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waking up the next morning i was a bit disappointed to see that joão was no longer beside me. i checked my phone confusingly and noticed that he had sent me a message two hours ago, it said that he was at practice so he wouldn't be there when i woke up - he ended the message with two hearts.

i got out of bed and did all the normal things - i put on my makeup and curled the ends of my hair with my straightener. it was hot so i put on a no sleeved top with a black skirt and leggings.

i took my phone from the desk and headed out the front foor. i decided to take the elevator this time, i pressed the button and waited patiently for it to open - just as it was opening bruno fernandes ran a quick jog to walk in.

he chuckled as we both got in the elevator, "hey, eleanor!"

i smiled awkwardly. "hello." i made sure to grip my phone harder in my hand.

"you look nice today." he smiled. "where are you going?"

"oh i'm just going to see my friend."

"which friend? i can come with you-" he suggested.

"no, no." i quickly dismissed his idea. "it's alright, thanks though."

thankfully the elevator door opened and i wasted no time in quickly walking out without saying bye to him and walking to the breakfast buffet. i grabbed a plate and put some crepes with melted chocolate on it.

i looked around at the tables and instantly spotted rosia. as i sat down at the table she lifted her head from her hands.

"hey," she said groggily.

"what's up with you? you look like you didn't sleep," i joked and ate some of my crepe.

she shut her eyes but quickly opened them again, "that's because i didn't," she yawned. "i didn't get any sleep last night but i wanted to eat breakfast before the buffet closed.."

"and what were you doing all night?" i raised an eyebrow.

"watching netflix, duh," she replied like it was a very normal thing to do. "oh yeah i told kat that we were all gonna go to that pretty lake so i can take pics for my insta at 1:00 pm."

i groaned, "seriously? it's like 12:30 right now you should of woke me up earlier,"

rosia drank more coffee that she had made and that was probably keeping her awake. but after i finished with my breakfast we walked out the hotel and down the street.

after a few minutes walk me and rosia walked into our favourite coffee shop where we agreed to meet kat.

we sat on a table and took pictures while waiting for kat to arrive until she finally came.

"hey guys," she exhaled, out of breathe. she sat down at the table.

"hey." me and rosia smiled at her.

when our coffee's arrived we took them out and drank them while walking down the street. we just followed kat cause she knew where it was.

we continued to walk for a few minutes until we reached a huge park with gates surrounding it, we found the entrance and walked in.

"oh my god, it's beautiful." i exclaimed as i saw the lake.

"i know right," kat agreed. "it's my favourite place to come when i want to relax. it's so calm and there is barely any people who come here-"

"picture time!" rosia interrupted in excitement and gave her phone to me. i rolled my eyes in sarcasm.

rosia posed with the lake behind her, and the lighting was really good so the picture came out amazing. i kind of envied how good she was naturally good at posing.

after a quick photoshoot, i handed her phone back to her as she posted the best one on instagram.

suddenly i gasped and kneeled down,

"what is it?" kat asked curiously.

"a really pretty flower," i smiled.

"wait- hold that position eleanor!" rosia grinned and took a picture of me.

i stood up as she sent me the pic. i looked at it and decided it was good enough to post on my instagram so i did. then we decided to take a stroll around the park.

"i'm just gonna go to the bathroom, one sec." i said as they nodded.

i walked over to the public bathrooms and went into a stall - thankfully it was clean. i did my business (obv) and flushed the toilet. i washed my hands and cleaned them with a tissue; i was about to walk out when i got a notification 

i pulled out my phone from my bag and it was a notification from instagram.

joaofelix79 liked your post. (1m ago)

joaofelix79 commented on your post. (30 seconds ago)

i smiled and clicked on the notification, he commented, 'my pretty girl,' on my picture. i quickly liked his comment and replied with a heart emoji. i decided to text him.

eleanor

are u stalking my acc?

loml💕

yes. you look cute in that picture

eleanor

yes ik, but aren't u suppose to be training?

loml💕

we're taking a break but i'll be back soon:)

eleanor

okay ttyl, love u <3

loml💕

love u more<33

i turned my phone off and walked out of the bathroom, i looked around and only saw kat so i wondered where rosia was.

i walked over to her with a frown, "where's rosia?"

kat looked kind of anxious. "um - well, she went on instagram and.. uh."

"-and what?"

"she- she saw some screenshots,  - from this account called 'eleanorsilvahatepage'."

my heart dropped. "what did it say?"

"i don't know.  i didn't read them but she looked really upset and just stormed off like five minutes ago. she didn't tell me where she was going though.." kat explained.

of course it had to fucking happen to me. i inhaled and tried to keep my calm which helped a lot. i tried not to react because people were obviously gonna attempt to ruin my life.

losing my bestfriend shouldn't hurt as much as it does now.

"i'm sorry i need to go." i said to kat and walked off, leaving her there.

i didn't trust her enough to cry infront of her like i would with rosia - rosia was probably my number one friend, and i couldn't risk losing her like that.

while i walked back to the hotel i searched up the account on instagram and the profile picture was a selfie of me with a clown emoji over it.

god these people are obsessed.

i clicked on one of the posts and it was a few low quality screenshots that were 'apparently' sent by me and i read them all.

olivia.coleman21

so it's true that u don't actually like rosia??

eleanorsilva

lmfao yes - i hate her sm she's so irritating i can't deal w her like-

olivia.coleman21

wow - and is it true that u became friends w her just to get closer to joão?

eleanorsilva

ofcc xx 

well shit. i don't know how rosia actually believed this cause it was so obvious that it was fake - the screenshots were very blurry and that wasn't even my instagram username anyway. the comments said, 'wow what a fake bitch' by someone called marinette. stfu nobody likes u mary. and there was another comment which said, 'joão if ur reading this ily xx' by penny. kys and go back to america penbitch.

i obviously wanted to reply to the comments but i just kept the thoughts in my head cause it would ruin my reputation.

as soon as i got back to the hotel i ran up the stairs and into my room. i closed the door behind me but joão wasn't back yet so i was kinda disappointed. i sat on my bed and texted rosia.

eleanor

rosia - i promise those screenshots were fake, and you know i would never say anything like that. plus that's not my instagram username so it was obviously photoshopped, can't u see?

luckily the message went through but i was left on delivered. i was about to type again but my mom started to call me.

instanly i got anxious but pressed accept. it was a facetime and she was crying.

"mum what's wrong??" i worriedly sat up

"oh sweetie.." she cried. "last night your grandma passed away. i'm so sorry.." she put her hand to her face and wiped her tears.

my whole body froze and i suddenly felt queasy. 

she was gone.

she was gone forever. 

i started to remember all the memories i had with her when i was young. her saving me from my mother when i did a bad thing like forgetting to take the bin out - or when i didn't finish my dinner she would always defend me. those silly little memories that i took for granted

my eyes flooded with tears and my breathe quickened. my body was shaking and i couldn't control myself at all.

just at the right timing the door unlocked and joão came in.

"hey-" he said and his smile dropped. immediately he closed the door and went straight to me, sitting down and putting me on his lap. he held me close and i felt immense comfort.

"she's gone, joão," i sobbed.

"shh, it's okay." he whispered and rocked me gently in his arms as i cried in his chest.

"i'm sorry i'm getting your shirt wet." i said and wiped my tears.

"no don't be silly." he said softly. "cry all you want, love,"

i smiled a bit and my heart warmed. this boy could always make me happy whenever i was sad. but then i thought of rosia and my smile dropped.

"what's wrong?"

"no, nothing, don't worry," i sniffed and looked away from him.

he put his hand on my chin and made me look at him. "please don't lie to me. what's wrong?"

"someone made a hate page for me and faked a couple screenshots about me talking shit about rosia," i said silently. "and now i think she hates me,"

his expression softened. "can i see them?"

i nodded and handed him my phone. he read the screenshots and handed me my phone back, muttering 'bitches,'

he held my hand in comfort and spoke, "i'm really sorry. it was clearly fake - i don't know how she believed that but she'll come round soon. trust me."

"thank you, joão," i smiled warmly at him. "you're really good at comforting people, did you know that?"

he chuckled. "it's what i'm here for. and i hate seeing you upset,"

he leaned in and placed his lips on mine softly. once we had pulled away i got out of his lap and laid on the bed. he laid next to me and continued to hold my hand.

"do you want to go back to england?" he asked quietly. "for your grandma's funeral.. and your family. i completely understand if you do-"

"joão." i said, cutting him off. "i'm heartbroken about losing her.. but she always told me to move on when she died. and that's what i'm going to try to do - because there is nothing in the world that i want to do more than to stay with you. and obviously i understand you can't just drop out of the world cup."

"this is your future." i smiled. "so. no. i can see my family later but right now i just want to be with you,"

his lashes fluttered and his mouth curved into a smile.

"i love you, el."

my heart warmed and i felt the butterflies in my stomach.

"i love you too, joão." i smiled and pulled him in again, kissing him.

he pulled me closer to him and i rested on his chest, he started to play with my hair.

"would you ever consider having children?"

"what?" i laughed.

"i'm being serious." he said and looked at me. "would you?"

"well," i said, a bit taken back. "i think i would. what about you?"

"definitely." joão smiled. "with the girl i love, i would definitely."

"oh really? have any names in mind?"

"hmm." he pondered. "if it's a girl.. then i would name her niah. and if it was a boy i would name him noah."

"those are pretty names," i smiled. i loved how passionate he was about being a father, and i also wondered if he wanted me to be the mother.

"yeah.." he mumbled. 

as i laid in his chest i thought of everything that happened today, and i fell asleep in the warmth of joão's arms.

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long chapter cause it's my birthday🥳 

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