Part 21: Never ever hide your heart

I stared down into the cold waters thrashing beneath me, the cold and fierce water, I was trying to think about anything but what had happened, I was thinking about what it would be like to be the ocean, stupid but it was better than imagining me killing people, what a nightmare I would face if I would do it. A voice came from behind me and I knew who it was instantly "you're not going to jump are you?" Loki was trying to joke but I guess then wasn't the time.

I watched the water crash against itself, I considered what it would be like to take the plunge, the feeling of the icy water piercing my skin like millions of needles "if I did would you jump in after me? Even with all the pain that would follow"

"Well the cold wouldn't really affect me..." I turned to him with a serious face "yes I would, for you I would jump off of the edge of Asgard"

"Can you do that?"

"I don't know I haven't really tried it" I laughed a little but I was too sad, I wanted to be happy and humorous but my heart ached and I just couldn't.

My eyes studied the water again "would you really do that for me? Even after what I..."

He grabbed my shoulders and spun me to face him, one hand on my cheek, I was honoured by moments like these, when he showed me how much he cared for me, I have seen a side of him others would not see in a thousand life times, at least I had him to smile about "Hey, none of that okay? You haven't done anything wrong"

"Do you take me for a fool? If you had not been there I would... I would have murdered my best friend, I don't know if I could live with that, so maybe I would jump off of this damn bridge, at least it would be over"

"It wouldn't be over, yes you'd be dead, but you'd have to deal with everything in the place beyond here"

"Loki if I become this I'd be..."

"Like me?" He interrupted.

I shook my head, my heart aching more now at his comment, how could he ever think that "no that's not what I was going to s..."

"I know what I am Eerika, I know what I have done, the people I have hurt, but I have found a way to live with it and move on, but you, you have done for me what no one else could, you've brought me back from darkness somehow, you've fixed me and polished me up so that I'm all new again, let me do the same for you"

Tears befell my eyes and I began to sob "I'm so, sick, of crying, I don't want to do it anymore"

"All you have to do is ask and I can stop that, I promised myself I would never make you cry ever again"

Gently I took his hand and began to squeeze it a little, staring into his eyes I pleaded "help me, fix me, bring me back"

He kissed my forehead and hugged me for a moment "I guess training isn't working to help you control your powers, maybe we need to get away, a change of scenery" a massive smile grew on his lips as he guided me into the Bifrost, Endre put his sword into the port and the lightning began to appear "where are we going?"

"You'll see" Endre turned the sword and we were sucked through the portal, it was the same feeling as the last couple of times I had been through it, it gets easier but that feeling like you're a weight being pulled down, never goes away. We landed in an alleyway, a 'newspaper' drifted along the floor and I knew where we were.

Quickly I turned to Loki with a puzzled expression "Midgard?"

"Yes, I want to show you around, in my brief time here, a most regrettable time, I saw that earth has a lot of hidden beauties, treasures that the humans take for granted, I come here a lot actually, it's nice to now and again pretend to be human, pretend to be vulnerable. Even if I am an amazing god with great hair" I laughed at him and he smiled at my laughing "hold still, we have to fit in here" he stared at me for a moment and then my body began to glow green, when it was over I looked down at myself and I was in Midgardian attire, he told me what each piece of clothing was called so I wasn't a complete idiot.

I had a pair of black shoes... Or converses... A pair of jean shorts, a top with a music bands name on it, Nirvana or something, a red plaid shirt and a pair of sunglasses on my head, he said on earth I would be considered a 'hipster' whatever that is. He did the same to himself, he had black skinny jeans, a green t-shirt, a black leather jacket with a grey hood, sunglasses and black high tops with a checkered pattern, it was so strange to see him look so casual, it was so out of character for him, it was a side no one had ever seen, no one knew about it but me.

He grabbed my hand and dragged me out of the alley way "welcome to London!" There were people everywhere, crowding the streets, they had places to go, people to see, yada yada yada. Loki took me to a record shop on one of the high streets, surprisingly it was quite empty compared to the rest.

"I have wanted to share Midgard with you for a long time, I was kind of waiting for a good excuse" he smiled softly "there is so much here, culture, art, music! You'll love the music" I'd never seen him like this. He turned around and took a record from a shelf, placing it into a record player "modern people use CDs now but they're not as cool" he seemed so... Careless, free almost, even though I had no idea what he was talking about.

The music began, it was different from Asgardian music, it was 'Walkin' after midnight' by Patsy Cline, Loki grabbed my hand and began dancing with me in the middle of the shop, he threw me about like a rag doll, it was amazing! Apparently they danced like that in the 1940's, the man behind the counter was looking at us like we were crazy, we probably were, but Loki was good at this whole dancing thing and it was so fun to watch him like this.

He played a few other songs, come and get your love, twist and shout, jail house rock, do you love me, cars, then he played some modern music and I didn't like it as much, I liked one called "seven nation army" it suited Loki, of course I didn't tell him that. We walked out of the shop and he gave me a tour of London, Loki hypnotised a camera for us so we could take pictures.

He showed me the monuments, the shops, I loved the shops, the clothes the fashion, we ate at a fancy restaurant, then a fast food one, both were amazing. We took a quick look around an art museum, that was one of the highlights of the day, it was some of the most beautiful things I had seen in my life, such emotion and passion all on one canvas.

When we came out of the museum, there was someone close by with a music player, he was doing a dance in the middle of a crowd, when the song ended, another one came on, which made Loki think of another song, he asked some random guy for his phone, well hypnotised it from him... But still.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cYjDha139A8

He went onto 'YouTube' and played a song called 'Never, by Moving pictures from the movie Footloose' I enjoyed it immediately, he took my hand again and we just began to dance through the London streets, people were giving us looks, but it was so much fun I couldn't care less, we danced and danced, my heart was pumping out of my chest and my cheeks were aching from smiling and laughing.

To finish the day we rented a movie and he took me to an apartment, it was virtually empty and quite dusty but it had some furnishings, including a bed, sofa and television. From the window you could see out over London, night had fallen and all of it's lights were gleaming like stars "how did you get this apartment?"

"Guess" he smirked cheekily, 'I should have known' I thought to myself. We sat down on the sofa, I was laying on his chest, our fingers interlocked, he had bought 'Disney's beauty and the beast' our favourite fairy tale. I was intrigued about the moving pictures on the television, I asked if it was magic, he laughed and tried explaining the technology to me.

I lifted my head when it came to the ball scene "thank you for this Loki, I really needed it" he smiled and kissed me, then we went back to the movie. When it was finished, I was feeling like my old self again, I wasn't paranoid or scared, I felt playful and happy "you know" I got up and straddled him "there's one more thing we haven't done in Midgard yet" I smirked and leant down to kiss him, he kissed me back passionately and carried me to the bed. He created the illusions of candles and rose petals in the room, it was very romantic of him.

"If this is the gratitude I get for London, wait until I show you Paris" he smiled and I grinned, he kissed me again while he was on top of me, for some reason 'seven nation army'...

(A/N It's the chorus/guitar solo where it goes sorta wild for a second that's what I imagine this particular scene to go with ;) - LMOM)

was running through my head, that rhythm was how my body felt every time his kisses trailed down my body, I guess the song could be very sexy too. God I love Midgard!

I would like to dedicate this to three loyal readers who helped me figure out this chapter @HelaHolmes Jointauthorskg Poison_Apple99