Chapter 7: This must be fake

Hello amazing people of wattpad this was one of my favorite chapters to write it played with my emotions a little bit not going to lie, I used some personal experiences to make the feeling more raw. Hope you enjoy! Love you all!

(Maya’s POV)

“We need you to stay until we get the results back,” The doctor told me before I could say anything he was called to another room. “Paul, what is going to happen next?” I asked him. Paul looked at me with pity in his eyes he sighed but didn’t say anything. He wasn’t supposed to be my babysitter he was supposed to make sure the boys were alright. I felt terrible for all of this. I should have kept on my medication but I thought I was better without it. 

I stopped taking it after Carter died. I didn’t like how it made me feel. When my parents found out I promised to start taking it again, but I never did. I felt that at my age it was my choice to take them or not. Even though I knew I probably should, I chose not to because I hated them. I had always hated them no matter what ones my doctor would give me after listening to me complain about the one I was on at the time. Some kids like that it made them feel normal and they were never really worried, but I didn’t like that they made me feel like a zombie and I wasn’t going to live my life like that. My parents didn’t always believe me so I would spend hours googling everything about each medicine and after I had found all the information I needed I would present it to them. I soon gave up on that when my mom said to simply just glance at in and not even read it.  My doctor never gave up on me, like I thought she would.

“Maya, why didn’t you take the medience?” Paul finally asked me. “I had been taking it since the fifth grade I felt like an outcast for taking it. I never liked how it made me feel. I stopped taking it after Carter died I didn’t like how it didn’t allow me to feel how I felt. I wanted to be able to express myself and it wasn’t letting me.” I explained.

“Maya, a lot of people take the same thing every day and unless you tell people about it no one would ever be able to tell,” Paul tells me. He sounds like every therapist I have ever had. “I know,” I said quietly.

“Did you ever think it was helping you?” He asked me. I shifted my eyes toward the door. “At times yes, but I don’t know I wanted to make my own decisions and I felt like I was old enough to control these outbursts on my own, but I guess I was wrong,” I sighed.

Paul didn’t say anything and I stared at the door wanted to hear the results so I could go back to the show and see Liam. “Maya, would you mind if I step outside to make a call?” Paul asked me. “No, not at all,” I told him. I was happy he was finally leaving for a few minutes. While on the tour Paul had become like a second father to me, but tonight I wanted some time to myself some time to clear my mind and with Paul sitting here with me I knew for a fact that it wasn’t going to happen. I watched as he left the room shutting the door behind him. I pulled out my phone checking twitter.

They guys were tweeting about the show and how much fun they were having.

@_MayaMay_ I can’t believe I’m missing the show. #getmeoutofhere.

I watched as fans questioned why I wasn’t there they all tweeted so fast. I didn’t know if I should say why I was missing the show yet or not.  I laid down and staring at the ceiling. Hospitals were so creepy.

@Real_Liam_Payne we miss you too @_MayaMay_ come back to us!!

I giggled at Liam’s lame tweet he was such a dork but I didn’t mind. I was going to reply but then Paul came back in. “Any news yet?” I asked him. “No, but it looked like the doctor was coming our way,” He said as he set down in a chair. After thirty minutes of being lectured how important it was to keep on my medication we were allowed to leave.

 Neither Paul nor I said anything on the way back to the venue. When we got there Lou rushed over to me.  “Are you okay?” She asked me. I just nodded. “Is she okay?” Lou asked Paul. “She was given something to calm her nerves until the attack is fully gone,” Paul explained. “Is that healthy?” Lou asked. “Yes, Lou, calm down,” I sighed. “Must not be working,”  Lou whispered to Paul. “He said it might not,” Paul mentioned. I walked away from them I wasn’t in the mood to hear them talk about my horrible hospital trip. I wondered to the side stage to watch the rest of the concert. Liam stopped me and pulled me out onto the stage.

“Welcome back, love,” He chimed as he hugged me and kissed my forehead. I smiled and hugged him back. “Man, I wish I could go on stage every night in my sweats,” Harry joked. I looked down and forgot I never changed into the outfit I was supposed to wear for tonight’s show. “Sorry, Harry, you can’t be as lucky as me,” I joked. “You’re right I am much luckier!” He snapped with a smirk.

The lights hurt my eyes so I didn’t stay on stage long I went to lay down on the tour bus. I wish I could have fallen asleep but I couldn’t I had too much on my mind. I knew tomorrow I would have to explain everything to everyone and I also had to fix the problem Jane had started. I shifted in the bunk. I still don’t get how the boys found these bunk comfortable. I couldn’t find a comfortable spot so I got out of the bunk and walked around the bus.

I knew the concert would be over soon so I hurried back to the venue. “You are just in time,” Lou told me as I took my spot of the side stage. “Did he notice I was gone?” I asked her. “No, Harry is making sure of that,” Lou informed me. I watched as the guys preformed and goofed on stage like they always did.  The guys came over and pulled me on stage once again. “Didn’t think we forgotten about you? Did you love?” Harry asked me. “Actually, Harry, I was hoping you did,” I told him.  “Sing with us please, Maya!” Louis begged. “Alright, Alright if it prevents you five crying I will,” I agreed.

We sang a couple songs and the fans went crazy. I loved being able to spend my time with these five crazy guys and I never wanted it to end. My life had changed so much and I couldn’t believe. I was on stage singing with my boyfriend and the band he was in. I never thought I would be able to say that. Liam picked me up and said, “I think we should throw you out there to the fans.”

Everyone in the stands started freaking out.  That’s when I knew what was going to happen next. The lights went out and we all took our place on the flying piece that would take us to a stage in the center of the floor. The music kept playing as we raised of the ground the lights slowly turning back on. “You guys really thought I was going to give you her?” Liam asked. “We need her she makes us food!” Zayn exclaimed.  

After the concert we loaded the bus to head to Madison Square Garden. “Second time around here we come!” Niall exclaimed. We all stayed up way to late talking 6 am came way to fast. “RISE AND SHINE!!” Liam yelled as he ran through the bus. “Seriously, Liam! It’s 6 am! What time did you wake up!” Harry yelled. “5:30 had to do my work out!” Liam exclaimed. I groaned as I got out of my bunk and made my way to the living room area. I plopped down on the couch and tried to stay awake. “Anyone want to stop for food?” Paul asked. “Village Inn?!” Niall cried. We all laughed. “Sure, Nialler, we can go to Village Inn,” Paul laughed. We all changed and pretty soon we stopped at a Village Inn for breakfast. 

“Sunglasses on!” Harry commanded with a chuckled. We put our sunglasses on and pull the hoods from our sweatshirts over our head. Paul only let two of us go at a time due the fact someone spotted our bus and it seemed like everyone in the town was now at Village Inn. “Is it still worth it, Niall?” I asked him. “Yes, it is,” He chuckled.

Zayn and Niall went first, then Harry and Louis and then finally Liam and I. When we got into the restaurant everyone stared at us. “Table for 7 please,” Paul told the hostess. “Lou didn’t want to eat?” I asked Paul. “No, Lux was still asleep,” He told me. I just nodded. I know Paul was still in dad mode after my trip to the ER last night.

Bri: Thanks for making everyone on Twitter freak! Are you okay?

Maya: Yes, Brianna I’m fine!

Bri: GASP! How dare you call me that!

“Maya, are you okay?” Paul asked me. I knew I wasn’t my head was pounded and I felt like I was going to throw up, but I didn’t want anyone to know. “I’ve been better,” I told him. We went to find the boys who were already at the table.

I knew I had to make the rumor go away and keep everyone around me from getting hurt especially Liam. Everyone stared at us Paul and I joined the boys. “Are you okay, Love?” Liam asked as He wrapped his arm around my waist as I set down next to him in the booth. “Yeah, just tried,” I told him. “Everyone is, expect Liam,” Harry pointed out. All the guys agreed and started talking about something I really wasn’t paying attention. 

Serra: Are you okay?!

Makayla: You need to come home! ASAP!

I ignored the text messages I had to focus. “Maya, you are barely touching your food what’s going on?” Liam asked me.  “I just need air,” I said as I hurried away from the table. I knew Paul was going to follow after me just to make sure nothing happened to me. I stopped before the door I knew I shouldn’t go out there everyone would be taking pictures and screaming at me. I couldn’t do that right now. “Is everything okay miss?” a hostess asked me. “Yeah, just going to get some air,” I told her. “Do you want to risk that?” She asked me gesturing outside. “No, not really,” I sighed. Soon Liam and Paul were coming my way. “What is going on, Maya?” Liam asked.

“I’m supposed to call Simon,” I told him. “About the Jane thing?” He whispered. I just nodded. “Just come back to the table we can do this later,” Liam suggested. “But Liam,” I begged. “Do you need a minute?” Paul asked. Liam and I both nodded. He moved back a bit to give us privacy but still close enough to keep an eye on us. “Simon has it all under control you have nothing to worry about,” Liam told me. I didn’t say anything. “Maya, what is going on with you?” Liam asked.

“I’m just a little out of it still,” I whispered. He pulled me into his chest and hugged me tight. I hugged him back never wanting this moment to end. “Everything will be okay,” Liam assured over and over again.