Chapter 4

“Do you have a date for the fall dance yet?” my mother asked while I was trying to enjoy my breakfast in silence.

“No Mom” I rolled my eyes and stabbed my eggs with a fork.

“Why don’t you make up with Louis darling? He’s such a great boy.” I laughed internally. I only told my parents that we just didn’t work out. I didn’t want to get in to details on why our relationship ended. Frankly I was just too embarrassed to say that he found someone better than me.

“That’s never going to happen. He’s seeing someone new anyway.”

“Right. I spoke with his mom. I heard she is lovely. Maybe if you were more like her then he never would have left you in the first place.” I nearly choked on my food. My own mother defending that bitch. I wasn’t as pretty as Nikki or as popular but I sure as hell was a better person than she will ever be. “I started chugging my orange juice wanting to end this conversation. My brothers and sister came running into the kitchen and Shaun bumped into me causing orange juice to spill all over me. This morning couldn’t get any worse.

I really can’t stand my family sometimes. They were loud and obnoxious and never heard of privacy. Shaun is fifteen, Kaci is ten, and John is eight. They are all annoying but I have to put up with them, at least until I go away for college.

“Jesus!” I screamed.

“Watch your mouth” my mother scolded.

“Couldn’t you stop having kids after me?” I said annoyed.

“Now what fun would that be?” I pushed my chair back and stood up from the table. I looked down at my shirt that was now soaked.

“Great now I’m going to be late.”

“I’ll write you a note.” I went upstairs and changed my outfit. I was dressed nicely in denim shorts and a cute top but now I just threw on some soccer shorts and a tee shirt. I got to school an hour late. I went to the office and of course Niall was the teacher on duty today. I should be happy to see him. I really should but I was just having a really bad day already.

“Late again?” Normally I would say some witty comment back but wasn’t in the mood.

“I’m sorry Mr. Horan.”

He cleared his throat. His lips turned from a smile into a frown. “It’s okay Kellie.” I took the pass from his hands and walked to class. My phone buzzed as I sat down.

From Niall: Everything all right?

I ignored his text. It wasn’t Niall’s fault that I was in a bad mood He’s the only one who made me happy these days. I sighed and decided to text him back.

To Niall: Everything’s fine.

I tried to stay focused in class. I took notes and followed the lecture. My phone vibrated again.

From Niall: Which means it’s not. Come over tonight. I’ll make you dinner.

My stomach actually fluttered at the offer but I couldn’t go. My parents had an ‘important dinner’ to go to tonight so I had to stay home and watch Kaci and John. I texted him back telling him I had to babysit. My parents were always leaving them with me. I felt more like a parent than they were.

“So guess who just asked me to the dance?” Tori squealed when I got to my locker.

“Zayn?” I pretended to be shocked. She playfully hit me in the arm.

“Now we just need to find you a date. Someone hot to make Louis jealous.”

“I don’t care about Louis. Can’t I just go solo?”

She laughed at first then her expression fell. “No.”

I rolled my eyes at her. “Okay, if you could find one hot boy that’s not a tool bag I will consider it.” I didn’t even want to go to this stupid dance. The only reason I was even going is because of Tori and my other friends. It was out last year and I’m sure I’ll regret it if I didn’t go. I’d much rather be curled up on the couch with Niall kissing and touching and watching movies.

“How about Sam?” I shook my head no. Sam was a nice, good-looking kid but he was dull. “Jason? He’s really sexy.”

“And taken” I laughed.

“Only if you could take him.” I looked up and saw Niall walking towards. I didn’t notice before because he was sitting behind a desk but he looked really good today. He didn’t have to sub in other classes so he was in gym teacher attire, which consisted of basketball shorts and t-shirt. I looked up and admired him. “Stop drooling over the new teacher, no matter how hot he is.” Boy if she only knew. It’s not that I didn’t want to tell Tori. I just wanted to wait. “But you do owe him a coffee” she nudged me and wiggled her eyebrows.

“Shut up” I joked. We walked past him, neither of us making eye contact.

Later that night I made dinner for Shaun, Kaci and John. Of course they made a mess that I would have to clean up while they watched TV.

“Hello?” I answered my phone.

“Hey” I replied.

“I don’t know why I’m calling. This is wrong.” I giggled. He was in denial of this situation. He wanted me just as much as I wanted him. He was just being more responsible than I was. “I just wanted to make sure you’re okay.”

“I told you, I’m fine” I sighed.

“Kellie, I am not some stupid teenage boy that’s going to believe you when you say that. Talk to me.” I took a deep breath and considered telling him my petty issues. Niall’s twenty-three and has more serious problems that he has to deal with. I’m sure he doesn’t want to listen to some seventeen-year-old rant about how she can’t go out with all her friends because she has to babysit tonight.

“Niall, let’s go. Wouldn’t want to keep Tasha waiting. She wants you.” I heard Harry say in the background. I groaned quietly.

“You better go. Tasha’s waiting” I said with annoyance in my voice.

“Kellie-”

“Look, it’s just stupid high school girl drama that I know you don’t want to hear about. Have fun Niall.” I hung up the phone before he could say anything else. I knew this was too good to be true. I obviously didn’t expect anything from him. He’s a grown man with needs. Needs that I didn’t fulfill for him. Of course he was going to find that some other place.

“Is that your boyfriend?” Shaun mocked.

“No” I shot back and threw a towel at him telling him to dry the dishes. After complaining for five minutes he eventually helped me finish cleaning everything. I eventually got Kaci and John to go to bed around ten.

“I’m going out” Shaun said practically running out the door.

“No you’re not.  It’s a school night.”

“Never stopped you” he argued.

“Oh come on Shaun. I am not in the mood for this.”

“I promise I’ll be back before Mom and Dad.” I scoffed and tried to remember what it was like for me at fifteen.

“And where are you going?” I gave in. He was right. I always disobeyed my parents. They said be home by ten I came waltzing in after midnight. They said I couldn’t go out, I snuck out after they fell asleep.

“Danny’s for a little. Don’t wait up.”

I plopped on the couch and put in a movie. My text tone went off and I whined that I had to get up off the couch. It was probably my parents telling me they’ll be home later than expected, as usual.

From Louis: I’m coming over.

I replied no but a few minutes later there was knock at the door.

“What do you want?” I asked with my arms folded over my chest. I haven’t spoken one word to him since he called me a frigid bitch.

“I wanted to say I’m sorry in person for being a dick. I didn’t mean what I said.” I stepped to the side so he could enter.

“It’s fine Louis.”

“Really?” Of course it wasn’t. Niall was right. Teenage boys were complete idiots. Everyone knows that when a girl says she’s fine, she isn’t. “Good I don’t want you to be mad at me.”

“It’s a little late for that.” I was still furious with him for breaking up with me and how he continued to act towards me since.

“Don’t be like that Kellie. I never meant to hurt you.”

“Well you did.”

“Can we work on being friends? We were really good friends before we started dating. I miss you Kell.”

I thought about it for a second. Louis was one of my best friends before we became an official couple. We grew up playing soccer together and were practically inseparable. I told him he could stay to watch the movie with me. His face lit up and he sat beside me on the couch. In the middle of the movie he stretched his arm behind my head on the couch. I had to resist the urge to fall back into old habits. I wanted to cuddle up next to him and let his beautiful scent captivate me but he had a girlfriend now. And as much as I hated that bitch I couldn’t do that. I would be devastated if someone did that to me.

After the movie we said our good nights. He gave me a kiss on the forehead like he always used and said he would see me tomorrow. I crawled up the stairs and threw myself on top of my bed. Today was exhausting. Just as I was about to fall asleep I heard some things falling downstairs. I ran down to see what it was.

“Shaun?” I asked as he was rummaging through the fridge. I spun him around to get a good look at him. I pinched his cheeks. “Oh my god, you’re high.”

“So?” his stoner voice became evident.

“Mom and Dad are going to kill you.”

“Stop being such a buzz kill sis. They don’t have to know.” I groaned and pushed him upstairs. I gave him a glass of water and told him to go to sleep. I didn’t need my parents seeing him like that. Have I tried it? Yes but I didn’t want my brother getting involved with that crap.

The next day I went out to lunch alone. Tori went on a lunch date with Zayn. I took it as an opportunity to go to my secret hiding spot. It’s where no one can find me and I can just have some time alone. Or so I thought.

“Hey” I heard Niall say. He was clearly hung over.

“How did you find me?” I questioned not bothering to look at him.

“I didn’t. This is the only place I found where I could get work done.” He ignored the fact that I wanted to be alone and sat down across from me.

“So how was Tasha?” I raised my eyebrows.

“Don’t be like that?”

“Like what?”

“That whole jealous thing.”

“Okay I’m sorry” I apologized even though I didn’t mean it. “Did you have fun last night?”

He shook his head no. “You?”

“Not one bit. There’s not peace and quiet at my house. And the second I get some, Louis shows up” I said not even thinking. I know Niall hates Louis. If he could go out with Tasha then I could hang out with whoever I pleased.

“Wait. Louis was at your house last night?” he asked with a jealous tone. He was getting jealous after getting annoyed at me for the same thing. “What time? How long did he stay for?”

“Calm down. He came over to apologize for what he said then we just watched a movie.”

“I thought you were over that prick?”

“I am. Trust me but he’s still a big part of my life.” Niall huffed and leaned back in his seat.

“Are you jealous?” I teased.

“What? Of course not” he said looked away from me. It was telltale sign that he was lying.

“You are.”

“You’re my student Kellie. I have nothing to be jealous of.” I hummed in agreement. This was going to be harder than I expected. I know Niall and I can be nothing more than a fling but I needed someone to talk to, someone who wouldn’t judge me for complaining about stupid, high school problems. Niall was way past that. He probably wanted a girlfriend he could take to plays, and sit at coffee houses with or whatever older couples might do. I picked up my books and told him I needed to go to class. He walked me to my car and pressed me against it. His thighs were against mine. His chest pressed against my chest. His lips were just centimeters from mine. It took all of my being to not throw myself at him.

“Come by tonight” he stated, didn’t ask.

“Why don’t you call Tasha?” I joked.

“Tasha is just a friend. Harry’s more into her than I ever was. He’ll be gone all night. It will be quiet.”

“I’ll think about it.” I got in my car and drove back to school. Tori had a ton of questions for where I went. I just told her I went home because I don’t want anyone to know about my quiet lunch spot. I guess Niall now knows about it and knew where to find me now anytime I needed to escape reality.

I spent all day considering if I should go to Niall’s. He’s right, this was wrong. He was my teacher and the risk was too high but that’s what made it exciting. I needed excitement in my life. I drove straight home after school. I ran up to my room avoiding my parents. I took a shower and thought about going over to Niall’s. Of course I was going to go. I needed him. I needed to feel him. I needed him to touch me and please me.

I put on matching black lace bra and thong. I covered it up with a sweatshirt and jeans. I told my parents I was going to Tori’s for dinner and to study. As always, they bought it. I parked down the block from Niall’s and walked to his door. I didn’t tell him I was coming. I heard giggling from inside and hesitated to knock. The door flew open and Harry stumbled out holding a blonde’s hand.

“Niall’s inside. He’s a bit bummed. Cheer him up” he tussled my hair and winked. I entered their house looking around for Niall. He was in the kitchen with his back facing me. I took a minute to take in his perfection. He was wearing grey sweatpants that accented his ass. He wore a loose tank top that showed off his muscles. I walked up behind him and wrapped my arms around his waist. I kissed his exposed shoulder blades and he twitched at my touch.

“Why are you here?” he questioned. I took a step back. He sounded angry.

“I need you” I whispered. He turned around and studied my face. I looked down at the ground feeling insecure. “I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have come.” I turned on my heel and started walking towards the door. His large hands pulled me back. I stumbled and my back slammed against his chest.

“You were late today. You should be punished for that.” I instantly became wet at his words. I grinded my ass against his growing bulge. Niall started to suck on my neck and I moaned out in pleasure. I rested my head on his shoulder as he continued to leave a mark. His hands slid down the front of my sweatshirt and unbuttoned my jeans. He slid his fingers over my thong and I knew he could feel how wet I was through the thin material. He pulled me back until we fell on the sofa. I sat in his lap as his fingers were still working magic over my thong.

I shimmied out of my pants to give him easier access. He chuckled at my eagerness. “No” he stated and removed his hands. He lifted me up off his lap with ease and spun me around placing me on the floor. I was now kneeling in front of him between his legs. I knew what he wanted. I stared down at his hard on. “Now do as your teacher says.” I nodded and licked my lips with anticipation. He pulled down his sweatpants leaving him in tight black Calvin Kleins. I started to rub him over his boxers. “No teasing.” I smirked and released him. He was big. No huge. I gulped, a little frightened if I would be able to handle it. I haven’t had sex or engaged in any sexual activity since Louis. He grabbed my hands and wrapped it around his hardening length. I started pumping my fist, painfully slow at first. He threw his head back and let out quiet moans. I started to move faster and licked the head earning a deep, throaty groan from him. “Take it all the way” he demanded. I tried to ignore my gag reflex as he hit the back of my throat. I sucked back up to the tip, flicking my tongue over it a few times before taking him all in again.

“Shit” he moaned as I moved faster. I cupped his balls in my hand and I felt him start to twitch in my mouth. He was getting close. He tried to pull out of my mouth. “Kellie I’m close.” This only made me move faster. I wanted him to cum for me. I wanted to taste him. He let out a grunt before shooting into my mouth. Warm liquid slid down my throat. I swallowed it all and smiled up at him. His head was still resting back on the sofa.

I straddled his thighs and leaned down to kiss him. He kissed me back eagerly, his tongue fighting with mine. “What now baby?” The tone of his voice had me begging for him between my legs.

“Anything you want” I smirked removing the rest of my clothing. His eyes grew wide at what I was wearing underneath my clothes.

His lips curled up into a smiled and he cocked an eyebrow at me. “I’m going to fuck you so hard that you won’t even remember Louis’ name.”

I giggled. “So you were jealous.”

“Shut up and turn around.” I bit my lip and did as he said. I was now on all fours, my hands resting on the armrest of the sofa. He grabbed a condom and slid it on. He positioned himself at my entrance and held on to my hips tightly. He started rubbing my clit with one hand before sliding into me. I let out a loud moan as entered fully and didn’t move. It hurt but I knew the pleasure would soon come. I gripped the armrest tightly so I wouldn’t focus on the pain. “Fuck, you’re so tight.”

“Just move” I begged. He started out with slow, gentle movements. Once the pain eased I wanted more. I started meeting his thrusts. He got the hint and started pounding into me harder and faster. His fingers worked on my clit. This felt amazing. The best sex I ever had but I could only compare it to one other person. “Oh my god Niall” I screamed out. I was close, so close. He found my g-spot and the moans didn’t stop. Every time he hit it I screamed louder. “Fuck!”

His thrusts were getting sloppy. I clenched my walls as tight as I could. “Do that again” be begged. I tightened them again causing him to push harder into me. I was pushed over the edge and I felt him fill up in the condom inside of me. He fell forward and rested on my back. Both of us heaving to catch our breath.

“Thanks” I finally spoke. “I needed that.”

Niall chuckled and ran his fingers through his hair. His forehead glistened with sweat. He looked like a sex god. He was a sex god. We both got dressed and he pulled me down on top of him on the sofa. He moved a strand of hair from my face. “You’re beautiful Kellie.” I blushed and sat up so I was no longer lying on top of him. “Did I do something wrong?” he asked.

I shook my head no. I didn’t need to tell him about my insecurities, how I never felt pretty enough or good enough for anyone. Thanks to Louis and my parents I never felt I was enough for anyone. “I think I should go.”

“I’m sorry if I did something.”

“No. You were great. I’ll see you in class.” I was emotionally strong on the outside. I knew how to keep a straight face. I was afraid of getting attached. I was afraid of getting hurt. Louis really fucked me up in the head when it came to relationships. I gave him a peck on the cheek.

“Good night. Please call me when you get home” he smiled. I nodded and waved as I got in my car.