Who to blame?!

The concert was simply fabulous and Marshall had only left my side, to perform as surprise act. Needless to say the crowd went nuts when he came out. Actually, I cried seeing him on stage. I was so happy to know that I had him back, that my emotions were just going crazy. When he had walked off and saw my teary eyes, he had asked me if he really had been that bad.When the others had seen us back together, they were overjoyed. I think the best comment came from Royce, "finally no more yelling and throwing things at us!" He had said and raised his hands to a praying motion, thanking the lord. Sean dude, who actually had apologized to Marshall for hitting on his lady, had invited us, to go partying at some club. But while Marshall didn't know what to say, I had took it in my hand to answer. I said no and Marshall tried to hide the smile on his face, but failed horribly. We had walked out and Marshall had offered to take me to Ronnie's, which I thankfully accepted. Dave had brought him here, so now, Marshall and I were sitting in the backseat in silence. Shortly before we would have to pull into the street, that would lead to my home, I leaned forward and told Dave to bring us to Marshall's house."You don't have to, you know that, right?" Marshall asked me unsure and I took his hand in mine and squeezed it."But I want to and we have to talk about all that happened." I told him softly and he turned his head to look out the window. I knew he was afraid of the talk. But I wanted to know why he had made the decision and had put me through hell."It might look a bit chaotic..." Marshall warned me, when he opened the front door and we walked in.

Well, chaotic is an understatement....

Papers were laying all over the floor in the living room, also water bottles and empty take away boxes. But what almost broke my heart again, were the countless pictures of me alone and with the both of us, that were spread all over the place. I turned around and looked at him and he shrugged his shoulders."I missed you..." he smiled sadly and his teeth clamped on his lower lip. I closed my eyes for a moment and took a deep breath, before I hugged him tightly to my body."I've missed you too!" I kissed his cheek once. "You have no idea how much!" He secured me to his body and we stood like this for a while, just enjoying that the person we love was back in our arms."How about I'll get out off my shoes and then I'll clean up this mess a bit?" I suggested and he nodded."I'll help you." He turned around and pulled his hoddie over his head, giving me quite the look on his abs, when his shirt lightly moved up.

Oooohhhhhh, helllllllllllll.........

I pulled myself together, stepped out off my shoes and pulled out my jacket, placing it over the back of the couch. When I turned around, he stood right in my front and with a sad expression on his face."This house is not a home without you and Josh. I'm sorry what I've done!" He told me and I put my hand on his cheek."I know you are sorry, we'll talk about it later, okay?" I smiled shortly at him and was about to start cleaning up, when he put his hands around my waist. "Let me kiss you just once, in all this chaos. Before we clean up the mess I had made!" I knew he wasn't talking about the house, he was talking about us and I kissed him.

There's no better feeling, than kissing the man you truly love.....

"Come on now, " I told him when we had to come up for air, "let's fix this mess!" I winked at him and we started cleaning up.40 minutes later we were sitting, in the now clean living room on the couch and he had just finished to tell me about his talk with Robyn.

Robyn......... she'll so get it, when I see her again!!!!

"But why didn't you talk to me Marshall? Why have you decided to listen to a bitch, who knows nothing about us?" I asked him aggravated."Tina, you know me. It's easier for me to believe in something bad than the good!" He sighed and I shook my head."This isn't about good or bad. This is about believing in me, Marshall. Believing in my love for you and not listening to some stupid bitch, who isn't capable of having a stable relationship! To me it looks like she's just jealous, seeing other people happy! I swear to God if I see her again, I'll have a word with her!" He stayed calm to my outburst."I know, you are right. But as I said, you know me, better than anyone Tina. I only can say I'm sorry for breaking your heart again. I know you would be better off without me. You don't deserve to be treated like that and...." he swallowed hard and I could see tears in his eyes "......and you definitely shouldn't want to kill yourself because of a asshole like me!" My jaw fell to the ground and I stared at him wide eyed."How do you know?" I asked him quietly and he only shook his head, crying silently to himself."Kim! She came over a week ago. We argued and she threw it in my face." "Marshall, I'm still here. I just..." I trailed off and looked at him, before I stood up and sat down on his lap, straddling him. "I can't live without you! I don't want to be without you, not one second anymore! I'll forgive you everything. But don't leave me anymore! You have to promise me that Marshall, please!" He pulled my face to his and gave me a long and soft kiss."I promise, I won't leave you again! And no one will ever get the chance to talk shit about our relationship again, I'll make sure of that!" He wrapped his arms around me and turned his body to the side, so I was now laying on my back, before he crawled over me."I know I asked once and I fucked up. But I wanna show you, that I wanna stay with you till my dying day. You're the love of my life!" He kissed me once and smiled at me. "Marry me Tina and let us do it tomorrow!"