~Chapter 6 - Ana~

How did this conversation get way off course? It was going so well, something definitely happened when they shook hands. They were attracted to each other. They need to connect again. I need to get this back on course somehow, but how will I do that?

Sarah was sensitive to me being near her. How would she react if I...No, that was too selfish of me. I can't be selfish a time like this, but it is tempting. It has to be done. The decision has been mad. It would give me more time and allow me to help her, but will it help her. Will she be able to accept what I am about to do?

I glanced at both Sarah and Christian; please forgive me for deceiving you. It was the only way. Tentatively, I took a step forward, looking at both of them. Christian was so preoccupied that he didn't sense me near him, neither did she. I was so close to each of them.

I stood there momentarily, watching Sarah as she watched Christian. There was a slight hesitation from Sarah; her whole body froze though Christian had not noticed it. It was now or never. I stepped into her body as if it were my own.

Sarah, please let me do this for you.

What the hell?

I know this is strange, but I'm only helping you.

Sarah fought me for control.

My name is Ana. I was Christian's wife.

You're not taking me over for some screwed up fantasy to get back with him again.

What? That took me by surprise. She thought that I was looking for something kinky? We were never THAT kinky.

Sarah, you misunderstand. I mean you no harm. I'm not looking to steal your body for kinky sex. Believe me, that's the last thing on my mind. I was only looking to borrow it for just a moment, ONLY A MOMENT, to help you two connect. You both are obviously attracted to one another, and judging by the way Christian is looking at you now...

Christian was watching us...Sarah with concern. He was obvious now that he cared about her.

He is beginning to care for you. Look at him...

We watched him, studying him.

You two were losing sight talking about your book, a good as it is, Christian...

Wait that was you? You liked my book?

Yes. We're getting off track here. Christian will make sure that GP looks it over. I promise. Right now, you and Christian have to happen.

Why?

What is with all the questions? We don't have much time. I feel her body starting to quiver; it will reject me soon.

We haven't much time. Your body is rejecting me. My child and I were killed and it has left Christian lost and lonely and going down a dark path with...I can't stand to see him like that. He's come to life in such a short time because of you. I couldn't move on unless I was sure he was happy and in love again.

No need to go into everything just yet. Sarah might run for the hills if she knew everything I knew. All in good time.

Why me?

I could see that Sarah was relaxing a bit, but she was still frightened, though with her body relaxing, it gave me a bit more time, not much.

Because you are most like me or rather like the way I was, but there is so much more to you that he likes about you.

I felt as though I was getting to her. Through Sarah, I glanced at Christian, and he was sight standing there worried.

"Sarah..." Christian said softly. "Penny for your thoughts."

Christian was anxious to know why she'd been so quiet. Sarah's body began shivering uncontrollably.

"What's the matter?" Christian asked again, worriedly.

"I'm...ok. Just give me a second." I said for Sarah, she was not exactly sure what to say to him.

When I first saw you, I knew you were the one, the one that would help him keep him away from the darkness, the one that would chase away his nightmares, the one that would love him just as much as I loved him. The one that could save him like I could not.

Sarah was speechless.

Ana, I'm so sorry.

I know it's a lot to take in, Sarah, but please consider what I am telling you. It is the truth. If Christian goes down the dark path with the person who set him on it the first place, he will never come back.

You would really do all this for him?

Of course, I love him. He was my first everything. I want him to be happy even though this is one of the hardest things I will ever have to do, to give him to you. .

Sarah was quiet for a moment, trying to absorb pain coursing through her. Whatever this is happening between him and I, is too strong. I couldn't walk away even if I tried...even if I wanted too.

Thank you.

Don't thank me yet. I don't know what I could do.

You're doing it right now.

Ana...What's wrong? What's wrong? Why is there so much PAIN?

It was me. I was a foreign agent her body and it was rejecting it.

Sarah screamed as her body ejected me from it, throwing me across the room. If it was flesh and blood, I would have hid something hard, but I tumbled to the floor. When I finally rose to my feet, Sarah fainted.

"Sarah!" Christian was there in an instant, catching her before she fell.

I gazed at Christian momentarily and noticed the concern etched on his face. I knew that he was learning to care for her, even if he didn't realize it, I saw it in his eyes before, and I see it now. He had the most expressive eyes when he let his guard tell. They told me everything I needed to know about him.

As I glanced down at her, Sarah was white as a ghost and out cold. Christian was hovering over her, checking her over, and running his hands through her hair ever so often.

"Sarah..."

Sarah will be ok; she will wake up momentarily.

Her eyes fluttered open and she saw Christian above her.

"What happened?" Christian asked as he helped her to her feet and to her stool.

Sarah did not answer right away as she saw me for the first time and gave a slight nod as if to say she understood our conversation.

"Are you ok?" Christian helped to her stool, keeping one hand on her for support.

I knew it was wrong to completely take Sarah over, it was breaking all the rules, but I was desperate to make sure that their union happened.

Clutching to Christian for support, Sarah was shaky and unable to support herself. It was happening, their connection deepening.

I was watching them, and...and I had begun to cry...I was...I was feeling unbelievably jealous.

Part of me hated Sarah just now because she was falling for Christian as he was falling for her. She would be at his side, he would love her, and I would not be able to be there to love him back. I would not be able to have his children. I would not be able to be happy with him and worry about him, to take care of him. None of that would ever happen again.

The other part, the more rational part of me was happy that Christian was moving on and he was finding love again. This was right for him, right for them. I had to let it go. I had to let him go.

Get a grip, Ana! If I start feeling this way...No!

Closing my eyes, I took a deep, cleansing breath, feeling as though I was purging my hateful thoughts, my jealously and filled that void with love, understanding, happiness.

A moment later, I opened my eyes; all those feelings of hate, jealously, longing were all gone. I had to let them go. I knew I had my time with Christian. It was their time now.

"I'm ok. I think I need some fresh air." Sarah stood shakily and Christian held onto her. "Raymond..." Her voice was unsteady.

Raymond was unaware of what was happening out in the front room; he'd been to busy working on some new stock that had come in earlier. As soon as he came out from the backroom, he was certainly going to have an eye full when he saw how close Sarah and Christian were becoming.

"I'll be there in a just a second." Raymond called.

Watching the curtains sway back and forth, I waited just like Christian and Sarah had been. Raymond came out of the backroom a moment later and he saw Christian's hands on Sarah's and he didn't like it at all. I could see in his eyes he was misreading the situation.

"What's going on?" Raymond snarled at Christian "Get away from her." He pulled Sarah away from Christian and pushed her behind him.

Oh Raymond, that was not the best idea you've had. Sarah was pissed. She definitely had a temper like Christian's.

"Oh for fuck's sake, Raymond, nothing is going on." Sarah sighed heavily, calming herself down. "I fainted that's all. You need to stop doing this; I am not a helpless damsel in distress. I think it's time that you find another job."

"What?" Raymond was shocked.

"You heard the lady," Christian replied; though the look on his face said it all: Sarah was his now.

The tensing building up in the room as the men moved closer to each other, readying themselves for a fight, and both trying to stake a claim on Sarah. She was not having any of it and moved away from them, watching as it was beginning to escalate.

It was going to get nasty soon; Sarah could tell. She shook her head in disgust.

"Enough of this," Sarah glanced at both of the men and they seemed to back down, away from each other. "Raymond, just go." She was weary, still tired from the drain I caused on her, and tired of Raymond.

Raymond stood there glaring at Christian and then glowered at Sarah before taking off through the front door. Sarah finally let out a breath she had been holding. She still looked ready to pass out, but had Christian there to keep her steady.

"Do you want to get out of here for a little while?" Christian asked, watching her closely. He knew she needed some air.

I could see that she was relaxing a bit with Christian. I knew she wasn't going to be mad at him for very long.

"Oh god, yes, please!" Sarah grabbed her purse and keys and they both headed for the door.

Holding out his hands, Christian said, "Keys, please."

Placing the keys in his hand, Sarah said helpfully, "It is the multicolored key."

Christian followed a moment later, shut the door, and locked it. I watched as they disappeared from my view. I think I should give them a little bit of privacy before I check in on them again.