Chapter 6

Chapter 6:  

Scott didn't feel like going out now, he wanted to sleep. "You go out Bob, I'll be fine." He said after changing into his sweats and laying down on his bed.

"Scott, I don't think that's best." Kendall said. I looked across the table at him and smiled weakly. He returned a shy smile as we waited for Scott.

"Look dude, this isn't anything for you to be talking about." Scott hissed covering his eyes with his arm.

"Scott! Don't be rude. It's not his fault he witnessed this and you know that!" I told him as if I was a mother. He scoffed and sat up.

"Bobby, who are you playing? You aren't going to date him, you don't date anyone! Trust me bro, if you are into her, don't hold your breath." Scott said with a smile. I couldn't believe this, well in a way I could. He always goes through this angry mean stage after I hit him before taking away his drugs.

"Dude," Kendall said defending me.

"It's okay. He does this every time." I said in a whisper only for Kendall to hear. I unzipped my boots and put on flip flops and grabbed my purse, phone and room key. "Fine Scott, wallow in your demons and sorrows. You're going to drown eventually." I told him opening the door and grabbing Kendall. I turned off the light and slammed the door.

"We aren't going out still are we?" Kendall asked me. I shook my head. He nodded pulling out his phone and holding a finger up. He typed real fast as a swoosh sound made it sound like he sent a text. "What are we doing then?" Kendall asked smiling at me. I smiled weakly.

"You can still go out. I'm fine, ill probably go down to the beach where he's a good jog away from me." I told Kendall. We walked towards the elevator and he shook his head.

"Already told the guys you'll properly meet tomorrow. So tonight I'm all yours." He smiled at me. I felt the butterflies again flying crazily through my stomach. We quietly made our way to the beach to two lounge chairs close to one another. We both sat down and immediately leaned back. "So lets not talk about dark stuff, lets talk about you." Kendall said turning his head to look at me. I shrugged. "Where are you from?" He asked.

"I live anywhere really." I told him not wanting to reveal my situation.

"So you're a gypsy on the road then?" He teased. I laughed and stared out at the water.

"No, I just used to get handed off all the time in school, at least until my grandparents passed away and I no longer had anywhere to go outside of my moms house. So originally I lived in Texas, then we moved to Colorado where I met Scott and refused to move." I told him. My mom wasn't a role model so I really hoped he wouldn't bring it up.

"You were handed off?" He asked.

"Yeah, I was basically staying with my grandparents in Colorado to stay in school while my mom would travel around, sleep around, whatever just so she'd have booze money." I told him. It was quiet a few minutes as I looked over at Kendall. He was starting at me questioning like. "What?" I asked. He shook his head.

"How long will you stay here then?" He asked avoiding anymore dark subjects.

"Don't know, I go where Scott goes. We've been working three jobs for three years since graduation so he and I could go care free for awhile. It was great until tonight." I whispered. He nodded and looked out to the ocean and then suddenly stood up holding out his hand.

"Come on." He smiled down at me.

"Where are we going?" I asked. He shrugged and grabbed my hand as I grabbed my purse. Our hands stayed interlinked as we made our way out to the shore. I quickly kicked off my shoes and stuck them in my huge bag. He too kicked off his vans and socks and held them in his hand. We got Down to the wet sand as I began to feel so relaxed.

"You're really cool Kendall." I finally said as we had dropped one another's hand. He smirked at me and nodded.

"Thanks. You're pretty cool your self." He said nudging me with his right arm.

"So what do you do? You know I'm a hobo with no home, no job, no reliable family aside from Scott who right now is on his man period. What's your family like? How old are you? When's your birthday? Your third cousins anniversary?" I joked making him laugh.

"Uh, lets see, I've been an actor for awhile, I am in a boyband, we have our own Nickelodeon show called Big Time Rush, that's kinda going down hill to be honest, but this last season is going to be the best. My family is great, really supportive and loving. I have two older brothers, mom, dad, grandparents, the whole shebang. November 2nd, I'll be 23. And I want to say his anniversary is January 14th." He said so sure.

"Wow, you really know all that off the top of your head?" I asked him. He laughed and shook his head. We laughed for awhile as we drifted into comfortable silence. We got to the pier as Kendall helped me up. We walked out to the very edge past the bundles of people who are around us. "Are you really an actor and can sing?" I asked once we got to the end of the wooden pier. He laughed and nodded.

"I am." He told me smiling. His smile always made my heart skip a beat which I was scared of.

"Prove it." I whispered to him. He wrinkled his nose and scoffed.

"How?" He asked. I shrugged.

"Sing to me." I told him as the sunset illuminated our faces. He sighed and looked around.

"There's people." He whined.

"Dude! You're in a boyband, you can't tell me crowds scare you!" I teased him. He rolled his eyes as he cleared his throat.

"I don't know why you always get so insecure, I wish you could see what I see, when you're looking in the mirror, and why won't you believe me when I say, that to me you get more beautiful everyday. When you're looking at the magazines thinking that you'll never measure up... You're wrong... Cause you're my cover, cover girl. I think you're a superstar, yeah you are, why don't you know? Yeah you're so pretty that it hurts, it's what's underneath your skin, the beauty that shines within, you're the only girl who rocks my world, my covergirl." He finished singing, as he stared deep into my eyes.

I hadn't noticed if people thought he and I were odd. All I knew was that he and I in that moment... We were one. He slowly moved my hair which had blown into my face from my pony tail away from my face. He slowly looked down at my lips as I felt paralyzed. I had just met him but it seemed like he had been my best friend since preschool. His lips slowly moved down to kiss mine as I felt a sensation I hadn't felt before. Our lips moved in sync as my arms wrapped around his neck and his arms were wrapped around my waist.

"Get a room!" An older males voice yelled at us. We broke apart embarrassed. The older man was with his wife behind us a couple feet. I giggled and looked up at Kendall who was smiling already. He took my hand and led me back to our lounge chairs.

"That was.... Um...." I started saying as we sat in giddy silence. He smiled over at me. "You sing really well." I smiled at him. He held up his hands as if to say 'what?!'. I giggled. "What? Expecting me to say something else?" I teased moving my feet between our chairs as he did the same.

"You're a mystery to me Roberta." He whispered smiling at me. I snorted as he got close to me almost as if I'd let him kiss me again. I moved back to the proper way to sit in a lounger chair as he stuck out his bottom lip. I winked and closed my eyes hearing him lean back again. A couple minutes later I felt his hand on mine which had been resting on the arm of the chair. I opened my eyes to look at him as he had his eyes closed too. No, no.... I can't let myself fall for him. Not anymore than I already had. I couldn't let myself get hurt. This isn't why Scott and I came out here... We came out here to get him his famous girlfriend, not get me a famous boyfriend. No, don't let him touch you! I pulled my hand away and stood up. I grabbed my purse and tried to forget my feelings for him. I've seen my mom hurt by men before, I was not going to be one of them. I heard Kendall asking me questions but I started running back to the hotel.

"Bobby!" He called running after me. I ran through the lobby and to the elevator. I pressed the button five times before the doors closed, Kendall was right there, on the other side. My heart felt as if I was ripping it from my chest. I wanted to cry but I knew I didn't have a reason to. I pulled myself together as I no longer saw his face and I being lifted up to the sixth floor. I opened my hotel room door to Scott sleeping. I hurried and jumped in the shower, a reason to not answer the door as I knew Kendall would be knocking very soon. I let my feelings show in the shower. My tears mixed with the steam and water of the shower as I heard his knocking. Men would hurt you any chance they got. Tonight I wasn't thinking right. This whole day I let myself go and let Kendall let me get girlie and emotional. That kiss was a mistake. This trip was a mistake. Kendall was a mistake.