Chapter 31

Melanie's POV

"Are you okay?" Wesley asks from the kitchen in the morning.

"Yeah." I say with barely any emotion and I sit there, staring blankly at the television as I bring my legs up to my chest and sip from my coffee.

I honestly don't know how I'm gonna get over this. This is the third death I've had to deal with in just a year. My mom isn't even here to help me through this and that's the worst part.

"Melanie?" I hear Wesley ask, knocking me out of my thoughts.

"Yeah?" I ask, not looking at him.

"I was thinking maybe we could try again.. If you wanted to..." He says and I look up at him.

"Why would you want to?"

"I don't know.. I just don't want you to be so upset."

"No, Wes. Not right now."

"Obviously not. But, maybe soon?"

"I guess, Wesley. Can you please just be quiet." I mumble and he sighs.

"I just want you to be happy. I hate seeing you like this." He says and sits down next to me.

"Why do you care?"

"Because I'm in love with you and you're my whole world. It makes me upset when you are and I hate that."

"Are you trying to replace our baby?" I ask, looking at him.

"No.. Fuck no, why the hell would you think that?"

"How could I not, Wes?"

"That's not true." He says, and I glare at him. "It isn't, stop glaring at me."

"Whatever." I mumble and look away from him.

"Hey." He whispers, leaning over and kissing my neck, softly.

"Stop, Wesley." I say, leaning my head to the side, going against my words and he sucks on my sweet spot.

"You like that, don't you?" He whispers in my ear and I nod lazily.

I almost give in but I shove him off of me. "Stop."

"Melanie.."

"Just leave me alone."

He stands up and begins to walk away, but turns around before he can get to the hallway leading to our bedroom.

"Melanie, I'm trying to help you for fucks sake! You aren't the only one having to deal with this, that was my child, too! Stop acting like you're the only one in pain when everyone around you is a mess. You're too caught up in yourself to notice what's going on around you and who you're hurting." He yells, throwing his arms up in the air and I flinch at his harsh tone.

He turns and I hear him slam the bedroom door shut a second later.

I lay down on the couch and wait for him to come back out, which could be hours. He likes to think. A lot. Especially by himself. Plus, I'm scared to go try and talk to him at the moment.

He comes out an hour later with no shirt and his gym shorts on. He grabs a water from the fridge and doesn't even bother to look at me as he walks out the front door, slamming it once again.

I grab my phone and I see a missed call from Thomas so I decide to call him back.

"Hey, Mel." I hear him mumble.

"Hey, why did you call?"

"The wedding is in a few hours... Why the hell aren't you here yet?"

"Wait, what?" I ask, sitting up.

"My wedding.. I'm getting married to Maggie today and you're supposed to be here already!" He says, sounding stressed.

"Thomas, I'm sorry. Just calm down, okay? I'll be there soon."

"Okay, is Wesley coming?"

"No.. He just went to work." I say and I hear him sigh.

"That's alright, just hurry." He says and hangs up.

"Fuck." I mutter under my breath and run into the bedroom and get into my bridesmaid dress quickly, and get ready as fast as I can.

-

"I'm here, I'm here!" I say, arriving an hour before the wedding.

"Melanie, thank God." I hear Thomas say from around a corner and he walks up to me and hugs me tightly.

"You okay? You look exhausted."

"No, I'm not okay. I couldn't sleep at all last night because I was stressing out and Maggie couldn't stay the night with me like she usually does because that whole theory thing about not seeing the bride the night before. And.."

"Thomas, take a deep breath." I say, laughing a bit and that's what he does.

"And I kinda went out and got drunk like really bad. I'm just glad you're here. Now go in that room down the hallway, that's where Maggie is." He says, pointing to a room.

"Wait, what?"

"Down the hallway."

"No, Thomas. You got shitfaced the night before your wedding? What the hell? That's not like you."

"Please don't tell Maggie. Just please, Mel. It was a mistake." He begs.

"Thomas, you're going to have to tell her eventually."

"I know. Just not now." He says and I sigh.

"Okay, well I'll see you after." I say, giving him a small smile and he nervously returns it.

He nods and I walk down the hallway and into the room.

"Melanie, there you are!" Maggie yells, walking over to me quickly and giving me a hug.

"I'm here." I say, laughing a bit and we pull away.

"Okay, I see you're dressed so all we have to do is wait."

"That's fine. You look gorgeous by the way. Thomas is gonna be in shock." I say and she smiles.

"Well, thank you. Did you talk to him before you came in here?"

"Yep."

"And what'd he say?"

"He was just telling me how nervous he is and he's glad I'm here." I say, smiling at her.

"Well, okay. Let's get this show on the road, everybody!" She calls out to everyone in the room and we all get ready.

-

After the wedding, which went amazing by the way, I go sit down at a table and watch Thomas and Maggie dance together. They seem so happy.

"Hey, Melanie." I hear my dad's voice as he sits down next to me.

"Oh.. Hi, dad."

"How have you been?"

"Just fine, thanks for asking."

"Where's the asshole?" He asks and I roll my eyes.

"He's at work."

"Trading drugs, I assume? I know he went to jail, Melanie."

"No, dad. He works as a personal trainer now. Don't talk bad about him when he's not even here to defend himself."

Just in time, Thomas walks over and shakes my dad's hand, greeting him.

"Oh, yeah. Mel, how's the pregnancy going?" Thomas asks and I suck in a sharp breath as I look down at my feet.

"Excuse me?" I hear my dad ask and I can feel his eyes on me and it gets awkwardly silent.

"Wait, your dad doesn't know?" Thomas asks.

"No, I don't." My dad says and I look back up at the both of them.

My dad looks furious and Thomas just looks confused.

"And wait, aren't you like 5 months along?"

"Five months?!" My dad raises his voice.

"Thomas, we lost the baby." I choke out.

"Wait, what? Melanie..." Thomas says, leaning down to my level and enveloping me in a hug and I try not to cry. "When?"

"Yesterday morning." My voice cracks, and Thomas rubs my back.

My dad stands up, still furious, and I pull away from Thomas, confused.

"Where are you going?" I ask him.

"I'm gonna go beat that jackass of yours to a pulp for getting you pregnant." He says and I walk towards him.

"Don't you dare touch him or I will call the police."

"Don't threaten me."

"I can do whatever the fuck I want, dad. I'm sick of whatever you have against him. It needs to stop." I say and he sighs, clenching his jaw as he sits back down and I let out a breath of air I didn't know I was holding.

-

After the wedding, reception and everything, I finally get to the apartment complex and I stumble up the steps to the apartment, drunk. I'm surprised I drove home without getting arrested.

I unlock the door and I stumble inside. I close the door, my back to the living room and I giggle to myself, locking the door. I set my keys down and turn around to see Wesley sitting on the couch, glaring at me and I jump, him scaring the shit out of me.

"Wesley." I breathe out, putting a hand to my chest and trying to get my heart rate back to normal.

"Where the fuck have you been?! It's 2 am!" He yells and my head starts to throb, getting a headache immediately and I groan.

"Ugh, shut up." I groan, heading towards the hallway to our bedroom.

"No, Mel! Where the fuck have you been?! I almost called the police to go looking for you!" He yells, grabbing my arm before I can get any further and he turns me towards him.

"I was at Thomas' wedding." I slur, biting my lip.

"Are you drunk?!"

"Would you shut the fuck up?! You're giving me a headache!" I snap, pulling my arm back and I head into the bedroom.

"I'll take that as a yes." I hear him say and I roll my eyes.

"Go sleep in the living room." I groan, pulling the covers over me once I get in the bed.

"Nope." He says, and I roll my eyes again as he pulls his shorts down, leaving him in just his underwear. I'm guessing he didn't put a shirt on when he got home.

"Whatever." I mumble and I turn my back to him.

I feel his hands pull down the zipper on the back of my dress and he pulls the rest of the dress off, and surprisingly I don't fight him. He gets up and puts it in the dirty laundry.

I fall asleep eventually and I have plenty of nightmares that I had the previous night but they're worse.

-

"Mel, babe wake up." I hear Wesley say in the morning and my head is already pounding.

"Shit, Wes please get me some medicine. I feel like I'm dying." I groan, yawning loudly.

I hear his feet pad against the carpet and he comes back shortly with a glass of water and some Tylenol.

"Thank you." I say, sitting up and taking it and he sits down next to me.

"Are you okay?" He asks and I nod.

"I'm not the best, but I'm okay." I say and he leans over and kisses my lips quickly.

"I have two different training sessions today. I'm gonna have to leave shortly."

"You're always gone." I say, pouting at him.

"Would you like to come with me?"

"Sure, let me go take a shower."

After my shower, I walk out and see Wesley sitting on the bed with a beanie on, no shirt and gym shorts on and he's typing away on his phone. I get dressed quickly and then sit down next to him.

"You ready to go?" He asks and I nod.

He takes my hand and we stand up, heading down to his car and to the gym.

When we get to the gym, I go sit down on one of the benches and watch Wesley warm up with the person he's training.

"Hi, are you Wes' girl?" Some guy asks as he walks up and sits down next to me.

"Yep. And you are?"

"I'm Cole. I own the place. Wes is a good buddy of mine so that's how I helped him find this job." He says and I nod.

"So does he talk about me?" I ask, looking over at Cole.

"Fuck yes, you're literally the only thing he ever talks about." He says, and I blush.

"Good things I'm hoping?"

"Oh, yes." He says and I laugh a bit.

We sit there talking and laughing for a few more minutes before Wesley makes his way over.

"Hey." I say.

"Hi." He says, glaring at Cole and I get confused but shrug it off.

"Cole was telling me-"

"Stop flirting with her, asshole." Wesley interrupts me to say to Cole.

"Wes, he wasn't flirting with me." I sigh.

"Yeah, man you know I have a girlfriend." Cole says and I mentally thank him. A little girl walks up to him and sits down next to him. "And this is my daughter."

"Oh yeah.. Sorry man." Wesley says and we all laugh a bit.

I watch the little girl play with her toys and I try not to think about what it would've been like to buy toys for our baby girl and watch her play with them. My eyes start to water and I try to hold them back but my eyes begin to burn. I get up quickly and head to the door and out to the car. I begin to sob uncontrollably and my shoulders begin to shake.

I hear the car door open and close a second later and I look out the window.

"Mel, what's wrong?" I hear Wesley ask.

"Nothing." I choke out.

"There is. Please tell me what's wrong." He pleads and I look over at him.

"I just... I hate myself. I hate myself for not being able to have a child. Isn't that what women are supposed to do? What if every time we try, I have a miscarriage or I never get pregnant? I just hate myself so much."

"Hey, don't say that. Do not hate yourself for something you couldn't even control."

"Well, I do. I don't care if I couldn't control it, I hate myself for it." I choke out through tears. "You wanna have a family right? If you're still with me?"

"Of course I do. But you don't need to hate yourself. I've been hurting too... I hate that I wasn't there when you lost the baby and I hate that I wasn't there when you found out. I should be the only one at fault. I got you pregnant, and put you through this mess, baby. I'm so sorry."

"Now I'm mad at myself." I groan.

"Why?"

"Because I had no clue what you were going through. You were right, I didn't know who I was hurting. I'm such a bitch."

"Mel, no you're not."

"Wes, I just want us to be a normal couple. I can't handle all this drama."

"I know, I can't either. We're gonna get through this, alright? Together. You and me. Always." He says and I nod slightly and he leans over to give me a kiss on the cheek. "Now let's go home."

"Don't you have another training session?"

"Yeah, but I'll just skip it today. They won't mind."

"Okay."

When we get back to our apartment, I take my shoes off and lay down in bed, turning the tv on.

Wesley joins me a second later and I cuddle up to him, yawning every few seconds.

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Hey guys! So I finally updated, sorry it took so long lol I've been busy. But I saw the guys yesterday and they were amazing as usual😍 haha so please vote and comment! I'll update as soon as I can. 😊