33: MOON

33: MOON

***R O S É

Park Chanyeol is the person that I forgot. I am so sure about that.

He is my neighbor.. the man that filled my dreams everynight. His height, his dimples, his presence.. I know it is him. And I am confused as to why he is not telling me anything about it.

What is he in my life?

Why didn't he not tell me that I forgot him? Is that the reason why he is indifferent towards me?

As I searched for an answer about my amnesia, I got more and more questions that forms inside my head that is needed for an answer.

And as time goes by, my head aches.

I heave a deep sighed as I look over my wristwatch. Is he not coming? It's only been five minutes, I guess I could wait for another more.

I open the bottle of soju infront of me and pour it on the glass. I was about to sipped on my first glass of soju for the night when someone stole the glass on my hand. I look up and saw Chanyeol's serious face looking down at me.

I smirked. "You came!"

I didn't mean to show my excitement over my tone of voice. I just can't believe that he really did came!

Chanyeol took a sit besides me and downed the glass of soju. "It's not safe for a girl to drink alcohol alone and in the middle of the night."

I shrugged my shoulder as I feel the calming cold breeze of the night air.

We sat there in silence for a while. We are both busy admiring the beautiful scenery of the moon reflecting over the vast han river.

"The moon is beautiful." I said.

"My view is more beautiful.." I heard him whispered.

I tried to tilt my head to steal a glance on Chanyeol's way and is shock to see him staring at me. His jaw slightly dropped when our eyes met.

My face heated realizing what he just whispered.. what a sweet tongue he has huh?

"So.." I cleared my throat, hiding some stubborn strands of my hair behind my ears. "I don't know where to start."

"Why are you so keen to know who I used to be in your life?" He asked.

I paused for a while and stared at his face. He just admitted that it is indeed him that I forgot! I felt the sudden happiness on my chest with the knowledge that my hunch was right!

"Can't you just go on with your life and continue to forgot me?!"

Chanyeol's tone slightly went high. I stared at his face as I look down and bit my bottom lip. I could feel that he is doing his best to stop himself from shouting at me and I can see that he is having a hard time..

"Why do you want me to forget you?" I asked, my voice cracking.

I feel hurt. I don't exactly remember him in my past. I don't know who he is in my life. But all I could feel is that he is someone special to me!

So why is he pushing me away?!

Why does he want me to just forget him when all I've been doing all this time is searching for an answer until I finally met him!

I felt so frustrated! I felt sad, I felt angry!

Tears pooled on the corner of my eyes as I stood up and glared at Chanyeol. His adam's apple moved as he stared at my now mad expression.

I am so angry right now! I am so mad at him! "Why can't you just give me an answer?!"

I walked back and fort. I held on to my hair out of frustration as tears flow on both my cheeks.

"You want me to just continue on being lost?! You don't know what I am feeling! You don't know what I am being through, Chanyeol!" I sharply exhale as I shouted.

Chanyeol stood up and extend his hand to touch me but I swatted his hand away.

My heart is being clouded with all my pent up emotions! "I feel like you are someone special to me! But guess what? I guess I am wrong! Because if you are someone special then I should be special to you too but I am not!"

"Rosé.."

"I guess I am just someone that you could throw away easily! Do you hate me-"

"No! I love you!"

I was silenced by his answer. I am so angry.. but then my anger just dissolved because of his sudden words!

He.. love me?

***C H A N Y E O L

"No! I love you!"

I can't stand seeing her in pain. I felt like a jerk and I want to just punch myself endlessly for making my chipmunk cry infront of me..!

"Rosé.." I pleaded as I called her.

I am feeling weak while seeing her in tears. I don't want to see her cry and just because of me? I don't think I deserve her tears.

It's only right for her to forget me because all I've done to her is hurt her and make her cry.

I don't deserve her and I have long accepted that.

"You love me?" She said in unbelieving tone. "You love me but you are pushing me away?! Is that how you love someone?!"

Another batch of tears slide on her cheeks. I want to gently wipe her tears away but whenever I took a step closer to her, she took a double the step back away from me.

"I love you.." that's all I could say. "I don't hate you. I never hated you."

Infact, I hated myself for hurting you.

When I finally reached her, I enveloped her into a hug. I felt her trying to escape for a second until she stop and just lay her head on my chest. Her shoulder still shaking and I could still hear her silent sobs.

I hugged her tighter. "I'm sorry.. I'm sorry Chipmunk."

She hiccupped. "Why do you want me to forget you if you love me?"

Because I feel like me loving you will only result in you being hurt. I never got a chance to protect you when I have you.. I am not good enough for you Rosé. I don't think I'll ever be good enough to deserve you..-but I stayed silent instead of saying those words inside my head.

I look at her and cupped her cheek. I gave her a small smile and gently wipe her tears away.

"I love you. That's all I know. I love you but I can't have you."

I am expecting her to ask more questions but she only stared at my face. She is so beautiful.. the most beautiful, most innocent girl that I have ever meet in this life.

An angel that is generous enough to give a normal like me a kiss of heaven for a while in this lifetime.

***R O S É

We stayed silent after that long hug.

I felt so safe inside his arms. All my frustrations just flew away as I felt Chanyeol's warm tight embrace on me.. I can hear his heartbeat as I lay my head on his chest.

So he love me. Does that mean that I love him too?

Maybe..

"Come on. It's already late at night."

I look up at Chanyeol and was caught off guard with our sudden proximity. He is putting a helmet on my head with a serious expression on his face.

He hopped on his big motorbike. I stared at him for a moment.. I have never ride on a motorbike before because I don't think it is safe but I  still hopped on it because Chanyeol is the driver. I felt safe with him being with me.

I enveloped my hand on Chanyeol's waist and he held my hand before positioning himself to drive.

"Hold tight."

I held on tight as I heard him say those words. I rested my head on his back as I felt the cold breeze of the night air and the speed of his motorbike.

The rush..

The butterflies on my stomach..

And Chanyeol being this close to me.

If I love him before.. then I guess even if the mind can't remember, the heart never forgets.

"I love you. That's all I know. I love you but I can't have you."

His words lingering inside my head.

Why can't he fight for me? I want to fight for us!

If Chanyeol doesn't choose me then I chose him. I smiled as I hugged him tighter. Him saying he love me is enough for me to know that I have a chance.

I'll take this chance.

Yes I forgot about him.. but now that I have confirmed to myself that I love him, there's no way that I am gonna let him let go of me again.

I deserve a second chance.

I know our love deserve a second chance.

Because like the moon, Chanyeol became my light in the darkness.

***

Chanyeol in his motorcycle<3

(A/N: I hope this chapter will turn out to be as good as I first intended it to be (〒﹏〒) I wrote it earlier this week but when I opened it today, it got deleted and I can't seem to restore it so I have to rewrite it again.

Thank you for waiting on my update! We are finally getting close to the epilogue~ thank you for all the votes, reads, and for following me on my watty account ^^

Lovelots everyone and be safe! Always take care <3)