Chapter 15

(WARNING EATING DISORDERS ARE MENTIONED IN THIS CHAPTER)(PLEASE SKIP SECTION IF YOU DO NOT FEEL COMFORTABLE READING THIS OR IF IT"S A TRIGGER)

AILINN

(WARNING ED POSSIBLE TRIGGER)

After my little mental breakdown/possible relapse yesterday. I slept the rest of the day and didn't wake up until 4:30 in the morning the next day which is now. I changed into some spandex and a light t-shirt on. I got my AirPods and my water bottle that was in my mini fridge over night. I ran down the stairs quietly as possible and left the house. I ran to campus where the gym was located which is about a mile. I walked into the gym and it was almost completely empty the only other people here were the workers and a couple of athletes. I did my workout which was about two hours long. I got out of the gym at 7 in the morning and I walked back to the house. Surprisingly there was a couple of the brothers up already.

"Goodmorning" one of the brothers told me his name was Bryce. He looks like such a douche and can be but he is one of the sweetest brothers.

"Good morning" I said back to them. I walked into the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of water since I finished mine.

"Do you want some"Brad asked me and showed me a plate a pancakes and I shook my head no.

"I'm good thank you" I told him and he looked at me confused.

"You never say no to pancakes"he said to me weirdly.

"I'm just not hungry right now maybe later"I told him and he nodded. I walked quickly out of the kitchen and went up to my room so I could get ready for the day. Once I finished getting ready I checked again to see if I completed all of my homework and reviewed everything because its better to be safe than sorry. I finished up my packing for PR since I am leaving in less than two days and I am really freaking excited because I get to see my mom again and Myke. I legit haven't seen for the longest but I am also nervous because I told Jefnier that we can give our relationship a try again when I go over there. I really don't want to regret that decision because I do want to work out. I laid down on my bed and decided that taking a nap is probably a good decision.

"Ailinn wake up" I heard somebody say and I opened my eyes. It was Jason and I looked at him confused mostly because he woke me up. 

"What" I said as my eyes adjusted to the light everything was a bit blurry.

"Dinner is ready you literally slept all day you need to eat something"he said and I groaned. 

"fine I'll be down there in a minute" I told him and he gave me a bright smile. He walked out of my room and closed the door behind him. I got up from my bed and slowly made my way to my mirror so I could fix my hair a little. Once I finished with that I slipped on my brikenstocks and I left my room and walked down to the dinning area. Which is pretty freaking hectic since I do live with like 30 guys. I sat down in my usual seat which is between Brad and Jason. 

"Hey are you okay" Brad asked me as I picked and my food around on the plate. 

"Yeah I'm fine" I said to him and I could tell he wasn't going to drop it.

"Are you sure? I haven't really seen you eat at all"he said with a concerned tone but in a quite voice so nobody else can hear him.

"Yeah I just feel a little ill and nervous about getting on the plane again after such a long time" I lied to him and it seemed like he bought it.

"Try to eat a little it might make you feel better" he said and I nodded. I ate a small bite of the food. I tried to make it seem like I was actually eating more than I was. 

"Do you need a ride to the airport tomorrow" Brad asked me. 

"I was going to order an uber or something"I said to him and he looked at me like I was crazy.

"Why? I can give you a ride "he said to me and I smiled and thanked him."what time does your flight leave" he asked me.

"It leaves at eight in the morning so I would have to be there by the latest six" I said to him and he nodded.

"okay" he said and I smiled at him. We finished eating our dinner and then one of the guys suggested we went to a bar or something.

"You guys have fun" I told them as I was getting ready to go back up to my room. As I was walking away somebody grabbed my hand and turned me around.

"No you are going with us to the bar" Brad said and I shook my head no.

"Nope" I said to him and moved my hand away.

"Come on we aren't going to see you for almost two months"Brad told me with a frown and all of the other brothers agreed with him. I rolled my eyes but nodded because he is right I'm going to be gone all of winter break.

"Fine" I said and they all cheered. "Let me go change real quick"I told them and they nodded. I ran up the stairs and I went into my room. I put on some jeans and cute top and a jacket. I also put on my thigh high boots because I want to look decent. Once I finished I checked my hair and I fixed up a little as well as my makeup. Once I was done I walked back downstairs and I saw Brad and Jason sitting down in the living waiting for me I guess.

"I'm ready" I said and they turned to me and nodded. They both got up and walked up to me.

"The guys are already on their ways so they can get us some spots"Jason told me and I nodded. We walked out of the house and into Jason's car. 

"I'll be DD today since I have to get on a plane tomorrow it is probably not the best idea to get drunk the day before" I told them and they nodded agreeing. I also didn't really feel like drinking surprisingly because every day since I started living in the fraternity there is alcohol there.

I have been in this bar for two hours and I regret coming already. All of the boys were drunk already besides a few freshmen's who were DD's.  I was sitting next to Brad who was super messed up and he was being clingy.

"You know when I broke up I got really really sad" he said and he laid his head on my shoulder.  "I really did like you like a lot and I fucked it up" he said to me sadly and I frowned a little.

"I liked you a lot too brad" I told him and gave him a smile.

"I'm glad we are friends" he said and shot me a big goofy smile. Okay we have to get him home now. I turned to Jason and gave him the 'we should probably leave' look before Brad get's blacked out drunk. He took the hint and he got up.

"Yeah we should probably leave"he said and I nodded. We both got up and helped brad get up and into the car.