Chapter 9

Chapter 9: 

"Keeeeenndaaaaaaaall!" I moaned bored in the front seat. I had gotten bored and started playing with the radio listening to top 40 making Kendall and Dustin cringe at the pop tune. It was a duet between some pitchy girl and way too overly powering tenor guy singing, it wasn't the best but it was entertaining as I lounged in the front seat. Kendall looked down at me and smiled. "There's that smile!" I said sitting up again. Somehow just his smile cheered me up. Suddenly my favorite song came on the radio. 'Feel Again' by OneRepublic. I shrieked and turned the knob as the music increased to an acceptable level. All the guys smiled and decided to join in singing at least at the chorus.

"Aaaaaand with yoooouuuuu! I can feel again!!!! Yeah with yoooouuuu!!!! I feel again!!!!" We all sang at the top of our lungs, I was clearly the worst singer out of the group, but I belted it out with them all the same. The Bronco we've been following slowly came to a stop and turned into a carnival. "Oh my God... Carnival!" I gasped as I stared out the window seeing the Ferris wheel and many other rides. We hurried out and Logan and Kendall were by my side as Kendall bought tickets. We got wristbands to go on all the rides without questioning and we rushed in. Immediately there were people recognizing the guys. I took a step back and stood to the side waiting almost two hours for my group to finish picture taking and signing random objects. Finally carnival security intercepted and got the girls and some boys to move along. Kendall walked back next to me and smiled down at me snaking his arm around my waist.

"I'll win you something!" Kendall said. I giggled and moved his arm from my waist and stuck it to his side.

"Thanks but I think I'll win something for myself." I winked walking away. Kendall and I were inseparable the whole time. It got darker and darker it seemed. Music was blaring over huge speakers, the food was greasy and weird but delicious, the atmosphere made me forget everything that made my life not even half ideal. I even forgot what I had made myself promise myself last night in shower. I let Kendall in.

Kendall had won me a huge Panda almost bigger than myself, we shared food and drinks, we laughed, we had fun, and most importantly I felt safe. I didn't know why but these group of guys made me feel special. It was all fun and games when some guy came over a little drunk for his own good and grabbed my butt. "Oh my God!" I gasped bumping into Logan and Kendall as I turned to see the greasy carnival worker smiling at me. I scoffed. "You seriously don't think that's how you get a girl do you?" I asked offended. He smiled and took a step closer to me. His black carnival shirt didn't fit him correctly so his stomach showed and it was disgusting.

"Hey, that's enough bro. There's plenty of girls here." Logan said taking a half step between the man and me. The man looked down on Logan in his shorts and tank top by a good two feet. The man pushed Logan aside and smiled down on me. Kendall now intercepted. "Okay, well you shouldn't treat women that way, it's a turn off." He told the man.

"But I'm sure that girl over there looks like she'd go for a guy like you." Kendall pointed the man in that direction in which was away from us. Kendall then grabbed me and Logan and we ran away.

"What the hell, I could've totally hit that guy upside the mouth and we'd already be done." Logan said pulling his arm back from Kendall. Kendall stopped walking but kept a hold of my hand, which again I let him. I was going to hate myself in the morning.

"Dude, lets face it, without James here we aren't intimidating to guys like him. Horny, angry guys. We're just intimidating to girls and only because they think we're cute and can sing!" Kendall defend himself for his actions. Logan rolled his eyes and wandered off. I held onto my panda with one hand and still held Kendall's while this argument had taken place. Kendall sighed and looked back at me. "You okay?" He asked. I nodded shyly behind my pandas huge head.

"Good. Maybe we should take you back now..." He suggested. I stopped him and shook my head.

"We haven't gone on the Ferris wheel yet." I told him pointing to the short line in the distance. He smirked and tugged me along with his giant steps.

"Oh," he stopped letting go of my hand. Inside I wanted to grab his back but I waited for what he had to say. "I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hold your hand." He said, then he looked up at me and smirked. "Unless you liked it." He said. I giggled working up the courage to grab his hand and towing him behind me now going on the Ferris wheel. We waited shortly in line hand in hand. As soon as we were next in line I heard a song perfect for this experience ringing through the speakers. 'If I Lose Myself' by OneRepublic started playing through the speakers. I gasped an looked at Kendall who just laughed and smiled. We got onto the ride with the panda, me and then Kendall in the seat. It started immediately as we started going around and around. At the top of the Ferris wheel it stopped and let us sit for a second.

"If I lose myself tonight, it'll be by your side..." I sang quietly looking out over the dark sky and the lights of the city.

"Bobby..." Kendall breathed as I looked at him. "Bobby, I know you have a problem with trusting people... But I want to tell you I'm different than any guy you've ever met. I swear to you, I'm worth a shot." He told me, the gold flecks in his emerald eyes flickering with the orange lights of the carnival. I had to let someone take a chance on my broken soul, why not Kendall? I smiled weakly and leaned closer to him and held his face in my hands as I found his lips soon on my own. This kiss was different than any others I had ever had, which weren't many, Scott was my first kiss and Kendall yesterday was my second. This being my first revolutionary kiss was great considering I was already twenty one. His lips and mine parted at the same time allowing each others tongue to roam the others mouth. "If I lose myself tonight it'll be you and I....." The music sang as the Ferris wheel started to move again. We eventually pulled apart as I blushed and looked away from Kendall. He however kissed my cheek after helping me down from our seat. He had his hand in mine as we walked to find the Guys all eating burgers and ice cream at a picnic table.

"Why is she red faced?" Carlos asked looking at me almost worried.

"Ooooooh! Someone isn't friendzoned!" Logan teased.

"Shut up guys, maybe she saw Kendall sneeze and was scared of the face he made." James joked.

"How do you know she just wasn't out running just now?!" Dustin asked. I giggled and looked up at Kendall reaching for his face and bringing his lips to mine. This felt right. This was what was suppose to happen to me. I had to become happy eventually right? I couldn't be that hard ass girl forever, I'd have to become a softie soon enough. It just seemed like Kendall was the right guy to do that.