Chapter 10: Hello new love

(Maya’s POV)

I wasn’t ready to board the plan to take us to meet everyone in Austin. I wanted to stay here with my family and Liam, with no one bugging us about tour stuff or interviews or photo shoots. It would be us just living our lives together in a small town where no one bothers you they let you live your life the way you want it.  Don’t get me wrong I love the guys and everyone, but sometimes I just want my old life back, where my face wasn’t plastered on every tabloid known to mankind. There is not one time I can walk through a checkout line and not see my face on at least three magazines with stories that are not even true.  Sometimes I say something to one another customer in line about it but they just stare awkwardly like I’m a walking disease or something.

“Do we have to go?” I whined. “Sorry, Maya, I wish we didn’t either but sadly we do,” Liam sighed. What seemed like a lifetime later we landed in Austin…sadly. “There they are!” I head Harry exclaim. “Why must they be here?” Liam whispered. “Oh you love them!” I cried as I playfully slapped his arm. “You better knock it off!” He joked. “Eh, don’t feel like it,” I spat.  He threw his arm around my waist and we walked over the rest of the guys.

“How I have not missed this bus,” I sighed as we all got onto the bus.  Just stepping on the bus made my stomach turn in knots, I didn’t want Liam to know though, it would make him feel worse. “Maya, chill,” Harry sassed. I just laughed as I sat my bags down on my bunk. “How was your break?” Zayn came and asked me. “Good, it’s what I needed,” I said with smile. He smiled but didn’t say anything. “Zayn, are you okay?” I asked him. “Yeah, I’m fine,” He said. “Well, if you need someone to talk I’m here,” I offered. “Thanks, Maya, it means a lot trust me it does,” He assured me.  I walked back out to everyone else. They were already playing video games. “We just got on the bus!” I exclaimed. “We haven’t seen each other in over a week! We have a lot to catch up on!” Louis cried. “Yeah, and you kept Liam to yourself so go away!” Harry whined. “You guys are so mature,” I taunted them as I sat down and pulled out my phone.

@_MayaMay_ on the road again and @Real_Liam_Payne @Harry_Styles @NiallOffical and @Louis_Tomlinson have gone crazy!

“Nice tweet, M, going to make everyone go crazy,” Zayn said as he walked up to us. “Oh I try my best,” I laughed. The bus ride was mainly watching the boys play video games sneaking pictures and posting them on Instagram. “We are at the hotel!” Paul yelled. “Gather your stuff and get ready to go!” He commanded. “I sure haven’t missed him,” Harry whispered. “Same here,” I agreed back.

The fans raved as we talked out of the bus into the hotel. They were screaming so many things I couldn’t focus. Cameras were flashing and paps wanting what made me come back and how much I was getting paid. I didn’t know what to do or think. I clung to Liam and looking down at the ground.

One of the fans pulled my ponytail as her friend tried to steal my purse and Paul had to help me. “Get her inside now!” Paul yelled a couple of the other tour managers came and escorted me inside as quickly as they possibly good. “Are you okay?” Paul asked me. “Yeah, I’m fine,” I sighed. “Let’s get you guys to your rooms,” He sighed. Liam grabbed my bags without saying anything. “Thanks,” I mumbled. He just nodded and kept walking.

 I had so much rushing through my head I didn’t even notice when we got to our room. I watched as Liam set the bags down on the bed. “I’m going to take a shower,” He said and then went into the bathroom.

@_MayaMay_ too much is left unsaid and it’s the worst thing that can happen.

I grabbed my phone charger and plugged in my phone and laid down on the bed hoping to take a quick nap before the  radio interview tonight. “Sorry, I forgot stuff,” Liam apologized as he walked out with just a towel wrapped out his waist. “No biggie,” I shrugged.  He grabbed his stuff and went back to the bathroom.

Maya: Bri! I need to come back home! Fans attacked me!

I didn’t know how much of this was upsetting Liam or if something else was.  There was a knock at our door. “Coming!” I exclaimed as I walked over. When I opened the door the guys rushed in. “Well, I sure have missed you guys,” I tell them as I shut the door. “Where is Liam?!” Louis cried. “Shower, why?” I asked him. “We need to talk to him! Like NOW!” Niall cried. “Why?” I asked him. “Something major happened!” Zayn yelled. As if he knew Liam came out of the bathroom. “What’s going on?” Liam asked him.

“I’m going to talk to Lou,” I told them. I walked down the hall I didn’t know if I really wanted to talk to anyone. My head was pounded and I was scared to death about running into another fan. As I rounded the corner I saw Paul on the phone and it seemed serious. I turned back around because it would have been rude to listen, but I was really curious. I fought back the urge to go back and listen to Paul.

 I played with my necklace as I walked back to my hotel room. I missed Carter more than usually lately probably due to all the drama. He always knew how to make everything better he always said the right things. A tear escaped from my eyes. “Carter, if you are there please help me,” I begged. More and more tears escaped from my eyes. I saw cameras flash. The paps somehow got into the hotel and found me. “Shoot! Shoot! Shoot!” I mumbled. I knew I should run back to my hotel room because then they would know where we were all staying.

Maya: Paul, paps are following me around outside the hotel room.

Paul: Where are you?

Maya: Around the corner from our room.

Paul: I’ll call the main desk distract them for the time being.

After awhile it was safe to go back to my room. “There you are!” Liam exclaimed. “Yeah, here I am,” I sighed. “What happened?” Niall asked. “They found the floor we are staying on and Paul had to come and help me out,” I explained to them. The guys just stared at me. “Well, I have to get ready for the interview so I’ll leave you guys alone now,” I said as I slowly walked to the bathroom.

I felt defeated, I didn’t want to feel like this, but I felt like I had no choice. Ever since that girl pulled my hair while her friend tried to steal my purse earlier, Liam had acted different.  “Maya, wait!” Liam cried. I turned around and watch the rest of the guys leave the room and Liam rush over to me.

I didn’t say anything honestly I didn’t know what to say. I was upset with him, he made me feel terrible for things I couldn’t control, he had that effect on me. “Are you mad at me?” He asked. “You could say that,” I sassed. “If this is about before with the fans…I’m sorry,” He told me. “Liam, its not just that,” I pointed out. “Then what is it?” He asked me.

“It’s the fact after that happened you didn’t make sure I was alright, you just grabbed my bag and left. Then when we get into our room you act all awkward and you only acted like yourself when the boys were around,” I explained to him. He didn’t say anything he just looked away. “I don’t know what is going on but I really don’t like it! I knew it was too soon for me to come back, Liam! The fans and all that works for you, but it honestly scares me so bad it puts me in panic mode. I don’t want to live like that but I do it for you because I love you! I am willing to change my life for you, I don’t know why and it scares me but I will for you!” I yell.

Liam stares at me. “You…love…me?” He managed to say. Did I really say that? I must not have noticed what I was saying. “I think so, but that is not the point!” I snap. “I didn’t know that you didn’t like any of this,” He shrugged. “I like most of it just not the over obsessive fans that try to attack me,” I sighed. I could see the pain in his eyes he looked so miserable. I had to look away because I couldn’t look at him when he looked like that. It broke my heart into millions of pieces.

“Maya, look at me,” Liam sighed. I couldn’t I couldn’t bring myself too. Liam walked over to me and put his hand on my hips. “Liam, no, please, just, don’t,” I whimpered. He pulled me into his chest. “Why are you so upset?” He asked softly.

The truth was I felt terrible for falling in love with Liam. I know it’s almost a year since Carter died, but it was still hard to admit the fact that I had moved on somewhat and I was ready to start a new life with a new guy. I couldn’t tell him the truth, I’m not sure if he would understand. I’d try my best to explain it but still it would be hard to explain to a certain extent where he would understand.

My heart broke as softly cried as he held me. The pressure was building up inside of both of us and finally we both broke down at the same time. “Liam, please don’t cry,” I begged him. “Did I do this to you?” He asked me. I looked up at him and wiped the tears off his face. “No, you didn’t do anything wrong. You did everything right,” I assured him.

He didn’t say anything he just looked at me. I smiled at him and explained to him. “You showed me it’s okay to open up and start over again after losing someone who was very important. You taught me I was still allowed to live the life I want even if that means Carter isn’t here anymore. I learned I can love again and not feel guilty anymore.” A smile appeared through his tears. “You really love me?” He asked me. “Well I love that you are rich and famous and incredibly hot,” I joked. He shot me a death glare. “Yes, I love you the rest is just a bonus,” I laughed. “I love you too,” He smiled and kissed me.

I smiled at him as I reached up and wiped the tears off his face. “You are something else Maya Claire Hudson,” He points out. “Liam James Payne, you my friend are perfect,” I assured him. “I’m only perfect because you are mine,” He smiled. “Thank you,” I told him. “For what?” He asked me. “Healing me,” I said. “I would do anything for you.” Liam smiles at me. I hug him tighter and burry my head into his chest.

For the first time in 6 months I didn’t feel guilty for loving someone else. I felt free not free from Carter but free from the pain and the guilt of moving on. I didn’t feel scared to express my true feelings. I wanted the world to know I was in love with this boy. I was ready to start my life again without being scared of cameras in my face all the time. I knew with Liam by my side I wouldn’t be alone he would be there to protect me.

I wasn’t leaving Carter behind I take him where ever I go he would be in my thoughts every day, but I also knew that it was time to take my life off of pause and start enjoying life to the fullest.  I knew Carter would my guardian angel for the rest of my life. I know he wouldn’t leave me that easily.  He had been a major part of my life for so long that I would never be able to just toss him to the curb, I’d carry him with me no matter where life took me. I knew he would want me to be happy and live life to the fullest.  A year ago I could have never imagined loving another guy who wasn’t Carter, I had my life planned out and Carter was in every step of the way, but now he wasn’t here and I had to go on with life.

(Liam’s POV)

We were on our way to the radio interview and everyone was in such a good mood. Niall and Maya were telling each other awful jokes but somehow they found then funny. Louis and Harry were messing around with Zayn. I was sitting next to Lux and she was playing with her toys. “Look Lee! I got a pony!” Lux cried. “Oh my goodness! I’m really jealous, Lux!” I exclaimed. She laughed so hard tears fell from her eyes. “Do you want one?” Tom asked me. “Want a pony?” I asked him confused. “No, a child,” Tom said with a laugh. “Oh! I do but not yet,” I clarified.

“Harry! You can’t do that!” I heard Maya yell. Harry snickered. “Dude that was perfect!” Niall shouted. Louis was just hysterically laughing at this point. “What happened now?” Paul sighed. “Harry and Niall are being freaks!” Maya cried.  I couldn’t help but laugh at the looks on the guys faces. That’s when I saw green slime fall off of Maya’s hair unto her face. “I swear! UGH! Disgusting!” Maya cried.

Niall, Harry, Zayn, and Louis busted out laughing. I reach over and pull the slim off her face and throw it all Harry. “Oooooh, Paully dearest catch!” Harry chimed and then threw the slime in Paul’s face.

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