Chapter 21 - 포옹 (PO-ONG)[Hugging]

Jin POV

I made Roxi dinner in her dorm and tucked the meal away in her fridge with a note attached just incase she wakes up earlier than expected. Although, I don't think she'll be up until tomorrow morning, considering her relaxed state. I shook my head, she's too young to be drinking like that, much less drinking at all. Right now I was laying on the other side of the couch with my eyes staring up at the ceiling, my mind kept thinking about what happened an hour before. Believing someone like Roxi lost her first kiss to someone like me was stupid, she must have to be extremely drunk to so something like that. I sigh and cover my face with my hands.

'I came to the dorm building to sleep. Now I ended up doing the exact opposite.'

The front door jiggles a little enough for me to hear, so I sit up. The sound of a click of the lock and the jingle of keys were heard until the door opened up. Suga looked over at me with a surprised expression as he tried to piece together why I would be here in the first place.

"Roxi came to her dorm drunk. I didn't want her to be alone until then..."I explain, seeing Suga soften up slightly."Do you come here often Suga?"

"More or less hyung."he says, tucking his shoes against the wall."Did anything else happen?"

My eyes shifted over to Roxi, and I could have swore that for a split second a small smirk was on her face."No, that was it."

Suga hid his frown when he saw me hesitate but bought my response anyway."Anyway, Namjoon needs to tell you something about the song he's written. Since his hand is still a mess from what happened, he needs help with the trackpad."

I nod my head and get up, rolling my shoulders to loosen some of my stiff muscles while I slipped on my shoes and head toward the open door."She should be sober once she wakes up so...is it alright if I ask you to talk to her?"

"Sure hyung."Suga nods, sitting over to where I sat moments ago."One more thing, did she mention anything about today?"

"Well, no. But she seemed to be a bit forgetful when I found her. Why?"I ask, leaning against the doorframe, ready to close the door.

"Did Roxi mention today was her birthday?"he asks, looking over at me with questioning eyes.

I shook my head, hiding the effect of the startling news by keeping a poker face."No. She said that today wasn't important."

Roxi POV

I woke up to the sound of cars honking in the busy streets and the bright light of the mid-morning sun seeping through my thin eyelids. Just as I sat up a strong pulsing singe of pain shot through the center of my skull. I immediately fell back onto my back and groaned, this hangover felt way worse than any other one I've ever had.

"Oh, you're awake. About time."

I rub my eyes and attempt to sit back up, resting my back against the couch cushion while rubbing my temples for any sort of relief."Good morning to you to Yoongi-oppa. What are you doing here?"

"All of us got the day off since we recorded a song for the whole day yesterday."he says, throwing me a bottle of motrin that I nearly dropped."So I'll be here to take care of you."

I took the pills dry and gave him a meek smile."You don't have to. You should enjoy your day off."

"I'm not the type of person who leaves the house when I'm free."he grunts, cracking his back while he got up to walk to the kitchen."I was planning to get some sleep, but you were in my spot so I needed to sleep sitting up."

"You could've moved me."I chuckle, stumbling as I walked to the kitchen to help him make breakfast.

"Really? I've never been around you while you were drunk so I didn't know how you'd react."Yoongi says, forcing me to sit down in a chair while he fixed up a basic morning meal."Want to explain how you got drunk in the first place?"

"Oh, my manager invited me for a drink in her office after I..."My memories started flowing in once I retraced what I did the day before."...After I visited my uncle."

"Were you celebrating your birthday by drinking?"Yoongi chuckled, placing the food on the table and digging in.

I thought about if I should talk about my uncle, and whether or not I should just drop the subject. But knowing Yoongi, he would ask about what happened between Jin and I in my dorm if I dropped the whole thing. Jin was right, I definitely wasn't thinking straight last night. I didn't even remember it was my own birthday.

"Think of it more as...drinking my woes away."I say, gulping down some orange juice."My uncle's been getting worse and I think...I just wanted to forget. Even if it was for a little while."

I massaged my head and ran a hand through my hair in frustration."Damn, I was stupid."

"Yeah, you were."Yoongi states blankly."Don't drink until you are of the right age."

"But I'm an adult."I smile smugly, much to his amusement."Don't lie you probably drank when you were my age."

"...I'm not gonna deny that."he chuckled.

The rest of the meal was silent as we both ate. Yoongi sighed in relief when he hopped onto the couch and rested on his back. I shook my head and fed my puppies who were about to wake up.

"I'm going to take a shower."I call from my bedroom.

After taking a quick shower and going through my routine, I changed into a large cyan sweater, black leggings, and put up my hair in a neat bun. Yoongi used my bathroom right after to freshen up while I sat in the living room with a large blanket around my whole body. When Yoongi walked in with his bare face he just laughed quietly and snuggled himself into the large blanket with me.

"There it is again."I point out when he shifted a bit so I was seated on his lap, his arms wrapped around me while his head rested on the couch cushions."You like cuddling."

"No I just like hugging. This is hugging."he corrects, letting my back rest on his chest as he turned on the TV with his free hand."Cuddling is different."

"Sure it is."I roll my eyes, hugging his arms while I face the TV.

"It is!"he pouts, pulling the blanket around him to it encircled us like a sushi roll.

"How so?"I ask, resting my head in the crook of his neck.

"Well...uh...hugging is what we're doing and cuddling is what Tae does to wake me up."Yoongi blurts."It's scarier than it sounds I swear."

"Really?"I giggle, hugging his right arm while he ruffled my hair."That's cute! I still find this cuddling, not gonna lie."

"Fine believe whatever you believe."he laughs."I personally call this hugging."

I turn around so I faced him and started straddling his waist."So this is hugging too?"

"Yeah."he says, sliding his hands from around my shoulders to around my waist."This is still hugging."

"Are you sure?"I lean forward and wrap my arms around his neck, letting my soft skin graze against the back of his neck.

My chin rested in the crook of his neck while my chest was flushed against his, the pace of his breathing changed when I hummed against his shoulder. We had far forgotten what was playing on the glowing screen of the TV, my face moved back slightly to see his own. I needed to look up slightly to see him from my position and the look on his face was something I wasn't used to seeing. It was so different compared to his usual teasing and neutral expression. Yoongi looked so...needy? Was that the right word? The pupils of his eyes seemed to enlarge as our gazes connected, his tongue swiped over his bottom lip which was abused by a small bite that followed right after. His hands traveled lower, resting right at my lower back, and I quickly shifted my focus from his face back to his chest when I felt a red blush growing on my cheeks.

"Roxi."he whispers, his voice at least a tone deeper, his fingers messing with the hem of my sweater while my arms' hold around his neck slightly tightened."This is still hugging."

Yoongi's hands climb back up to my mid-back while he rubbed my sides playfully."Still hugging you see?"

"Really?"I ask, a small smile forming on my lips when I looked back up at him to see a small smile in return."I give up, I don't understand your definition of 'cuddling'."

"You don't need to understand."he says, pulling me close to his chest once more."Just remember, I'm the best hugger around okay."

"Sure Yoongi-oppa."I say, 'hugging' him tighter.

We stayed in that position, I felt Yoongi fall a bit limb under me. He had fallen asleep with a small, yet noticeable smile on his face which made me feel all giddy inside. I close my eyes and lean against his chest, falling into a peaceful sleep myself.

~Time Skip~

Yoongi POV

My eyelids slid open with the sudden glowing orange light that came from the naked windows. I am probably an inch away from buying curtains just so I could stay in the darkness whenever I came to Roxi's dorm. I shifted forward, only to freeze when I felt Roxi groan as she leaned into my chest, fighting against the sudden movement.

'This girl.'

My arms were still wrapped around her and her's around me. Her cheek was resting on my black shirt while her sweater had crawled up her chest, allowing some of her skin to show.

'She's gotten so thin...'

I shake my head and pull her top back down to cover her exposed belly before hugging her firmly into my arms. Hopefully she didn't notice anything strange about me this morning. I was this close to pressing my lips against hers, she just looked so cute. It seemed like she was trying to tease me with every movement she did. The way she leaned against me and looked at me with those large innocent eyes that looked as if they were trying to size up the situation nearly pushed me over my limit. Her red tomato face that glowed whenever she thought she did something wrong along with the way her fingers clawed against my shirt in only the best ways, and more, made me nearly question why I was holding myself back.

'Oh right. I don't want to ruin anything between us...'

Out of all the others on this floor, I have made the most history with her in these past few months. But that also has it's fall backs. I was the closest friend she had, but was the furthest person Roxi could be with. We were so casual with each other, and seeing her with someone who wasn't me was like finding a fortune. Because that outcome could actually happen, because it was realistic. Roxi would find someone to be with sooner or later, someone who wasn't me. So I wouldn't...no...I couldn't be the shoulder she would cry on. I couldn't be the person who she would hug from early in the morning to late at night. I couldn't be the person who huddles into the covers with her, I couldn't be the first person she goes to whenever she had something on her mind.

'I couldn't be the one who says 'I love you more.''

But none of that matters right now. Roxi is laying on my chest, her arms are encircled around my neck, her angelic face is relaxed and smiling brightly because of me. If I can't be her 'forever', then I can at least be her 'now'. I placed a soft kiss on her forehead, my straight mouth formed into a trembling smile once I saw the sides of her lips twinge upwards with the small amount of contact I had given.

'So this is cuddling...'