17: RECONCILE

17: RECONCILE

***R O S É

"Are you going to continue avoiding me, Chipmunk?"

I stop at picking the cans of soda from the table to look up at Chanyeol Oppa. Jisoo Unnie and Lisa are washing the dishes on the kitchen while Jennie Unnie is with Kai Oppa on the veranda, leaving me with Chanyeol Oppa to clean up here in the living room.

I remained silent. I don't know what to say to him anyway.

"Chipmunk.." Chanyeol Oppa called as I heard his footsteps walk near me. "Are you mad at me about something?"

I bit my lower lip to stop myself from sighing. Am I mad at him about something? About that date of his on that coffee shop? What a shallow excuse to be mad about. But how about him talking to me as if we are strangers infront of my members? --but I am the first one to avoid him.

..or is it about the kiss?

"Chipmunk.." Chanyeol Oppa called again.

I finally looked up at his face, he is almost pouting.. like a kid whose caught by his parents to broke a vase or something.

And because of that, I heave a deep sigh. "Why would I be mad at you, Yoda?"

His face lit up from the mention of my nickname for him. I rolled my eyes but then couldn't help but gave him a small smile.. I just can't resist him I, guess?

"Help me here." I told him and he finally went close to me.

We were silent for a moment while picking up the empty cans of soda and bags pf chips as I felt him glancing at me from time to time. I scowled, and Chanyeol Oppa bit his lower lip to stifle a smile.

God.. how could I control my feelings for him when every single thing he does affected me so much?

"Then.. why didn't you pick up my calls or respond to my messages if you're mad at me?" He asked when we went out to throw the garbage bags. "Did I do something wrong Rosé?"

Why does him saying my name sound so affectionate on my ears?

I pouted as I hugged myself because of the cold breeze of the night and I felt Chanyeol Oppa's jacket suddenly laid on my shoulders. He smelled so nice.. I looked up at him and can't help but stared at his gorgeously handsome face. How could someone be cute, handsome, and gentle at the same time?

And they say no one in this world is perfect. I think not.

Chanyeol Oppa is perfect in my eyes.

"I missed you." He said with a warm smile curving his lips.

I blinked. And realize that I stopped walking and been staring at him for a whole ten seconds. I looked away and continue to walk passed him, a deep crimson blush creeping on my cheeks.

"Chipmunk!" Chanyeol Oppa called and run to walk beside me, "Did you not hear me? I said I missed you.."

A boyish grin displayed on his lips as I stayed silent, trying really hard to calm my raging heart! Breath in.. breath out..

"I.. I.." I fidgeted on my fingers as I looked down. "I missed you too Yoda."

Infact, I missed you so much to the point that I am being really overwhelmed that you are standing right here infront of me. My heart is beating really past because of your presence to the point that my mind is haywire!, I can't think and act straight!

I was about to open the door to the building of our dorm when Chanyeol Oppa blocked my way.

"If you missed me, then would you tell me why you are ignoring me?" Why is he so persistent to know the answer to his question?

"I.. am not ignoring you." I denied.

I can't tell him that I got jealous on his date at that coffee shop nor I am awkward because I stole a kiss from him when he got drunk!

"You ignored me." He pouted.

"I didn't." I huffed.

I look up at him and he looked down at me. I am the tallest among all my members but it seems like I am just a small cinnamon roll infront of this giant. But there's no way that I'll let myself lose in this staring contest!

"You didn't answer my calls."

"I am busy.." good thing we really are busy, so I am not lying my excuse out.

"You didn't have time even just a few second break to answer my messages?" He raised a brow.

My jaw fall on the floor as Chanyeol Oppa's face fell in disappointment. I felt guilty all of a sudden.. why didn't I answer any of his messages? Even just a respond to his good mornings and good nights would not be a harm. It will not give off any hints about my lingering feelings for him but I didn't!

Silence enveloped the two of us.

"I.." Chanyeol Oppa started after a few seconds of silence. "I never really have any other real friends other than my members, Rosé-ssi. I never have any break from work because I always felt like everyone's eyes are on me. I need to act tough, I need to act cute, I need to act like a person they want me to be because that's how a life of an artist is mold."

I gulped, understanding him somehow.

The life of an idol is never easy. Many lost themselves. Many have been blinded by the light and many.. have given up from it.

"I have been used to spotlight that I am on the verge of losing my real self." He said in a hoarse voice. "I am traumatized by my past, and the spotlight has been my comfort zone.. until you came."

Chanyeol Oppa held my hand, I squeezed his hand to tell him silently that I am listening.

He is starting to tell me now. He is starting to trust me now.

This is a progress to my promise of saving him.

"I never new I needed someone to save me in my miseries. I never ought to seek help. I thought the spotlight is enough to make me forget my trauma for a while. I thought straining myself from practice.. from performing.. and being an idol that helped me somehow is enough." Chanyeol Oppa looked at me and caressed my cheeks. "Until I met you and you gave me a break from all my hardships."

I smiled at him softly.

"Being with you made me feel at ease Chipmunk. Being with you made me forget about my past and made me relax at the same time." Chanyeol Oppa said genuinely. "You never realized it but you are doing great in saving me."

Chanyeol Oppa gently brush the tear that I didn't realize that escaped my eye.

"You.. you really mean it Yoda?" I asked and sniffed. I am touched. "Did I really have a progress in saving you?"

He smiled and nodded.

I bit my lower lip as more tears escaped my eyes. I am so happy to the point of me crying tears of joy.

I am really worried about him especially when I saw how miserable he looks when he got drunk because he saw someone that reminds him of his traumatic past. I am so worried that I wouldn't have any progress in saving him.

And here he is, telling me that I am doing great in doing so.

"Please don't ignore me again Chipmunk." Chanyeol Oppa said.

His words tugged in my heart. I took a step and finally hugged him and I felt him froze for a while until I felt his hand on my back, finally hugging me back.

"Chanyeol Oppa.." I called his name.

I don't know if this is the right thing to do. To be honest, I don't know where did I get the courage to call his name with my mind only thinking of.. saying. "I like you."

There. I finally said it.

I am the first to retreat from our hug and looked up at his face. Chanyeol Oppa looked down at me with a questioning eyes.. as if he can't believe what he just heard.

I bit my lower lip before looking at him with all my reserved strength. It's not like I will stop myself from saving him if he ever rejects me, I just.. don't want to feel guilty or hide any secret from him anymore.

"I like you. You are my bias in exo." I said.

"You are an exo-l?" His face lit up.

"Uh.." I want to say yes, and I like him as a person like as in like like and not like as a fan.

"Wow.." he chuckles. "I'll give you an autograph next time chipmunk. And I'll make sure you'll be the luckiest exo-l ever!" He winked!

And that's how my confession became an epic fail..

Yes I am an Exo-L! You are my bias Chanyeol Oppa but I like you as a man! That's what I wanted to say.. but Kai Oppa already went out of the building saying Suho Oppa is already looking for the two of them.

"Bye, Chipmunk!" Chanyeol Oppa said.

"Bye.." I replied meekly.

***(A/N: I am experiencing a writer's block so please understand if ever I didn't update tomorrow or the next day, but I promise to update as fast as I can ^°^

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