The date

We had left the party, after I had walked back and went straight home. Josh was babbling the whole car ride, while Ronnie was driving and I stared out the window.

He lied to me.... he really lied about not loving me.... how could he do that? -He told you stupid!!!!But it doesn't makes sense? -For him it does, you won't understand it's mens logic!!!How do I know he isn't lying now? -You don't, let's wait and see!

"You want to sleep in the car?" Ronnie chuckled at me and I realized we were at home. "No, I'm coming!" I got out and walked in the house, straight into my bedroom, to put on some sweatpants and a shirt. I walked out and put my son to bed, reading him a bedtime story, before I walked into the kitchen to get me something to drink."You gonna tell me what happened?" Ronnie asked behind me and I turned around to look at her."The summary?""I would be okay with the whole story too!" She smiled at me and we walked into our living room."Okay, summary," I said after we had sat down, "he lied about not loving me and he wants me back!" She looked at me with her jaw hanging open."Wait, what????" She was clearly confused."Yup!" I simply answered and grabbed my water."Ooooookay, I need more than that, bestie! Give me the whole story!" She ordered and I told her everything that he had said....

"And now you're going on a date with him in 2 days?" She asked me, after I had told her."Yes.""You think it's the right thing, Tina? You know I only trying to protect you..." she said."I know you are" I smiled at her, "I don't know if it's right. But I do know that I love him. And I miss him so much..." I had to stop, because tears were dropping again, "I'm incomplete without him Ronnie. I just have to give it one last try...""Hey, don't cry" she said softly and pulled me in a hug, "I know how much you love him. But please take it slow, okay!?""Okay" I sniffled.We sat and watched a bit TV. I was the first to say good night and walked into my bedroom, when I heard my cellphone beeping.

Marshall: Thank you for giving me another chance. I promise I'll use it. I love you, beautiful! Good night....

I smiled to myself, but decided to not text him back. I layed down and slept peacefully, for the first time in 2 months.

Thursday was very simple. I got up, spent time with my son and Ronnie and went to bed. The only difference was to the last days, that Marshall had wrote me several text messages. Saying good morning, telling me how his day is going and last good night. It was nice to see that he really tried, but still, it was only the first day. I replied back every time, but only in short sentences and without saying "I love you"....And now it was Friday, 6 pm. Time to get ready for my date.....I did not only want to look good, I wanted to look jaw dropping good.After I had taken a bath and washed my hair. I went into my closet, to pick out what to wear

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my hair was in light waves and even in my make-up I had put more effort. Foundation, concealer, eyeliner, kajal, mascara, rouge and a nude colored lipstick. I put on some jewelry and took my clutch and my black Trenchcoat and by 7.45 pm I was good to go...."Hello, hello...." Ronnie laughed and whistled when I walked in the living room, to say good night to Josh"Mommy, you're so beautiful!" He smiled at me and my heart wanted to jump out off my chest."Thank you so much sweetheart. You'll be good, right?" I asked him and kissed him lightly on his head. "Mommy loves you.""I love you too" he said still smiling. And then the doorbell rang."Let me give you a hug" Ronnie said and got up, "good luck, bestie. I love you!""Love you too!" I said and pulled away from her hug, to walk to the door.I stepped out and saw him leaning with his back at his car door, looking hotter than ever, wearing black jeans, a black shirt and a black leather jacket.

Sexy bastard.........

Like I had intended, his jaw dropped to the ground and he pushed himself off the car to walk over to me. Before I could say a word, he had put his hands under my open coat, on my waist and pulled me close."You look breathtakingly beautiful!" He said and smiled at me, only inches away from my face."You don't look so bad either!" I replied smiling also. He pulled away and offered me his arm, which I gladly took. He walked me to the passenger side and opened the door for me.

Gentleman much, huh?!?!

We went to a beautiful little restaurant, which he had fully rented and talked the whole time, about our life's and what we had experienced. Not once he started to talk about us, which I thought was good. It really felt like a first date...After we had left the restaurant, he asked me if it would be okay, if he would take me to his house, because he wanted to show me something.

Maybe his dick?!?!?!?!?!?!

I agreed and when we stopped at his house, I had to swallow a lump in my throat.

Last time I was here, he broke up with me....

I brushed the thoughts away and got out off the car. He unlocked the door, stepped aside to let me walk past him and closed the door behind me. He turned on the lights and took my hand in his, leading me upstairs. We walked past his bedroom and I actually was a bit sad, that we didn't get in and then he stopped in front of a closed door."Close your eyes." He ordered softly and i did. I could hear the door being opened and then he took my hands in his, guiding me into the room."Before you open your eyes, I want to tell you something about this room," he started and I could hear the light being switched on. "I've got it done, while we were in Germany and wanted to surprise you when we returned, but...." he stopped and cleared his throat, "but I let my fear get in the way and left you!" I still stood with closed eyes, listening to every word from him, while he was caressing my hands with his thumbs. "I know you maybe don't believe me that I love you, but I do Tina and maybe this room is a little proof for that! Now you can look!" I opened my eyes, blinked a few times to adjust to the light and looked around, confused..... i stood in a kids room...."I...I don't understand..." I turned and looked at him and he stepped closer, placing his hands on my waist."It's a room for Josh," he explained to me, "I wanted to ask you, when we got back, if you would move in with me. But..." I smiled and a tear rolled down."You really love me..." I sounded like I had just realized it."I do." He pulled me close to him, "I was crazy about you since the second I saw you, you gave me no other choice, than to fall in love with you, Tina! You are what I want! You are what I need! I don't want to be without you ever again" he said sincerely and brushed softly a tear off my cheek, "I want you with me all the time and I know it is much to soon now, but can you imagine to move in with me one day?"I couldn't hold it back anymore. So I cupped his face and kissed him."There's nothing i would want more, Marshall!" I told him smiling and kissed him again. Pretty fast it got veeeery heated and he had just pushed me against the wall, his hands all over my body, when he pulled back, breathing heavy."We shouldn't.... I can't..." he said, shaking his head lightly and looking away from me, "I swore to myself I wouldn't pressure you this time. Tina, I want to do it right... I don't want you to feel like some toy. I love you too m...." I cutted him off with a kiss, took his hand and led him out of the room. I stopped in front off his bedroom and was about to open, when he halted me."Beautiful, please. You don't have to..." I kissed him."I know i don't have to, but i want you so bad Marshall...." I kissed him again and he let me open the door. I stepped in and immediately turned around to kiss him again, while i started to take off his jacket and kicked off my shoes"Unzip my dress!" I told him, as I was kissing along his jawline. My hands wandered under his shirt and then to his belt to open it. Marshall soaked in air sharply, when I stepped back and led my dress slide down to the floor."God, you're perfect!" He whispered, scanning my body, while I closed the space between us, stepping out of my dress. I lifted his shirt up and pulled it over his head and kissed him again. I let my hands slide over his arms, to his chest and before I could go deeper, he lifted me up and carried me to the bed. While he layed me down carefully, I opened the button on his jeans, and he stopped me again."Are you sure? Tina..." I put my index finger on his lips to stop him talking."I love you Marshall and I want you to show me how much you love me!"I had hardly ended my sentence, when he kissed me again, opening my bra, while I pulled down his pants and underwear, revealing his rock hard dick. He pulled down my thong and stood for a few seconds in front off me, just looking at my body"Do you know how perfect you are and how much I love you?" He asked me and I smiled."No, but you can show me!" With that he spread my legs and crawled between them, kissing every inch of my body. I wanted to explode!His face was now right over mine and I could feel his dick on my entrance, he kissed me deeply and entered me in one swift motion. My head rolled back and I moaned loudly, while he kissed along my neck."I missed you so much!" He said and pulled my hands up, to hold them over my head. It wasn't just sex this time, the way he moved in and out of me, the way he touched every inch of my body... he really wanted to show me that he loves me. I reached my climax and it was like a wave washing over me"Oooooh God...... oh Marshall...." I screamed and moaned like crazy and he came too, moaning my name. He secured me to his body and rolled over on his back. So now I was something between straddling and laying on top of him. I looked at him and smiled."Don't you want to pull out?""No!" He smiled back, " I don't want to let you go.""I won't leave, if you don't push me away!" I told him sincerely and kissed him."Tell me that you love me Marshall.""I love you Tina" he said, putting his hand on my cheek, "and I'll show you again!"