Chapter 30 - 아니 (A-NI)[No]

"You two should get a room."said Yoongi, calmly walking into the elevator.

Namjoon walks out, me following close behind him and I turn my head toward the slowly closing elevator door. Yoongi's eyes looked straight back at mine, and they didn't even waver as his true colors showed. He looked sad, maybe even depressed. Namjoon had left me behind as I head to the slowly closing elevator, a hotel room door slammed shut. I stuck my hand into the elevator door, making the sensors stop and they slid back open so I could face Yoongi.

"Yoongi-oppa I-"

"Please don't say anything."he interrupts,"I already know you like Namjoon, so quit coming back to me. Isn't he good enough for you?"

The doors slid closed. But I took it as a chance to get into the enclosed space.

"Yoongi-oppa I don't know what you're thinking bu-"

"I know you don't know what I'm thinking! Even I don't know what I'm thinking! All I know is that my dongsaeng was basically devouring you in this elevator!"

He walked towards me as the elevator doors hit my back while he was walking towards me. We were heading to the lobby until he slammed his hand against the elevator 'Stop' button on the side of the control panel. Yoongi then leaned against the wall furthest from me with his arms crossed and a neutral expression on his face. I just quietly tried to formulate what to say, Yoongi is very straight forward right?

"Is there something I'm missing?"he asked, tilting his head a bit coyly."Do you hook up with every guy you see? Do you play around with men for your own enjoyment? Tell me, did you try to push him away when he kissed you? Or did you kiss first?"

"I...Yoongi-oppa, Namjoon-oppa kissed me first. I just didn't know how to react."I defend,"But I know, it was my fault for not thinking to push him away when I did."

Yoongi sighed, his demeanor changing from one of anger to surrender."I see...so he basically forced a kiss on you?"

I didn't say anything, instead I nodded slowly and Yoongi sighed once more."That bastard...Look, if any man you feel uncomfortable with or confused with does something like that, it's best to reject and leave...Namjoon's a good guy, but still you can't just let him take advantage of you so easily."

"Thanks Yoongi-oppa."I say, taking his advice to heart."I'll do that."

He replies by pushing the 'Stop' button once more and walked into the lobby soon after, keeping a strong pokerface while I pressed a button to get to the tenth floor. Once I got there my manager was already in front of the elevator with her arms crossed with a strict expression on her face.

"Roxi we need to talk."

I sigh, guessing that I was in huge trouble for hanging out with Namjoon without the managers' permission. And my predictions were right, but there was still more.

"Do you know how much trouble we went through? We don't own this hotel. You were lucky that the footage in the elevator was deleted before any staff members could know what kind of scandal is going on between you and Bangtan."she scolds, shaking her head and wagging her finger like a parent scolding their child."You need to be more careful. Now keep these actions in your own room or don't do them at all, got it?"

"Yes."I answer with a stiff nod.

I entered my hotel room to see Jimin on his bed watching TV boredly. He gave me a big eye-smile when he saw me, brightening up my mood in an instant.

"Hello~"he greets, waving at me."Sorry if I messed up your plans with Namjoon-hyung, I didn't realize you were with him."

"How did you know I was with him?"I gasp, surprised at how calm he was acting unlike Yoongi.

"Jin-hyung didn't find him and I called him to say that you weren't in our room. So we decided you two probably went somewhere."Jimin explain, making incoherent hand motions in order to describe the conversation."Did you have fun?"

"Yep!"I say, jumping onto my bed after plugging my phone into it's charger."What did you do?"

"...I waited for you."he mumbled, facing the TV before I could turn to meet his eyes."We still have an hour before the bus leaves."

"I'll probably just stay in here and sleep for a bit."I say, huddling into the cold covers."What are you gonna do?"

"Same thing you're doing."he answers, groaning as he hit his head against the plush pillow."I'm bored~"

"Same."I say, rolling around in my blankets until I looked like a burrito.

"Roxi-chan~ I'm bored~ Please play with me~"he pleads, giving me a cheezy smile.

"No I'm stuck."I giggle, peeping my head out of the blankets.

He giggles and hops onto my bed, embracing my form while rocking back and forth."Wahhhh, Roxi is so comfy!"

"It's too cold!"I grumble, ducking back into the covers while Jimin tried to get in with me, succeeding on his third attempt.

The two of us were cuddled up in the thick blanket, breathlessly laughing and all smiles. Jimin hugged me, teasingly saying how cold I was against him. He smiles and rests his head in the crook of my neck while clinging onto my waist like a koala. I close my eyes and sigh, relaxing into this position while he bopped at my nose every now and then to make sure I was awake.

"Roxi?"he hums, his hair and the tip of his nose tickling my neck when he clung to me tighter, pressing his cheek against my skin.

"Yes Jimin-oppa?"I ask, my eyebrows furrowing at his change of mood.

"Do I...make problems worse?"

My gaze shifts down to Jimin to make brief eye contact until he looked away. His eyes were welling up with tears, something I never expected from him. I roll onto my side and pull him closer to me, if that were even possible. His shoulder softly shook as he let out a few waiting tears that he tried to hold back. Seeing him cry would make anyone else cry along, which was exactly what happened with me. Tears rolled down my cheek and fell onto his bare arm, making him flinch at the sudden feeling. He looked up at me, his red eyes matching mine, he rubbed his own while mummering quiet 'sorry's.

"I'm sorry, I didn't want to make you sad."he whispered, leaving his hands on his face to cover his eyes.

Instead of responding right away I wrapped my arms around his neck and cried on his shoulder. It was his turn to comfort me.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry. Roxi, please stop crying. I shouldn't have asked that. Please stop...please."Jimin drew circles on my back, soothing my shaking breathing as I took control of my emotions.

"Jimin-oppa..."I whisper, hugging him tighter."I'm sorry. You just look so precious when you cry."

Jimin chuckles quietly and his hand reaches up to flick a few of my tears off my red cheeks."So I do make problems worse don't I..."

"Of course not. Jimin-oppa, you're really sweet. Your smile brightens up my day, seeing you sad makes me sad too, but you know just how to cheer someone up. Whenever I was hurt, you would be there to help me, even if I didn't ask."I smile, making Jimin's lips twitched up into one as well."Never think you make problems worse, you always end up solving them without even knowing."

"That's a first..."he says, flopping onto his back as he tried to shake off the depressing mood in the air."My hyungs always come to me whenever they need advice you know. They say I solve their problems, but if that's true then why do they keep coming back to me? I hate seeing you and them stressed out. It's not healthy."

"What about you then?"I ask."You're stressed over us being stressed. We can take care of our own problems sometimes. When we come to you, we only come back because we know that you will help out when no one else can."

Jimin was quiet. Too quiet. I started getting worried, did I say something wrong? Did I hurt his feelings? There were too many thoughts running through my mind as I shut my eyes and thought about what else I can say to make him the happy and bubbly ChimChim again. A shocking sensation ran from the tip of my chin to my jaw, he tilted my head up and his soft flesh hit my lips. My eyes shot open just as his fluttered shut and his arm pulled my torso closer to his. A gasp left my mouth when I felt his foreign muscle find it's way into my mouth. Seeing that I wasn't kissing back Jimin pulled away and opened his eyes, his tongue swiping over his bottom lip as his fiery gaze met mine. My face felt hot as both of us panted, our chests tapping together with every inhale. My racing heart slowed down gradually as I tried to process what happened, Jimin went from cute and friendly to...well...too much. His eye contact never broke with mine, they looked like they were trying to test the waters, seeing how I felt about his sudden action.

"Roxi, how do you feel?"he asked softly, hoping for a response from me.

"I-I feel...confused."I mumble, touching my tingling lips that were still warm from his.

"Then let me clear something up."he says with a small smile as he leaned down so his breath hit my ear."I like you...a lot."

His face shifted from my side to back in front of me, making me even more confused. He liked me? He's never showed any signs of liking me...right? I must be the most oblivious person walking on the face of the Earth, or he just must've not gotten his motives to me clear enough. Jimin scooted closer, his head tilting lower as he pecked my forehead while mumbling a 'I like you' with every peck on my face. Soon, he was right in front of my lips, giving them a short kiss that sent a familiar feeling to my brain. He saw how I reacted, deciding to run a small hand through my hair and using the leverage to bring my face up to his to meet him in a strong kiss. Curiosity overcame me, and my lips decided to move in sync with his. Jimin used this as a sign to keep going, and rolled us over so I was straddling his mid-section from ontop of him, making my squeak in surprise. He was really hiding some strength underneath his squishy facade. With that the rough kiss continued, his hands roamed my body until they stopped at the small of my back while mine ran through his bright pink hair. Out of nowhere, I licked his bottom lip. It was more to soothe the swelling of mine, but own faces were so close it was hard not to touch him. Jimin smiles and pulled away to flip us over.

"That was a really naughty move Roxi."he said in a husky satoori accent.

I blushed and looked away, his forwardness making me much more embarrassed than it should have.

"Have you kissed anyone before?"he asks, sitting up and crossing his legs, letting me go of his embrace quite to quickly to be normal.

"...Yeah."I say, my mind flashing back to what happened with Jin and Namjoon."But...never like this."

My face got even redder when his stare never let up."You're so cute Roxi."

I felt like I was going to explode after he gave me that compliment. He smiled his signature eye-smile and returned to the cute ChimChim he usually was.

"Look...Roxi. Please be honest, do you feel the same way towards me?"Jimin asks, his head tilting.

I looked at him with a blank and pitiful look before shrugging my shoulders and saying exactly how I felt at the moment."I don't know. To be honest, I don't really understand how this type of love works."

He nodded stiffly and thought for a moment. It was like he was trying to find a good way to explain how I should feel if I did have feelings for him.

"It's...a feeling. Like how I'm feeling right now. All I want to do is be with you. I just want to...hold you in my arms. I want to play with your hair, kiss you, cuddle..."his cheeks turned red while he was blurting out confessions left and right."I want to eat meat with you...No that sounds weird!"

He lets out a high pitched laugh and props himself up by placing his arms on the bed. I laugh along, feeling more and more comfortable than I was before.

"I also want to cuddle, play with your hair, hug you, and eat meat with you! Does that mean anything?"I ask.

"You're missing one."he reminds,"...Would you kiss me willingly?"

I open my mouth, my blank thoughts not allowing me to respond the way I want to. Jimin took this as another sign that I was confused with the question, so he scooted in front of me and closed his eyes, a calm aura erupting from him.

"Kiss me if you want to. If you don't then, I won't mind. We'll just stay friends."he says, a smile forming on his face while he played with his fingers.

I sat in front of him. My eyes looking toward the clock. Only half an hour passed by. And already, Jimin had confessed to me. I looked at him from across the mattress. He was obediently sitting there, his eyes still shut while he played with the sleeves of his shirt. I moved forward a bit and sighed.

"Jimin-oppa, if it's a relationship you want from me then I don't think I can give that to you."I say sincerely."But, I'm sorry...for not realizing how you felt sooner."

I leaned forward and kissed his right cheek, before hugging him tightly. Jimin looked at the bed with a blank stare before nodding and quickly smiling at me.

"It's alright Roxi. I respect your decision. So, there's nothing weird between us right? Just...forget about everything that happened right now, I don't want you to be stressed for tonight's performance."

I stared at him, making sure he wasn't hiding any negative feelings behind his gentle words. There was a knock on the door and we both nearly jumped in surprise.

"Jiminie-hyung~ Roxi~ We'll be leaving soon! You better be decent!"called Tae in a teasing tone."I've got the master key from managernim I'm coming in~"