chapter four

{Dreams Pov}

I offered to do the dishes since I needed something to keep my mind off things. I like George a lot, and he's staying over tonight, i'm not sure what to do. Do i make a move? Do I maintain a safe distance? I don't know, I just wish I knew how George felt about me, it would make everything so much easier.

I know I have to speak with Sapnap. Sapnap knows how to fix anything. I clean the dishes fast and take out my phone to text him. I have some time to talk to Sapnap whilst George is busy practising for MCC, which is next weekend.

Dream-hey buddy how are you?

Sapnap-Hey babe😏 i'm doing okay how are you doing??

Dream-i'm panicking.i really need to tell you something but promise you won't see me differently

Sapnap- Uh i promise?What is it Dream you're scaring me?

Dream-I think i like someone

Sapnap- Dream really. You thought i would see you differently because you like someone? Oh come on, what's her name?

Dream- sapnap that's the problem, it's not a girl.it's george.

Sapnap-Haha really funny DreamI'll take it George is round and yous are bored.

Dream-well yeah he is round but i'm not joking i genuinely think i like him

Sapnap-So you're gay?

Dream-well no i don't know, i like boys yes but i haven't really thought about my sexuality yet

Sapnap-Fair enough.Have u liked George this whole time? You know like when everyone would joke about it.

Dream-maybei don't know sapnap. this whole thing is so confusing plus george is staying round tonight, and i just really want to kiss him, sorry if that's too much information, but he's just so attractive. how am i supposed to go the whole night without saying or doing anything??

Sapnap-Its okay dream!! But before i try help you, i just wanna say how stupid you are.

Dream-huh?? what did i do

Sapnap-You really thought i'd see you different because u like men. That's so stupid Dream. I don't care who you like, you're my best mate and whether you like boys or girls or even bothered doesn't change that.

Dream-thank you sap :)) i love u bro

Sapnap-I love you tooNow back to George. Dream you're a good looking guy, i say go for it.Try hint to George that you like him, if he shows any sign of liking you back, tell him!!And if it doesn't go to plan i'll text him saying it's a prank.

Dream-okay thanks sapnap i knew i could count on you alright me and george are gonna play mc now if u want u can hop on and we'll vc

Sapnap-Yeah i think i will.

Dream-alright speak to you in a min

Sapnap-👍🏻

I'm so grateful for Sapnap. He's my bestfriend and he's always there for me. We've been friends since we were teenagers and i wouldn't change him for anything. Since moving to London, i've missed him so much but he should be coming to visit soon. Hopefully by then George and I would've sorted a few things out.

I plug in my phone and run over to George."Hey, I just got off the phone with Sapnap. He'll join us for a while, so connect your headphones to my computer so we can all talk." I said.

I watch as George rapidly connects his headphones; he's quite intelligent, something I admire.

I take a seat next to him and join Sapnap's discord call. "Hey Sap, both George and I can hear you, so don't say anything," I told Sapnap.

"Don't say anything about what?" George inquired, perplexed.

I knew he wouldn't believe any excuse, so I laughed it off and continued talking to Sapnap.We (myself, George, Sapnap, and Bad) are a team for MCC next weekend, so we decided to get on the server and practise some games.

Sadly Bad couldn't join us but the rest of us played for hours on end. Sapnap and George are my favourite people, so i love when we're all having fun together.

Sapnap kept making a few "jokes" about George and I. Normally, i wouldn't mind and would entertain the jokes, but everytime the topic was brought up i could feel myself going red. I noticed George wasn't too enthusiastic about it either, which is strange because we usually are able to have a good laugh about it.

It was around 12am when i realised George was getting tired. I yawned then told them both i was heading to bed, George agreed with me and we all said our goodbyes.

Now i don't have Sapnap here to prevent things from getting awkward, it was just me and George. I think he's starting to pick up that things are different right now.

"I don't have any pyjamas!" George complained.

"Don't worry you can borrow some of mine." I responded.

I go to my drawers and pull out a plain pink shirt and a pair of grey jogging bottoms. I pass the clothes to george then turn around. I stroll over to my phone, to check how much battery I had.

96 percent nice.

I unplug my phone and ask George if he's ready. When he says yes, I turn around and walk to my bed. George merely stands there, clueless as to where he should go. I tap my bed lightly, hinting that he should come lay next to me. He doesn't say anything,just simply follows my commands.

"You look good in pink" I state whilst i stare at George.

He chuckles softly then replies with a "thanks".

I then lift up my hand and drag my finger along his stomach,"This is one of my favourite shirts". He doesn't say anything just watches me as I begin to play with the bottom of his shirt,every once in a while my hand slightly brushes against his groin and every time, he stops breathing for a second.

I inhale deeply and stop playing with his shirt.

"George, I have something to tell you" I say as i look up to George, his face now matching his shirt.

"Go on" George shakily replies.

"I know if i don't say this now, I probably never will. Look i like you George, like for real. It's totally okay if u don't feel the same, i understand you probably feel no attraction to men at all. But promise me if you don't feel the same way this changes nothing between us, we'll still be best mates,ok?"

"Dream I-I" George stuttered then jumped up and ran to the bathroom.

Shit. Why did i do that? What the fuck is wrong with me? Of course George doesn't like me back. I've messed up. Badly. What am i gonna do. Fuck, fuck fuck.

I run towards the bathroom, i jiggled the doorknob but he had locked the door.

"George i'm sorry, please just open the door. I'm sorry ok i know i shouldn't of told you that. I know u don't feel the same don't worry it's alright!" I shout.

No reply.

"George please." I plead.

I hear footsteps approach the door, i sigh in relief. He doesn't unlock the door but he begins to speak, "Dream i-"

"Yes?"

"I do like you"he stated, my heart jumped hearing these words come out of George's mouth. "but this is a lot for me, i don't really know what to say or do.Can u just give me a minute to think about things."

"Of course George" I say whilst smiling. Im so happy right now but unfortunately he doesn't know that.

I take a step back from the bathroom and walk over to my desk. I'm tired, but I need to stay awake for George, and I know I'll fall asleep if I go to bed.

I take out my notes and begin creating lyrics for a new song; I haven't released one in a long time. I enjoy singing, it's a good stress reliever.

Being a streamer and a youtuber may appear to be a simple, laid-back job, but it comes with a lot of responsibility and pressure. So, when I'm stressed about videos, I write or record music to distract myself.

This times different though, i'm stressing over George, a boy.

I still can't believe this whole thing is happening.

I just manage to write three lines before hearing the bathroom door open, at which point I leap to my feet and face the bathroom.

"I'm so cold Dream, do you have any jumpers?" George says as he walks out. My only hoodie is the one I'm wearing right now, so I take it off and hand it to George without thinking.

"I'm sorry, but this is the only one I have."

"Are you sure Dream, what about you?"

"I'm fine, honestly," I say whilst he puts on the hoodie and walks a few steps towards me, hugging me.

I grip him tightly with one hand across his back and the other in his hair, twirling his hair around my fingers.

I know he likes when i do that.

After a few moments, George raises his head and looks me in the eyes. "Can I kiss you George?" I ask after a few seconds of eye contact. He looks surprised at first, as if he'll say no, but then he nods and shuts his eyes. This is the moment I've been waiting for.