21. Only Look At Me FINAL CHAPTER

Smut warning.

⚜ Mark

His fingers put light against my skin,  gently tracing from my cheek down my jawline. I opened my mouth just slightly, expecting a kiss but Jr put his head closer to my neck instead. He nudged it playfully with a light smirk on his lips before he gave it a few loving kisses.

"Let's take it slow... Do you know how long iv'e wanted to do this...?", he raised his chin and whispered right beside my ear.

"M-Me too.", i stuttered and Jr chuckled at my quick answer.

He pressed his lips against mine and i accepted, together we shared a passionate kiss that made my whole body throb with desire. He lifted my shirt slightly but stopped at the sight of purple bruises still in the process of healing. I blushed and quickly covered his sight by pulling it down again.

Although it was already two days ago i had left the hospital, of course the injuries wouldn't heal so easily.

"Don't look...", i said and he smiled a sorry smile.

"Should i turn the light off?"

I nodded and a distant coldness reached me as he left my side for the light switch. It gave me goose-bumps... Or maybe it was just because i was nervous? Nervous and slightly anticipating...

As if the darkness strengthened the sounds of our breaths and heartbeats, it was suddenly almost all i could hear as Jr returned to bed with a low rustling sound from the sheets. I trembled when he once again made an attempt to take my shirt off. His hand travelled down my bare stomach towards my longing member.

I wrapped my arms around his neck and willingly moved closer to him as i noticed that his hands still seemed a bit hesitant. I kissed him gently on the lips and felt how his hands sped up, almost automatically. Dragging off my pants and squeezing my bum softly. I got hotter as his warm breath landed on my neck. His lips; sucking, kissing, creating proofs of property. He traced his fingers up on the inside of my thigh and i shuddered as my whole body seemed to obey his every movement. It twisted and turned according to his wishes.

I could feel my member impatiently press against the fabric of my boxers.Hurry up...

Although it was dark, i noticed on his treatment that he was well aware of my frustration. As my eyes got more used to the darkness i eventually spotted a wry smile on his lips. Entertained?

"Jr...", i whined.

He laughed from being caught in the act and then kissed me lovingly on the lips. Gentle at first to then evolve into a deep and more overwhelming kiss, his tongue greeting mine.

Jr's hands took my boxers off and then his own. I grabbed his eager member with my hand and rubbed it lightly, something he repaid by moving his hand gently up and down mine. His rhythmical movement made me moan and it didn't take long before i reached a state where i could barely hold it back... That's where he let go. I held back my disappointed reaction as i for a moment had forgot that i weren't allowed to come yet.

He moved a bit to the right, positioned on his back and blindly reached for the drawer right by the bed. Taking out lube and a condom. I followed and surprised him by slipping his cock into of my mouth. It startled him but he didn't stop me.

His panting breath sped up as i started to bob my head faster. Inexperienced as i was, his hands soon found its way to my head and helped me find a good pace. After a few seconds, he made sure to pull away.

"You're too perfect...", he mumbled and took command once again, sitting up and spreading my legs.

He used the lube and his fingers to start the stretching of my hole, preparing it for his size. I whimpered from pain when he changed from two fingers to three and he kissed my forehead soothingly in comfort. Jr put himself more properly in front of me, his oily fingers leaving my hole. He sat still and the sheets rustled a bit, something i assumed was from him putting on the condom.

Jr leaned forwards over me and took my hand, pressing it down against the madras. With his free hand, he helped directing his length into me.

"It hurts...", i whimpered while clenching my teeth.

"I'm sorry.", he whispered, "Please endure it..."

He kissed me deeply and started moving his hips slowly. Gently, to help me get used to it.

Soon, Jr went deep into me and i felt our bodies heavily clash against each other as he sped up. By now, the pain had lessened and been replaced by a thrilling feeling of enjoyment. My member trembled from excitement and several moans left my mouth between the few times our lips weren't connected.

Orgasm.

...

⚜ Jr

"Did it hurt a lot?", i asked.

Right after our lovemaking, we were left exhaused in bed. Mark was sitting up beside me, cutely cuddled up in the sheets. He glanced my way shyly.

"Not as much as i though it would..."

I laughed, "That's good."

"It still hurt."

I sat up in the bed and ruffled his hair. He smiled and leaned on my shoulder, to soon after let a short sigh out. I ignored it as i knew that if it was something he wanted to say then he would. Mark nudged his head into my neck and took up his legs in a huddled position. A few seconds passed before he opened his mouth.

"You know before when my stalker was outside of the convenience store?", he asked.

I nodded.

"Through the phone i said someth..."

"That you love me?"

He blushed and jumped back from my shoulder, his eyes widened as he stared at me. I laughed.

"You didn't think i remembered? It's okay though.", i smirked, "I love you too."

"That is...", he stopped in embarrassment and dragged the blanket over his head to hide under the covers.

With a warm feeling of happiness going through me i leaned forwards and dug with my hands underneath. I moved a bit to the side to make way for dragging Mark into my embrace.

"You love me, right?", i said with a childish, teasing voice from behind.

He kept his sulky face on for a few seconds before he nodded in agreement.

"I do."

The sound of the doorbell suddenly rang and Mark flailed himself out of my grip to put on some clothes.

"I think it's Youngjae.", he said.

I smiled, "Bambam and Jackson should be done with dinner too."

"You don't think we should have helped?", he asked with a concerned face.

I shook my head.

"It's your congratulations-for-getting-well dinner and they were probably in their own bubble anyways."

"They have a good mood huh...", he said while struggling with his belt.

"Give them some time.", I answered with a smile before i stood up as well.

I helped Mark with his belt and put on my own clothing. When we both were done, we walked down the stairs together to greet our guests. Before we even reached the hallway, Yugyeom's nonchalant voice could be heard bragging about something unimportant. Mark giggled lowly as his face lit up in a smile with eyes that seemed to be sparkling.

I took his hand in mine and felt once again how real it was. Everything, finally.

He was mine.

We'll be happy.

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Have you ever had that feeling of being incredibly tired without knowing why?

You think it's just temporary, it'll go away. Sometimes it does, and sometimes it doesn't.

Mind didn't...

Until i met Jr.

About one month after the last incident, we moved in together in a way too big and expensive apartment (in my opinion). We have lived there for about 6 months now.

For Christmas, i accidentally invited everyone over although Jr later confessed that he would have preferred to me alone with me... He didn't get angry though, let's just say that he caught up what he missed with me in bed later...

Bambam and Jackson eventually became a couple. Actually, it happened last week because things always seemed to get in their way up till then.

Youngjae figured out what Jaebum had done and man he got angry... I can't even hate Jaebum anymore since he got enough punishment from Youngjae. Anyways, they're still lovers. In a complicated relationship.

Yugyeom haven't met anyone yet (from what i know) but he is a rather close friend to me and Jr. Also, just as i suspected the first time i met him, he is really quite a childish person.

It's amazing. All of it. I have lived with Jr for so long now and my stomach never stops fluttering... He recently started his own model studio by the way, so i'm supporting him with that.

Like this, we are living our lives.

Happily with stains of disagreements here and there. But we are grateful that we found each other.

Also, personally, i don't regret the greed i had for something unknown before moving here. However i do wish that i had tried harder to appreciate the little things around me, since believe it or not, there probably was a lot.

From seeing more of the world, from observing other people's struggles; Yugyeom, Bambam, Jackson, Jaebum and Jr's, i managed to widen my perspective and learn a lot. My previous heavy thoughts focusing on myself and the idea that something was missing, maybe it was those thoughts, my own illusion that made me so tired?

... Anyways, that's in the past.

In the present, We'll remain happy.

06.02.2015Mark Tuan

The end.

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Author's note:

Hello, so I'll try to keep this short but i just really want to express my thankfulness for everyone that have read my story.

Also, i got really happy when i saw the same people come back to vote and comment soon after every chapter was published; it really drove me forwards and cheered me up. Thank you.

The story has its flaws as i'm still a beginner but honestly, i'm pretty satisfied with it. Especially with the character development as well as some scenes i deemed as more well-written than i thought i could ever write them.

I hope you're satisfied with the ending. ~ Do tell me your thoughts in the comments and once again, thanks for reading and for all of your support.

♡ /Eri