Chapter 12 What's happening to me? (18+)

Max POV "I'm going to make us something to eat now," I hear Nat say as I press him against my chest.

And I hold him all the tighter as he tries to break our intimate embrace.

"No, don't leave!", I press my face against his head.

Nat laughs.

"I'm not leaving. I'll be right back. You have to eat something, don't you? You must be hungry!" he purrs sweetly.

"You're all I want! You fully satisfy my hunger!", I answer really sincerely.

And my heartbeat is certainly showing him that right now.

He lifts his head and gives me a cute look.

Oh my God!

What is happening to me?

Nat, don't give me that look.

And I know I have to react right away, or I'll be swept up by the next wave into the hottest whirlpools I've ever experienced.

What is he doing to me?

And my mind is trying so hard against my burning body.

"Nat," I try to reach out to him as he starts sucking on my nipples again. "Nat!", I tenderly take his face in my hands and bring it to mine, "Please give us a moment. Let's talk for a minute, okay? Okay?", I feel my lap cry out at his gaze.

And those lips.

I need to kiss them.

And I kiss the soft, warm lips of my nong.

And my mind forces me to come to my senses.

I reluctantly part from those sweet lips and look at him.

And can't get a clear thought.

"What's wrong with you? You seem irritated," he smiles at me.

His smile makes my heart race even more.

"Max, it's okay!" he reassures me, kissing my cheek.

What is he doing?

Why do I only feel like this?

What is just happening to me?

I don't know this deep maelstrom of my feelings.

I am powerless against this pull.

This attraction.

This loud urge for my second half.

I never want to let him go.

I love him so.

And why does it feel so dangerous?

"Max!" he breathes my name, "Was I too harsh? Did it go too fast for you?", I see the shame in his eyes.

There's no such thing.

Too fast?

What he did to me there can't be measured in any time.

He is clearly the end of me.

Nothing more can come.

I end and that makes me so vulnerable.

It makes me so scared.

I'm completely powerless in his hands.

"I, mhmm!", I start, "You didn't do anything wrong!", I clear my throat, "Quite the opposite!", I have to laugh for a moment, "It just confuses me so much!", I try to make myself understand.

"Do you want some time to yourself to think about everything? I know that confusion.

Sometimes you have to step back to see what's there. I'll give you the time!", I hear Nat tell me and an ache runs through my body.

"No!" it shoots out of me, "No pulling back!" my voice sounds almost pleading, "Don't ever do that to me again!", I penetrate his eyes, "Never again, Nat! Don't ever do this to me again!", I beg him firmly.

And my hands seem to follow my impulse.

I feel his petite body under my firm grip.

I'll never let you go again.

I won't let you.

And I feel the fear that seems to confuse me so.

This moment.

After three years.

Now.

I have never felt such deep feelings for anyone in my life.

Now I guess I am the awkward teenager who fell in love.

I'm so blown away by this love for him.

"Max! I see and feel very clearly. I thought I showed you how I felt about you. I'm not going anywhere!" he smiles at me, "But I want to give you your time too. I want you to be able to see clearly, too. We have to be honest with each other. You need to tell me when things are going too fast for you. I don't want to lose you. We'll get it all worked out!" his words lay over my trembling heart like the most healing ointment.

I pull him back into a tight embrace.

Press his body, which I love, against mine.

"I love you, Nat!", I want him to hear me, "I love you! Do you hear me!", I feel his sweet nod against my chest, "I'm just so overwhelmed by everything. You, mhmmm, you just trigger such unknown feelings in me. I don't know this and I feel completely powerless!", I open up and he lifts his head up again.

His eyes sparkle and he beams all over his face.

That cheeky nong.

What a look on his face.

"That's it!" his eyes rejoice, "Get ready for something!" he bites his lower lip, "I'm far from done, you're all mine! And I won't share you with anyone else. All those women who had you will no longer have a place in your mind! They'll just be forgotten!" his eyes blaze, "You'll only be able to think about me! Just wait and see!", he gets into his possessiveness.

I have to laugh heartily and earn a punch to my chest.

"What are you laughing at?" his gaze threatens me, "Old man, your heart won't stand for it. Believe me! Wait and see!", he puts his delicate hands on my face.

I have to laugh all the louder.

"Nat!", I try to intervene, but he seems to be out of his mind, "Nat!", calm down!", I shout as he tries to hold my hands above my head, admittedly quite skillfully.

Those little hands can pack quite a punch.

And I have to bite my lower lip.

Why doesn't he listen to me?

What's got him flaring up like that?

And the way he approaches me with his face.

My nong is dominating me and it's fucking beastly turning me on.

"I know what will help you with your confusion!" he breathes against my lips.

And when he licks my lips, I see red.

Without much strength, I escape from his captivity and turn the page.

To finally feel him beneath me.

His arousal presses against me with such longing that I could howl.

And I take his delicious mouth.

His tongue.

I can't restrain myself and take his breath away.

How he writhes.

How he writhes beneath me.

Oh my god.

That hot sensation when I press against him all the harder.

And his groans.

His wild hands dig into my ass, demanding more.

"Max!" he moans pleadingly, driving me out of my mind.

And I take him captive.

Hold him tight and stare into his tear-filled eyes.

"I don't think you can listen to me until your hunger is satisfied!", I explain to him and feel his body rubbing against mine.

I close my eyes.

Control yourself, Max!

Let him hear you first.

"There is no one. There is no past. You are my present and my future. Do you understand?", I show myself to him, "I love you!", I kiss him tenderly.

And see tender tears rolling down his face.

My heart!

I loosen my grip and want to squeeze him tenderly.

But his freed hands immediately find their way to my butt.

And he groans as he presses our love witnesses against each other.

And his legs wrap around my hips and push us with all their might into infinity.

"Give me! Give me, Max!" he demands, moaning with a pleading look, and I escalate.

Shame covers my body as I make sounds I didn't know myself.

And I reach for our mutually promised peaks of intoxication and pump hard.

And harder.

And I lose myself completely.

"Ahhh, Max!" his climax enters me, catapulting me into the highest spheres of the universe.

And I lie gasping for air on top of the man I love.

This man.

My man.

And my heart screams his name as it pumps the blood into my body that belongs only to him.

I can't hold back my tears and I dig my face into the crook of his neck.

"I love you, Max!" he whispers to me, triggering the heady feeling of supreme happiness inside me.

"I love you, Nat!", I kiss his neck.

What is only happening to me?

What is only happening to me?

"Let's hop in the shower together!" he giggles, making a gossamer motion with his hips.

Oh my god!

What is happening to me?