All of me

~ Marshall's POV ~

We had watched one more movie after the guys had left and went to bed afterwards. I know she was still shaken up, from what I had done to her.

God damn, how could I hit her????

But she was still here. She was still with me and had told me countless times she wouldn't leave me. Honestly, I didn't understand how she could stay with me, I just was more than happy that she was! I would loose my mind without her, she was my everything. And when she had acted so cold towards me, which I more than understand, I thought I had lost her. But she stayed, not the slap or the panic attack could push her away.

That fucking panic attack....

I haven't had one since years and I thought it would never happen again. But I guess, the feeling of her leaving me, brought it back. Actually that's when I realized how much I really loved her. I mean I loved her like crazy, but I never thought it was that much. And now I wanted to show her how much, but how?!

Man, you're definitely not good with that romantic shit.......

But for her, I had to try. I wanted to become a better man for her, since in my eyes, she is simply perfect!So we had went to bed and damn, I felt like a teenager before my first time. I didn't wanted to push her into something, she maybe didn't wanted, so I let her take the lead and just stayed on my side of the bed."You don't want to at least hold me?" She asked me and scooped over to me."Beautiful, I...." I started, but lost my words."Marshall I can't sleep well, if you don't hold me, so ..... please?!" She whispered and I took her in my arms instantly.

Don't make her beg for your affection asshole!!

"You don't have to beg for anything anymore, okay?" I told her and she nodded against my chest. She was so sweet.... even though she was almost as tall as me, she almost slept with her body laying lower beside me, so her head was either on my neck or my chest. It was these little things, that I cherished now more than ever before. Like, she would walk into my studio, to just look if I would need something, or how she took care of our home, she made it a home. Or how she never forgot to ask me how my day had went, without pushing me to tell her everything about my work....I had never thought I would meet someone like her, or even more deserve someone like her.And honestly, I know I don't deserve her!If I would be in her shoes, I know I couldn't cope with all the shit I put her through! But that's why I know she was so much stronger than I was.She had fallen asleep on my chest and I held her close, listening to her breathing and I sleeped in, thanking God, that I was still allowed to hold her.

The next morning I got up before she was awake, I wanted to plan something for her, surprise her! I stood in front of our bed and watched her sleeping, thinking what I could do for her.

Stop staring, idiot! You look like a creep....

I was about to turn and walk into my bathroom, when she rolled over in bed and I could see her cheek.

FUCK!!!! Take a good look asshole, what you did to her....

While yesterday it was just lightly visible, today you could see the bruise clearly. I turned and walked into the bathroom, grabbing the sink till my knuckles turned white and my eyes got watery.

Damn, not now, she could wake up any minute...

I splashed water in my face and calmed down. I  showered, brushed my teeth and shaved, then I walked into my closet and got fresh boxershorts, sweatpants, socks and a shirt, pulled all on and walked out the bedroom to let her sleep. I made coffee for her and took orange juice out off the fridge.

What should I do for her???? Damn, I'm really shitty with that....

Let's think who I could ask. Kim? No! Tina had made it very clear yesterday, that she didn't want anyone to know and Kim would know immediately that something had happened, if I would call her to ask for advice in romantic stuff. Now I know. Royce!I grabbed the home phone and called the studio. The fucker had laughed so damn much, when I had asked him, that I could hear him falling off the chair.

Wait till I get back! You'll get it....

But he told me a few things and I hung up. First, flowers.. but I couldn't leave the house, she would probably get up before i was back and than i could screw my plan. So I called Sam and gave him a list of things I needed. I made it very clear, that he should bring white tulips. NO ROSES!! One more thing that made her different to other women, she actually hated roses and a bunch of red roses, was just cliche for her.She got up 2 hours later and walked into the kitchen smiling at me.

I would kill or die for that smile....

"Good morning love!" She hugged me around my neck and kissed me."Morning beautiful! What good you in such good mood?" I asked her and kissed her back, keeping my hands from wandering to her ass."You!" She smiled and I looked at her confused.

How the fuck, could she be in a good mood because of me????

"Don't knit your eyebrows, sexy. You'll get wrinkles," she chuckled and kissed me right between my eyes, leaving a smile on my face, "I love you, that's what got me in such a good mood!" I pulled her closer and kissed her deeply, but releasing her shortly after. "Coffee?""Yes please!" She smiled and took the cup I gave her. "What we gonna do today? I mean, now that I got you all to myself.." she asked and I answered her with shrugging my shoulders."Okay, extreme couching?" She asked me laughing and grabbed my hand, pulling me to the living room.After lunch, she fell asleep.

I guess she's still exhausted from yesterday...

That was my chance to put my little plan in motion. I walked upstairs, carrying to heavy ass bags in our bedroom and locked the door. The flowers were already in here and damn they were a lot. So now, the candles, I put them in various places in the room and walked out, locking the door again.

It'll take a fucking hour to light up that candles! But hey, it's for her!!!!!!!!

She had slept for 2 hours and when she woke up, she made me watch a soccer game... hello? Soccer? But she actually was a huge fan of it. Seeing her being all passionate and even yelling at the TV was great, half off the time I laughed because of her, the other half she tried to explain the rules to me.After we had ate dinner, I got up and walked into the bedroom, lightning up the candles. I walked down again and asked her to come with me for a minute. Without even asking what or why, she followed me. I opened the door to our room and stepped aside to let her walk in first.

"What is all this, Marshall?" She asked me and looked around the room, before turning to me. I stepped to her and took both her hands in mine, intertwining over fingers."That's for you," I smiled at her. "Tina I wanted to apologize again. I'm so so sorry, for all I've put you through. I never meant to hurt you! You're my everything and I'll do everything I can, to be a better man for you!" A tear rolled down her cheek and she released my hands, to lay her hands around my face."Thank you! But just be you! That's the man I love and want!" She kissed me softly, "and thank you for all of this, it's wonderful. But I don't need all that. I only need you to love me Marshall. Nothing more!"

I swear I. AM. BLESSED!!!!

"I will do whatever you want me to, beautiful." I kissed her with all the love I had for her. "Then how about you love me now?" She kissed me again and her hands wandered under my shirt, pulling it off my body. I knew I didn't have to hold back anymore. I pulled her close to me and let my hand slide down her back, over her perfectly formed ass, to the back of her upper thighs. I grabbed her and lifted her up, carrying her to the bed. In between seconds we both were fully undressed and she pushed me, so I would roll on my back. She gave me a breathtaking kiss, while she took my dick in her hand and I moaned into her mouth. Before I could think off anything else, she let him slide inside her and she let out a satisfied moan.

She's so damn sexy.....

I grabbed her ass and when she started to ride me, I already wanted to explode. After her first orgasm, I turned her on her back, with one hand I held her hands over her head, while the other grabbed her hip.

I'll never get enough of her! NEVER!!!!

I speeded up and it didn't take long till she arched her back under me and loudly moaned my name. That pushed me right over the edge."I love you" she smiled at me and kissed me once again."I love you too Tina" I said and in that moment I made another life changing decision.

I'll try once more and marry her....