8

(AN:: I'm sorry guys i don't know how my chapter 8 has been detected from there automatically 🥺.Now I have to write it again.I don't know if I can write the chapter same as before.. if i make any mistake please spare me)___________________________________________

after coming out from yibo's room zhan gets inside his room and fall asleep soon while thinking about yibo.

at midnight suddenly zhan feels someone is above him.zhan slowly open his eyes and gets scared.zhan could feel the intense gaze of this person is on him. even though the room at this moment is dark but still zhan feels the guy is looking at him event without blinked.zhan quickly lits up the bed side light and sees yibo is on top of him.yibo is looking at him with his glassy golden eyes.

zhan hold his breath and his heart skip beating for a second seeing their position which gives him more intimate Vibe. zhan is now lying in the middle both of yibo's hand.

"WTF.why is he doing there. isn't he was just sleeping a while ago.why is he looking at me like this as if the want to do something with me.is he going to do something like that to me ( 18+ sence process in zhan's mind)..." zhan thought

"no...no..noo that's can't be "- zhan yelled

zhan is scared yibo cause he has kissed zhan twice before without zhan's permission.

"zhan ge''- yibo softly said.

zhan push yibo and jump out from the bed.and stand a corner of the room..

because of pushing yibo's couldn't balance himself because of drunken state he fall on the other side of the bed.

""w..why a..are you t..there bobo?, aren't you supposed to sleep now.."- zhan stuttered

yibo slowly gets up and sits on the bed while crossing his both legs with a pouty lips.his glassy eyes, tempting lips, reddish cheeks .red nose made him adorable.

zhan for a second lost in yibo's cuteness."i have never seen his cute side before.he looks so adorable.he never doing such things in his usual state maybe he is still drunk"zhan thought and smiled softly.

"i came here to punish you"--yibo said softly.

"what..why. now what have i done?and why you want to punish me?""

"you are so rude and heartless to me zhan ge. firstly you broke my heart into million pieces and now you kissed someone else in front of everyone and now dating with her."- yibo said in a cracking voice..

zhan knew this situation would come sooner or later,he let a deep sigh and said " and how you are going to punish me"- zhan curiously asked.

"i want to kiss you till infinite until that ugly girl's touch on your lips faded away."until you can't remember her touch on your lips.i only let my touch on your lips which only belongs to me" yibo said angrily.

zhan quickly cover his lips by both of his hand and looking at yibo shockingly..

"shameless.i knew it i knew it this shameless brat would do something like that. how could he say this kind of things to me without any hesitation." - zhan said himself

seeing zhan reaction yibo starts crying.zhan gets shocked by seeing yibo who is crying like a baby.

"i have never seen him crying in front of anyone.no matter how deeply he hurts he never cry.did i do something very bad to him that cause him crying"

"now what bobo.why are you crying like that.?"- zhan curiously asked

"how could you dating someone zhan ge where you know that i love u.how could you, don't you feel bad for me. and now you are avoiding me like this as i have never existed for you.?"--yibo said in crying voice. yibo starts crying badly.

sobs..sobs...yibo wiped his tears with his sleeves..

zhan feels sad.he come close to yibo and kneeling on the floor and take yibo's hands in his both hands and looks directly at yibo's eyes and said

"you know bobo what have i done is only for you"zhan paused

yibo didn't get it.he quietly looking at zhan for explanation.

zhan continue"I'm dating with lusi so that you can move on to me.i know it's hurts you first but slowly you'll understand about your feelings for me is not like that you thought.you know bobo there are many kinds of love exist in the world.and each love have different feelings and emotions. the way you loved your mother,you would never loved your wife the same way.. both loved are different from each other love. and you can't love your brother in a romantic way bobo. you always seeking for my attention,love and care which i didn't give you what's why you're craving for my love even more. and trust me bobo this is the brotherly love Which you takes the wrong way.and doing the crazy things "--zhan softly smiled.

yibo snatch his hand from zhan's grab.zhan smile faded away. yibo gets angry and hurt at a same time by zhan's words.yibo turns his face from zhan to hold his tears falling down.

"you know brother ever since I started to understand everything I just wanted to be with you. when i was child i always wanted to play with you,love from you ,and your care.but you always busy with haikuan ge.you play with him all the time.your whole concentrate was on him only.you never noticed me that time for once. i was always watching you playing from afar. hoping that someday you would probably invite me to join playing with you.but you never did that. that time I thought maybe it was my fault that you were like this to me.That's why I thought i need to be polite and quiet child so you'd caress me,play with me.But no matter what I do, how hard i tried you never notice me at all.but one day you came to me and asked me to play with you. at that moment i was just on cloud nine, i was too much excited that i wasn't able to express my feelings and say something to you immediately or respond you.but before i could say something you already left from there angrily.that time i was too young to understand the reason of your angriness..""

yibo pause and turns back to zhan.yibo can see zhan's teary eyes.zhan is about to say something but interrupted by yibo

""zhan ge you know you said the right thing.that time ever since you started ignoring me, I was desperate for your love and caress.and the more you was ignored me my demand for your love and caress even more deepen.i was craving for your attention that time.but soon i started feeling something more,that I didn't feel before.whenever i saw you i feel happy.whenever you feel pain i feel the same pain.and then i realise that my happiness is you. and I don't feel this kind of feelings for anyone except you.i love haikuan ge also but my love for haikuan and you are different. At first I didn't realize it but gradually as I grew up I became aware of my feelingsfor you, that i love you and it's not as a brother love his big brother but a lover do.

I don't know why i fell in love with you.i didn't intentionally love you it's just happened. when i got to know about my feelings for you i tried hard to avoiding the feelings but it's was difficult to do cause you was always stayed before my eyes. I don't want to hurt you by my any action. everything was going well but that day when you provoked me,i couldn't control my feelings anymore which i suppress all this years. i want you to know about my feelings and then i lose my control over myself and i forcefully kissed you.i wanted to show my love thought the kiss. but when you left i felt guilty.but when i realize what i did it was too late." Yibo paused and takes a deep breath and again continue

"you never know the pain to fall in love with the forbidden person whom you never get.

and without any realization you said my love for you is craziness, i takes my feelings in a wrong way..

i wish zhan ge you weren't really my brother..""" yibo sobbing

zhan sob badly hearing yibo's word.zhan didn't know that he hurts yibo that much without his realisation.seeing zhan condition yibo want to give him some alone time. yibo is now about to leave but zhan hold yibo's hand

""i.. I'm sorry bobo what i did to you.""zhan pause for a second and bent his head down and said" please forgive me bobo.. i...i.. can't return your feelings bobo""-zhan said in a crying voice.

yibo nods and says.'" you don't need to be sorry zhan ge.you know zhan ge" zhan looks at yibo with teary eyes

"i want to see you happy. if you are happy with that girl then i also feel happy for you.""yibo said while giving a soft smile.

seeing that zhan hugs yibo tightly by holding yibo's waist bcz zhan is still kneeling on the floor while crying..

"I can't do anything for you bobo I'm your worse gege ever. bcz of me you suffered lots of pain.forgive me bobo"

yibo let zhan hug him like that for few minutes.after zhan calm down he break the hug and said to zhan""it's not your fault ge. please do me a favour.please stay away from me as much as you can. i can't control myself seeing you before my eyes.and I don't want to hurt you anymore."" saying this yibo left from there.

"why don't you told me all this earlier bobo why you bear with all alone.When will you learn to tell others about your pain? to express your feelings bobo?" --zhan said alone while crying.

haikuan who is standing behind the door heard and sees everything.haikuan feels sad for seeing his two brothers condition.he doesn't know whether to go comfort zhan and yibo or pretend not to know anything.after thinking for a while he decides that he'll pretend to doesn't know anything.he lastly looks at zhan once and goes his room.

this night zhan couldn't sleep for a second.

in the morning

yibo wakes up late with a headache.but it's doesn't matter bcz today is Sunday..

"aahh why the wtf..why is my head feel "so heavy and this pain.. what happened last night why can't i remember anything about last night. who brought me home last night.""yibo has lots of questions in his mind now.yibo get up from the bed and sees a glass of lemonade juice which is placed on the bedside table."who put the hangover juice on the table.maybe zhan ga or haikuan ge.but wait did they see me in drunken state.oh god yibo are finished today."

he takes the glass and drink the juice in one go.he get freshen up and comes to the dining table.and sees his two brothers silently having their breakfast.

"what's happening.why aren't they doing fun likes everyday they do.did something happened between them.they looks so gloomy."

yibo join them and starts eating silently..

"did you have the hangover juice"-haikuan asked

yibo feels embarrassed he lowered his head and said "hmm. thanks kuan ge"

"you should say thanks to zhan ge.bcz he is he one who told me to put the hangover juice in your room.."

"oh god don't tell me now he is going to lectured me for drinking alcohol"" yibo thought in his mind while looking at zhan. but after one minute when zhan didn't say anything to yibo let a deep sigh."thanks " yibo softly said to zhan

hearing this zhan gets curious.he looks at yibo's eyes Which is as calm as usual.

"seems like he has forgotten all about last night.what should I do now.should i keep quiet or tell him all." - zhan thought.

zhan just nods.this time yibo can see zhan's red swollen eyes.he gets shocked to see this. yibo looks at haikuan's whose eyes also swollen.

"I'm sure now they fought.but Did they fight bcz of me?i have to find out this." yibo said himself.

after breakfast yibo goes to haikuan's room to talk to him..he asked haikuan that did he do something wrong last night bcz he can't remember anything about last night..

" you proposed zhan ge last night and now you didn't remember anything.i feels sad for both of you.if i help you zhan ge will hurt and on other side if i help zhan ge then you'll hurt. I don't know what should I do."-- haikuan thought in his mind..

yibo is staring at haikuan for his ans. haikuan break his thought and said. "you did nothing wrong didi ( younger brother)". don't think too much.you have a headache you need to take rest"- haikuan softly smiled..

time skipat 12pm.

yibo is lying on the bed while trying to remember about last night.but suddenly yibo's phone rings.yibo pick up the phone.yibo is about to say hello but before yibo could say something ziyi burst out of a lot of questions over the other side of phone. yibo quickly put his phone away from his ear.

"yibo how are you now. what r you doing? is everything alright,Is zhan ge angry with you?did he scold you ? is he going to tell your parents??" ziyi asking all this in one breath.

"hisss slow down buddy, my ears hurts bcz of you screaming"

"you know buddy i can't ..i couldn't sleep last night just thinking about you.." ziyi takes a deep breath.""ok ok now tell me all this of my questions"

after a pause yibo tells everything about what happened this morning to ziyi.

ziyi feels relief hearing yibo's word that zhan ge isn't angry with them.

"ziyi how i came home last night. if you guys drove me home then why didn't you bring me your home.??" yibo curiously asked.

"you crazy boy it's bcz of you and haoxuan" ziyi yelled and tells everything about last night how he got drunk etc..

"hmm"-- yibo sighs

"yibo i have something to ask you.and you have to be honest with me"

"hmm tell me" -yibo calmly ans

"No bro i can't just ask you on the phone. it's a important topic so I'll ask you tomorrow"

"if you can't ask me the topic now then why are you said this to me.now I can't sleep properly to think about this" yibo angrily said.

"hahaha.see how it's feels i also didn't sleep last night.have some patients baby.see you tomorrow. saying this ziyi cut the phone call.

yibo join the university's private groupand start watching zhan's kissing video.seeing this he feels Sharp pain in his chest and he hold his phone tightly.

Yibo skipped his lunch and he didn't come out from this room for a once.

Next day at university

Yibo has come university early today than usual day.he is curious about what ziyi wanna ask him and also eager to know that.bcz of that he didn't sleep properly last night.he is waiting for ziyi impatiently at university's entrance.all girls are watching yibo curiously and they start thinking who is the lucky girl whom yibo is waiting for. when yibo sees ziyi is coming he runs towards ziyi hold her hand and dragging her to the rooftop Where no body comes.

"Ouchh yibo what the hell.let go of my hand.it hurts..don't you walk slowly.you know I'm nowhere run away"-- ziyi yelled.

"I'm glad to know that.now tell me what you wanna ask me"

"Woahh bro so much eager to know" ziyi tease.

Yibo glares at ziyi..

"What don't look like that at me or else I'll fall in love with you.i warn you bro haha"-- ziyi teasingly smiled

"As if I'm scared. Now Are you telling me or not"-yibo annoying asked coldly.

"Ok fine.no more fun.now I'm going to asking you and you have to answer me honestly"- ziyi said in a serious voice.

"Hmm"-yibo nods

"I know you love zhan ge. And now i just want to hear from your mouth yes or no"-ziyi

Yibo gets shocked hearing ziyi's words and his face become pale due to sudden shocked.

"How do you know that? Did i tell you in drunken state that night and what else i told you that night?"- yibo calmly asked.

"Wow that's mean I'm right.i can't believe my assumption comes true."- ziyi coldly said while staring at yibo.

Yibo feels nervous,thinking about how ziyi will take his feelings for zhan ge.how she will judge him.yibo just want to run away from here and hide in a safe place where he wouldn't have to face ziyi..

Seeing yibo's indifferent face. Ziyi let a sigh.

"you didn't say anything the day before yesterday.Now you are going to tell me everything. Since when you loved zhan ge. Does zhan ge know about your feelings? Tell me everything."ziyi strictly said

Yibo nods and tells everything to ziyi except last night when he confessed zhan  which he has already forgotten.Ziyi carefully listening yibo's sentences. After saying yibo looks at ziyi's eyes and waits for ziyi's respond. Yibo looks Calm as nothing happened but inside him only he knows how fast his heart is beating right now.he doesn't want ziyi to take him wrongly.ziyi is one and only his friend since childhood with whom he shares everything.he doesn't want to loose ziyi.

"You loved zhan ge since childhood and you didn't even think right to tell me for once. Do you even think me as your friend.?you secretly love zhan ge all this years and you never let me know about this"- ziyi angrily said.

"It's not secret it's just nobody knows about this ( wang yibo's common dialogue🙃)"- yibo calmly said.

Ziyi gets stunned by yibo's word."you are really something yibo" ziyi angrily said

Hearing this yibo's become sad.but when ziyi sees yibo's sad face she melted..she feels sad for yibo and she quickly hugged yibo.

"Don't be upset yibo. I'm angry with you bcz you didn't tell me this earlier.and you know nah I'm concerned about you yibo. You are only my bestie and i don't want you begin hurt.as you know zhan ge is not into boys.so I don't want you to get hurt." Ziyi said while breaking the hug.when ziyi looks at yibo she sees yibo's teary eyes. Ziyi can understand how yibo is feeling now and what he needs now.

"Yibo don't blame yourself. Being loved someone is not your fault.you know love doesn't see any gender and relationship or anything. It's just happened it's self. Don't push yourself too much. Whatever your decision is i always with you."ziyi pause and looks at yibo's eyes to see how yibo gets her words.yibo just nods .seeing that ziyi smiled.and quickly her smile Faded away.

"but you know nah zhan ge is dating with lusi now.and it's gonna quite tough for you to move on or love him.. now what do you do now?" - ziyi worriedly asked.

"Don't know but i can't stop loving him.i just want to go with the flow"- yibo said in a low voice.

"Hmm"-Ziyi nods while worrying for yibo.

"You haven't answered me yet how you know i love zhan ge"- yibo curiously asked

"Isn't it obvious yibo. Anyone can say that you loved zhan ge.its clearly seen through your action how you react to see him and even whenever you see zhan ge the loved clearly visible in your eyes for him."-- ziyi said

Hearing this yibo didn't say anything and stay keep quiet for some mint's.