)

Eleanor and I decided I should stay with the guys to make sure they were kept sane and Paul wasn’t killed in any freaks accidents. “Do you think you and Liam will get married?” Eleanor asked me as we ate ice cream. “I don’t know, I don’t want to be engaged anytime soon that’s for sure,” I said. “Why?” She asked me. Eleanor knew about Carter but it wasn’t a subject I talked to her about often. It wasn’t like I trusted her anything because I do, I just prefer not to.

“Oh love I’m home!” Liam chimes as he ran through the hotel suite. He spotted me and picked me up bridal style. “Liam James!” I cried. Eleanor laughed. “Louis is dead be-tee-w.” Liam chuckled. “Doesn’t surprise me with you guys,” Eleanor commented. “I’m not dead!” Louis cried as he enters the room. Liam set me down and I set back down on the bed. “Where is everyone else?” I asked. “Fridge,” Louis stated. “Good thing I brought those snacks,” I joked.

Alyson: Work is not the same without you.

Maya: Alyson, darling, you have Kassie!

Alyson: She is here all the time!

Maya: Well I’m sorry, I’ll be home in a few week.

Alyson: But you probably won’t work here again!

Maya: Eh probs not, but still I’ll come get food there!

“Where do we have to eat tonight?” Louis asked pulling back into reality and away from my phone. “Uh, I wasn’t paying attention. I usually zone out when Paul goes on one of this rants,” I admit with a small laugh.

“Does anyone listen to him?” Harry asked as he entered the bedroom.”I don’t think so,” Liam deliberated. We all laughed. Everyone eventually had to go get ready. “Finally I can be alone!” I said as I collapsed back on the bed.

“Hey I’m still here!” Liam hollered. “Well, come sit with me then!” I begged. Liam chuckled and walked over to the bed and set down next to me. “So, Maya Claire,” Liam chuckled. “Yes, Liam James?” I asked. “I was thinking and we need to go on vacation,” Liam said. “That would be amazing! Where to?” I asked him. “I thought I could show you where I grew up,” He suggested. I smiled. “I would love that!” I assured him. “We can go after the tour officially ends,” He offered. “Geez, you can’t wait to get there!” I huffed. The thought of going to where Liam grew up and spending time with his family gave me a warm fuzzy feeling inside. I couldn’t have asked for a better vacation.  I looked at him with the biggest smile on my face. I felt like my life was him was going in the right direction.

“Well, I know once we get back to your place I won’t want to leave so I figured we should probably go before we go home,” Liam explained. The thought of him loving Plattsmouth so much made me feel that same warm fuzzy feeling. I never met anyone who wasn’t from there that actually liked it.

“And I don’t think they will let us leave,” I joked. “Alyson won’t that is for sure,” Liam laughed. I knew he was right once we were back home and Alyson had found out I knew she wouldn’t let us leave ever again. “Do your parents know?” I asked him. “Well obviously they do,” He said.  

Paul: Leaving in an hour.

I read the text from Paul and sighed. “Leaving in an hour,” I told Liam. “Can’t we just stay here and watch Friends?” Liam whined. “I wish!” I exclaimed. We got ready and made our way to meet everyone else. “Where is Zayn?” I asked Harry. “On the phone with Perrie,” He mentioned as he pointed over to Zayn. He looked upset. “Do you know who what is going on?” I asked him. “No, he wouldn’t say,” Harry sighed messing with hair. “Harold, you are going to mess up your hair!” I snapped. “Sorry mum!” Harry laughed.

“Maya, are you sure you are okay with going out?” Paul asked me. “I actually have a choice?!” I cried. “Well today you do since our last incident,” Paul shrugged.  “Well, if I stay here I will be myself so I will go,” I sighed. “Are you okay?” He asked me. “Just nervous,” I whispered.

I clung to Liam as we walked out of the hotel I wasn’t in the mood for cameras in my face. That didn’t stop anyone from practically shoving the camera as close as it could to my face as the screamed hurtful comments to me. I quickly got into the van and slid down in my seat. “Maya, are you okay?” Liam asked as he set next to me. “I really don’t know,” I sighed I turned my attention to the window.

Maya: Well Jane you win…my life is miserable now because of you. Bravo!

@_MayaMay_ Really missing home right about now.

Everyone talked and joked around the whole ride to dinner but I stayed to myself. I was to shaken  up from everything that had happened today. It was all too much. I wish I never used my free trip home pass I could really use it now. I knew I had to deal with it, but I still have feeling and I hate them in my face 24/7.

I felt Liam’s hand grab mine. I looked over and him, he flashed a “I’m sorry, I love you” smile. I smiled back. “Leeyum! Oh Leeyum!” Harry cried. “Yes, Haz?” Liam asked. “If you and Maya ever break up I call dibs okay?” Harry told him. I couldn’t help but burst out in laughter. “You won’t have to worry about that one,” Liam snapped back. “What is that suppose to mean, Lad?” Niall asked hoping over the seat sitting next to Liam.

Bri: I hope you are okay! I saw your tweet I wish you were home too!

Maya:  I miss you too! This day just needs to be over… I can’t take much more.

Bri: What is going on?

Maya: I’ll call you later. Just arrived at dinner… joy.

(1 month later)

“Well guys the tour is officially over!” Zayn exclaimed as the boys walked off the stage. Tears started to form in everyone’s eyes as they walked back stage. I rush over to Liam and hug him. He squeezes me and starts to cry. “We have to leave for flights here soon guys, I know its tough but pretty soon we will all be together again.” Paul said.

“We will?” I asked Liam. “Well, they will not us,” He sighed. “Liam, do you?” I asked him. “Please I can’t talk about this right now,” Liam mumbled and walked away. I watched him shuffle down the hallway. “Where is he going?” Harry asked me. “I have no clue,” I grumble more tears escaped from my eyes. I found myself following Liam’s path. I found him sitting in the room Paul had given to relax in during the meet and greet.

“Liam, what’s wrong?” I asked him. “I don’t want to talk about it,” He snapped. “Oh okay,” I said with a hurt tone. I set across from him in a chair. I brought my legs to my chest and wrapped my arms around my legs. I didn’t know what had come over Liam so fast. I knew it would be emotional when the tour was over, but I didn’t know he was going to act like this.

I set there for what had seemed like hours waiting for someone to say something. I didn’t know what to say. I didn’t even know if he wanted me in here with him. I got up from the chair and walked out of the room. He didn’t even say anything. He didn’t even try to make me stay. Was this the end of us?

Was this all good to be true? Was everything a lie? Or an act? Was I going to be sent home single? Did Sophia want him back? I went and changed into a pair of yoga pants and a Huskers sweatshirt and put my UGGs on.

I slowly walked back to the room where I had left my purse. “Sorry I just forgot my purse,” I mumbled as I entered the room. “Maya, please don’t go,” he begged. “Why? You didn’t see too fond of me when I was in here before! Liam what is going on!” I snapped. “I know your plan okay!” He yelled. “What plan?” I asked him. “I know that you are going to leave me now that the tour is over!” He cried. “WHAT?!” I exclaimed in complete shock. “Why would I do that?” I asked him. “I overheard you talking to Harry last night,” He sighed.

(Flashback)

“You think you and Liam will make it out in the big world?”  Harry asked me as we watched a movie. “Probably, if not I’ll just go home,” I sighed, I hated to think of that what ifs and everything else. I honestly didn’t know if Liam and I would make it without the comfort and safety zone of being on tour. I didn’t want to think about it, but I knew I had to. I had to be ready for whatever might happen. “You would just leave?” Harry asked me. “Well now that the tour is over  I really just want to go home,” I sighed.

(End of Flashback)

“You must have not heard it all, Liam, seriously I wouldn’t leave you. I love you!” I assured him. “Then why do you want to go home?” He asked me. “I’m homesick,” I told him. “What about our vacation?” He asked. “We are still going, now let’s go or we will miss our flight,” I sighed. “Why did you tell Harry all of that stuff?” He asked me. “What stuff?” I asked him.

“About Carter and everything,” He said.  I knew exactly what he was talking about. I didn’t know he was awake when I was talking to Harry. I feel terrible, I knew I had to stay calm or I would have another panic attack.

(Flashback)

“Do you ever wish you could do something over again?” I asked Harry. “Yeah, why?” he asked. “Sometimes I wish I could back to the day to when Carter killed himself and  I would tell him I would go visit him, maybe he would still be here, who knows,” I sighed. “Then would you be here?” He asked. “I never thought about that, but one thing is for sure if I wasn’t here I wouldn’t be getting harassed every day,” I rambled on. “Maya, does Liam know about this?” Harry questioned. “Oh no! No! He can’t know!”  cried.

“Why not?” Harry looked puzzled. “I don’t want him to get the wrong idea. I want to be with Liam, but I don’t know I just miss Carter,” I sighed. “Maya, look, tell Liam he will understand. You two are perfect for each other, and he won’t be mad at you for missing Carter. It makes sense,” He said with a smile.

“I don’t, Haz, it’s just everything dealing with Carter is so complicated and I hate to bring Liam into it,” I cried. I got up from the couch and walked around the front of the tour bus. “Maya, you need to tell him,” Harry pleaded. “Tell him what? Tell him I’m still in love with my dead fiancé? Or that I’m scared to death to leave the tour? Or that Jane spread another rumor? What should I tell him Harry?!” I yelled.

(End of flashback)

“You…you…heard that?” I managed to say. “Yeah, all of it,” He huffed. “Liam, do you want the truth?” He asked me. “I don’t know, Maya, let’s just get to the plane,” he groaned. “No, I’m not leaving yet!” I protested. “Maya, it’s no big deal,” he said as he walked towards the door. “Yes, it is Liam! Or you wouldn’t be acting this way!” I cried. He turned around  with red swollen eyes from crying. “Maya, I love you more than anything! You shouldn’t have to worry about life after the tour because I’m not letting you go anywhere! I couldn’t imagine my life without you. It hurt so bad to hear all of that, what we have is real I promise you!” Liam cried. I ran over and hugged him as tight as I could. Tears streamed down my face.

He hugged me back as always I buried my head into his chest. “I’m so sorry!” I pleaded. “It’s okay, I know where you are coming from,” He assured me. Before I knew it we were on our plane to visit Liam’s family.

“This is the longest plane ride ever,” I yawned. “You get use to it,” Liam chuckled. I must have fallen asleep because before I knew we were there.  Wolverhampton was amazing. I couldn’t get enough of it. “C’mon, Maya, my parents are waiting!” Liam chimed. “I’m coming! Just waiting on my bags!” I yelled.

Once I got my stuff I hurried over to Liam. “Thanks for the help Payne!” I joked. “No problem Hudson!” Liam laughed in my face. I rolled my eyes and followed him to his parents. “It’s so great to see you both again!” Karen exclaimed. “Here I’ll help you with that,” Geoff offered. “Thanks,” I said with a smile.

We followed them to their car. “Liam, your car is at our house,” his dad told him. “Thanks! I sure have missed driving,” Liam commented. “Good you can drive me around everywhere,” I joked. Everyone laughed maybe I was wrong maybe I want to live here not Nebraska.

*Hey guys hope you enjoyed this chapter the next couple are packed with drama and I can't wait for you guys to read them! XOXO!*